“Laurence, the first vicar of the Healing Church. In reality he became the first cleric beast, and his human skull only exists within the Nightmare. The skull is a symbol of Laurence’s past, and what he failed to protect. He is destined to seek his skull, but even if he found it, it could never restore his memories.” → Laurence’s Skull
I’m still stuck on all the “Dean is a killer” references in s12, but this is nothing new. He’s been told that by so many people for so many years.
In 12.14, he made that comment at the beginning, about wanting to find a hunt because he just wanted to punch something. He and Ketch DID eventually find something that he could’ve punched (the sad, scared vampire girl). KETCH didn’t seem to have any compunction with beating on her. If Dean had REALLY just wanted “something to punch,” there would’ve been no moral judgment from Ketch. Perfect opportunity… but… HE DIDN’T.
Because Dean DOESN’T just want “something to punch.” He wants to find something that DESERVES to be punched, and then punch it.
In 10.20, he said something very similar to Sam and Cas:
DEAN: Close enough. Come on, give me something to punch already. (Castiel and Sam look worriedly at Dean) DEAN: (rolling his eyes) I’m kidding. I’m fine. I’m just…I’m fine. Why don’t we go back to the bar, see if we can track down this Ronnie guy, huh?
Ronnie, who hurt Claire, thus making him monstrous and DESERVING of that punch, despite the fact that he was just a human.
Cas assessed Dean’s aggressiveness toward Ronnie in the bar, and determined that Dean was getting worse… but heck *I* wanted to bash Ronnie’s face into the table too, and I’m not currently possessed by the primordial Darkness, so…
But Sam and Cas demonstrated their lack of trust in Dean, trying to keep him from doing the ONE THING that was actually helping him “keep the Mark in check.” Hunting.
Dean says things like “I need to punch something,” but really, he needs to solve the puzzles. He needs to figure things out. He’s not just his daddy’s blunt little instrument. He’s not a hammer.
In 10.20, he got to just relax and be himself with Claire. Playing mini golf with someone who’s just as much of a little shit as he can be, BUT!
Talking, making connections (both with Claire and with the case they’re working on), he and Claire then work together ON RESEARCH! Which Dean supposedly resists at all costs… but he’s just as intensely driven to solve the puzzle as Sam is… They just have vastly different approaches, and vastly different ways to express their feelings.
(oh, how the end of s10 “flipped the script” here… SAM the one recklessly wandering into the fight while Dean stays behind doing the research so he’ll be ready to not only enter the fight, but to win. If Dean hadn’t figured out what they were facing, the Grigori would’ve won that fight, and killed both Sam and Cas.)
When Sam hears that Tamiel feeds on human souls, he actually makes the distinction, “You’re not an angel, you’re a monster.”
That ONE line gives me hope that somewhere, whatever Sam may be thinking now about the MoL’s mission to wipe out all the “monsters,” that he still KNOWS this difference. Not all angels are monsters, not all vampires are monsters, not everything other is a monster. Sometimes the real monsters are the people. Like Ronnie, who’d sold other humans to this “monster angel.”
Maybe like Ketch, who is just as content to “punch things” just because he can, including the “rogue” MoL agent who’d betrayed his fellow humans to the monsters, including a vampire girl whose only crime was BEING a vampire.
Sam might feel pretty righteous about killing the Alpha vamp, but I think he needs a little reminder that not all the monsters are monstrous, but possibly more importantly:
Written for @whispersandwhiskerburnMuch Ado About SPN Challenge for her 1.5K Milestone. Angel, I am so sorry, I am not a big Shakespeare fan, so I hope you like this!
Word Count: 1042
Warnings: Language, talk of Hell, death, nothing graphic, not too much really
A/N: Not beta’d so any and all mistakes are mine and mine alone. This is set in S12 before 12x12
Sure, Dean had friends when he was a child, but Dean hasn’t been a child since November 2, 1983. Dean hasn’t been a child since the night his mother died and his father lead them haphazardly through a life on the road. Sam is, and always will be his best friend.
Yes, they had “hunter friends” but they weren’t really friends, they were allies at best. With the exception of Bobby, who was more of a dad to them than John ever was, they had Ellen, Jo, Charlie and Kevin, but look how that all turned out. They all died bloody, at the hands of evil.
It wasn’t until Castiel came along and even then, it took some time for the brothers to really be able to trust him. After all the business with the souls and the Leviathans, Dean spent a year in Purgatory with Cas, mostly looking for him, praying for him. It wasn’t until later; after Dean had returned with Benny’s soul, reunited with Sam that Cas returned to them. Still, it would take more time for the brothers to allow Cas back into their fold.