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To the majority of you, you’ve seen this side of me. You know me, and you know my life. However you might not know that I keep my “Trans-ness” a secret from the people in my day-to-day life. I’m taking more steps towards a truly genuine and honest life by sharing this side of myself with a good friend of mine.. and potentially more people in the next few days.

For those of you who don’t know much about me.. My name is Kara (Previously Connor) and I was assigned male at birth, and over the past 4 years I’ve been transitioning to be the pretty ol’ gay lady I am today.. it’s been the hardest 4 years of my life.. I’ve struggled beyond what I thought possible, and I’ve had more joy than I ever thought my heart and mind could experience. I have so much more to explore, and so much more to grow into. This is me, and I’m more than happy to share myself with all of you dummies who still follow me after all of these years, and all of the new dummies who are just now tuning in. You all mean so much to me, and I’d be an absolute mess without your love, support and attention.

Be kind to yourselves, and have a lovely night/morning.

Lubie nudne rzeczy. Lubie siedziec i nic nie robic. Lubie sluchac muzyki i myslec o rożnych rzeczach. Lubie leżeć w lozku. Lubie siedziec ze znajomymi przy browarze i szlugach mimo, że ciagle spędzamy czas tak samo. Lubie płakać i chodzic pozno spac. Lubie prostotę. Mało znaczące rzeczy. Lubie rutynę. To co dla ciebie jest nudne, dla mnie jest odpoczynkiem. Wtedy oddycham.

9.1.2016

I am tired. I mean, not that exhausted body kind of tired. I mean, that’s a part of it, but this time, I feel like everything feels so noisy and heavy and I keep on chasing things going to different directions. I mean, that anxious kind of tired. I mean, I just want to stop running for a while and have a long solid pause for a while. I mean, I want to shut away from the world. I mean, it’s like being still for a while. I mean, if I am drowning, let me just hit rock bottom, or if I am trying to float, can the ocean become still for a while? I mean, I am just tired and I don’t know what to do anymore. I mean, I miss peace and serenity.