i miss swimming in sparkly blue pools with my friends, pretending we were mermaids in a vast ocean. i miss eating fruit roll-ups at backyard picnic tables, wrapped in a towel with dripping wet hair. i miss the sound of a skip-it toy scraping along the driveway pavement in circles, and drawing yellow suns and smiley faces with sidewalk chalk. i miss pulling all-nighters with my friends who’d sleep over in the summer, laughing and playing in our own world for hours until our eyes were heavy and the window turned a soft dawning blue. i miss walking into an air conditioned blockbuster and getting a gumball from the candy vending machine on the way out. i miss sitting in the baby seat of a shopping cart while mom pushed me around the grocery store. i miss velcro light-up sneakers and eating barnum’s animal crackers in my car seat. i miss the smell of my grandma’s house in summer: cool A/C air and clean sheets. i miss eating happy meals on her couch, watching nickelodeon with the hum of the air conditioner behind me. i miss jumping rope and blowing bubbles in the grass. i miss curiously watching ants crawl on the sidewalk. i miss bug spray and calamine lotion. i miss running to the ice cream truck and eating popsicles on porch steps under a hot rosy sunset. i miss these old childhood days of simple purity and make-believe; when we were all young, hopeful, and healthy. when life felt safe, kind, and infinite… when all we had to do was dream.
Au where Murphy bites the reader to hurt 10k but for some reason nothing happens