today was the shift that broke me.
I spent the past 48 hours questioning whether I should actually be a nurse. Wondering if I actually ended up in the entirely wrong profession.
I cried today at work. Completely broke down. I looked at my coworker and confided that I hate being a nurse. I was just so sick of all the *bullshit* that seems to grow by the moment on our floor. We are so critically understaffed that we are simply treading water every shift. NOT caring for patients; we are simply treating them. Unable to take the time to truly personalize their care. It is beyond frustrating.
I have 4 days off from work. And I’m going to spend those 4 days desperately trying to remember why I chose this profession in the first place.
Right now I just feel broken.