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a Fatal_Error has Occurred: Chapter Two - Part 10 (END)

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15 Things No One Tells You About College

1. Be prepared to walk! 

2. 8:00 am classes aren’t always a terrible idea.

3. Not everyday is the best time of your life like the movies make it out to seem.

4. Gap time a.k.a. time between your classes are a thing you’ll love and hate. 

5. You won’t always make friends with people right away including professors.  

6.  Not everyone you meet is meant to stay in your life. 

7. Everyone feels a little lost and confused at times.

8. Research papers are a breeze if you know how to research.

9. Don’t feel like you have to take every opportunity that comes your way.

10. At some point you’ll feel like you might be falling behind your friends or classmate. Maybe they got an internship you wanted. Just know your time will come as well. Be patient and keep trying.  

11. It is okay to want to remain anonymous in certain classes. 

12. Going to office hours is helpful but it isn’t the end of the world if you don’t go. 

13. There is something special about being on campus when it’s nearly empty. 

14. Most campuses have resources for almost everything just keep looking. 

15. It is okay to graduate and still not know what to do or where to go. 

Come to where the cool kids hang

Astrology Masterpost - Pt. 1

Part 1: Descriptions

Aries Description: Aries is the first of the zodiac signs. Aries is the sign of the self, people born under this sign strongly project their personalities onto others and can be very self-oriented. Aries tend to venture out into the world and leave impressions on others that they are exciting, vibrant and talkative. Aries tend to live adventurous lives and like to be the center of attention, but rightly so since they are natural, confident leaders. Aries are enthusiastic about their goals and enjoy the thrill of the hunt, “wanting is always better then getting” is a good way to sum it up. 

Taurus Description: Taurus is the one who has immense perseverance, even when others have given up, the Taurus rages on. Solid and persistent, just like the bull, which is Taurus’ well suited symbol. Taurus’s have a well known reputation for being stubborn, which is not necessarily a bad thing. The stubborn streak can cause Taurus to butt heads and conflict with other strong character types. Taurus are not fond of change. They like the familiar and routine comfort of life. Taurus is easy going and not one to pick a fight.

Gemini Description: Gemini people are many sided, quick both in the mind and physically. They are brimming with energy and vitality, they are clever with words. They are intelligent and very adaptable to every situation and every person. Gemini are curious and always want to know what’s going on in the world around them. They are not one to sit back and watch the world go by, they want to be involved. This can sometimes make Gemini nosy, they do not mind their own business! This is because they really enjoy communicating, more so then most other astrology signs, they are the ultimate social butterfly.

Cancer Description: Cancer is a mysterious sign, filled with contradictions. They want security and comfort yet seek new adventure. They are very helpful to others yet sometimes can be cranky and indifferent. Cancer has a driving, forceful personality that can be easily hidden beneath a calm, and cool exterior. The crab is Cancer’s ruling animal and it suits them well, they can come out of their shell and fight but they can also hide in their shell of skitter away back into the depths of the ocean. They are very unpredictable. 

Leo Description: Leo is the lion, this well suited symbol represents Leo very well. They possess a kingdom which they protest and cherish. The are high esteemed, honorable and very devoted to themselves in particular! The kingdom could be anything from work to home to a partner, whatever it is, you rule it. Leo is always center stage and full of flair, they enjoy basking in the spotlight. A Leo always makes their presence known. Leo are full of energy that acts like a magnet for other people.Others are attracted to Leo’s wit, charm, and what they have to say for they speak of things grand and very interesting.

Virgo Description: Virgo exists in the mind, everything is inside. To the world, Virgo presents a calm and collected exterior but on the inside, nervous uncontrolled intensity in the mind, trying to figure things out, how to improve everything, analyzing and thinking. Virgo can tire itself out without even moving! Virgo has a constant drive to improve and perfect, this can lead to extreme pickiness and finickiest. They are pure, their motives are honest never malicious and they want to accomplish something.

Libra Description: Libras are the diplomat of the zodiac. They are able to put themselves in other’s shoes and see things through another person’s point of view. They are the ones that always want to make things right and have balance and harmony in their life, their surroundings and the lives of the people close to them. They have captivating charm, elegant taste and they are easy to like due to their eager-to-please, easygoing nature. In return for a Libra’s amazing ability to be a good listener, sooth and calm people, they expect admiration.

Scorpio Description: Scorpio is the astrology sign of extremes and intensity. Scorpios are very deep, intense people, there is always more then meets the eye. They present a cool, detached and unemotional air to the world yet lying underneath is tremendous power, extreme strength, intense passion and a strong will and a persistent drive. Scorpios have a very penetrative mind, do not be surprised if they ask questions, they are trying to delve deeper and figure things out and survey the situation. They always want to know why, where and any other possible detail they can possibly know. 

Sagittarius Description: Sagittarius seem to be guided by luck, good things happen to Sagittarius and this is usually because of their optimistic outlook and positive disposition which attracts good fortune. Despite hardships, Sagittarius is always optimistic that good things will happen tomorrow and the future carries good luck. Sagittarius have a vibrant, expansive personality that is free like a bird, Sagittarius cannot be contained. They are full of curiosity and they always look forward to the future, never dwelling on the past.

Capricorn Description: Capricorns are very ambitious people, they always have something they are pursuing and they want their lives to be fulfilled and important. Capricorns are extremely patient and will wait a long time for something they want, when the opportunity arises, they will plan their steps carefully to others, they might appear hesitant but this is not true, they know that there is only one chance to succeed and they are filing together their information to take the proper steps to accomplish their goal with flying colors, not just second rate.

Aquarius Description: Aquarius is the sign of visionaries, unconventionality and intellectual independence. Aquarius are the people who deviate from the crowd and go their own way. They are always after intellectual stimulation, constantly discovering something new, forming new opinions and stubbornly traveling their way regardless of what other people think. Aquarius are filled with paradoxes, they are interested in the opposite ends of the spectrum, they like to be alone yet are social butterflies, they like to experience both sides and see both opinions as they formulate new ideas with their forward thinking, active mind.

Pisces Description: Pisces is the sign of mysticism, mystery and the spiritual unknown. Pisces live in two worlds, the real world and the spiritual or mystical world where they interpret what they see into what they want. They do this to avoid all the realities of pain and suffering in the world. They have extremes of emotions and feel both good and bad intensively. Pisces have formidable intuitive ability. Most Pisces are somehow involved with occult or spiritualism. 

  • Me: *on September 30th 11:59PM, patiently and eagerly staring at the clock*
  • Me: come on, do it for Ryan Ross
  • Clock: *turns to midnight, october 1th*
  • Family: *looks at me like I'm crazy*
  • Me: *still not giving a fuck* EVERYBODY SCREAM
  • Grandma: *whispers to my mum* are you 100% sure she doesn't need a psychiatrist...?
  • Mum: *whispers back* y-yeah... it's just a phase.
  • *and still, 30 years later, in my late fourties, I'm still singing It's Almost Halloween*
  • Grandma, deceased: *whispers to my mum* I told you, you could've gotten help at the right time.
  • Mum: oh fuck off, you're dead.
  • Grandma: like mcr?
  • Mum: gtfo, right now.
  • Grandma: sorry.
Astrology Masterpost - Pt. 2

Part 2: Strengths and Weaknesses 

Aries Strengths:

 - Independent
- Generous
- Optimistic
- Enthusiastic
- Courageous

Aries Weaknesses:

 - Moody
- Short tempered
- Self-involved
- Impulsive
- Impatient

Taurus Strengths: 

- Dependable
- Persistent
- Loyal
- Patient
- Generous

Taurus Weaknesses: 

- Stubborn
- Laziness
- Possessive
- Materialistic
- Self-indulging

Gemini Strengths:

 - Energetic
- Clever
- Imaginative
- Witty
- Adaptable

Gemini Weaknesses:

 - Superficial
- Impulsive
- Restless
- Devious
- Indecisive

Cancer Strengths: 

- Loyalty
- Dependable
- Caring
- Adaptable
- Responsive

Cancer Weaknesses: 

- Moody
- Clingy
- Self-pitying
- Oversensitive
- Self-absorbed

Leo Strengths: 

- Confident
- Ambitious
- Generous
- Loyal
- Encouraging

Leo Weaknesses: 

- Pretentious
- Domineering
- Melodramatic
- Stubborn
- Vain

Virgo Strengths: 

- Analytical
- Observant
- Helpful
- Reliable
- Precise

Virgo Weaknesses: 

- Skeptical
- Fussy
- Inflexible
- Cold
- Interfering

Libra Strengths: 

- Diplomatic
- Graceful
- Peaceful
- Idealistic
- Hospitable

Libra Weaknesses: 

- Superficial
- Vain
- Indecisive
- Unreliable

Scorpio Strengths: 

- Loyal
- Passionate
- Resourceful
- Observant
- Dynamic

Scorpio Weaknesses: 

- Jealous
- Obsessive
- Suspicious
- Manipulative
- Unyielding

Sagittarius Strengths: 

- Straight-Forward
- Generous
- Optimistic
- Enthusiastic


Sagittarius Weaknesses:

- Over-Confident
- Inconsistent 
- Superficial 
- Tactless
- Impatient

Capricorn Strengths: 


Capricorn Weaknesses:


Aquarius Strengths:

- Witty
- Clever
- Humanitarian
- Inventive
- Original

Aquarius Weaknesses: 

- Stubborn
- Unemotional
- Sarcastic
- Rebellious
- Aloof

Pisces Strengths: 

- Compassionate
- Adaptable
- Accepting
- Devoted
- Imaginative

Pisces Weaknesses: 

- Oversensitive
- Indecisive
- Self-pitying
- Lazy
- Escapist

89. Tag - 11. März 2017

Der Tag der vorläufigen Entlassung ist endlich gekommen. Wieder war die Nacht 04.50 Uhr vorbei und ein letztes Mal ging es 05.15 Uhr auf morgendliche Runde. Und nun beginnt die Wartezeit auf das ärztliche Abschlussgespräch und den obligatorischen Arztbrief, natürlich nicht ohne die noch durchzuführenden Routinechecks und die finale Blutabnahme. Was jetzt 07.15 Uhr erledigt wurde. Nach der ausgedehnten Wanderung zur Elbe kam mir noch das Glück entgegen, denn mir fiel beim Aufräumen ein Glas zu Boden. Soll ja Gutes verheißen? Das Arztgespräch war sehr sympathisch und gut, brachte aber keine neuen Erkenntnisse. Meine Lage ist, so die Aussage, nach wie vor undifferenziert und “das Pendel” kann weiterhin in beide Richtungen ausschlagen. Als positiv ist nur die bis dato weitestgehende Schmerzfreiheit zu bewerten. Es kommen also weitere ungewisse Zeiten auf mich zu. Gerade dieses Erscheinungsbild macht die Erkrankung so brutal. Man spürt lange nichts und dennoch schadet sie unter Umständen immer weiter. Erst Mitte Mai steht die abschließende CT an, die dann etwas deutlichere Ergebnisse liefert. Dazwischen der abschließende 6. CHEMO-Block vom 28.03. bis 01.04.2017. Nun geht es aber erst einmal wieder nach Hause zur “Aufarbeitung” und, wenn möglich, zur körperlichen Erholung. Die letzten beiden Blöcke und diverse Vorkommnisse haben doch extrem geschlaucht. Und auch die Bewahrung der psychischen Kraft ist wichtig, da es ab und an doch das eine oder andere “Schlagloch” gibt. Nun werde ich eine Blog-Pause einlegen und mich nur bei besonderen Ereignissen wieder melden. Spätestens aber am 28.03.2017. Ciao.


On 9 June, the royal yatch reached Reval (now Tallinn) on the Baltic and anchored there, close to the tsar’s yatch Standart. This yachting meeting with Tsar Nicholas was the culmination of much patient diplomacy. 

At 11.30, Tsar Nicholas II and his family came on board the Victoria and Albert. It was contrary to protocol that the tsar should pay the first visit, and it signified the nephew’s respect for the uncle. 

The next night the Russians dined on board the Victoria and Albert. Bertie’s suite had feared that the notoriously difficult Tsarina Alexandra might refuse to attend the dinner if she was forced by protocol to take second place behind her mother-in-law, Minnie, who accompanied the Russian party and, as dowager empress, enjoyed precedence. Bertie solved the proptocol issue and prevented a scene by taking Minnie and Alexandra each on one arm.’Tonight I am going to enjoy the unique honour of taking two Empresses in to dinner.

How to love me

1. Play with my hair and watch documentaries with me.
2. Help me with my math homework.
3. Take me to museums and amusement parks.
4. Don’t interrupt me when I’m talking.
5. Call me bb, amor, corazon, angel, sweetheart, babe etc
6. Speak to me in spanish.
7. Talk to me about everything. Tell me how your day went. Tell me why you believe in aliens. Tell me how you got the scar on your leg even if you’ve already told me 6 times before. Tell me about everything.
8. Send me funny pictures.
9. Give me flowers.
10. Pick me up at 1:00 am so we can eat tacos and watch the stars.
11. Be patient.
12. Don’t ever tell me to stop crying.
13. Dance with me.
14. Kiss me all the time, everywhere.
15. Write me letters.
16. Surprise me.
17. Listen.

Schedule, Schmedule

*Set the scene: Wayfaring is the only provider in her clinic today. Her schedule is completely full. She has 3 double-books already and will surely have more added as walk-ins, well, walk in.*

9:00 patient: Actually shows up on time.

9:00 double book patient who made their appointment yesterday: No show.

9:15 and 9:30 patients: Show up.

9:45 Patient: No Show.

10:00, 10:15, 10:30, 10:45, 11:00 patients: all show up at 10:00. 

3:30 patient: Shows up at 10:30.

2:00, 2:15, 2:30 patients: Show up at 1:40. 

9:45 patient: Shows up at 3:30.


Derek Zoolander and I: truce

Apparently, the way to motivate him is to encourage him to carry the team pager. He feels very responsible and answers all the calls promptly. Even if he doesn’t know the answer. He’ll answer the phone. It’s like I have a secretary. 

I think he’s realized this is not a cruise. This is real, tough, dig-in medicine and he has to step up. So I see him trying more now. Which I appreciate. I mean, nothing’s perfect. I appreciate effort, though.

We also created a running joke that every time the med student disappear we yell at each other like parents who have lost their child. And use a lot of movie references.

Originally posted by floodlikelight

Today was successful, despite not having a senior. discharged three patients, transferred one. Now we’re down to 11 patients. But who knows what we’ll have tomorrow.

I’m going to take it one day at a time.