past life explorations

Be My Eyes - Part III

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This time around the wait was almost unbearable. Mostly because Shiro didn’t want to admit to himself that he was waiting at all. But their second conversation had given him even more hope and the things he’d gotten to know about Lance, that he was great with children, was dedicated and hard-working and compassionate, made Shiro’s useless crush even worse.
A few times he toyed with the idea to go out and find someone to hook up with just to get that pretty smile out of his head. But he’d never liked one-night-stands and besides, after the accident it had gotten much harder to pick someone up. Most people out for a quick fuck were deterred by the prosthetic.

Not that Shiro cared too much. It had taken him years to pull himself together and get back on his feet, switch professions, become at peace with himself again. There hadn’t been much place for a relationship during that time, as focused on himself as he was, as he had to be.
He’d always be grateful for the role Allura had played in his recovery and always regret that he hadn’t been able to offer her anything but his friendship in return. It was too late for them now, she’d found love with someone else and he was happy for them, no matter the bittersweet could-have-beens floating through his mind sometimes.
But now that he was recovered and had reclaimed his life, found a job he enjoyed and friends he liked spending time with, it felt like he was ready for love as well.  
If only his best shot at it wasn’t an elusive, beautiful man he had no chance of contacting on his own.

It was late evening when his phone rang and Shiro dried his hand on a kitchen towel before tapping the notification.
The last few calls had left him numb, the hope he’d only just found fading more and more every time it wasn’t Lance’s face smiling at him from his screen and even though Shiro felt his heartbeat pick up yet again he tried to shoo away the tiny flame of hope before it was snuffed out by reality.

Instead of a wide smile the screen turned black and for a moment Shiro wondered if his phone had died. But then he heard soft breathing before a familiar voice spoke up.
“Hey, I’m Lance. Thanks for…”
“Hey”, Shiro breathed back, having to lean against the counter to support his suddenly weakened legs. What were the chances? “Nice to talk to you again.”
There was a soft gasp and a rustling sound of fabric, maybe clothes or bedsheets and then Lance laughed, a sound that made Shiro’s heart clench with sweet longing.
“Shiro! Oh wow, I was wondering if I’d uh … meet you again.”

Shiro bit his lip against a happy noise. Lance had thought about him, about talking to him again. But there was something he was wondering about.
“Is your camera broken? I can’t see anything…”
“Oh, yeah!” Lance let out another laugh. “That’s why I called, I couldn’t remember if I turned off the light after my sister left and … I was too lazy to get back up and check the switch so … guess I know now, huh?”
So he was in bed already and just didn’t want to get up again. The thought made Shiro smile, even though his stomach clenched nervously when he realized they’d hang up again very soon. He wouldn’t be able to stand another month or two of waiting for the next call, he had to do something, say something but before he could even open his mouth Lance was speaking again.

“But honestly, how weird is it that I talked to you three times now? That never happened to me before! You might as well just give your number at this point!” The words were accompanied by another carefree laugh, Lance was obviously joking. But it was also the perfect pass and Shiro would hate himself if he didn’t at least try. It helped that he had literally nothing to lose.
“Would that be … very weird? If I … gave you my number?” As soon as Shiro had said it he crumbled, hiding his face behind his hand. He’d been so smooth once. Years ago. Obviously that was not like riding a bike.

“What?”, came Lance small, wondrous reply and he sounded so cute Shiro almost whimpered. Well, he’d started this, now he had to finish it.
“You, uhm … you just seem like a … really great and, and interesting person. To be honest I … I was hoping we could talk again and I’d uh, I’d love to get to know you better. If you want.”
There was a stretch of silence that seemed to last forever, broken only by Lance’s breathing and the occasional rustling sound of the sheets.

“Get to know me in like … a gay way?” Lance finally asked and there was a hint of humour in his voice that Shiro just couldn’t place. He knew there was a big chance Lance wasn’t even interested in men and that he might just have made a huge fool of himself. But it had still been worth a shot. Was still worth a shot.
“If that’s”, he began, licking his dry lips. “If that’s what you want…”

Another stretch of silence, this one so long and unbearable Shiro let himself sink down along the counter and onto the floor, pulling both knees to his chest. Not like riding a bike at all. He felt and acted like a fumbling teenager all over again. Maybe that’s what years of only partly voluntary abstinence did to a person.
Finally Lance talked again and when he did it was with a cheeky, flirty tone that made Shiro even more jittery.

“Shiro, can I tell you something?”
He didn’t have the energy for more than a weak “Hm?” but it was enough.
“I’ve been using this app five times as much as I usually do ever since I talked to you for the first time. Every time I was hoping they’d connect me to you again. So can you please just give me your number?”
Shiro didn’t compute for a long moment. He just sat there on his kitchen floor, face in his hand, breathing. Then a laugh bubbled up from his chest and he just let it spill over, laughing freely until Lance joined him, the melodious sound of his laughter music to Shiro’s ear.
He grinned all the way through giving Lance his number.

“Alright”, Lance smiled after he’d finished. “I’ll call you back in a minute, yeah? Then you can tell me all about how you’re not a 50-something year old pervert so my sister can sleep again at night.”
Did … did that mean Lance had talked to his sister about Shiro? That was … adorable.
“Sure, I’ll be waiting.”

And wait Shiro did after they hung up, seconds ticking into minutes until his anxiety flared up again and he scrambled to his feet, starting to pace through the kitchen. Had he given Lance the right number? Why hadn’t he asked for a number in turn? What if Lance was just trying to get rid of him and didn’t even intend to call? What if Shiro had creeped him out and he’d uninstall the app and they’d never speak again?

By the time his ringtone echoed through the kitchen Shiro had all but convinced himself Lance hated him. So he answered the call from an unknown number with shaking fingers.
“Hey, I’m Lance”, came the casual drawl that made Shiro melt from the inside out, knees getting weak again. “Thanks for picking up. I’ll only need you for … hm, the rest of the night?”
Shiro grinned, bit his lip, nodded slowly as that crushing weight of his doubts was lifted from his shoulders.
“Sounds perfect.”

The End

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Past Life Memories Spell

A spell to help you further dive into the memories of one of your particular past lives. 

Note: this spell is to be used when you know about one of your past lives in more detail. It doesn’t work very well if you are unaware of any of your past lives, instead check out this spell to help you discover a past life first or this tarot spread.

Originally posted by izumosenpai

You Will Need:

🔮 Rosemary (preferably dried)
🔮 Jasmine (preferably dried or tea)
🔮 Marigold (preferably dried)
🔮 Dream Quartz (clear quartz can replace it)
🔮 Amethyst 
🔮 Labrodite
🔮 Malachite
🔮 White Feathers (about 2)
🔮 Pen or Pencil
🔮 Lined paper cut in smaller sections (thirds of a page should be good)
🔮 Jar with sealing lid
🔮 Purple String or Ribbon

Steps:

🔮 On your pieces of lined paper at the top of each write down these titles: The Life, The Now, The Memory. Under “The Life” write down which past life you wish to learn more about. In this section write down whatever you may know about this past life already in example if you know in your past life you wish to explore you were a male priest who lived during the 1800s, write that down. Under “The Now” write down who you are now and how it relates to your past. If in that past life you were a priest and now you are no longer religious at all and you feel it was because of that life, write it down. Anything you feel that may correlate write down here. Under “The Memory” write down what sort of memory you wish to dream about or memories, you can make a list if you desire. This can include early life, later life, bad memories, good memories, a purposeful memory, a turning point, etc. 

🔮 Once you have everything written down set them aside.

🔮 In your jar add in your herbs at the bottom then on top add your crystals.

🔮 Take your pieces of paper and fold them or roll them however you wish and place them into the jar and on top of them add your 2 white feathers

🔮 Hold the jar in your hands and focus on your desire to explore the past memories of your past life. “In this jar I seal my desire, to relive memories long forgotten.” And gently (please gently, you do not want herbs and paper and feathers flying into your face) blow softly into the jar focusing on adding your own energy to this jar. Seal it tightly

🔮 Around the lid or lip of the jar tie your purple ribbon to magically seal it with your intention

🔮 Keep jar near, above or under bed and keep a dream journal close by as well. Record all dreams you have come morning

To dream about other past lives or memories open the jar and replace the paper with new ones and re-add your energy to it. Cleanse jar occasionally in the moonlight, especially before resealing with the new desires.

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Your 20’s are your selfish years.  It’s a decade to immerse yourself in every single thing possible.  Be selfish with your time, and all the aspects of you.  Tinker with shit, travel, explore, love a lot, love a little, and never touch the ground.
—  Kyoko Escamilla

anonymous asked:

How did you begin working with past live spirits?

Me personally? I first started while doing past life exploration, and met a few along the way through friends as well too.

I will say this though, for those looking at working with past life spirits… be super fucking skeptical of spirits that right off the bat claim to of known you in your past life or lives because claiming to be buddies with you in a past life is an easy way to get people to lower their defenses. And just because they knew you in a past life doesn’t mean they are there for your good either or doesn’t mean they aren’t malicious.

The Queen of the Castle

 Barry Allen x OUAT!Reader

Summary (Request): Could you do a flash/once upon a time imagine were the reader was a queen in the enchanted forest until the curse struck which landed her in central city where she is apart of team flash and is Barry’s girlfriend and when the curse is lifted she remembers and takes them to storybrooke where they take a trip to the enchanted forest and she shows them her castle and Barry is in awe because of how beautiful she looks in her dresses and crown?

Word Count: 950

Caitlin freaked.

Or a more proper term, fangirled.

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Mermaid Reading

Originally posted by moon-leviosa

BACKGROUND

The story behind this was me seeing a lot of signs containing mermaids lately. I thought it was a pleasant surprise but not until I notice the frequency increased. I see it in my dash/timelines/social medias. My friends made a mention of it. A few of them were going to aquariums and/or by the sea.I craved a mermaid deck so badly all the sudden (which was pretty serious and if you know me I’m not the type to crush heavily on decks unless it was, well, serious). Lastly (and most emotionally) I was watching the newest “The Little Mermaid” trailer and when the little girl said, “Because I have the heart of a mermaid.” and the titular mermaid said “Yes, you are!” something was lifted off my shoulders and I felt really light. I felt really giddy and happy, most of all, but the blissful kind I don’t generally get from watching trailers.

Conclusion: either I was a mad person (and you can stop reading here lol) or these events made me persevering enough to dig more of about the reason behind these signs. A legit sign or just me wishing things to align that way? 

Which is why you see this post.

@rosainoxia was generous enough to give me a mini past life reading (and can’t thank her enough!) and I got Six of Pentacles, Judgement, and The Lovers. Pri suggested that I was working in a mermaid community (Six of Pentacles) and was pretty high ranking (Judgement). And I got married too! To a prince merman (The Lovers)! Which is really, really cute. She mentioned that it feels strong and if you know Pri she’d never make stuffs like this up. Plus, she’s better in sensing energies than I am so I trust her! :D

While Pri provided an explanation for the tie in a past-life context, I was exploring the bond in my present life. So you’ll see here our readings would complement each other.


THE READING ITSELF

1. Do I have mermaid blood/energies? (Which might trigger the attraction)

Originally posted by distancefromhappiness

The Moon. I noticed first was the confusion/haziness of the card but I can’t turn away from the Moon’s obvious ties to feminine magic and the sea. It could be a very strong yes or, if possible, it’s not the time for you to know. Because I don’t think this card says a direct no itself.

I love how this card accentuated the Moon’s mysticism, the magic of it, the emotions, and the intuition. The girl in the card were expecting her ancestors coming over in a night of Samhain. She has a crystal ball and she was reading tarot. I believe that means this card knows it was me she’s being asked about. The ancestors part might mean I was a mermaid in a past life. Whiiich ties to Pri’s past life reading.


2. What ties me to the mermaid energies? (A more straightforward, general question, also serve as a replacement question if number one is answered “no”)

Originally posted by thenamelessdoll

Justice. Nightfury (My BOS: As Above Tarot) is a blunt deck of mine so there was little of the meaning she hid. If any, actually. So Justice was illustrated as the balancing of the world through the seasons. In my Justice, we see Persephone greeting (or saying goodbye depending on how you look at it!) to her mother, Demeter. A sharp divide between the light of our world and the untouched darkness of the Underworld divides the card.

I think my mermaid senses that I’m out of balanced and in need of an assistance to bring balance in my life in a way that’s as compassionate and as gentle as possible. I tend to be very hard to myself and stubborn, which made me tense, rigid, and anxious. I understood examining my emotions, going to the deep, and letting go to the flow usually made me a lot more antsy. 

Reconsidering what I found with Pri, I think it’s still going to make sense. The Lovers indicated an acceptance of the parts of ourselves that we rejected, an appreciation of the wholeness of our balances in the spirit of unconditional love. Six of Pentacles is also a card of balance between giving and taking. Judgement can either be too harsh or healthy/functional enough for me to use it to bring balance to myself.

Note: It should also be noted that a lot of planet will go in Retrograde Aries the following week eep. Aries counterpart is Libra, the sign of balance and considering the things outside of the “self”


3. What can be learned from this? (The reason why it happened from the first place)

Originally posted by colors-of-a-mermaid

Eight of Cups. I might not go with the usual interpretation for the card for this kind of reading. The Eight of Cups I see is more of a wisdom card. Kind of like the mature calm after the storm. My card is illustrated by a woman brewing something in her cauldron, being watched over by eight water sprites. This woman is said to be Ceridwen, whose cauldron gives birth to the magic of this world. 

I take this as a regenerative queue for me to not burn myself after intense period of stress and anxiety. I think myself in need of an immediate break of how I use to think, so it also means an imperative stop to any kinds of toxic ways of thinking/coping. Which might be where the compassion of my mermaid is needed because it’s a sudden, clean stop to what I used to cling to.

Note: I didn’t have the strongest feel for the Eight of Cups because it has a soft energy of withdrawing our attention? Nightfury’s Eight of Cups’ are more of the patience of watching something to brew, which kind of feels like Eight of Pentacles but more nurturing/loving.

moominhexe  asked:

I feel a connection to water. I don't know if it has to do with my zodiac sign (Cancer) or what. But I remember a dream I had as a child about being under water and just feeling calm. I had dreams about being under water as an adult and now I feel panic in them. It's probably nothing... But I've just been wondering because for a while now I have this strange urge to be underwater. The funny thing about all of this is that I don't know how to swim. What could this mean? Is it just nothing?

You will have a natural inclination towards your Zodiac’s ruling element. It could also possibly be a past life issue worth exploring. 

The way we were

Muse A and Muse B meet one night and feel like they know each other, even though their encounter lasts less than half an hour. Over the coming nights they have dreams that start as snippets and grow more intense, of them both in different times and places. Muse A believes in the possibility of past lives and seeks out Muse B who is sceptical, even when Muse A describes the same dreams. Muse A wants to do past life regression to explore the lives and Muse B reluctantly agrees. They are hypnotised, but instead of simply finding out more, they wake up in their past life bodies.

Plot Twist: They are the other gender in their past life

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