passionate dogs

I’m realizing really quickly all of a sudden how different my partner and I are and it’s like totally not in a good way lol like. I can’t be in the same place for too long and I definitely make traveling a priority even with the little money I have, I’m a creative person, I have days where I really want to go out and do something and days where I need to just sit inside and be left alone. He’s lived in New York City his entire life and has no desire to leave and the only time he left the east coast was like ten years ago when he went to San Francisco with his mom and he’s not a creative person in any way and his only passion is literally dogs and that’s it. I’ve suggested that he go on vacation with me somewhere before and he’s just like “no I don’t have time” “no I have to work” “no I don’t have money” when all of those are lies. And he just sits inside when he’s not working idk like I ask him to do things with me and he’s like “uh ok you pick I guess” and he always makes me decide what we should do because he’s so unenthused 24/7 and never has ideas for things we can do outside and it’s. honestly draining like he’s not outright mean to me but I don’t think I can be with this anymore lol I should be with someone who encourages my creativity and my desire for adventure not someone who hinders it right ? It just is bad I guess because I love him but I don’t think he loves me at all lol cuz he makes no effort ever

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.
You claim to love her, inside and out, but the only time you call her beautiful is when it’s 3 in the morning and I’ve already turned you down.
—  girls tell each other everything, c.j.n.
We throw around the word never likes its nothing but a small rose petal. The word never is a doubled edged sword. On one side it says ‘I will never leave you’ and on the other it says ‘I will never love you.’
—  The Word Never