part of myself

Ok guys*takes a deep breath* heres the thing

I am probably the most heartbroken person in the world right now
We have all the right to be mad.
But mad at who?
Yixing… Who is overworked to death at this point? And whose chinese activities are whats keeping most chinese exoLs stick around despite exo not being there for years?
Rest of exo…? That are again constantly living in airports and touring constantly to earn money to sustain like 50% of SM at this point and spomsoring everyones comebacks?
SM entertainment? Who knows.. Its a company that works on profit and has way many artists to manage apart from exo.. They have their constraints as well…?
Yixing studio? Who knows… They know how important it is for yixing to be doing everything he is rn to maintain his still developing star status in the hugely competetive chinese industry.
Do we blame THAAD? China? S. Korea? Missiles? Wars?
We don’t need anyone to be mad at.
So like.. Be angry… Possibly cry (like me) in the shower if you like. Be disappointed. But then.. Remember how much effort everyone has been putting for this comeback. Right now exo is probably shooting in the studio working hard for the MV. They (all 9 of them) are probably disappointed too. And oh my god the amount of effort my dear fandom has been putting over these genius comeback concepts and the melon streaming passes and international group orders! Come on guys… We cant let our pretty little projects and all those hair dyes go to waste!! Sorry for being cheesy.. But the comeback being “GRAND” or not depends on us.
Yixing will come back next time soon. I know. For now.. Lets celebrate what we have. Lets not make them feel guilty for given the circumstances i am sure this is the best they can offer us. Please be angry… Scream all you want.. But if we are not going to be with exo at this time..who will? Who other than exo Ls will support exo? Cheer up girls (and guys). Its not the end of the world. We have survived a lot more than this.

hi! a note to all of my followers and mutuals

ok what ive decided/realized is that im kind of uncomfortable with how ive been presenting myself on here? as far as the nsfw stuff and frequent cussing i mean its just really far removed from how i myself am as a person so im gonna try to change that!! have patience w me! i’m mostly just going to try to stop cussing on here and stop with the explicitly nsfw comments like the kink jokes will probably still stay because they are actually funny but yeah!!

im sorry if u want to unfollow me because i honestly do love yall and i’m gonna miss u if u do unfollow but if u don’t feel comfortable on my blog then do whatever you gotta do!!! no hard feelings on my part :)

but yeah please have patience with me and idk if i’ll be as funny and i’ll definitely lose notes but its really unhealthy for me to continue with this kind of cognitive dissonance between how i act on here and who i really am

thanks for sticking with me this far yall!!! it means the world that you havent given up on me yet :)

xo, allie

You know what we gotta do, don’t ya, @dothackeryggdrasil?

Don’t let those hateful anons get to ya and hurt your heart. They’re cowards who won’t show who they really are and just want to take all the fun out of the fandom. You have a fantastic sense of humor and bring the people around you joy with your shitposts, cosplay, art, and voice acting.

And no matter who’s causing ya trouble, we’re here for ya!

mpreg

since no one seems to be happy with lgbt, mogai, or any other acronym or umbrella term, i came up with a new one that i think is gonna cover all our bases:

mpreg = marginalized people of romantic, erotic and gender

cis lesbians who insist that the term lesbian only apply to people who use she/her pronouns have a fundamental misunderstanding of what it means to be a lesbian to begin with like. lesbians have been out there for years, breaking gender roles and you act like you can police what is and what isn’t lesbian based on the gender binary alone? smh

vinny was talking about his stash of cinnamon roll oreos and how he has two packs in his trunk for “emergencies” and when someone asked what kind of emergency needs oreos, he answered “i dunno, depression” and that’s the realest shit i’ve ever heard him say and i feel a true sense of solidarity from that statement

5

You ever raise worms by putting an electric current to the earth? That’s what this is like.

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We put the good in the good in the good life
We put the bad in the past, now we alright.

Sometimes I hate being trans. A lot of the time, actually. While everyone else is moving forward, you’re feel like you’re waiting, waiting, waiting. For the next GIC appointment. For hormones to show any effect. For surgery. For the next surgery. For forms and reports and assessments to be filled out.

These things take weeks, months, years. Whole parts of your life get eaten away on waiting lists for services that are already stretched to their limit. And all the time you want everything to stop - to right itself in some magical overnight miracle. You spend nights crying and asking ‘why me?’ Why am I the one who has to be stuck here? 

But you will get there. I promise you. Nobody knows patience like us trans folk. We have to be strong, mentally, emotionally and physically, because we are forced to be by our very nature. It’s something huge to bear and it’s okay if you’re not always okay. It isn’t fun, and it isn’t fair. And it’s okay to grieve - for being born with the wrong parts, or for all the times that your body restricted you in life - for the things you wish you had. Grieve if you need to. 

There is light and dark to everything in life. Being trans is no exception. Keep going. Wait and fight and grieve and celebrate and live - in the way that only we trans people know how. 

You’ll come out stronger in the end.

givenchy & gold, part i (m.)

;pairing — jungkook/reader

;warnings — sex | implied exhibitionism | mild dom/sub tones | if u’ve got a praise kink then ur gonna love this | mentions of daddy kinks | instances of spanking 

;summary — you’re the supervisor of the clothing department with a lot of useless lingerie knowledge, jungkook is the jewelry department’s defiant hot boy who flirts in wristwatch brands. basically an upscale retail au, but with lots of implied under-the-counter sex. and when an opportunity presents itself to fuck each other in the boss’s office after hours, you’re both too hot for each other to say no.

;word count — 20k im so sorry

part i | part ii

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