Heartbreak opens onto the sunrise for even breaking is opening and I am broken, I am open. Broken into the new life without pushing in, open to the possibilities within, pushing out. See the love shine in through my cracks? See the light shine out through me? I am broken, I am open, I am broken open. See the love light shining through me, shining through my cracks, through the gaps. My spirit takes journey, my spirit takes flight, could not have risen otherwise and I am not running, I am choosing. Running is not a choice from the breaking. Breaking is freeing, broken is freedom. I am not broken, I am free.
Loki and you stay at the Avengers Tower. He likes you but doesn’t approach you, for he’s a pariah, no one wants to interact with him. You’d reject him as well as you always look at him with distaste. One day, he acquires a laptop & finds you on social media. He poses as SHIELD/Stark employee, keeping his identity hidden on pretext of confidentiality. You develop a slow romance and sext/chat online often, sharing pics without revealing faces. He wants to tell you who he is, but he knows you’ll run the moment he reveals his identity. So, he keeps it hidden. One day, his identity is accidentally revealed to you. You react badly, as expected. The Avengers ask SHIELD incarcerate him. Before leaving, he promises to not contact you again but asks you if you’d have given him a chance had he been honest with you. Your answer is clear by your facial expression, & Loki nods in acceptance. He leaves peacefully and you’re left wondering what to do, for you realize you do actually care for him.
Hey y’all. I’m glad to be back and posting again. Here are some films that i’ve wanted to post about for the longest time, plus a new one that I just recently watched. I love watching films that highlight LGBTQ+ identities and especially love when films highlight the intersections of various identities. Check these out if they are of any interest, and feel free to recommend any others! :)
Naz & Maalik (2015):
One of my personal favorites, I was surprised that I never noticed this film online. Naz and Maalik is a film that follows the close relationship between two black muslim boys. They spend their summer day selling Lotto Tickets on the streets of Brooklyn while wrapping their minds around their possible romantic relationship. All of this happening as they unfortunately cross paths with the FBI and are essentially harassed due to their muslim identities. The film is a beautiful story highlighting the intersections of Blackness, Queerness, and being Muslim. *Can be found on Netflix.
This film hit me straight in the feels. I watched this my senior year of college in a Queer Media and Literature class and it became a personal favorite since that day. Pariah focuses on a young Black girl set in New York City. Alike, is slowly coming to terms with her lesbian Identity and wear she seems to place herself on the spectrum of masculine and feminine. As Alike seems to be more comfortable with herself, her identity seems to cause more trouble at home with her traditional mother who just won’t budge, and police officer father. Alike highlights the predicament a lot of queer people face in negotiating aspects of her environments for the safety of being able to express her identity. As she puts it though, she is not running, she is choosing. *Can be found on Netflix *A personal fave please watch!!!
The Business of Fancydancing (2002):
The Business of Fancydancing follows the journey of a gay Native American man as he comes back to his reservation home in Spokane, Washington for the funeral of a friend. Seymour became distant from the reservation after college and had not been present much since. Becoming a successful Poet known for his stories pertaining to his native culture, we watch as conflict grows between his education and white partner vs. his home on the reservation. The film highlights the almost tug of war Seymour is at between his native culture and his big city literary success. The film follows a back and forth flashback method and is almost non linear which creates an interesting environment to watch Seymour’s journey of self growth and identity.
LOEV (2015) :
LOEV is a film that follows the relationship between two old childhood friends who meet up for a weekend adventure. One a Mumbai based musician, and the other a NYC businessman. We see the tension build throughout the trip as they both express the feelings of not being satisfied with romantic partners or certain life circumstances. These confessions coincide with the growing romantic tension that builds throughout the film. This film highlights Indian queer identities that aren’t always found in mainstream media. *TRIGGER WARNING: This film does have a rape scene *Can be found on Netflix