parallels are heartbreaking

She has never believed in supernatural things. It all feels like fiction to her. But lately, she’s been lying awake at night and fantasizing about parallel universes.

Most often, she fantasizes that their paths never crossed. In this universe, she still smiles at strangers. She still dreams about love. She has no clue that somewhere, in another world, there was a boy who loved her very much. She is not haunted by the fact that the very same boy destroyed her. She is still so happy.

So, as she stares at the ceiling fan, listening to the clock tick toward 1am, she wishes so badly that she could exist in that universe instead. Because, after all, maybe it isn’t really true what they say. Maybe it isn’t better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. Because maybe never loving at all is far less painful.

—  excerpt from an unfinished book #128
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ep 33 // ep 58

“I only took the heavenly trial in the Mortal Realm to fulfill your wish. But all the more to fulfill my wish.”

I feel like I’m in the wrong world ‘cause I don’t belong in a world where we don’t end up together, I don’t. There are parallel universes out there where this didn’t happen. Where I was with you and you were with me. And whatever universe that is that’s the one where my heart lives in.
—  Comet (2014)
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#heartbreaking parallels#barry blaming himself and caitlin blaming barry :(

bonus:

Vicbourne 1x03/1x05

I’d just like to point this out.

In 1x03, Brocket Hall, Victoria tells Melbourne he’s the only companion she could ever desire. He has to refuse her because he knows that they aren’t in a position to marry, though they are in love with each other. So he tells her that she must keep her heart intact for someone else and that he mates for life and everything.

But.

You can just see how much he is suffering because of what he has to say and of course he knows that Victoria will suffer too.

So he takes her hands between his and tries not to hurt her with his words because he knows how fragile she is with her feelings. He tries to protect her once again.

Just in case this wasn’t heartbreaking enough, we have 1x05, An Ordinary Woman.

Victoria’s just married Albert and she is happy now, but she can’t completely forget her Lord M, so she calls him. And he is in so much pain I can’t even describe.

Do you see? Do you see his eyes staring into nothingness? He’s trying not to think about what he’s losing and to be happy for her

She tells him:

And THEN 

SHE TAKES HIS HANDS and now the situation is the opposite than in 1x03: it is Victoria who knows that he will suffer because of her and she is trying not to hurt him because she now knows how fragile HE is. 

He may seem strong and self-confident, but deep down he is actually much more fragile than she is.

And she is trying to protect him this time as he has always done for her.

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Mind ye, ghosts are freed on the feast days.They’ll be wandering about, free to do good or ill as they please.

This poem was not written for you
it was for your other self,
the lion king.

I gave him the key
but he never took it
because it might have hurt his paws
and so it goes.

He roared and I didn’t run.
He chased me and I didn’t try to escape.
He got me and ate me alive right away.
I didn’t make a sound
until I reached his stomach.
There, I screamed
and he spit me out.
He decided that he didn’t like my taste
and he walked into the jungle
with his pride beside him
and I followed.
I followed the king wherever he went.
He was eating other animals
and I watched.
I watched him being the king of the world.
He never noticed me following his tracks
but I got tired of following
because I’m a lion myself,
I have a pride as well.

Two males fighting, that’s normal you’d say.
A male and a female fighting on the other hand, that’s not.
We fought.
It was an utterly dramatic scene
and he won.
I left with my pride torn to pieces, after I had picked them up one by one.

Usually, in the end of my poems, I kill myself.
So be it in this one as well.
I will die
and I will be born again.
I hope not long after my death.

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Star Wars: A New Hope /// The Wrong Jedi.

“Forgive me if I’m not optimistic. I thought I was part of that Order. But everyone except Anakin, has abandoned me. I’m not holding out much hope the Senate will treat me any better.”

This is one heartbreaking parallel, both daughters of Anakin Skywalker got themselves into a mess and only one of them got the help she needed from him. Ahoska Tano, Anakin’s former padawan and might as well be his first daughter. She met the Light side of him and became an important person in his life. She trusted him with her life and he did that same for her. When Ahsoka was falsely accused Anakin did everything he could. He never stopped. He made sure not one clone-trooper fire at her to “kill”. He made sure she had the best of attorneys *smirks*. He hunted down Asajj Ventress and finally apprehend the real culprit, Barriss Offee. Ahsoka met the kind caring person.

With Princess Leia however, most unfortunate for her, she met the Dark side of him, currently known as Darth Vader. Vader never knew he had a living child, let alone a daughter. His objective is to get the Princess to talk about the stolen data and he’d use any means necessary to get her to talk. The Princess met the cold-hearted killing machine.

It’s been 6 months since we were together and I can’t help but think about how it would be if we were still together.
Maybe, in a parallel universe, I didn’t break up hurriedly in fear that our love has started burning out.
Maybe, in a parallel universe, our afternoons would be spent beside the lake like I always wanted and you’d be whispering in my ear how much you love me.
Maybe, in a parallel universe, you stopped me from leaving and felt the same pain as I did.
Maybe, in a parallel universe, my tears actually mean something.
Maybe, in a parallel universe, you still love me.
—  Tamarind Fall; I don’t like this reality.
@blackpenwritings