panici

I want Apple Tree Yard to just start on BBC One on sunday like nothing’s wrong. But after a few minutes the screen starts flickering and glitching and the show will get hacked by Sherlock like the BBC Twitter account a week ago and BBC will act all panicy and like they have no idea what’s going on and they can’t do anything
And that’s how the fourth episode will happen guys

Giriboy - 공황 (Panic) lyrics (translation)

나는 내가 될 수 없어 내가 될 수 없어
어린 뇌가 될 수 없어 어린 뇌가 될 수 없어
혹여 타임머신 발견 해도 돌아갈 순 없고
이 상황을 버티기엔 나는 너무 재밌어서
세상은 커다란 벌집 야 벌주다가 꿀 줘
꿈을 이룬 후에 난 더 길고 또 커다란 꿈 꿔
반대로 꿈을 이룬 건 꿈을 잃은 것
솔직히 별 거 아니더라 감사함을 죽여
어리단 걸 알았을 때 난 비로소 어른이 됐네
따뜻하게 포장된 세상에 얼음이 됐네
왜냐면 화려한 꽃들 밑에서 거름이 됐기에
그 시간들 사이에서 난 나름 거물이 됐네
mo money mo prob
넥타이 안 매지만 내 목을 졸라와
너무 많은 일을 감당했어 다시 돌아갈 순 없어
그래서 내가 될 순 없어 나는 내가 될 수 없어
많은 일을 감당했어 다시 돌아갈 순 없어
그래서 내가 될 수 없어 나는 내가 될 수 없어

I’m in the dark and I start to fuckin panic
I’m in the dark and I start to fuckin panic

나는 내가 될 수 없어 내가 될 수 없어
어린 뇌가 될 수 없어 어린 뇌가 될 수 없어
서빙일을 할 수 없어 내 머리가 너무 커져서
스무살 때보다 내 멘탈은 훨씬 어려서
화를 참는 법을 잊었지
언제부턴가 내 세상에 불청객이 계속 개입됐어
답은 하지만 다시 볼 일 없지
내 믿음은 너무 늙어버렸어
미안 오늘 내일 해서
니가 뭔짓을 하건 유행을 존나게 타도
그건 결국에는 한철 전부 다 얼려질 파도
니가 날 따라하고 나와 친한 척을 하건
말건 나는 이미 이 세상에 존재하질 않어
근데 씨발 니가 뭔데 나를 아는 척
술안주로 욕하다 앞에선 친한 척
그냥 지나쳐 진짜 돌아버릴 것 같단 말야
소설 좀 그만 쓰고 니 인생을 더 살란 말야


I’m in the dark and I start to fuckin panic

314k의 관심을 받는 개미
니들이 욕하는 나의 행위는 그냥 재미
내 공황상태 원인도 니들에겐 그냥 재미
난 싫증났어 이 롤 플레잉 게임이
아이러니 한 건 내가 상대한 건 애기들
니들과 대체 무슨 말을 섞어
장난전화 하지마 존나 재미없어
이유 모를 공포감이 점차 사라져
안정된 호흡에 내가 나란 것을 알았고
식은 땀의 식은 열기가 나를 꽉 안아서
난 활짝 열려있던 창문을 웃으며 닫았어

I’m in the dark and I start to fuckin panic
I’m in the dark and I start to fuckin panic
I’m in the dark and I start to fuckin panic

___________

I can’t be myself, can’t be myself
I can’t be my young brain, I can’t be my young brain
although I discovered a time machine maybe I can’t go back and
you’re too interesting for me to endure this situation
the world is a huge hive, yah, it punishes me then gives me honey
after realizing my dream, I dream longest and biggest dreams
on the contrary, realizing dreams is forgetting dreams
honestly it’s not anything special, don’t thank me
when I understood being young i became an adult right away
in a warmly wrapped world I became ice
because the colorful flowers became manure underneath
during that time i became a big shot
mo money mo prob
I don’t wear a tie but I’ve been choking
there are too many things I couldn’t deal with, I can’t go back again
that’s why I can’t be myself, I can’t be myself
there are a lot of things I can’t deal with, I can’t go back again
that’s why I can’t be myself, I can’t be myself

I’m in the dark and I start to fuckin panic
I’m in the dark and I start to fuckin panic

I can’t be myself, can’t be myself
I can’t be my young brain, I can’t be my young brain
I can’t work as a waiter because my head got too big
because my mental age is way younger than my 20 years
I forgot how to control my anger
since when did intruders continuously intervene in my world
I answer but I don’t see them again
my beliefs grew too old
sorry, I’ll do today tomorrow
whatever you’re doing being really on style
In the end in a season one wave will freeze it all
wether you follow me and I pretend to be close to you or not
I already don’t exist in this world
but fuck, who are you to pretend you know me?
eating snacks (that are eaten while drinking) and cursing, and being friendly in front of me
it’s just excessive, I’m really going crazy
stop writing novels and live your own life

I’m in the dark and I start to fuckin panic

An ant getting attention from 314k
you guys insulting my act is just funny
the cause of my state of panic is just funny to you guys
I’m tired of this role playing game
irony is that what I have to deal with are babies
what words are you guys mixing
don’t make prank phone calls, it really isn’t fucking funny
I don’t know the reason for my fear but it gradually disappeared
with stable breathing I understood myself
the cold fever of a cold sweat hugged me
I smiled and closed the window that was wide open

I’m in the dark and I start to fuckin panic
I’m in the dark and I start to fuckin panic
I’m in the dark and I start to fuckin panic

Things I love about Cole in Asunder..

-His absolutely horrible luck. Seriously, at some point it becomes almost a running gag that if Cole is there, bad stuff will happen to him.

- Cole loving exploring tombs. Gives him a hobby and an idea why he’d know parkour and lockpicking.

-Cole dragging himself miles and miles after Rhys, simply out of worry. And his trip being (mostly) pointless. Somehow it makes it all more interesting.

-Cole, after being out of the Fade for 8 years, enters it again..and doesn’t know what it is.

-Cole vs the Darkspawn becoming a Benny Hill sketch.

-Cole’s inner-voice being panicy when Cole does his epic dragon splitting thing.

-Actually, just the fact that Cole has an inner-voice.

-The awkward as heck scene with Evangeline.

-Cole’s first real battle kills being clumsy and almost making him vomit afterwards from the rush.

-The battle in the sewers, its painful to read, but damn does Cole take a lot of hits.

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Ellie Goulding - EXIT Festival

Setlist:

Intro (Delirium)
Aftertaste
Holding on for Life
Goodness Gracious
Something in the Way You Move
Outside
Devotion
I Do What I Love (Interlude)
Keep on Dancin’
Don’t Need Nobody
Lights
Army 
Figure 8
On My Mind
Codes
Don’t Panic
I Need Your Love
Burn
Anything Could Happen
Love Me Like You Do

One thing i did today to calm me down and make myself a bit happy, since i got a bit scared and panicy this morning.                                                       But hey, just look at this adorable dork who just broke my heart in his route not even a week ago.                                                                                    

Their reactions to you giving birth (requested)

so Luke would totally freak out when you started going into labor. He would wake up during the night and notice that the bed was wet and he’d wake you up all panicy because he has no idea what is happening and you’d tell him that your water broke and that you need to go to the hospital so he’d take your baby bag (that you had packed and unpacked and packed again weeks previously) and bring you out to the car and drive you to the hospital. When you were actually giving birth I feel like he’d wanna see everything from the doctor’s end and watch your beautiful baby come out but you would whine and beg him not to leave because “it hurts” and during the process you would squeeze his hand and yell at him because he caused this. 

Calum would be waiting for the moment to happen since you first told him about your pregnancy. When you told him that you were going into labor he would have the biggest smile on his face because his baby is coming. During the birth he would be by your side and he’d let you squeeze his hand and he would kiss your forehead and whisper comforting things in your ear and just be so supportive and helpful through out the whole birthing experience.

Michael would be so terrified and would have absolutely no idea what to do. When you were brought to the hospital and you were taken into the room to birth your child he would settle down a bit and realise how much pain you were in and he would be there holding your hand giving you words of encouragement to get you through it. 

Ashton would be pretty ready for the day, he would’ve been on the phone with his mum the day before and just asked her questions about what to do so he felt pretty confident for when the day arrived. You would be brought to the hospital and the doctors would have you set up and everything. During the birth he would be a little freaked out as it was nothing like his mum had described but he stayed with you for the whole thing and helped with the birthing.