Panic Attack

Cold to hot, hot to cold
Heart starts pounding
Faster and faster
I can’t think, can’t speak
Breathing becomes harder
Gasping and wheezing, trying to catch a breath
Can’t get help when you can’t talk
Can’t take a deep breath when you can’t breath
So I lay there, till I pass out
I slip into my dreams where I should be safe
But everything’s worse when your trapped inside your own head

anonymous asked:

Hey i love so much your blog and i trust you on this one because you never let me down, so i was wondering if you could rec me some heavy angst. I have a mighty need for a hurt stiles but everything works for me,kisses and hugs

Anything with the words HEAVY ANGST immediately calls Angsty in like a…beacon.

HAHA DID I JUST MAKE A TEEN WOLF REFERENCE YES I DIDDDD

*coughs* So anyway. We have some Hurt!Stiles here, here, and here (OR our Hurt!Stiles tag), but none of these are a straight-up angsty Hurt!Stiles list, so let’s fix that now, yeah? 

Master Plan Redux by Rhoswen19

(3,259 I Teen I Complete I Warning: Panic Attacks I Episode 2x23/2x24 related)

Stiles gets thrown into the Argent basement while everybody is busy dealing with the Kanima situation elsewhere. After all is said, fought and done, Stiles body refuses to cooperate anymore but this time Derek is there for the breakdown. 

The Cost of Your Magic by ToriTC198

(6,260 I Teen I Complete)

Derek spun around on his heel in panic when the smell of Stiles’ blood hit him. It took a moment to process what was going on but then the four werewolves attacking the pack were suddenly spewing black and Stiles started grinning triumphantly.
Or the one where Stiles finds magic, a kind that demands a price be paid for each spell, and Derek starts to notice the cost Stiles pays.

Slipping Through My Fingers by I_glitterz

(8,184 I Mature I Complete I Warning: Panic Attacks I Locked for anyone not logged into an Ao3 account)

You don’t know how strong you are, until being strong is the only choice you have, Derek’s mother used to say.
At the time, he didn’t understand what she had meant.
Now, staring at the wall of the hospital waiting room he was sitting in, and listening to Stiles’ pulse spike and plummet over and over again as the doctors and nurses worked on him in ICU, he could say he now understood what his mom was talking about all those years ago.
*
Or, the one where Stiles gets injured trying to protect Derek.

Wolf Like Me Series by thatstallionkid

(8,612 I Teen I Complete)

“Do you even know why a wolf howls? It’s a signal. When a wolf’s alone, it howls to signal its location to the rest of the pack.”
-
The whole situation bothers Derek more than it should. It’s just - it’s just Stiles.Who cares if he shows up to training or not - he’s not pack.
He is not pack.

False Dawn (Stiles, it’s called zodiacal light) by ElisAttack

(11,145 I Explicit I Complete I Amnesia and Immortal!Stiles)

Stiles wakes up in the middle of the woods with no memory of how he got there.
Or the one where Stiles can’t die, but people keep hurting him anyway.

Into The Woods by TheTypewriterGirl

(23,376 I Teen I Complete)

While he and Derek are solving a mystery in the woods, Stiles is unexpectedly injured… And loosing blood fast. Will the stubbly, eye-rolling werewolf be able to get him back to safety in time? Along the way, the pair may discover they don’t despise the other as much as they think they do… As always: whump, bromance, and Sterek.
Derek rolled his eyes for what must have been the tenth time that day, stubbly chin crinkling with the strain of maintaing an extra-deep scowl for the past half hour. A mild headache had slowly mounted over those thirty minutes; the result of trying desperately to drown out the ceaseless stream of enthusiastic babble spewing from the mouth of the lanky teen walking ahead of him.
“Do you ever shut up?”
“Sourwolf, you should know by now that I really don’t.”

Tell me all your weaknesses by marshmallowfluff

(24,333 I Teen I Complete I Warning: Torture)

“Stiles did not normally start his afternoon with a stranger in the back of his Jeep, telling him to ‘Be quiet and don’t do anything stupid, or you’ll never see your precious father again.’”
Stiles isn’t very good at being quiet, and when has he ever not done something stupid?
In which Stiles is kidnapped by a Hunter with a vicious streak and a penchant for torture, and Derek (and Scott) is having none of that.

Among Sudden Betrayals by bemusedonion

(30,177 I Teen I Complete)

There’s something wrong with Stiles and it’s up to his friends to figure how to save him.
A story of really bad plans, demons, sarcastic uncles and daddy issues.

Watch the world burn by Skrigget

(58,575 I Explicit I Complete I Warning: Rape/Noncon, Abuse, Assault, Suicidal Thoughts)

“When we were sure you were going to survive,” Derek explains, “we had to tell him what had happened.”
“What had happened,” Stiles repeats in a strange, hallow tone of voice as he stares out of the window.
“Stiles,” Lydia says and steps closer. “You’re okay now.”
“You’re lying,” he whispers.
The pack is kidnapped and horrible things take place. When Stiles awakes from his coma he realizes that just because they’re not being held captive it doesn’t mean all their problems are over. Far from, actually. It seems like being kidnapped was just the beginning.
Nothing will ever be the same.

Give Me A Reason by siltoile

(61,623 I Explicit I Complete I Warning: Rape/Noncon, Alcoholism, Torture, Major Character Death (not Sterek!) I Amnesia)

The first time was a warning. The second time was for shits and giggles. The third time was for observation. The fourth time was for research.

Enjoy the tears (yesssssssss the whump!),

Angsty

Information about panic attacks

We were sent an anon ask about panic attacks, so thought we’d share these resources:

From mindcharity:

“A panic attack is an exaggeration of your body’s normal response to fear, stress or excitement. It is the rapid build-up of overwhelming physical sensations, such as:

- a pounding heartbeat
- feeling faint
- sweating
- nausea (feeling sick)
- chest pains
- feeling unable to breathe
- shaky limbs, or feeling like your legs are turning to jelly
- feeling like you’re not connected to your body

Having a panic attack can be truly terrifying experience, but there are things you can do.  

- For practical suggestions about how to manage anxiety and panic attacks, see our page on self-care for anxiety.
- You might also find it helpful to read our information about available treatments for anxiety.

More here

From NHS Choices:

“A panic attack can make you feel like you’re about to die but it’s usually harmless once the symptoms pass. However, in some cases, you may need medical advice to rule out an underlying physical cause. 

Seek medical advice if:

- Your panic attack continues after following these breathing techniques for 20 minutes.
- You still feel unwell after your breathing returns to normal.
- You still have a rapid or irregular heartbeat or chest pains after your panic attack.
- You regularly have panic attacks, as this could be a sign that you have panic disorder.”

More here

So I just had a panic attack and i was so close to blacking out. (I felt woozy as if I was losing control of my body and slowly drifting off to sleep, I was walking too) and my chest & throat hurt a lot. My chest still hurts a little but I’m laying with my parents taking deep breaths.

Do you guys have any tips or anything that could help me out because it’s never got this serious before

“I have a phobia of masks, school and sports mascots, and their creepy mascot suits, to the point where being near my own school’s mascot gives me panic attacks. I’ve spent years trying to get back to Disneyland, but now I’m terrified that when I finally do get there, I’ll be too scared of the masked characters to enjoy myself and the whole experience will be ruined.”

a friend of mine had a super nasty panic attack today so i thought i should share some of my strategies for calming down and cheering up a little after shit like that!

i find that fluffy tumblresque self-care is the most helpful for me in these situations, personally. ymmv.

-if you have access to a bathtub, take a nice hot soak. for best results, add bubble bath or bath salts or milk bath stuff (assuming you have such things on hand–a plain ol’ hot bath is nice on its own so don’t fret!). i like to turn the lights off and light a few candles too, myself, but that’s just me, and if your place doesn’t allow candles you probably should not do that. :P

-curl up with some blankets and plushies and binge on tv or youtube or netflix or whatever! (and make sure you’re wearing your comfiest pjs, natch.) you might also wanna make some hot cocoa or herbal tea to sip while you watch. shit works wonders, man. as for what you choose to watch, that’s totally up to you, but i tend to go for cute kids’ shows (mlp:fim and steven universe are good examples of what i mean) or silly comedies.

-hug a thing. if you have a willing friend or family member or datefriend nearby, they might work well, unless you need to be alone, which you might! plushies and my blankie are my go-to hugging objects, but a nice fat pillow will do just as well.

-listen to some of your favorite music. you should probably go for something lighthearted and/or funny–weird al is my go-to for this kinda thing–or maybe some calming instrumentals, but whatever works best for you personally is what you should go for, of course!

-take a nap. sleeping for a bit works FUCKING MAGIC for transient things like post-panic attack sads/worries. (but you might wanna set an alarm or two if you don’t wanna oversleep!)

-this might sound weird, but aromatherapy stuff can be really helpful. some scents (such as lavender–i even have a little lavender sachet!) are pretty much agreed to be calming. find out what works best for you!

anyway that’s how i deal with transient sadness and panic attack recovery, i hope this helps!

i-always-need-your-feels-alec asked:

Hi i was wondering if you could make a rec list of Stiles and Derek having huge fights/arguments and just a lot of angst and tears that would be amazing thank you so much

Hello i-always-need-your-feels! We already have lists here, here, and here for break up/misunderstandings fics, so this list will be more about angsty arguments instead! 

Two Days by TonyStarkIsARobot

(998 I Mature I Complete I Kid!Issac and past Stiles/Kate)

Derek and Stiles have been dating for four months. Stiles hasn’t mentioned that he has a kid.
Stiles also hasn’t mentioned how he got Isaac.
Until he mentions him, of course.
Words are exchanged in hurt and someone gets his ass laid flat out on the hardwood floor.

I Propose a Conversation by hazelNuts

(1,727 I General I Complete)

The night had started out great. He and Derek had gone on a double date with Lydia and Jordan. And then Lydia had made her announcement.

The Rain by anniecornstack

(1,844 I Explicit I Complete)

Derek’s actions leads to him and Stiles having a serious argument although Derek had meant no harm. 

I only want what’s best for you. by erciareyes

(2,099 I Mature I Complete)

“Don’t talk to me.”, Stiles hisses. “Don’t even think about coming closer either, Derek. You lied to me. You fucking lied to me.”
Derek’s shoulders have sunken down, his face a mosaic of emotions. He’s not even trying to hide his feelings away, not from Stiles and especially not now that they are fighting. He can feel Stiles anger waving off of him, right into his direction. Stiles is fuming, his heart is racing and Derek wants to tell him to calm down, if only because it’s not good for his heart.
“I am sorry, Stiles. I really am.”, he whispers and gives Stiles a guilty, apologetic look.

Mad by ericaismeg

(4,652 I Teen I Complete)

Scott pats his knee. “I get it, Stiles. It sucks that he hurt you. But I still think you should give him a second chance. He’s more miserable than you.”
He just stares at his best friend, trying to wrap his mind around the idea. He’s not in love with Derek Hale. That’s fucking ridiculous.
***
His sisters convince Derek to show up unannounced at Stiles’ door. Stiles has been mad with him for three months now, and it’s about time that Derek fixes that. And maybe, while he’s at it, he might accidentally reveal exactly how he feels about Stiles?

How I Long For Yesterday by sweetbutterbliss (the sweetbutterbliss?!?! Askjdfhdfgh)

(6,017 I Mature I Complete)

Stiles blinks, his throat going dry, and he moves his thumb without thinking - liking the post. He feels a surge of petty satisfaction. At least the fucker will know he knows now. He stands up, his body feeling too heavy, and he blows out the already guttering candles. He lets out a sob of frustration when the last one won’t fucking blow out. But he sucks it back in and bites down on his tongue, using his thumb and forefinger instead.
He throws himself into their empty bed without undressing. He lies there repeating the words ‘Derek blew me off for Isaac’ over and over. He tells himself to shut up while rearranging his pillow violently, but he goes to sleep with the refrain continuing its painful loop.

don’t you ever give up on us, my dear by orphan_account

(9,514 I Explicit I Complete)

“Tell you what’s wrong? Yeah, yeah I’ll do that, Derek. I’ll do that when I–you know what, nevermind.” Stiles ran his fingers through his hair. “Fuck it. I’m done. I’ll do this before you can.”
Derek was in the living room, mouth gaping, eyes wide and vulnerable. The look on his face was so unguarded that it probably would have made Stiles pause, but he was already at the door, gathering the handles of his old lacrosse duffel he hadn’t used in four years and pulling open the door, tumbling down the stairs with a gait that utterly displayed his grief while managing to convey that he was trying his hardest to look unaffected.

Human by marvelous_hale

(10,777 I Mature I Complete I Warning: Torture, Noncon Drug Use, Panic Attacks)

Derek sees Stiles with another guy and misinterprets their intentions completely; an argument ensues. They would both like to make up, but a new threat has arrived to Beacon Hills and may make it impossible for them to see each other again. Will they get the opportunity to say ‘I’m sorry’ or will the consequences of their actions be more severe than that expected?

Tried and Tested Series by dancinbutterfly

(total of 50,448 I Teen-Explicit I Possibly Complete I Parts 3, 4, 6, and 7 have major fights/angst. I Alpha/Beta/Omega, Cycles/In Heat, Mpreg)

In which Derek has a sex emergency with unplanned results, Stiles could be the baby daddy on one of those horrible MTV pregnancy shows, Sheriff Stilinski takes in strays and life in Beacon Hills never has a dull moment, not even when things are calm.

Enjoy the tears,

Angsty

To Those of You Who Struggle with Panic Attacks

We can get through this. Take slow deep breaths and be gentle with yourself. This fear will pass it always does. Maybe you don’t know what triggered you this time, maybe you do know, regardless you can get through this. Just keep breathing. We’re gonna be okay.