p:merthur

Okay but soulmate au where person B’s handwriting is so much of a mess that person A doesn’t even think it’s a soulmark because it just looks like a really strange birthmark. Cue all the angst because they think they don’t have a soulmate because obviously this scribble is just like a weird scar or something like that. Then they see this stranger write something on a piece of paper and just go oh and yell something like “so you’re the asshole that made me think that I was destined to be alone” because that handwriting looks a whole lot like the odd mark on their skin and person B is just like wtf

that feeling when you’ve been reading all those gentle soft happy fanfics where everyone is gay and in love and it’s not a big deal and their friends all support them.

and your favourite superhero couples and detectives and kings and warlocks are just domestic and happy.

and then you emerge into the real world and it’s just not like that.

you walk into your job in the morning and know that if anyone knew, you’d be out the door. kids use the word ‘gay’ as a slur and it might be silly but it makes something hurt inside your chest. you look at your mother and think of the words she’d use to cut you with if you told her. the disgust on her face. you have your family around you and you know it could all be shattered in a minute and it would be you who’d done it.

everyone assumes your straightness. people look at you strangely when you use ‘they/them’ pronouns when asking what their fiancé’s name is, bcs you don’t want to make the same mistake that others make with you. you file forms with spaces for the mother’s name and father’s name and wonder how you’d fill them out if you had a partner and a child. you work with children and wonder what they have to hide about themselves.

and then, sometimes, you go home and read some more fanfic. maybe you write some, or draw fanart if that’s your thing. that’s the best thing, that we’re dreaming about a better world. maybe we’re not famous or published or earning money for what we do. but writing and reading fanworks like this helps a heck of a lot of people, including me, feel happy and comforted and like it’s possible that they might belong one day. that it gets better.

thank you, everyone who creates fanworks where being gay is simply treated as normal. your work is healing and wholesome and full of heart and goodness. and much as i may love the canon, it’s not the canon - it’s the fanworks that are a safe haven to retreat to and recover and heal.

Soulmate AU

You and your soulmate switch bodies randomly as soon as both of you reach a certain age, person A is older and has already reached the age but doesn’t know when person B’s birthday is

Just as person B goes to sleep on their birthday they switched places with person A for the first time

Person A was on a roller coaster

Hi guys! It’s been a while. This is the cover art for Poetry of Eternity, a Chinese language Merthur anthology that’s going to print this month. I don’t know if you can tell but this was supposed to be two separate works, I just wasn’t able to finish either before the deadline so… like is anyone really surprised. Maybe later this year I would be able to? Hopefully.

I’d also to rec this gorgeous fic: Dream A Little Dream by TheWiseMansFear. I enjoyed it immensely, especially the dialogue between the characters, and that it had so few hits just really baffled me like ??? (A friend later told me it’s cos of the formatting but I the further I read the less I noticed, I was so engrossed…) It’s really quite brilliant, I promise.

actual canon lines in bbc merlin
  • “Tell me, Merlin, do you know how to walk on your knees?”
  • “(moaning) Arthur…Arthur, go faster…”
  • “I’ll have YOU for breakfast!”
  • “I have to pee. Sorry, unless you want to watch me.”
  • “Merlin can’t even find his own backside.”
  • “Three’s always better than one, eh, Merlin?”
  • “I’m always peeing, ask Arthur.”
  • “You’re not Merlin.”