Wish I could die now

So my computer got fucked up because of a freaking vista update and I had to do a factory restore. Last time I did that all my files were safe but this time around I really did lose everything. I really am just angry right now. What’s the point of even fixing the computer if I lost everything on it? All my art, videos, and pictures are gone now, besides the ones I have uploaded on different websites and it really kills me b/c that means I’ve lost all of those memories. I wish I would have uploaded all the pictures somewhere, I wish I never updated my stupid computer. I wish I could just recover all the files.