Nothing is ever going to compare to the feeling opiates give you. Trust me. I’ve tried everything. Uppers, downers, alcohol, so much fucking alcohol. But to not feel anything, mentally or physically, and I mean to be completely numb, that’s something you’re only ever going to get from opiates. And to be honest, I miss being a full blown junkie. I loved it. Almost more than life, maybe that’s why it took over so much. But fuck I miss it. I never felt a god damn thing. And you just can’t compete with that.