he's not coming home
Hide having a spare key to Kaneki’s place (or even picking the lock because he’s that intense) and going there weeks after Kaneki disappeared so that he can wear his clothes and sleep in his bed. Sometimes. Mostly he just lies awake and goes over what he did wrong. What he should have done differently.
Hide cleans the kitchen and talks out loud to Kaneki as though he’s in the next room over. He’s just not responding because he’s so absorbed in his book.
Hide finds one of his own shirts in the closet. He realizes that Kaneki never returned it because of the blood stain on the collar. He wonders why Kaneki chose to keep it instead of throwing it out.
Hide tries to read Takatsuki Sen’s novels but never makes it very far because he imagines every protagonist as Kaneki.
Hide drinks the coffee that Kaneki left in his kitchen. He learns to like it black and it feels like the last thing he has to share with him.
Hide keeping Kaneki’s place nicer than his own apartment.