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Things

You are not
A waste of time
Of space

You are not
Your mothers
Words
Your fathers
Stress

You are not
Your grades
College loans
or beat up car

You are not
Your dreams
Darkness
Demons

You are
Interesting
Intelligent

You are
The way my keys sound
When I type
Sleepless nights
The words I write

You are
Tobacco kisses
Coffee mugs
Sarcastic laughs
Making fun

You are
Home

You are
My world
My stars
My sun

You are
That smile
Those hands
The one who shines

You are so many things

But

You are not mine

Is it bad
That I feel
Prettiest
At 3am when
The sky is
Black
With my
Lips
Pursed around a
Burning
Cancer stick
Tapping my fingers
Against
My hip
Tapping my feet
To the sound of the
Insects
Is it Bad That i spend more time Wondering if
I too, will ever have a home
And someone to feel
Pretty
With me at
3am
When the sky is
Black
And our lips
Are pursed around
Cancer sticks

Instead of Missing you?

You’ve told me
About your
Dreams
And the
Darkness
That still surrounds you

How you feel about
Me
Now I just
Can’t live without
You

But it’s not
Fair
Because your heart
Is not yet mine

Constantly asking myself
“Am I wasting my time”

“Listen to
this song,”

He said

And I did
And I fell in
Love with its tune

“Listen to
Me,”

He said

And I did
And I fell in
Love with his voice

“Don’t listen to
Them,”

He said

And I didn’t
And I began
To fall in love
With me

“Trust me,”

He said

And I did
And I did
And I did
With my entire heart

“I love you.”

He said

And he did
And he left
And he made me
Different
Better
Me

Just a few words about you.

I know who you are
And I
See the real you
When you mumble under your breath
And laugh to keep the
Conversation
From becoming increasingly awkward
And I
See the real you
When you’re awake at 3am
Contemplating who you are
And where you’re going
Where you’ve been
And who you’ll keep around
But
When I see you
Walk toward me
And when I hear you
Speak passionately about something
Controversial
When you mumble under your breath
And stay up until 3am contemplating
Everything and everyone
And laugh to keep the conversation from getting
increasingly awkward

I see a boy who has changed my life
And I see a boy who is too scared to try and change his own