overwhelming repetition

“It’s like you switch your emotions on and off whenever you please”

Think of me as a colourful strobe light. A different colour in the blink of an eye. Now imagine the colours are emotions.

Rage, guilt, disgust, joy, depression, panic, impulsive, paranoia, jealousy, confidence, love, fear, rage, guilt, disgust, joy, depression, panic, impulsive, paranoia, jealousy, confidence, love, fear, rage, guilt, disgust, joy, depression, panic, impulsive, paranoia, jealousy, confidence, love… over and over again. 

Now, imagine these strobe lights don’t have an off switch. You have to carry on your day with these overwhelming, repetitive and uncomfortable lights in your face all day, every day. You wake up and they are there. They follow you around. Sometimes the lights don’t seem so bright, that’s a good day. But on the bad day’s they are blinding. 

That’s what it is like to have the mood swings in borderline personality disorder. 

anonymous asked:

I can't tell if my story didn't go through or if you just get a lot of asks

obv i cant know who you are or what you sent so it could be either, i get A LOT of asks. like it probably averages anywhere from 20-50 daily depending on how active i am online.

also i cant publish every story i get. if i posted every one, it would be overwhelming and a little repetitive. so i have to pick and choose, especially the ones that are most interesting/unusual, etc. (which is often a matter of my highly biased opinion, and not a reflection of you in any way.)