Hii! I know it’s been forever since I wrote something and I’m very sorry. There’s been so much on my mind lately and so many things that made me feel overwhelmed and I just needed to sort it out. This is kind of very loosely based on ‘Love me or leave me’ by Little Mix because someone requested it. I hope you like it. I plan on writing a second part.xxx
“Well, maybe I don’t fucking care anymore!”
It seemed like his booming voice made the whole house vibrate. It seemed like it cut right through Y/N. His words felt like he took a knife and rammed it into her heart and to top it all off he twisted it slowly so the pain had time to spread.
These last weeks felt like nothing but pain for her. He was never home and even when he was he somehow wasn’t. She let him in and he pushed her away. He pushed her so far away she couldn’t feel him anymore.
“Why are you still here then!?”
She had had enough. If he didn’t care anymore he could walk out the door and never come back.
Harry scoffed, turned around and walked up the stairs. When he slammed the bedroom door shut Y/N could feel the last bit of connection between them slipping away completely.
It’s never been this harsh. They slammed doors and yelled hurtful things before but it’s never been like this. Somehow this felt final.
She didn’t know how it happened, how everything between them began to crumble. But it did.
She didn’t feel his loving touch in at least three months. She didn’t hear his loving words in at least three months.
They fought almost every day and when they didn’t fight they didn’t talk to each other at all. Mornings were spent alone and cold, both waking up at their own times without a good morning kiss or a cuddle or anything at all. Nights were even worse. They went to sleep in the same bed but facing away from each other. They never solved their problems before bed. They broke their rule every single night and went to bed angry.
And even though right now Y/N might think it would be better if their paths would part she also knew she wouldn’t recover from it. Harry was the love of her life. She knew she could never be happy without him.
And so she broke down. Ugly sobs and fat tears. The whole weight of the last few months finally got too much and she couldn’t take it anymore. She was sure she’s never cried this much in her entire life. She was sure she never felt so hurt but numb at the same time before.
She didn’t know what the hell went wrong. What she did to push him away. What she did that made him stop loving her. He doesn’t love you anymore.
Those were the words that constantly replayed in her head, after every fight. He hates me.
She couldn’t find another explanation. That was the only reason she could think of as to why he wasn’t interested in fixing things between them.
When she met him she was sure he was the most wonderful person she’s ever met. He looked at her as if she was the most important thing on earth. He cooked the most delicious dinner for her. He held doors for her. He made her laugh and feel appreciated.
When she really got to know him she was knocked off her feet. He was the most gentle and loving man she could have ever imagined. He was there for her. He was the place she ran to when the world overwhelmed her. He was her happy place. Her home.
When things got a bit rough they stuck together. They were a team. They faced everything together and fought through it.
Y/N was the happiest girl ever. She thought she found her forever. Her happily ever after.
Until the perfect relationship began to change into great, then good, then normal and then…
Into whatever they had now.
She couldn’t take it anymore. And the worst thing was that there was no way out of this hell. They can’t go back to where they’ve once been. And parting ways? No fucking way could she survive without him.
It was three hours and twenty tissues later when Harry finally exited the bedroom and came down the stairs. Y/N was standing in front of the big living room window which had a view over what seemed like half of London. Her back was turned to Harry, her hair messy and her frame slightly shaking.
She knew that whatever would come now would change everything. She knew that they reached a point were something had to happen. Anything.
Harry took a deep breath and took the last few step towards her. Y/N closed her eyes when she felt his warmth. She hadn’t felt it in so long.
When he reached his hand out thread his fingers through hers she flinched. Harry could feel his heart breaking at her reaction to his touch. He closed the gap between them and pressed his chest flush against her back. That’s when Y/N started to cry again. Her whole body shook with the force of her tears and the whimpers and sobs seemed to get louder with every passing second.
“Shhh.” Harry tried to calm her and finally wrapped his arms around her from behind.
He nuzzled his face into her neck where she always smelled so good and that’s when he realized how long he hasn’t done that.
Y/N moved her arms so she could intertwine both her hands with his. She didn’t remember the last time she held his hand. She used to love his hands so much, always playing with his fingers and kissing his knuckles.
Harry kept pressing tiny kisses to her shoulder and squeezed her tighter to him every time a whimper left her lips.
They stood like that for at least ten minutes before Y/N turned around in his arms and hugged him again. He wrapped his arms around her shoulders, his hands stroking softly over her back while her hands were fisting his shirt. She couldn’t get close enough. She needed him closer. Her hands wandered down underneath his shirt to touch his skin. Harry shuddered when her cold hands touched his skin but he knew she needed this. She hasn’t felt his skin in forever. It almost felt foreign.
When they finally pulled away from each other both of them were scared to let go. This couldn’t be it. They needed each other.
“We have to talk, Harry.” she whispered and pressed her forehead against his.
“I know, my love.” My love.
Was she still his love?
She thought he hated her.
They sat down at the kitchen table across from each other. Both of them couldn’t be fast enough to reach out for each other again and when their hands bumped against each other they both laughed softly. For the first time in months.
None of them wanted to be the first to say anything. Until Harry finally couldn’t take the silence anymore.
“I didn’t mean anything that I said earlier. Or… in the last few weeks. God, what is happening with us?”
“I don’t know, Harry. But it can’t keep going like this. I can’t take it anymore.”
“Me neither, love. I know I didn’t show how much it was affecting me but I want you to know that I feel just as broken as you do.” Broken.
Is that what they’ve become?
“I… I thought you hated me. During all these times you pulled away or turned your back towards me, I thought you hated me.”
Harry’s free hand reached out to hers so he could clasp her hand in both of his.
“I never ever hated you. Not for a second. And I never will.”
Y/N felt like a huge weight was lifted from her shoulders and she felt like she could breath again.
“I love you so much, darling.” Harry whimpered.
Her head snapped up so she could look at him and when she saw tears running down his cheek she reached over the table to wipe them away.
“I love you too, Harry. So much.”
Harry removed her hand from his face and pressed gentle kiss to ever knuckle.
“What are we going to do, love? I want to fix this. I want to go back to being the happiest couple ever. I want to go back to being happy with each other.”
“Me too, Harry. God, I’d do everything to get back to what we once had.”
They stared into each other’s eyes until Y/N cleared her throat and diverted her eyes to the table.
“I-I think we need a break.”
Harry’s whole world stopped in that moment. His mouth fell open and his brows furrowed. He pulled his hands from hers and a breathless ‘no’ left his lips.
“No.” He repeated after a moment.
“Harry, listen. I-”
“No!” he shouted.
Y/N flinched and her ears began to ring like every time he raised his voice at her. Her eyes closed and tears began to dribble down her cheeks.
“Do you think I’m stupid? I know exactly what’s going to happen when we do that. You’re going to realize just how unhappy I make you and that you are so sick and tired of me and you’ll never come back. Or you’ll find someone else who makes you laugh more than I ever did. God, I’m going to be gone for two weeks for promo. Is that not enough distance and space for you?!“
“Harry, I need time okay? I need time to take care of myself. I need time for sorting things out. I need time so that this all can work again and if you’re honest, you need it too.”
He laughed humorlessly and crossed his arms over his chest.
“You will have that time when I’m gone.”
“I-I don’t think two weeks are going to be enough.”
His eyes caught hers and she swore she’s never seen him look at her like that. So sad but angry at the same time.
“Two weeks are nothing, Harry.”
“There’s been times when you couldn’t go a single day without me. There’s been times where two weeks without each other seemed like the end of the world.”
She closed her eyes and tried to control the tears which constantly blurred her sight.
“I don’t think we can sort anything out in two weeks.”
“I don’t think we can sort anything out when we’re away from each other.”
He closed his eyes briefly and sighed.
“No fucking way!”
This time it was Y/N’s turn to sigh.
“One month. And not a single day longer.”
She caught his eyes for a moment before she nodded.
They sat in silence for several minutes, both didn’t know what to say.
“I-I thought I’d stay in a hotel for the two weeks before you’re gone and then I’ll come back.”
“No. Please, I-… I want to know you’re safe. You’ll stay here and I’ll stay with Gemma.”
“If that’s okay with you.”
“No, it’s actually not.”
She looked at him with the saddest eyes he ever saw and he shook his head and and sighed.
“I’m gonna go pack some stuff and then you won’t have to deal with me anymore.”
“Harry, I did not suggest a break because I want to get away from you as quickly as possible. I want to fix this. And I feel like some distance is the only way to sort things out. Or at least make the first step.”
He didn’t say anything but just left the kitchen and went upstairs to pack a few things. For some reason Y/N couldn’t help but feel guilty. Of course she knew he wouldn’t be happy with taking a break, she wasn’t either. But she hoped he could at least understand where she came from.
When he came down the stairs half an hour later with two big duffle bags Y/N almost felt like crying again. She watched him, how he placed them beside the front door, wiped his tears away, took a deep breath and turned around to make his way to the kitchen so he could say goodbye but she was already standing in the foyer. They stared at each other for a few moments before Harry cleared his throat and removed a greasy strand of hair from his face.
“I’ll go now, I guess.”
“Yeah.” Y/N nodded and sniffled.
He looked at her for another few seconds before he let out a frustrated sigh.
“Can I at least get a hug?”
He saw the surprise on her face but she nodded anyway and took the last few steps towards him. She slung her arms tightly around his neck and pressed her body tightly to his and Harry wrapped his arms around her waist and squeezed her to his chest. He pressed kisses to her shoulder and neck and stroked over her back in gentle patterns.
When they pulled away a bit Y/N reached up to cup his cheeks and stroke over his skin.
“I love you. Nothing changed about that and nothing is going to change. I don’t want you to worry about me breaking up with you. I couldn’t imagine life without you.”
Harry pressed his forehead to hers and pulled her body even closer.
“Will you say goodbye when I’ll leave for New York? Don’t think I could leave without seeing you before.”
“I’ll think about it, okay?”
Harry sighed but nodded.
“C-Can I kiss you?” he asked her in a whisper.
She leaned in and connected her lips to his as an answer, his bottom lip slipping between hers. She kissed him four times before she pulled away a bit to look up at him again.
“I love you. You know that, right?”
She nodded and smiled softly at him.
“I love you, too.”
Harry gazed into her eyes for another few seconds before he pressed a few gentle kisses against her lips again. He pulled away from her then and took his duffle bags.
“I’ll let you know when I’ll leave for New York. You can call me or come over anytime you need, okay?”
“Okay. You can come over or call as well. Even if it’s the middle of the night.”
He nodded and opened the door.
“Take care, yeah?”
“You too, love.”
“I love you.”
“I love you, too.”
And just like that he left.
Aries and Virgo are interestingly sensitive. Both signs handle this sensitivity differently. Virgo prevents such sensitivity by establishing plans and routines. Aries prevents such sensitivity by arguing and being assertive. It’s as if both signs are overwhelmed by the world, yet at the same time they appreciate the beauty of it. The beauty of the world keeps Aries exploring with curiosity. The beauty of the world motivates Virgo to serve and coexist with others within it.
Both signs are esoterically ruled by Mercury, a planet of quickness, but also a planet of youth. Youth is often tied to Gemini, but the youth of Virgo exists. Virgo, representing the virgin, experiences everything like it’s the first time. The first time is always the scariest time. You don’t know what to expect, you don’t know what you’ll see. This is why Virgo plans and organizes. This is why Virgo gets nervous when things don’t go according to plan. Virgo, like Aries, is overwhelmed and scared, but they will cover that fear with practicality. Aries covers their fear with confidence and impulse.
Both signs are able to cover their fears to do something great. They are both willing to go great lengths to cover up their fear with essential, needed skills. With this in mind, both signs use their fears to make themselves stronger.
This spread has been a while coming, but what with the recent awful attack in London, it pushed me to finesse it and share it for all of us who are finding the continuing waves of horrifying news from around the world overwhelming and emotionally blinding.
It seems like every incident, every report, every political move, makes it harder to see clearly through the clouds of pain, anger, and fear. This spread was designed specifically to help us clear our minds and actually work out a personal way to contribute to making the world a little kinder, while making sure you’re not becoming emotionally and spiritually drained.
Please feel free to share with anyone you feel could use it and use your tarot skills to bring a little comfort and peace to others xxx
Astrological Counseling based on Your Most Afflicted Planet
For those of you still learning, afflicted means that a planet is
receiving hard aspects. For example, if your Uranus has squares, a quincunx,
semi-squares, and an opposition to it, this is afflicted.
Moon: You have to experience your emotions fully and acknowledge each
hard aspect and how it plays out in your life. Use your moon sign to express your
feelings. Exhale all the times you’ve been hurt and nurture your inner child
without letting it come out as immaturity. Inhale the love of the universe and
visualize it wrapping around your soul.
Sun: You’ve been made to feel inadequate or that you don’t matter.
Build yourself up from within, pursue creative projects when you are all by
yourself so you have no concern for others’ criticisms. You can even literally
stand in the warmth of the sun and visualize your self-esteem building. Exhale
all your moments of embarrassment and inhale an acceptance that many things
weren’t as big of a deal as you made them out to be.
Mercury: Realize that all the times you were made to feel dumb were
just because those around you didn’t understand the way your mind works. Keep
your intellect sharp by challenging yourself to read stimulating information,
do word games, anagrams, Sudoku, puzzles, math equations, and logic exercises to create
new mental pathways. Spread your ideas to those who listen, brush off those who
don’t. Every time you get an idea, write it down so that it doesn’t slip away.
Don’t cling to a hope that your thoughts and ideas will be recognized, the
universe appreciates you even if that novel of yours hardly sells any copies.
It is worth it to put your projects out there.
Venus: Realize that current beauty standards are based in perversion. You
are a goddess full of grace if you choose to find it and embrace it. Your
femininity could have been wounded by trauma or just having been made to feel
like you don’t fit what women are expected to be. You can break free from
gender norms and find yourself. Release guilt and allow yourself to experience
pleasure. In a man’s chart where Venus is afflicted, the way he perceives women is tainted by all the times that women lied to him or manipulated him. He must learn to not project his hurt onto women.
Mars: You feel like you’ve had to fight all your life. Others may not
give you a break but you can give yourself a break. Make time in your day to
release anger thru physical activity, exhaling frustrations, going into nature
to inhale peace. You are exhausted because this world expects you to be full of
drive and ambition. Realize that aspiring to excel might not actually bring you
fulfillment. You may always feel the need to do more, but release expectations,
worry less about accomplishment and more about health. Allow yourself to get
more than enough rest, this competitive world is not the way humans are meant to
Jupiter: Your capacity to have “abundance mindset” has been squashed
by all the times you had to ration your resources. You can learn healthy
indulgences and be reasonable about cutting down on what is unnecessary. You
are hesitant to be generous because you have experienced not having enough.
When you receive positive aspects transiting your natal Jupiter, you’ll be able
to lighten up (I can tell you when these happen)! Gaining more knowledge hasn’t
happened as well as you’d like. Jupiter afflicted makes it difficult to have an
optimistic disposition but you can choose to find light in many situations.
Saturn: You feel like this world is constantly beating you down and you
rarely get cut slack. Use this to find compassion for those who are struggling
and learn to be lenient with them, realizing that they may not have as great
capabilities as you do. You’re tempted to judge others because you had people
treat you harshly and now you feel frustrated at those who take it easy. You
feel resentment towards people who don’t realize the same things you’re aware
of. You can find the balance between diplomacy and being realistic, despite
your tendency to point the finger at peoples’ faults. You’ve had to work hard
and you subconsciously dump your hardships on others whom you think had less
strife than you. Find the lightness in your heart, consider all angles of a
situation instead of coming down on someone else. Work thru your inner angst,
allow yourself to feel what you have suppressed.
Uranus: Chaos has brewed inside you because you didn’t get the chance
to experience your wild side in a healthy way. You were taught that stepping
out of line would get you in trouble, so you felt like you had no choice but to
obey, even when the rules felt unnecessary to you or when the leaders were
controlling you out of their ego instead of based on what is best for everyone.
An example of this is if a child is taught to go along with what parents say,
not question and not talk back, these children grow up with very little
self-worth and incompetency at thinking for themselves. Remind yourself that
questioning and rebelling doesn’t make you disrespectful, it makes you a free
thinker. In your adult life you feel compelled to do crazy things because of
how boxed in you were before, and you have the choice to be wise about letting
out your Uranian nature and finding healthy outlets.
Neptune: Life circumstances have prohibited you from fully
experiencing your connection to the divine. Having to act practically without
getting the chance to develop your intuition has dimmed your soul. You feel
like something is missing in your life but you’re not sure what. It is possible
that you went thru a phase where you were seeking your next high, to lose
yourself in altered consciousness out of your overwhelm of the real world
pounding on you. Make time to develop your soul, attending an organized retreat
would be beneficial to you. Spend time in nature, feeling how the dirt between
your toes connects you up to the sky. Silence your mind while holding stones
and allow yourself to slip into other dimensions. Hypnotism would be
therapeutic for you. You can discover your connection to spirituality by learning
to let life be as it is, then opening yourself to the vastness of the unknown.
Meditate on that concept alone.
Pluto: The times you had your power taken away from you has built up
inside you as a compulsion to make others feel less powerful. You dominate
conversations and like to psychoanalyze others. Realize that just because you
may have studied psychology does not mean you are correct about the motivations
behind someone’s actions. People aren’t as manipulative as you may project them
to be. Learn to be gentler about what you perceive to be someone’s faults. You
can be the Phoenix rising from the ashes if you choose to be.
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Sometimes the all details of this world overwhelm me…most of the time they excite me and make think wow how beautiful and psychedelic life is but sometimes the amount of possibilities and the amount of particles and little markings everywhere and how big this universe is make me feel like I am maybe missing something or missing out or maybe i am everywhere i should be the best place to be. who knows. too much to process
pairing: yoongi x reader genre: angst wordcount: 4k Some people you just can’t let go of. For you, that person is Min Yoongi.You’re holding onto him, even though you know you shouldn’t. He’s breaking you apart. But no matter how hard you try, you can’t walk away.
warning: elements of an emotionally abusive and toxic relationship
Chirrut seeing the world, seeing HIMSELF from Baze’s eyes (”darling you don’t suit my face, you need to smile more”), seeing Jedha City, so different from his fuzzy memories, seeing the Empire’s flags and having a face to direct his contained fury towards. seeing the Temple ruins and the beautiful sunset. seeing his own bruised knuckles and the pendant Baze gave him. it’s overwhelming, it’s his world unfolding again like the sun hitting a long-dormant flower
seeing Baze. staring at Baze’s face in a mirror for a long, long time, committing it to memory with fervent desperation. the crinkles at his kind eyes and the smile he’s felt countless times with his hands and his mouth
and BAZE. Baze who’s in Chirrut’s body, thanks to this mishap Chirrut assures him will correct itself. seeing nothing but darkness and light, fumbling and tripping from the centre of gravity shift as much from the blindness. gains, if possible, an even deeper sense of respect and fucking adoration for Chirrut for navigating their life with such wild grace. he’s panicking and doesn’t know how to school his face away from it, he’s not used to having a sighted audience for his rawest moments, even though Chirrut can always feel his way around his pain
when they’re swapped back, Baze tries not to let his relief show, tries not to let Chirrut feel it. the idea of never seeing Chirrut’s face again is devastating, and now Chirrut will never see him again. Baze couldn’t stand it. as always though, those fighting hands he loves map him out with new knowledge, and find the hidden places where the hurt rests. I see how you look at me, says Chirrut, because I looked at you the exact same way in that mirror, and Baze thinks maybe the Force had the right idea this time
27 THINGS PEOPLE DON’T REALIZE YOU’RE DOING BECAUSE YOU’RE A HIGHLY SENSITIVE PERSON
BY JENN GRANNEMAN - IntrovertDear.com
Being a highly sensitive person (HSP) is like having your internal dial turned up just a little more than other people’s dials. You notice subtle details that others don’t notice, and certain situations impact you more than they impact non-HSPs. Your sensitivity is your greatest strength — it makes you a perceptive, compassionate, creative person — but it can also be your greatest challenge. Often, you do things to protect your sensitive system, and other people don’t realize the real root of your actions.
Here are 27 things that people don’t realize you’re doing because you’re an HSP. These things may not be true of every HSP (we’re individuals, after all), but I believe this list is generally true; it draws on research by Dr. Elaine N. Aron, author of The Highly Sensitive Person.
1. When you’re in a loud, busy place — like a bar, restaurant, or party — and you shut down because you’re overwhelmed by so much sensory input.
2. When a commercial that shows abused animals comes on TV and you have to change the channel, because seeing such cruelty nearly makes you burst into tears. Likewise, you cover your eyes during a gory fight scene in a movie because the blood and violence make you feel sick to your stomach.
3. When you have a particular bedtime or morning routine because doing things the same way each day brings you comfort. Chaos, change, and the unknown can be quite stressful and overwhelming for you.
4. If your roommate or significant other walks up behind you without making noise, you jump sky-high like a frightened cat when you do notice them. Because of your sensitive nervous system, you tend to startle easily.
5. When a friend, coworker, or partner raises their voice slightly at you and you immediately become anxious. Dealing with conflict — even minor disagreements — can quickly become overstimulating. Likewise, when there is ongoing tension in a close relationship, such as with your spouse or a family member, you might feel physically unwell and have trouble sleeping.
6. Even when people who are complete strangers are fighting (like a couple at a nearby table in a restaurant), you get uncomfortable.
7. In school, when the teacher scolded another student for something, you became anxious, even though you had nothing to do with the situatoin.
8. When you have to finish an assignment or a task by a deadline and you become increasingly stressed out to the point where you can only think about that one task — HSPs tend to be quite sensitive to time pressure.
9. When you fall in love, you fall hard. It feels like your whole world is changing. This can be exhilarating, but so exhilarating that it’s almost overwhelming. You’re happy about this exciting change, but regardless, it’s still a change, and that can make you feel overstimulated.
10. Being a sponge that constantly absorbs the moods of the people around you. Sometimes this gets to be so overwhelming that you want to be by yourself, just so you can feel only your own feelings.
11. When you feel so exhausted after a busy day at work that you head straight home and lie down in a darkened, quiet room to calm your overactive senses.
12. When someone who is wearing very strong perfume walks into a room and you have to move away from them because the smell is overpowering to your ramped-up senses.
13. When you refuse to eat certain foods, like seafood or berries that are very tart, because the smells/tastes cause a very strong reaction in you.
14. When you get so hungry that you can’t concentrate on what you’re doing — HSPs tend to be especially sensitive to dips and spikes in blood sugar.
15. You don’t drink coffee because caffeine has a strong effect on you. Likewise, alcohol affects you very strongly, more so than most other people.
16. When you can pinpoint exactly what makes a room physically uncomfortable or unwelcoming — bright florescent lights, chairs with hard backs, or the way the furniture is arranged.
17. When you have a very strong reaction to art, music, or other beautiful things. No one else seems to be as moved as you are; beautiful sounds or sights can put you into a near trance-like state.
18. Because you have a vivid inner world, your daydreams and nightmares are intense. Similarly, you tend to be a creative, artistic, and imaginative person.
19. When you’re in pain — like a headache or an injury — you really feel it. HSPs tend to have a lower pain tolerance than non-HSPs.
20. When you tell your friends that you can’t hang out tonight because you feel so overstimulated already — from a busy work day, a busy weekend, or stress in your life.
21. You avoid going to stores when you know there will be a lot of people there; it’s too much noise and activity for your sensitive system.
22. When you’re sensitive to the volume of music or other things. You’re always trying to move the controls by a millimeter or two to get the level just right.
23. When you notice little things in your surroundings, like how your friend’s mood subtlety changed when you brought up a certain topic. When you point this out, your friend is surprised that you picked up on that detail.
24. When you don’t get enough sleep so everything feels literally awful the next day.
25. At work, you end up doing a worse-than-normal job when your boss is watching and evaluating you. For HSPs, the mere presence of a person who is watching them can be overstimulating.
26. When you feel things very strongly — sadness, anger, and joy.
27. You seek meaning in everything you do, from the career you chose to the relationships you maintain to the conversations you partake in. As an HSP, you want to engage with the deeper aspects of life.
Want to learn more about being an HSP? We recommend Dr. Elaine N. Aron’s book, The Highly Sensitive Person: How to Thrive When the World Overwhelms You.
(&:) We’re breaking our long repost/shitpost/unnecessary comment tradition for the sake of the most awesome game we’ve seen in a long, long time. ChristopherOdd’s LP of Horizon: Zero Dawn just ended today and we’ve been licking the bottom of the barrel to try and find new things to watch because the emptiness in our souls is real and profound. This game is so fucking good. It would be pointless to try and list off all the ways in which it is so, so good. If you can get your hands on it, it’s amazing. If you’re broke like us and just like watching vids while eating, COdd’s LP is quite pleasant. (His work is generally a restful breath of fresh air compared to most other LPers I’ve watched.) OMG, it HURTS, how good this game was. It is so overwhelmingly good, all the damn time.
Do you know what one of the most unexpected and wonderful parts of the plot was? NO ROMANTIC SUBPLOT. AT ALL. NOT EVEN THE OPTION TO START ONE. The main character is just an incredibly skilled, attractive, 19-year-old woman who has WAY TOO MANY IMPORTANT THINGS TO DO TO BOTHER WITH THAT RIGHT NOW, AND IT IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THING I HAVE SEEN A MAINSTREAM PLOT DO IN AGES.
THAT DUDE: Gosh, thanks for saving my life, Aloy. You’re amazing. I made special armor just for you. I worked really hard. *___* ALOY: Wow, nice. Good craftsmanship. Thank you.
THAT OTHER GUY: You are such a mighty warrior that you might even be a mightier warrior than my mom. I am constantly stunned by your badassery. You’re even favored by the local deity. Please allow me to follow faithfully wherever you lead. *_____* ALOY: Sounds good. How about you manage our defenses out yonder. I’ll be counting on you in that one battle.
THAT SUBPLOT GUY?: Girl, I have never seen anybody who looks as good splashed down in the blood of evildoers as you do. We should partner up together and spend our lives happily taking out human trash all over the world. Also, I look fucking scrumptious in this armor. ;D ;D ;D ALOY: Wow, you’re kind of creepy and sociopathic. I hope I never have to see you again.
OTHER OTHER GUY: I may be a bumbler with motivational issues, but I have a heart of gold and a lot of enthusiasm! Thanks to your guidance, I’m turning my life around and growing to become a better, more effective human being! How are you amazing like how my sister was amazing?? *______* ALOY: Good for you. I have faith in your ability to do well from now on.
THAT TOTAL BABE: Allow me to openly hit on you, you super cutie. ALOY: Allow me to not acknowledge that because I have to fix a civil war and kill robot dinosaurs. THAT TOTAL BABE: My, I love how you get things done. If I come through here again, I’ll have to Thank You Appropriately~~~ ALOY: *pulls out to-do list and starts plotting map coordinates*
ACTUAL KING OF THE CIVILIZED WORLD: I know my love interest was horribly murdered, but you’ve supported me through my time of trials and I wonder if we could work toward more intimacy. ALOY: Gee, if you really loved your love interest, perhaps you shouldn’t instantly rebound hard enough to get whiplash. ACTUAL KING OF THE CIVILIZED WORLD: Damn, you’re absolutely right. (much later) ACTUAL KING OF THE CIVILIZED WORLD: Hey, I apologize for hitting on you before. That was really unclassy of me. ALOY: We’re cool. Just don’t let it happen again.
EVIL SPARTAN VOICED BY CRISPIN FUCKING FREEMAN: HRRRGHH I HATE THIS WOMAN IN THE DEPTHS OF MY BEING AND YET SHE IS SO POWERFUL AND MAGNIFICENT THAT I MUST BECOME OBSESSED WITH SNARING HER AND FANTASIZE ABOUT HOW WE ARE DESTINED TO DESTROY EACH OTHER HRRRGH RRGGGHH ALOY: You’re being an obstacle, you inadequate scrub. *stab*
CUTE ENGINEER: Your tech-savviness is painfully charming. I am dazzled despite myself. ALOY: Your enormous weapon is great for killing all kinds of things. Really nice work! CUTE ENGINEER: I may be a fiercely independent isolationist, but please come back and see me lots. ALOY: Probably not. Got stuff to do. CUTE ENGINEER: Well, don’t mind me if I accidentally turn up to fight and possibly die for you at that one big battle. *_____* ALOY: Reinforcements are always appreciated!
I don’t know if this might be called a canon asexual character. I think you could spin it that way if you wanted to, but I also think that a character shouldn’t have to be asexual in order to just have rational priorities and to thus understandably rate flirting/romance/hookups as really low on the list compared to genocide and world-ending. I really, really like both explanations. I LOVE the lack of an obligatory romance. I EXTRA LOVE how they deliberately included all those characters who crush so hard on Aloy so that she can be completely unconcerned about their dokidoki. I FUCKING ADORE THIS GAME TO PIECES. NUMBER ONE NON-ANIME WAIFU. WILL NOT PRINT ON A DAKIMAKURA COVER BECAUSE I RESPECT ITS UNIQUE INTERESTS AND LIFE AMBITIONS. MY HEART~~~~~ TTT_____TTT