Every time I have the ability to love, I can’t love, because of the fear you’ve caused me. Every time I have the ability to be happy, I can’t be happy, because of the feared you’ve caused. Every time I have the ability to cry, I cry, because of the fear you’ve caused me. You’ve caused an impeccable amount of fear that I will never overcome.
It was only when I reached the end of my fight did I realize that there’s nothing to fight for. Our bodies are not battle grounds, our illnesses are not wars to be won or lost, and the biggest determinating factor of the quality of our lives is our will, or our reason for living.
I’ve learned to take a step back & stop trying to understand all the ‘whys’ & ‘how comes’ that go along with this world & this life. I’ve learned that sometimes you really have to say ‘FUCK IT’ & just LIVE IT.