overall music


papa bear and moma kiki

1. if you turn the volume all the way up, and listen to your favorite song with your eyes closed, you will feel less alone.

2. when you fall in love with being alone you will learn a lot about who you are; then, when you are surrounded by people, you won’t feel so afraid, you won’t feel so out of place. because when you are sure of yourself you don’t feel so obliged to fit, in some place.

3. you will meet people who have never heard your favorite song. and you may not fully understand, but somehow you will trust them with enough of your heart to recommend it to them. those who matter will listen. and they will surprise you.

4. in all your years on this earth, you have learned more than you think. you are more capable than you realize.

5. you don’t know everything. you are not the best, at anything, and you are never the only one. you are not the only one looking for a place to exist honestly - you are not the only one willing to create a place, to exist honestly. people will surprise you.

6. people love you - people will love you. even when you don’t want them to. even when you are ready to give up, even when you are at your lowest point and everyone you love doesn’t have the words you need to hear - they still love you. they will always love you, in whatever way they know how. and it will be enough.

7. God exists. there are shadows you will try to hide behind, and excuses you will try to build - but God exists in the realest way imaginable.

8. these things, this growing, takes time. do not rush it. do not expect to be something, or someone, you’re not - just because someone says you should be. take time to breathe. don’t worry so much about who you’re becoming, rather, focus on what you’re doing. make art. love others. write poems about your love for the moon; learn to love the sun. don’t cling so tightly to the identity that has been handed to you. don’t be so afraid to do what the ache in your chest is telling you to do; do not be so afraid to reach for something, to act on something, bigger than yourself. and you will find, with time, that you’ve become exactly who you need to be.

9. eventually everything will fall into place. it is hard to believe now, that this heartbreak is preparing you for love. it is difficult to grasp, that this displacement - being thrown into such harsh uncertainty - will light your path home. but, listen: you are not a mistake. you are not an accident. you are living, with purpose, and everything surrounding you - every person connected to you, every moment that touches you - is going to make sense one day. i promise, it will all make sense one day. just wait.


Dear Me, (things i learned in 2016) / misplacedpens

things i learned in 2015
things i learned in 2014


1989′ is now the first album by a female artist in history, second overall, to have three music videos reach one billion views on VEVO.


Watched in 2017 #32

The Lego Batman Movie (2017), dir. Chris McKay ★★★★

Screen: Regal Henrietta Stadium 18

“Memory” Original lyrics

Did y’all know that Tim Rice submitted a set of lyrics for “Memory” when Cats was still being developed in London?

IIRC, “Memory” was written at the behest of Trevor Nunn really wanting a big, showstopping ballad for the show, leading ALW to compose the melody without any lyrics. They then contacted a host of lyricists to pen a potential lyric, among them Tim Rice, who initially balked but then agreed once Elaine Paige joined the show as Grizabella. Rice’s lyric is considerably darker than the final version used in the show, and goes as follows:

Street lights
And the darkness between them
Like the good and the bad sides
Of a life almost done.
Shake the memory
All my passions returning to me
None forgotten
No, not one.

One life
Is there only the one life
That we lose in the living
In an endless decline?
No complaining
For no one else has seen what I’ve seen
One existence
Only mine

Don’t look back no don’t look back
So hard to heed that warning
Such temptation but the past is past
And the night makes way for morning

I won’t care if it finds me
With no breath in my body
With no beat in my heart
For I’m certain
That now I know what happiness is
Wish I’d known that
From the start

Touch me
Is there no one to touch me
It was easy to love me
In my glamorous past
As I leave you
A shadow of the light I once was
May my memory
Sleep at last

By the time Rice agreed to write the song, though, Nunn was already working on his own lyric, incorporating lines from various T.S. Elliot poems (most prominently “Rhapsody on a Windy Night”), and ended up choosing his own to use for the show. Allegedly, Elaine Paige far preferred Rice’s lyric.

  • teacher: where is ur paper its two weeks late
  • me: ok but check THIS out *raps the entirety of hamilton from memory*
  • teacher: holy shit

THIS DAY in Nightwish history

Released december 7, 1998Oceanbornis their second studio album.

This album marked a definitive change in musical scope for Nightwish from their folk-laden roots of the first album. It hearkens a more dramatic approach in the overall musical scope, mostly relegated to the symphonic keyboard work and the vocals of their then lead singer Tarja Turunen.

  • Me: I'm going to go to sleep early today.
  • Me at 3 am: Why did Next to normal lose the tony for best musical it is one of the best theater pieces of this century. It deals with topics that had never been put on a Broadway stage before and while the performances of everyone in the original cast are outstanding, Alice Ripley's is breathtaking and hands down the best in her carreer. The symbolism in both the score and the book can inspire so many discussions and even after studying it for months you probably won't have got every detail. It is overall a musical masterpiece at the level of Sondheim and there is a reason it won the Pulitzer, and should have won the tony awards without question.

blue night radio ♡ 170101
translation: fantaemsie

jonghyun: to you today …, the song i brought in today is by this artist: cifika’s “my ego”. to be honest …, at the beginning when i put this song in my tracklist ‘til the moment i played it, i thought it was a foreign artist’s song. i only realized when the music started playing and the vocal came out (that it was korean). at first, the english lyrics came out then the korean music (came in). also, since the team’s name and this song’s title is in english i naturally thought it was by a foreign artist. but …, it’s a korean one! also, it’s an artist who does electronic music.

whether it’s the arrangement per se or the overall flow of the music; it was very …, how should i say it …, i thought it was charming with an unpredictable kind of atmosphere flowing into it. i wanted you, our listener family, to listen to it so i hurriedly brought it for you. it’s a song that was released not long ago and i’ve come across it just recently …, however, it seems nowadays that i’m particularly attached to this person’s ep album. cifika’s “my ego”. let’s give it a listen.

(after song played) listener: jjongd, so it was the song you recommended on sns. i was planning on giving it a listen but it turned out like this. (ie: hearing it first on the radio.) the mood, voice and the melody are all peculiar.

jonghyun: yes. it’s a good song. also, there’s really a lot of songs contained in this album. moreover, among these songs there’s ones with this kind of charm to them. this kind of peculiar charm. if you like this type of feeling (in a song) i think it’d be nice for you to look into these songs.

[note: cifika is an artist that jonghyun recommended on his twitter account earlier this week. cifika is an korean electronic musician based in los angeles, california. she made her debut in korea early last year. the song that jonghyun recommended is from her most recent ep: intelligentsia, which can be found on spotify.]


moody overalls selfie + music that is getting me through february! I have it all on my spotify in a playlist, but i will put all the songs below. if you are in the mood to disassociate/stare at the ceiling, then this one’s for you!!!!

1. Man on the Moon–Zella Day

2. In the Morning I’ll Be Better–Tennis

3. Modern Woman–Tennis

4. K–Cigarettes After Sex

5. Ballad of a Dying Man–Father John Misty

6. Pure Comedy–Father John Misty

7. Clementine–Sarah Jaffe

8. Did David Feel Like This?–Sarah Jaffe