I dont like change; I never have. When I was six and my parents took the training wheels of my bike I threw the worst tantrum, stomping around the house and wailing. I remember staring out the window at my dad changing my bike and feeling so betrayed; he was taking my training wheels!! Thankfully, Im not that bad with change anymore but I still dont like it. It freaks me out and makes me feel sad, scared, hollow…
In the past six months, there have been a lot of changes in my life. Im going to college (and I hate it), my mom was diagnosed with cancer, Monty passed away, my grandfather followed not even a month after…. There’s more, but you dont want to hear my life story. Now, another big change is happening: Ray is leaving Achievement Hunter.
When I first heard the news I had hoped it was a late April Fool’s joke, but it’s not and I cried (still do). Change has almost never been a good thing for me.
Ray was…Ray was an Achievement Hunter. I dont know how else to put it. He will always be an AH; he is an inspiration and a joker and a smart man and an incredible friend. He wont be in the videos and everything will be strange and Im scared, yes, because I dont like change; how will they do heists, what’s Team Lads now, R&R connection is really broken? The dynamic is lost and I am terrified and incredibly saddened.
However, Im also incredibly happy. Im so very happy that Ray is getting to move on and do what he loves; that he will be happy and enjoying life and doing the very best he can.
So, Ray, thank you so much for everything you have given us. Your laughter and jokes and time and effort and ideas; thank you for “LLLLEEET’S PLAY” and 420Blaze and cakeless and everything else. Im gonna miss you in the videos but Im very happy and excited to see where life will take you. Change is a good thing; change is making you happy. Im always going to support you, my friend.