our childhoods

Our house in the village of Dudarkov knew different times.
One year was marked with a proliferation of cockroaches. According to legends and myths, they were delivered to the house, which had never known them, by aunt Helena, whose Kiev apartment suffered from invasion. In a domestic disagreement, she was accused of bringing an aquarium with a hamster, a favorite animal of my cousins, and, with the evil beast, in the same aquarium, the insects, it was maliciously alleged, comfortably arrived. This terrible blame lingered over aunt Helena for quite some time—meanwhile cockroaches set about to be fruitful and multiply.

In just several weeks, the alive mass, the thick glistening carpet moved with rustling whenever you opened the door to the veranda at night. Once or twice I even saw white cockroaches, a lucky result of persistent inbreeding. With eggs between their agile legs, caring parents, as well as free mature individuals, and little, fresh, half-translucent creatures—cockroaches ruled the night veranda. Sometimes they were spotted in the living room and bedrooms, but most of the time it was veranda that was persistently occupied and densely populated. It was their celebrated place, a space of market and exchange, free flow and mobility, meeting, mating, and propagating.


anonymous asked:

aaaah I just found out that my best friend is an infp too! That was really surprising to me, we grew up together because our parents are childhood friends too and I always thought we were very different but now that I think about it it actually makes a lot of sense! I feel really lucky now, what are the odds? Anyways, love your blog, it's really pretty~

YAY for the INFP discovery! That is pretty cool ;) 

And AWW Thank you for the compliment! I am glad you like it! <3 

Originally posted by aqua-isabelle

when millennials were first heading into high school and college there was a huge trend in news stories about how stressed out our kids are, how their backs are getting messed up from carrying so many books, how they’re sleeping less and doing more school work, and how we should do more to help our kids have the childhoods we had because our kids are falling apart from stress and being forced to be more productive than kids should be. but then once millennials started hitting the workforce all the news was about how millennials are lazy and narcissistic and entitled lmao you were real concerned about us until you found out a 23 year old is more qualified to do your job than you

When I go see Beauty and the Beast today...
  • Me: (holing my ticket outside the theater) I want adventure in the great wide somewhere...
  • 6 year old behind me: Excuse me.
  • Me: (more dramatic)I want it more than I can tell!
  • 6 year old: Lady come on, could you move?
  • Me: And for once it might be grand, to have someone understand....
  • 6 year old now pushing by: Freak
So let me get this straight:

-Samurai Jack has come back to television 13 years after it ended in 2004

-Ducktales is getting a reboot which will air this summer (it looks awesome by the way)

-A spiritual successor to Banjo-Kazooie, Yooka-Laylee, is coming in April

-The new Power Rangers Movie is coming on March 24

-MST3K is being revived

-Captain Underpants will be getting a movie

-Also Parappa the Rapper will be re-released remastered the beginning of next month

-Same with Patapon and Loco Roco at a later date

-Not to mention that the first three games of Crash Bandicoot is getting the remastered treatment

-It was recently annouced that Invader Zim is coming back to TV

-And Hey Arnold will return in the fall

People, I think 2017 is going to be considered the year where our childhood comes back to us.

My sister and I grew up without extended family nearby, but we had these two bachelor cats who kind of took on that role for us.  We like to say that they were our gay uncles.  I finally drew them as the humans they were to us … 

Ya know what’s sad? 

That we were the generation that was fortunate enough to grow up with AMAZING shows with AMAZING characters that we could look up to.

Originally posted by zeroraws

These characters weren’t grown ups. 

Originally posted by mtv

There was no corny humor.

Originally posted by luciddrreaming

 Okay, a tiny bit.

 But we were provided with well thought-out scripts, with excellent stories that had great casting from kids that loved to act and were passionate about what they did. 

Originally posted by teendotcom

Also, they didn’t just play their part, they became that character that still lives on in our hearts to this day from our childhood, and I’m thankful for that. 

Originally posted by disneychannel2000

I want kids to grow up with shows and movies that can inspire them to create-to want to become those characters when they’re outside playing with their friends or writing a story that can come from that world. 

Originally posted by peteneems

For the kids to inspired and to be grateful for the hard work those people did to create a show that helped them get through school, or a hard time in their life. 

Originally posted by butchhartman

Because maybe one day, one of those kids will make a story, and it will be because of those characters that they grew up with, that contributed to creating a new story to tell to a new generation of kids, yearning to hear, look and listen to what the world has to provide to them. 

That’s just how amazing these shows can be. 

Originally posted by fuckyeahnineteennineties


“It was a challenge, because we wanted to take what was absolute, 100 percent accurate for the period and kind of turn up the volume on it, and amplify it. In part that was to get a freshness, a crispness, a contemporary vibrancy, but also to depict it in the way kids see it. We were talking about how, in our own childhoods, you see everything as bigger, as more colorful then it actually kind of was. You’re seeing [the times] through the kids’ eyes.” 

-  Jeriana San Juan  (co-custume designer for The Get Down) (x)

A tribute to the MMO of our childhoods.

11 years.

All the time we spent playing this Massively Multiplayer Online Game, enshrining the information and history on our wikis.

And now the game, Club Penguin will officially close it’s Abode Flash doors for good.

I highly recommend playing all you can, visit all the rooms, replay all the minigames, feed and care for all the puffles you’ve adopted (or release some, if you wish), buy a lot of items, earn as many stamps as possible and just explore.

However, I’m not sure if the website will be preserved after the fall, so go to the Wayback Machine, and try to save all those recipes and activities in case someone is a blast-to-the-past searcher for fun.

Waddle on, Everypenguin.


Club Penguin

August 22, 2005-March 29, 2017


“Our childhood ended, we can’t go back.
You had died in my arms without any last words.”

I’m not in Jumin/V week, just little sketch and simple shaded… Why it had to be something sadness… Why me, why…???

Btw, my writs kinda hurt, maybe I’ll be off and rest for some time… OTL

The truth is that I’m afraid to dive into someone new. How can I not be? I’m still emptying my lungs from the last time I fell into someone’s waters and explored the depths of them. It’ll be years before I’m done wringing the wetness out of my hair, before I stop smelling the salt of their oceans on my skin. Learning someone new is frightening now. It’s not the adventure it was before. I’m no longer bitter for my heartbreak. My reluctance isn’t a decision I made with a sour mouth. I’m just exhausted by the idea of feeling for someone new. Of treading water with small talk and stories about our childhoods. When I think of him, I am afraid of sinking so deeply into someone again that I am lost to them. In that, I realize I am most afraid that I won’t sink at all. That I’ll always be treading water with anyone that isn’t him. That anyone after him will only know how to meet me at the surface.
—  pardis alia.
Neptune /Mars Aspects

Most people on tumblr have Neptune in Sagittarius, Capricorn or Aquarius,  since it is a generational planet.

For the purpose of this blog post, I am using Mars in Leo as the same interpretation as Mars in the 5th house, as well as Mars in Cancer as a synonym to Mars in the 4th house, and so on.

I have this article set up so that you can put together your Mars with your Neptune. Apply this info to you to understand how these parts of your psyche relate to each other. This is psychological astrology.

By knowing which planets are strongest in a person, you understand their most prominent motivations.

This is a powerful tool in psychoanalysis.

Mars opposite Neptune is a polarization between (Mars) your drive, your passion, your anger, fighting nature, and (Neptune) intoxication, Neptune opposite Mars means you have a hard time being motivated because you are confused about which way to turn/which project to take on/which methods to use. Feeling like something is always holding them back, this person has trouble fighting for what is right. When they’re angry, they are confused about how to express it or be constructive to create a solution, instead of asserting themselves effectively. This person could have an inconsistent libido, as Neptune dissolves Martian passion.

Mars square or quincunx Neptune is much like the above description, but rather, a tension or adjustment instead of a polarization.

Mars conjunct Neptune is a person full of a mystical passion, but they often feel fatigued. It’s difficult for them to direct their anger, their desire to fight clashes with their peacemaking abilities. They’re confused about what to do with their passion.

Mars trine or sextile Neptune transmutes their anger, they have a gentle fighting nature. They can turn their divine inspiration into action. This might even be the best indicator for effective psychic skills. Mars aspects direct the energy of a planet they are connected to. Neptune rules mediumship, channelling, clairvoyance, and astral travel, so when Mars makes a positive contact, the person is able to do these things if they consciously direct their energy to it.

I use the minor aspects as well…

Houses 1, 3, and 4 say a lot about our childhood and upbringing, whereas houses 9, 10, and 11 say who we grow up to be, how we assert ourselves out in the world based upon our earlier influences. You can turn a reading into a story by describing how someone’s background (1st, 4th, and 3rd houses) led them to where they are now. If you start interpreting charts this way, you’ll gain deeper psychological insight. The easiest way to do this is to connect someone’s 4th house planets and IC, to to their 10th house planets and MC, but you can get creative and perceive even more about what is embedded in someone’s subconscious and how it plays out in their life without them realizing. By gently bringing to light the patterns in a person’s psyche, it can bring clarity about why this person is going thru various situations in their current life.

Mars in the 1st house or Mars in Aries –you present yourself as someone not to be messed with, you project a pushy presence, and you persistently move thru life with a straightforward attitude.  But lets say you have it opposite Neptune in the 7th house, you may lose yourself in a romance or business partnership, as you see others as having kinder intentions and you turn out to be wrong.

Mars in the 2nd house or Mars in Taurus –you’re driven to earn your own money but often spend it hastily, you value being straightforward and fighting for what you care about with all your strength, you’re a warrior about your principles. You steadily go after what you want.

Whichever house Mars is in can be the area of life that you are hasty.

Mars in Gemini Or Mars in the 3rd house –you had hostility during grade school, abrasive siblings, and you’re a driven learner

Mars in Cancer, OR Mars in the 4th house –indicates hostility in your upbringing, you were raised with a pushy parent(s)you are hesitant in expressing your anger and it can come out in a subtle way, you like to know you have power over someone’s emotions…

Mars in Leo, OR Mars in the 5th house –there were ego driven fights with a family member… you’re motivated to do things for yourself and don’t always consider the greater good… you’re straightforward in your creative expression… when you like someone, you express it with passion rather than being coy about it…

Mars in the 6th house or Mars in Virgo –you’re driven to get things done in the real world, as you have an inner need to feel useful, though you reject the Neptunian parts of yourself that are more dreamy and impractical.

Mars in the 7th house or Mars in Libra –eagerly seeks lovers, this person might make the first move. They struggle to assert themselves, as they’d rather please others and they are afraid that if they stand up for themselves, it will cause more drama, so they end up holding resentment over unresolved conflict. They’re hesitant to tell someone off because they’d rather not be perceived as rude. It’s hard to move forward or decide where to put their energy because the weigh out all the options.

Mars in the 8th house or Mars in Scorpio –symbolically, the 8th house is making the most of the passion that the planet holds before being weakened as it steps into the 7th house and below the horizon. Mars in the 8th is a go-getter who achieves from the vigor in their soul! Take Neptune into consideration to see if this aids or hinders Mars. Scorpio was ruled by Mars before Pluto was discovered, and the 8th house is a very strong placement for Mars. Neptune’s desire for intoxication may distract this Mars from their determination.

Mars in the 9th house or Mars in Sagittarius –you’re more enthralled by higher learning than the remedial drill of typical school subjects. Neptunian states of altered consciousness might induce greater spiritual understanding that this Mars craves, or it may lead them astray.

Mars in the 10th house or Mars in Capricorn –you’re controlled in your expression of anger and cautious in your actions. You are thorough in completing tasks and you strive to succeed. Being challenged at work brings out your high energy levels, you might require pressure in order to feel motivated. When life is too easy, you eagerly ask, “what’s next?!” You likely reject the Neptunian parts of yourself as you’d rather climb to the top than be bogged down in Neptunian dreams. You are not a pushover, as those with strong Neptune might be more weak than you. You are a dominant person who assertively persists thru life!

Mars in the 11th house or Mars in Aquarius –You are unpredictable, as you might get angry all of a sudden. It’s difficult for others to understand what motivates you and what sets you off. You are driven to assert your independence and flaunt your weirdness. You have more energy when you are working towards something that benefits humanity.

Mars in the 12th house or Mars in Pisces –The frustration and anger of the collective rushes thru you, leaving you feeling burnt out.

…Neptune in the 1st house –other people misinterpret who you are, you feel like you have a hard time creating the identity you want because others project their ideas onto you, assuming the way you are without actually getting to know you.

…Neptune in the 2nd house –can be irresponsible about managing money, it is difficult for you to keep track of how much you are able to spend. You probably deny this, but you’re unsure of your own values. Since you don’t know your own worth and your capabilities, it makes it difficult for you to earn money.

…Neptune in the 3rd house –suggests that your sibling(s) mislead or deceive you. If you do not have siblings, you may experience unclear communication with school teachers. Neptune in the 3rd house has a hard time grasping concepts and their logic can be faulty. You’re probably not the best at memorizing, when you are pressured to learn, you become reluctant to give your all to academics.  

…Neptune in the 4th house –you created your own imaginative world during childhood, later to realize all the burdens of the world. Perhaps your parents didn’t have a plan of how to raise you, so you feel this inner haziness deep within you. You carry disappointment about life, feeling melancholy. You were deceived by your own family at some point. Your image of one of your parents was likely a misconception, later in life to realize that they weren’t as great of person as you perceived them to be when you were younger.

…Neptune in the 5th house –you are uncertain in how to handle your ego. Though you have a mystical creativity, you have a hard time expressing it or following thru with creative projects. Without realizing it, you derive your artistic inspiration from higher realms, you channel angels of creation when you play your instrument of choice. When you paint/draw/write, allow yourself to let go of your mind and see what flows out, and then other worlds will flow thru you. Ecstatic dancing and movement meditation would be great for you. Altered states of consciousness provide you with grand inspiration. This could be reaching a mental state called “flow” where you are so immersed in what you are doing that you aren’t thinking about anything else, time flies in this state, as you’re fully in the present without mental chatter. As long as the person doesn’t let this “flow” state to interfere with the goals of Mars, the urgent tasks that they need to do, it is a great thing.

…Neptune in the 6th house –when your health isn’t top notch, it causes you to direct your energy on your inner world (if you have Mars in the 12th, 4th, or 8th house), or in teaching yourself (with Mars in the 3rd or 9th house), rather than being pragmatic in the outer world. Some people with Neptune in the 6th are not productive the way society expects you to be, then again, others will overcompensate by being extra productive and hard working, as the 6th house can suppress Neptunian qualities.

…Neptune in the 7th house –by putting others on a pedestal, you later experience disillusionment.

Whichever house Neptune is in can be the area of life that you become disillusioned.

…Neptune in the 8th house –indicates deception with shared resources, others may take money from them, or this person is vulnerable with intimacy, losing themselves in close connections…

…Neptune in the 9th house –uncertain of your beliefs, you’ve probably been disillusioned by religions and colleges.

…Neptune in the 10th house –part of you that reaches for a lofty utopian way of life, climbing a tower of spirituality, but in a more intellectual way if it is in Aquarius, or a cautious way with Neptune in Capricorn.

…Neptune in Aquarius, OR Neptune in the 11th house –you grow up to be more selfless, thinking based on the collective needs, what is best for humanity as a whole, learning from whatever mistakes you and your family member(s) made before. You are reaching towards objective thinking, you’re rationalizing rather than operating out of pride.

…Neptune in the 12th house (or Neptune in Pisces but that only applies to transits/predictive work as Neptune first entered Pisces in 2011 and will first enter Aries in 2025) –this is a chance to have spiritual visions and transcendent experiences. This person has a strong connection with god, and could even have psychic dreams. Their deep understanding about life and the universe must be kept locked away as they could frighten fainthearted souls with their depth.

–Sellieve Neptune, astrologer

If you would like an in depth astrology reading, please message me. AcaiPsycheLife.tumblr.com/readings   I also offer classes.  If you already have a general understanding of astrology and want to go deeper, I am the astrologer for you :D.  I can interpret how parts of your psyche interact with each other based on you birth chart and secondary progressions.


Okay so I understand that a lot of people use astrology to map their lives, which I personally love to do. Childhood environments and events are usually something that people look into a lot (so do I) and I think this can be a good thing because it helps you figure out where personal issues come from, which helps you control them. In the following post I’m going to outline some of the things that are useful to look at in the chart when mapping out childhood. 

Moon, Sun and Saturn Placements/Aspects: As you can imagine, looking at our parents influence in our lives can be a good place to start. The Moon of course represents the Mother, the Sun represents the Father and Saturn represents the authoritarian figure in the family which is usually stereotypes as the father but of course in modern society, things are different so Saturn represents the dominant parent/guardian.

The 4th House Cusp: The sign that is on our 4th House cusp or the IC, shows us a lot about our family situation/dynamic. It represents our childhood within the home and our relationships with our family as well as expectations we had to meet.

Planets/Aspects to the 4th House: Like the 4th House cusp, the planets that reside there (if any) can shows us some striking themes played out through the home while aspects will show you influences from other areas of the chart (your life)

The 3rd House Cusp: The sign on the 3rd House cusp is responsible for early childhood outside of the inner home, it shows you school, your relationship with your siblings and is also responsible for the amount of times you moved house (if any).

Planets/Aspects to the 3rd House: Again like the 4th House, planets here will show you the energy that prevailed in this time of your life and aspects will show you influences from other areas of the chart (your life)

3rd and 4th House Lords: For this you need to look at the sign on the cusps of these houses and then look for where their ruling sign is in your chart. This will show you what other areas of your life these houses have served. You can also do this the opposite way around if you have planets in these houses to see what other areas of your life these houses have served.

IC Persona Chart: For those of you who are quite confident with interpreting charts, the IC persona chart can give you a way more in depth look into your home life. It’s laid out like a normal chart but all the placements are interpreted as your home life/childhood’s personality.

*Bare in mind that your whole chart is a reflection of the person you grew up to be, these are just the main points to look at*