from the very beginning, it’s always been Cat who’s pushed Kara to be better. it’s been Cat who’s laid it out like it is, no dancing around the shit; that life is hard, so you gotta just fight back harder. it’s always been Cat she’s turned to in difficult times; who’s been that reassuring voice, her inspiration. it’s always been Cat by her side, whether physically or emotionally, helping her move beyond the doubt. it has always been Cat.
When lines needed to be drawn, when their lives were on the line, Kate always, always, always looked to Jack, not Sawyer. She loved Sawyer, but Jack was always her priority, and it’s so painfully evident–even to Sawyer in these scenes. Kate meant it when she told Jack “I have always been with you.”
You don’t seem afraid at all. I don’t understand that. Well, fear’s sort of an odd thing. When I was in residency, my first solo procedure was a spinal surgery on a 16-year-old kid. A girl. And at the end, after thirteen hours, I was closing her up, and I – I accidentally ripped her dural sac. Shredded the base of the spine where all the nerves come together. Membrane, stenos tissue and … So it ripped open. Nerves just spilled out of her like angel hair pasta. Spinal fluid flowing out of her, and I … And the terror was just so … crazy, so real. And I knew I had to deal with it. So I just made a choice. I’d let the fear in. Let it take over. Let it do its thing. But only for five seconds. That’s all I was gonna give it. So I started to count. One, two, three, four, five. And it was gone. I went back to work, sewed her up, and she was fine.