otp: we're gonna be okay

so i’ve promised myself that i’d have this frickin novel done by nikole’s birthday so the next month is going to be filled with clean eats, couch to 5k, lots and lots of hours at work, and a shit brick ton of writing.

my goal is gonna be 15k a week which seems unrealistic but i can definitely do it if i play my cards and caffeine right

eeeeverybody take a deep breath

i know, these are scary and trying times for everyone, but keep this in mind:

we don’t know how long the gigapause is going to be

it could be anywhere from a couple of months to even a year, we just don’t know.

come on, now. let’s dry our eyes. leave off panicking. we have plenty of time to enjoy it.

it’s gonna be okay.

Today was a trip.
From just about being suspended, to amazing gifts from my gals, to sitting on the side of the road with my absolute best friend in the world praying everything would be okay.
But if today showed me anything (which in this cliché “praise jesus” post it has) it’s this.
In all my sixteen years of life, of all the friends I’ve had along the way, I’ve never loved this hard.
Sure, at the end of the day the two of them go home together and I’m left to myself. But they’re happy, so I’m happy. These two girls have made my life so incredibly more beautiful I’m not sure how to put it into words. All I know is that I love them. With everything and anything I’ve ever had, I love them.
I want them to be okay, to get snuggles and hugs and ice cream. I want them to follow their dreams, change the world, and write their story. And I’ve got no doubt in my mind that they will.
Maybe I won’t be right there next to you protesting for gender equality or some other noble cause. But I promise you I’ll stick around. There’s no way I could ever leave.
The two of you are the best thing to ever happen to me. Sure, we’ve been through some shit. But I swear to you I never knew what love really was until I got ahold of you. You make me feel worth something.
And I love you two to death.
For real. This is real.
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So to all my friends & followers who have known all the shit that Bri & I have been through the last few weeks or have known that shit has been rough , I just want to thank you for all the love , support , & advice . I’m so thankful for all of y'all in my life . Over the last 27 hours Bri & I have laid everything out on the table & just put everything out there , all of our options , feelings , thoughts , & emotions . Everything was so raw & emotional . We both came to the conclusion that we needed time to think about things . After everything that was said my head & my heart finally agreed on the whole situation & it was to make everything work with her . I’ve never had something this real before , not physical & emotional . So when we started getting close & I started to notice that she was caring , I got scared & ran . She’s what I want , she’s what I need . She’s been such a big supporter for me with things I’ve been going through & I hope she thinks the same about me . I love you so much my little kumquat . Thank you for sticking to your promise & not leaving when shit got rough . 💙💙

I have people in my life that are marvelous and even if those people are far away I still have them and if they’re here at home I have them.

This is just a message to you you dingus to quit being sad all the time cause not everyone that befriends you is gonna break your heart.