I honestly don’t know what to say; I’m too overwhelmed and ecstatic to have reached this point! I just want to thank every single one of you for loving my content, for telling me that I’m doing a good job, giving me such high praise every day, sticking up for me when anons get me down, trusting me enough to tell me how you’re feeling… It all just means so, so much <3 I’m so glad I can be here for all of you and have you be here for me.
So you know the drill! My inbox is open and there’s an ask meme under the cut if you want to send me a question and get to know me a little better! Orrr you can tell me who your favorite Ego is and your favorite headcanons about them! I’ll tell ya what I think of them.
Either way, thank you so much again for 400 followers <3
I don’t know what to say. That was just… beautiful. 😢❤
It’s amazing people like you who really keep me going through the good times and the bad. Without all of that support, I probably wouldn’t have come back to social media, so thanks to you and every awesome person like you for helping me. ❤
Sometimes I just try too hard to come up with something incredible I want to do for the fandom, but it either stresses me out and I’m forced to quit, or it blows up in my face. I guess I’ll just focus on smaller projects for now and I’ll see what happens in the future. 🙂
Thank you for making me smile! You’re a valuable person in this fandom. ❤
Omg I can’t believe this!!! I thought I’d never hit 100 or even 50 but 200!!! I love you all and your gratefulness! I made so many friends and so many people I love have seen my art. And AHHH my god I love you all and never thought I’d be here :DDDD
Hey, Mars! You may not reply to this 😊 I just wanted to tell you that your blog has been the first one, among my newly discovered blogs, I feel a strong pull towards. I didn't have this feeling for a long time, and I'm super happy it's back. Your screens are beautiful but the atmosphere of your story, the emotions behind that atmosphere, the warmth of your characters are just incredible. Thank you! 👍👏🙏
Ok, when I read this, last night, I was having a beer with my dad and I almost cried in the glass 😭❤️
THANK YOU SO MUCH!
I really needed this because lately I’ve felt like my story wasn’t good enough and I wasn’t good enough at characterizing the people I write, I even thought about taking a break from everything or/and delete everything. Your message touched my heart when I was in a very dark place because I couldn’t appreciate my ideas and my writing, so it means a lot to me.
Also, I’m so happy that my blog gave you a feeling that you’ve missed for a long time 😍
Thank you again for taking time to leave this message in my inbox and for catching up with my blog/story!
I love you ❤️
I feel bad for disappearing, even though I know four days isn’t THAT long. It’s just that, I’ve done almost nothing productive for the past days that I’ve been absent, and that made me feel like I’ve been gone for years. But you know what? It’s okay.
I know you guys said that I don’t owe you at all, but I feel like I do. For being so patient, for being so supportive. I didn’t expect to come back to over a hundred messages telling me that it’s okay. You guys even told me that it’s okay to give up, if that’s what’s best for me and my health. I am in tears as I read through every single reply, ask, and submission I received. I won’t publish any of them, and some of them even requested that I don’t publish them, so I will not. I promise that I’ve seen all of them and just.. Some even offered an ear and a shoulder to cry on and- You are not bothering me at all, I You all care so much and, well, I’m deeply moved and, I honestly don’t know how to properly respond to that, haha-
I want to tell you all that I’m okay. I’m eating right, can’t say the same about sleeping but that’s a norm for me. Seriously, I’m physically fine, and I’m alive. I stay hydrated. I know some probably don’t care but I got a message asking if I was “okay” okay and I just had to clarify that I was. Still a little salty over my channel getting terminated, but otherwise, I’m 100% okay. That being said-
I love you all so much. I can’t thank you all enough for just..being there for me. I’ve never had something like this before because I have difficulty socializing and making friends in real life. So, how we all connect through the means of..just sharing art, it just- Baffles me. In a good way. I’m overwhelmed and crying, but..
God, just, thank you. I’m repeating myself but I really don’t know what to say anymore so, I’ll just get to my other point.
I won’t give up just yet.
Art and making animatics is a thing I love to do. I enjoy making them, and sharing them for others to see. I love getting different reactions from different people. I can’t just let that go. I can’t give that up, because it’s one of the things that makes me..well, me. If I don’t do art, then what else can I be? Someone else that I’m not? I’m not about that life, homeslice.
And about my channel. My friend helped me file a counter notification to YouTube. There’s a small chance I might get my channel back. It’s small, but it’s there. But even if I don’t get it back, I could always make a new channel! Start small and build it up from there again? I’m up for it! But I’m just waiting on YouTube to process the dispute. Me and my friend are both a little anxious about the whole thing, but- Yeah, haha.
By the way, someone reuploaded most of my videos! A fan linked me to them and they’re called “Hamilton Trash” on YT. Whoever manages that channel, if you’re reading this, you are a blessing. Thank you so much for saving my videos!
So there’s that. I’m sorry for the long post, but I’m back. Err, semi-back. I’ll be on and off, but I’ll try to post stuff again. Oh no, wait, I almost forgot! Someone put up a petition to bring my channel back and I just- You guys- are the best thing that ever happened to me. Seriously that’s so sweet. Hopefully YouTube listens and, you know, bring it back. But even if they don’t, again, I’m 100% ready to make a new channel.
Thank you all so much for reading, and for being there in general ❤ and I hope you’re having a great day/afternoon/night!