otp: take me back

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saudade (noun) | PORTUGUESE

a deep, nostalgic, and melancholic longing for something or someone, often accompanied with a denied fact that what one longs for will never come back

“I wonder, can I keep up with it? The speed of the world without you in it.”

sometimes i want to be a scottish maiden running through the rolling hills and endless highland and marrying a gentle redheaded dude. and sometimes i want to be an artist studying in paris sitting at a tiny cafe and listening to edith piaf. and sometimes i want to be a tall and stately elf warrior wielding a sword in each hand and sometimes i want to live deep deep in the forest and be a wise and shy healer with animals for friends and braids and beads and feathers in my hair. and sometimes i want to be a regency lady going to dances and wearing long dresses and having tea and taking turns round the shrubbery and sometimes i want to be a tiny fairy living in a forest tree and eating berries by starlight. and sometimes i want to be a broadway singer and bring people to tears from the stage. i really can’t make up my mind