otp: k&m4e

anonymous asked:

If Fushimi told Yata his true feelings when he decided to join S4, do u think Yata would let him go? It likes the way Yata accepted his mother's remarriage just because she had asked him before she recieved the engagement ring. Somehow i think the story would be even sadder although they could still be friends after that.

Interesting question! I’ll preface my answer by saying that there are a number of ways this could probably go, so this is my opinion based on my own analysis of the characters. Other opinions on the subject could be equally valid.

I think things would go better if Fushimi explained himself, but I don’t think they’d go smoothly. Because Fushimi’s side of things is so overt and clearly awful, I think some people overlook Yata’s side of things (and I’ve noticed that a lot of the people who don’t overlook it take it in a completely opposite direction and heap the majority of the blame on him). The problem when Fushimi tells Yata that he’s leaving is that Yata wasn’t in a mindset where anything other than “lol just kidding of course I’m not leaving Homra” would have made him feel better. His mindset is “Homra is good, not-Homra is bad” and it takes a while to shake that impression. He’s hearing his closest friend tell him he’s leaving and going to a clan that’s on shaky terms with Homra as it is, and so his emotions are going to be all over the place.

And thing is? Fushimi knows this. He’s very observant, so I think he’s more than conscious that nothing he says is going to make Yata feel less hurt and angry and betrayed in that moment, so he’s like “fuck it” and breaks things spectacularly rather than dealing with the reaction. It’s a horrible decision, and it shows callous unkindness to both Yata and himself, but he’s not a healthy person with healthy emotions, so…

Anyway, getting back to your scenario. Imagine Fushimi has healthy coping mechanisms and so he explains properly to Yata why he’s leaving (feeling stifled in Homra, afraid of Mikoto, fascinated with Munakata, etc). I think in this scenario Yata’s still mad and they part on bitter terms, but the words resonate and he gives more weight to the things Totsuka says to him afterwards. Yata’s not dumb, he’s just blunt and honest and bad with subtlety, and he cares about the people he’s closest to. In MOR we see him trying to make some sense of Fushimi’s feelings and why he left, but he’s still in that space of “if I understand, then you’ll come back, right?”

My main beef is that no one bothers to sit him down and be like “that is the problem”. I’ve seen meta that says “Yata needs to figure this out, and then everything’s okay”, a narrative that can kind of be backed up with evidence from ROK as that’s exactly what happens (with a little help from Munakata). But.. no, that’s not really the case. IRL we have no expectations of “this person should just intuit the problem and then everything will be sorted without the other person having to vocalize it”. We are expected to use our words to explain things when someone else clearly isn’t getting it. This is the other half of the equation, and I was happy to hear it acknowledged in their reconciliation, with Yata saying “how was I supposed to know that?”

Without one half of the Fushimi/Yata equation, the whole thing can’t hold up. If Fushimi explains himself, Yata will come around after some time spent thinking about it. The encounter in MOR would’ve gone very differently, or maybe they’d have a conversation even before that. It’d be awkward at first, but they could build on it. Actually, my theory is that Yata would go through a large part of his later character development early (trying to understand others instead of projecting his own feelings on them) if he starts seriously considering the reasons Fushimi left. This can only happen if he knows what they are. Similarly, if Yata’s “us vs the world” mentality wasn’t there, Fushimi wouldn’t be able to bait him the way he does in canon and their relationship would go a lot differently, forcing FUSHIMI to change his mindset. The fallout requires both halves of the equation in order to hold up, and it requires both of them to change in order to reconcile.

That’s how I feel about it, anyway.