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I’d Choose You (Jelena One Shot)

I’d Choose You (Jelena One Shot)

Follow up to Dancing On My Own

“I wonder whose arms I would run and fall into if I was drunk in a room full of every person I have ever loved.”

“That’s who you really love.”

Third Person’s POV

When the tears finally stopped rolling and began to dry on her cheeks, a dull ache that was overshadowed by the pain in her heart settled in as she sobered up.

She watched as he stumbled down from the bar stool he was sitting on and she longed to be the one holding him up.

She briefly wondered if she should go over to him and officially say her goodbyes or just walk away and leave the past in the past.

She didn’t have time to make up her mind before his eyes connected with hers.

Instantaneously they lit up and she felt her heart warm.

She loved him.

“Selena!” He ripped away from his girlfriends grip as he staggered his way to her wrapping his strong arms around her body.

“I missed you so much princess.”

His girlfriend watched on at the scene, allowing him to grip onto his ex-girlfriend.

She knew he meant it when he said he loved her but she doubted just how much. She always felt as though she would come second to Selena.

She figured now would be a good time to find out where she stood in his life and so she stood in silence as her boyfriend continued to fawn over his ex-girlfriend.

“I missed you too Jay.” Selena spoke quietly as she snuggled in his arms. This was all she wanted to do for the rest of her life.

“I’m so happy you’re here.” He babbled. “I’ve been thinking about you all day you know.”

“All day?” She repeated surprised, tilting her head upwards to look at him.

He nodded, his arms tightening around her. “I think about you every day.”

Then he got vulnerable. “You-you’re not leaving me again are you?”

What was she supposed to say?

“Please don’t go. I need you to stay with me. I’m not happy when you’re not there. I’m miserable and I always have to pretend I’m not.”

“Justin what about your girlfriend?” She questioned wondering if she was hearing their conversation. “Don’t you love her?”

Did she really want him to answer her?

“I..I do but not the way I should. Not the way I love you.”

“What?” Was she hearing correctly?

“She doesn’t make me feel the way you do. No one can do that. I love her, I do but I’m always going to love you more. Do you know how many times I’m with her and all I can think about is you? I’m trying to be good for her, I really am but I can’t help it. You’re the one that’s always on my mind. I’ll go out and see something that you would like so I’d buy it for her. Everything I do is connected to you one way or the other. I’m sorry. I know I messed up and I’m probably doing it again now but you need to know. You’re the only person that has all of me. You have my heart and you always will. I lie next to her at night and hold her in my arms but all I can think about is how different it feels to when I hold you. It’s mechanical with her but with you it feels so right. You’re still the only person I can see myself marrying and having children with. I’m so fucked.” He laughed hollowly as he too began to sober up and he understood what was happening.

Suddenly he’s all to aware of the pair of eyes burning into his back but all he can focus on is the angel in his arms who was hanging onto every word he was saying.

“I guess what I’m trying to say is you are always going to be my first choice Selena. If I had to pick between you and her or you and anyone else, I’d choose you. Always.” He leaned forward, resting his forehead against hers.

“You know, Alfredo told me you had a new girlfriend. He told me you’d moved on and I should too.” She began to speak and he opened his eyes, pulling away from her slightly but neither of them were ready to pull away from each other.

In that moment they were each other’s lifelines.

“I knew you would be here tonight and so would she but I came anyway. I still don’t know what I was thinking. I watched you all night; dancing with her; and it hurt. God it hurt so much. I wanted to be the one you were holding. I wanted to be yours again. I convinced myself that you really did move on and that I came here to say goodbye; to officially end us but then…then you saw me and here we are. I love you Justin. I know how bad it hurts to lose you and I don’t want to hurt her but I need you. I’m sorry.” She cried, not sure what she was trying to say.

He shook his head, holding her cheeks in the palm of his hands.

“Look at me. You don’t need to be sorry. This is on me not you. It’s my fault. I’m the one who decided to get into a relationship even though I was still in love with you. Don’t feel bad baby, please.”

A throat was cleared from behind them.

They both turned to see the blonde looking at them, tears in her eyes.

His heart hurt but he still couldn’t let go of the woman in his arms. It was almost as though if he did she’d run away.

He didn’t want to hurt her but Selena would always be his first priority. Always.

“When we first met, I knew you still loved her but I expected it. You had been together for so long, I couldn’t expect you to forget your feelings for her just like that. I was always aware of them even when we got together. I never understood just how in love you were though. I figured it was a first love kind of thing. You loved her but I thought maybe I could make you love me more but then, our relationship wasn’t what I expected. Don’t get me wrong; it was beautiful and I know you loved me to a certain extent but I always figured somewhere in the back of my brain that you loved her more. Tonight was just the confirmation that I needed.”

“I’m sorry. I didn’t want to hurt you but-” She held her hand up to cut him off, sending him a sad smile.

“Don’t. Justin I knew what I was getting myself into from the moment I met you but it was worth it. I’m not stupid. I never, not once, believed that we could have a future together. I always knew you two would find your way back to each other, it was just a matter of when.”

They both gaped at her in shock.

“With that being said, I need to go because I’m a girl and no matter how doomed a relationship is, it still hurts when it’s over.” Then she turned on her heels and hightailed it out of there.

“Am I still drunk?” Justin blurted as he tried to figure out what just happened.

“She always knew you’d leave her for me?”

“Well shit.”

And then they both laughed as Justin pulled her into another hug.

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I didn’t know how to end this. I’m sorry I took so long but hey, at least yall got a part two!

“I never had the courage to stand up and tell you how I feel. I’m crazy about you. And I want you to know if I had the choice of hanging out with anyone in the entire world or sitting at home with you eating pizza watching a crappy TV show, I’d choose you every time.”
~J.D. [[Scrubs]]
—  This is a quote from my favorite TV show Scrubs, all the way up to the 7th season is something everyone needs to enjoy. The ending quotes always seem to tie into some point of my life, and currently this one fits well.
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