what to do if you feel like your life is so unfulfilling and you have so much you wanna do and you wanna be successful but literally have no motivation and you see all of the people you love and admire becoming so incredibly successful and enjoying life and you've got nothing to show for it anymore?
Personally, I’ve struggled a lot with this because I know so many really amazing, inspiring, creative, intelligent people - and I always, always feel like I don’t measure up. But I think (in my less self-deprecating moments) that the idea of being successful, or having something “to show” for your own creativity and ideas can be more harmful than good, especially because you’re always going to compare yourself to the people you’re otherwise super proud of.
It still comes and goes, but one thing that I like to remind myself of is that everything comes with time. The people you see who are successful in your eyes have had an experience that was either fortunate, very well deserved, or some combination of both. It’s not about waiting your turn, but about finding the things you love and persevering to get to a place you can be proud of. And then still going.
The countless hours I’ve poured into drawing still don’t seem to measure up against the artists who are also my age (or younger!!) that I admire, but I have no idea what their experience was - what made them as skilled as they are. But if I keep working towards a version of my own skills and goals that I can accomplish and be proud of, then that counts as success in my eyes.
I believe in progress. Firmly. Which means I also believe in your progress. I don’t think you have nothing to show for it - I think that you have plenty, and it just hasn’t been shown yet. Opportunity will strike if you keep at it.
I believe in you!