Last art spam for the day I promise
maybe probably I doubt it
Okay how do I do this, how does one convey human emotion.
Not sure if this is obvious but this is dedicated to @jordanunderneath in relation to his newest video. (I’m not sure if you’ll actually see this, Jordan, but if you do, please forgive me for hugging you OTL I tend to do that with people Iamsosorry)
So I discovered Jordan not too long ago, and before I did, I was struggling with conflicted emotions and stuff as far as depression, anxiety, social anxiety and phobias and all that junk that most people don’t care about goes.
Though when I started watching his videos I felt a sort of… I don’t know… Calmness? They do a better job than my relaxants do, that’s for sure. There’s just something about Jordan that puts me more at ease. Probably because he also has anxiety and depression? (Even though that sounds really wrong to say, forgive me sensei) And the way he described how hard it is for some people with these problems to socialize in his Yume Nikki video… It just… Clicked with me, you know? I don’t know how to describe this…
I felt understood. And in a way, even though I don’t know Jordan directly, I felt comforted whenever watching his videos. It was like hanging out with someone that understood how I felt and… Honestly, things have actually been going better for me since then. Sure, my anxiety attacks kept getting worse and more often, however I recovered from them much faster and, smiled a lot more, actually…
And what’s more - I can draw more often now! I found my inspiration! Inspiration that I lost after so many traumatic experiences I went through during 2016.
And it’s all thanks to Jordan.
Thank you, Jordan, for being an inspiration to me and helping me cope with my Anxiety better. Thanks to you, I rediscovered my muse and have a better time getting by knowing that there’s someone out there that knows exactly what I’m going through.
Don’t ever stop being the beautiful person you are. And keep being that comfort to me and so many other people out there. If there’s anything I can do for you from way down here in South Africa, just name it. I’d do anything to repay you for how you helped me.
I love you
(in a friendly way, not in a romantic way, shhhh…), and I always will, no matter what path you decide to take. I’ll try my best to support you from the little cyberspace I call home, just as you have indirectly supported me.
Best regards, and best wishes,
To think this was supposed to be a warm up doodle.
Where did I go wrong.