oth: season 1

6

I have this theory that while growing up Sam was always a little too close to Dean and then the first time he got drunk he came back to the motel room and kissed Dean but got pushed away and told that it was wrong. So to try to get away from his feeling and the pain he felt every time he looked at his brother he went to Stanford and found Jess. She was the first person he could connect with in the same way he had with Dean.