For a very long time, even after my official diagnosis, I thought I couldn’t possibly be autistic because I didn’t have “routines”. Meaning I didn’t get up at the same time every day, I didn’t eat specific foods on specific days, I didn’t insist on doing things at the same time every day.
Then I learned that having a routine doesn’t just happen naturally. Especially to most autistic people.
“The herd is an opponent of all orders of rank, as it sees an ascent from beneath to above as a descent from the majority to the minority. The herd feels the exception, whether it be below or above it, as something opposed and harmful to it. Mistrust is felt towards the exceptions, and to be an exception is experienced as guilt.”
—F. Nietzsche, The Will to Power, §280 (edited excerpt).