Greg, my heart & mind feel to complex for my own being. I always feel disgruntled with myself. I feel misunderstood by myself & the ppl closest. I am endlessly looking for answers. By doing this, I guess I make life harder & over complicate a lot of things. It results in me feeling extreme emotions. I want to express what is inside me, it wants to come out, but I don't know the words or the art to do it. It makes me angry, depressed, isolated. It has my attention, just no out let.
Sit with these things, what comes naturally. There are other expression besides art. Exercise it out, move, use your mind to create and solve problems. There are many creative things, what brings you a release? What is there that brings a feeling of lightness to you? If you don’t know or can’t think of anything, any one activity or creative expression, simply be open and explore. What comes to you, what seems to be “calling your name”? Work with these things that seem stuck and need an expression and let them speak to you so to speak. Let them show you how they want to express themselves. Do and feel and notice when you feel lighter or more joy, that is the right direction. These things don’t speak words, they speak in feelings.
I hope this is of some help.