a reminder: sunbeams find andrew every morning in bed. he no longer abruptly sits up, rapidly blinks, and scans the shadows in his room. instead, he sinks deeper into the sheets, blankets wrapped around him and his arm wrapped around another pillow. he feels the steady weight of honesty and trust and always pressed against his palm, a promise that isn’t just lip service. his bones aren’t tired of the body they’re in, nor are intrusive thoughts slamming against the solid confines of his skull like plaster. he doesn’t open his eyes, but if he did, he’d be met with slate-eyes and a soft smile, copper curls and patchwork skin.
stay, his mind whispers–soft, unbidden, assured. the word doesn’t taste like desperation, only certainty.
HONESTLY BLESS SUBARU FOR REALISING THIS IS NOT EXACTLY
SOMETHING FAI WOULD WANT OTHER PEOPLE TO SEE
AND BLESS KUROGANE FOR TRYING TO HELP HIM THROUGH IT BY
PHYSICALLY KEEPING HIM UP
Because I know this was partially what Kamui told him to do, but it’s also the opposite of what Kamui said. He wanted Fai “held down”, but Kurogane is keeping him up. Kurogane isn’t restraining Fai, he’s supporting him, and the difference between the two is 100% goodness.
Also, let’s recap:
Helpful people: Kurogane, Subaru
Unhelpful people: the room full of people who just casually watched this
whole thing happen
Even less helpful people: Kamui, describing the process for
I suppose if you wanted to be kinder to Kamui you could say that he’s saying this to Kurogane, as a way of reassuring him, but I am very much less inclined to assume the nice option where Kamui is concerned.