or stockholm syndrome

Stockholm Syndrome

I’ve been running so long
I think you’ve stopped chasing
I catch my breath
Look back to where I was
Where you stand
Squinting from a distance
The sun in your eyes
Sometimes I wonder
If you understand why I ran
I scold myself
For looking back at all
I often wonder
What took me so long
The sun was blinding
When I first left
I made myself run
You kept a light on
But it wasn’t the sun

hellloooo malaya @hxxtape tagged me for the music shuffle tag 😌💖

rules: you can tell a lot about a person by the music they listen to. put your music on shuffle, list the first ten songs, and tag ten people.

  1. ko ko bop - exo
  2. nightmare - b1a4
  3. rescue - shinee
  4. video - lee hi feat. bobby
  5. bad guys - zion.t
  6. cyber stockholm syndrome - rina sawayama
  7. don’t want a drive - exid
  8. bnby - jungmin
  9. mayday - april
  10. 21st century girls - bts

i tag @yehanas  @bearhugged @pinkgatorade @7oongi @hobiloveblog @doobop @hyunsouls @keochuoi @sheis and @1kseulgi  😘😘😘

they say that thirty meters down in the ocean, a diver loses his senses, forgets which way is up, and swims deeper and deeper and deeper down. they say it’s like being drunk (or stupid) (or maybe some of each) to get dizzy in a dark place and stay, to forget the thing that’s trying to kill you and follow it.

and i am always thirty meters under. it is always dark and i am always forgetting to breathe, always forgetting that you are the thing to escape from. this is the midnight zone they warned you about, i am too deep in to go back up.

—  rapture of the deep || sarah kate o.
Abusers like to remind you how you depend on them, how much you need them, how you can’t do without them, but the truth is the exact reverse. Abusers are the ones who need you. They can’t be anything without victims. They can’t be strong, important, powerful or relevant without destroying someone who is stronger, more relevant and more human than they are.
—  they’re nothing without you.

i know that it’s supposed to be a horrible fate and everything, but watching beauty and the beast yesterday, i found myself extremely jealous of belle’s whole life-as-a-prisoner situation.

like, belle gets to:

  • hang out at home every day
  • only see a few people, most of whom are in fun household object shapes
  • have great food prepared for her
  • have cool-ass castle grounds to wander around without having to worry about running into someone else
  • never think about getting a job or money or generally adulting
  • instantly travel anywhere in the world thanks to a magic book and come back home just as instantaneously

i want that life.