or someone else has. if so

Maybe you’re like me tonight

Maybe you’re scrolling through tumblr to numb the storm that’s raging in your heart and wasting time until you can fall asleep

Maybe you’re laying on your bedroom floor in surrounded by your tears and consumed by your fears

Maybe you’re crying in the shower for the tenth time this week because you can’t face your family or your roommates or your husband or your wife or your boyfriend or girlfriend or yourself with tears streaming down your face

Maybe you’re crying over the same stupid boy for the millionth time and hating him because he’s made it so very clear he’s happy with someone else

Maybe you’re crying because everyone else is married or has a boyfriend or has their life together

Maybe you’re thinking of just ending it all

Maybe the thought of not having to face another day seems like the best option of them all 

Maybe you believe in Jesus like I do

But maybe sometimes you question Him and you question yourself and you question your beliefs and you question your faith and you question every. single. thing. that comes into your mind.

Maybe the darkness of depression won today and the light of Jesus wasn’t shining as bright as it has before.

Or maybe you’re spending the evening surrounded by your closest friends and laughing until your stomach hurts or drinking the night away

But maybe, just maybe, deep down you feel it too. 


Tonight I cried in front of my mom for the first time in a very, very long time. You see, she struggles with depression too. And I’ve just recently found the strength to talk to my doctor and my boss and my best friends about the darkness that is depression and how it’s overtaken my life lately. But I haven’t told her. I can’t tell her. I can’t let her down. I can’t let her feel like she’s failed anymore than she already feels she has.
She held me and I cried and I shook and I got mascara all over her shirt. Bless her soul. 

She picked my head up and she said to me,
“You are strong. You are beautiful. You are smart.”
“Everything will be alright. And I don’t know what that looks like.”
“There’s more to life than boyfriends and babies.”

So through my teary, teary eyes let me pick your head up, even for just a moment.

YOU are strong. YOU are beautiful. YOU are smart.
I don’t know what alright looks like for you, but I know it will be all right. 

Let me pick your head up through a computer screen and typed letters and a very long post. Let me pick your head up because I know heads can get so heavy when they’re filled with sadness and darkness and racing thoughts and brokenness. 

I wish I could give you a reason to stay here on earth for just one more day, but I’m honestly struggling to find one for myself tonight. I do know, that whoever you are, where ever you are, you have worth. And I do too. And maybe tomorrow will be brighter. Or maybe we’ll cry ourselves to sleep again. Let’s hold on, together, for whatever reason, for one more day.

anonymous asked:

I'd be so done if in Chaol's book she decides to make the main people he talks to in the Southern Continent be white. Like. No. And she may have LGBT+ rep, but it's literally one or two sentences that says someone is gay or has a lover or something. Like Enda and his mate. Or the two lovers in the Thirteen.

I can’t disagree with this. Honestly. I will finish out the series to find out what happens, and then likely move on. I feel like in Chaol’s novel, he should be the only white man so that he can experience prejudice to learn why it sucks and why he shouldn’t do it to anyone else. And I would KILL for a lesbian love scene honestly. Or just two girls kissing. Or fucking holding hands. Like I’m not gonna be picky.

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FIC || nearness without contact  [Archive of Our Own]
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
By Organization for Transformative Works

cassian andor/mon mothma, rogue one, 1.9k [nearness without contact
causes numbness]

She is still there, posture very straight and draped in white, whenever he returns. She is always there, standing or sitting at the head of the war-table, watching someone else speak her orders for her. (She doesn’t talk much. It’s an odd realization, when she looms so large in Cassian’s mind, when her voice, her commands, seem thick in the air on Yavin. But she lets others give orders, and Cassian isn’t certain how to feel about that.)

Once—exactly once—he comes across her falling asleep, her head tilted back against the cushion of the chair. It is just between shift-change, and so they are alone in the command center. Her face is older, asleep; she has lines at the corners of her pursed mouth, her shuttered eyes. Her copper hair is falling in her eyes.

He gets close enough to his breath stirs her hair, and he very gently touches her forehead, just with two fingertips.

james bond always cares about M a little too much. (M liked him from the start.)


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anonymous asked:

As a older and cool aroace, can u gimme advice? All my friends are dating rn and im feeling kinda lonely... They try to hang with me but its like an obligation? We used to make plans abt living we all together but now they all want to get married...

I can tell you as an aroace that it is so easy to forget other people just aren’t aroace. I usually forget most of my friends either have or want significant others until they tell me they have a crush or that they actually have an SO. 

It’s super hard when your friend starts talking to you less and less and someone else more and more. My advice is two fold, you should try and remember that your friend has a right to their own version of happiness, and you do too. Losing the closeness of a friendship sucks, but I advise taking this chance to try and make some new friends. Maybe try a meetup or find a group to join like a gaming group or political group. 

I’ll tell you how I personally get the most happiness out of my own life. I live in the moment with the people I love and care about right now. If they choose to spend their time with someone else tomorrow, that doesn’t lessen the love we shared today. Tomorrow I’ll find a new friend to chill with. 

I hope that helps. 

rusticbologna  asked:

And maybe what marlene meant by the show "coming full circle" means its going to come back to the facr that the whole NAT club situation was sketchy af. Theres always been more than one group; Mona's group which is the original A team, and the NAT. Although we find out Mona's motive (as well as cece's) we never actually found out any info as to what the NAT club was actually doing and why. Jason said it seemed like they were filming the videos for someone else.. is that someone else A.D?

I’m currently re-watching the series and it seems like Ian was behind it all. He was obsessed with Ali and so he was filming her because he knew he couldn’t have her. It probably will be as simple as that, but I love the idea that AD was behind the filming of the girls. That would be an ideal explanation because it shows that AD has been obsessed with these girls since forever, and I think that’s so creepy, and so twisted, and so I love it!

anonymous asked:

Can we have s/o explaining that she was not "pleased" during their nasty-time? Like the boys finished too early, or she just wasn't into it. Either way, she was honestly not impressed. (I'm evil).

Most of them would probably tell you to grab a toy and see if you can do any better but I’ve been informed that I cannot say that on the internet so I will need to elaborate.

Sakamaki:

Shu - “Then you have no one to blame but yourself since you ride me.” It’s true though you’re the one who’s doing all the work.

Reiji - Hell have no fury like the wrath you have just incurred. “Oh, well maybe you should try harder to please someone else before they can please you.”

Ayato - “Huh, that’s not what you said last night when I was [CENSORED].” Ayato has to save his ego some way.

Kanato - His face is red and for once he is speechless as he walks out of the room. Rest assured once he’s put a Hello Kitty bandaid on the wound he’ll be back to tear into you.

Laito - Does. Not. Compute. Laito.exe has stopped responding. He has never had that said to him before.

Subaru - Okay look he already has low self esteem don’t do this to him.

Mukami:

Ruki - If looks could kill, you’d be dead. You also could have chosen a time when he wasn’t cleaning up last night’s activities, thus putting the riding crop away. “Must I remind you livestock that you are here to please me and not yourself?”

Kou - Oh, oh no sweetie don’t tell Kou that because he will destroy you. Your rep is ruined as soon as he here’s that come out of your mouth. You were supposedly cheating on him and you broke his heart… get ready for the fangirl raid on twitter.

Yuma - “Well why don’t you grab a toy and see if you could do better!” Seriously have you seen the size of Yuma? If I wasn’t too gay for this shit I’d be on that.

Azusa - “Oh… then does Eve… want to leave me?” You’ll have to explain to him that there are other ways to work around your dilemma and it’s not the end for you two… he is also crushed.

anonymous asked:

Either Furuta got Uta or pulled some stranger onto that stage in Kaneki's place. But this is a person that likes to add personal touches to his work, be it with Rize (taking away freedom he helped provide) or Eto (killing someone close when taunting her). So my mind is looking for the personal shot to Kaneki that is probably not there. SO just a theory: He takes away Kaneki's identity and a personal link. He needs someone who looks like hims so he chose his cousin, his aunt's son.

Also just a disclosure: The idea I was brainstorming in the earlier post with Furuta executing Kaneki’s cousin doesn’t have any evidence, and it probably didn’t happen. I doubt anyone else has proposed the idea as well, and I was just trying to think on concepts that would be in Furuta’s character.

AH! That would be wild! I’ve always wondered what happened to Kaneki’s aunt/cousin. But, I think they’re so distanced from him that it would be kind of a waste of Furuta’s time to go after them.  

I also think, in regards to Eto and Rize, he’s not necessarily abusing anyone for that sake of abuse. Furuta says he has no reason for the things he did, but he was raised in the same hyper-controlling, dead-end atmosphere as Arima, and a huge part of his character has to do with freedom and control. He may have really loved Rize, and helped her escape with the best of intentions, but… I can imagine him as a child waiting for her to come to him, day in day out to help him escape, too, and she just never comes. His huge heroic gesture turned into a pitiful grapple with his own hellish, trapped, loveless life…

and he came out of the fight with thicker skin. 

So, I think somewhere down the line his feelings of helplessness manifested into a heavily-fabricated, manipulative, and controlling person. Whether it’s crushing Rize and taking her kagune to make things “fair” or allowing Eto to drag herself away (maybe to use her again later), he made those decisions and carried them out just because he wanted to, without actually caring about the outcome. Furuta’s a sociopath, no matter which way you look at it.

As for cutting the impostor’s head off, I don’t think he had any long-term goals by doing that. Furuta’s playing a game while he tears the CCG to shreds, and undermining Goat is just his move after they “made themselves known” to the CCG. I’m completely sure he can’t wait to see what Kaneki does next, just so he can knock him back down again, because frankly it’s just fun for him.

k so Thought™ you know that body!swap trope where ppl swap minds for x amount of time in a way that’s actually just personality+memory swapping - i’m talking stargate, x files, freaky friday mind!swap into each other’s body kinda deals.

now, what if there was an actual mind!swap where the personality of one person was “downloaded’ into someone else’s mind but the chemical balances and synaptic connections etc etc were the same as the original personalities and they were mentally ill or neurodivergent 

so you have the personality of a mentally healthy person in a mentally ill mind so the personality has to deal w impulsive thoughts and stimming and blurred concentration and any other number of things and they have absolutely no clue how to manage any of these symptoms bc they’ve never been expose to them 

so the entire narrative is them trying to do things they used to do in the blink of an eye like get out of bed or not think of pink elephants or hold a conversation from beginning to end without losing their train of thought and and them being all fuck off this is total bullshit

and bc this character is a scientist of some shit that’s how they swapped in the first place when they get their original brain back they spend the rest of their life plotting out the physiological symptoms of mental illnesses and non-typical brain functions so that ppl can look at scans of a brain and be like, yo this bit is the wrong colour that means they’ve got x or this bit is smidged and this other bit is bleeped so that means y+u instead of this weird contextual diagnosis system plus trial and errors for medication system we’ve currently got

anonymous asked:

I'm glad someone is talking about the Gemma thing. It really makes me mad. Yes people posting larry is stupid but every post a family member makes has it a hundred times, along with gross het things that beg her brother to do nasty things to them. So why comment on this one post. Which wasn't even the most annoying. Like everything else in this band that's really shady to me. And then an hour later Harry releases a video with "coming out" undertones. The whiplash is exhausting

Yes I agree …. it’s always the larries and that doesn’t seem fair when creepy people are also commenting like “I wish we were sisters in law cause I wanna marry your brother"…. stop singling people out and engaging with the fandom in such a negative way.

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I read about five comments on this story before I was so annoyed that I had to leave my own comment to show how disgusted I was by these people. Everyone has the right to ship who they want, create the content they want and not have to be apologetic about it. If you have a negative opinion on someone else’s work, keep it in your own judgmental, childlike brain. I just want to spread awareness to all the hate that some writers get. Hate isn’t cool so don’t do it to other people.

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I drew my oc Icarus Eros with his cute smaller coltfriend, Shotokeki. Icarus now has a new collar showing who his new “master” is. The charm is a slice of strawberry shortcake, very fitting lol. I love these two together, I can’t get enough of it.

Shotokeki belongs to @nessie-wolfmod

edit: added pic w/ background and added Soto’s cutiemark. Icarus doesn’t have one since he’s an afrution.

Sometimes I feel like Sarah Manning doesn’t really get the love she deserves? Like?! She’s such a hardworking and caring mother! She gave up her drugs for her own daughter and pretended to be someone else and went through all this scary shit so she could get Kira back. Like she fights HARD! She’s a fighter! And plus she’s got great style and a sexy ass deep voice. Also Sarah and Felix’s relationship are probably one of the most precious?? Cause while she has the bad ass attitude there’s like this soft fragile side to her like when she finally realized that Adele was actually Felix’s sister and she was no longer his only sister and there was like this heartbreak on her face but like she wasn’t gonna break down so she remained strong and like speaking of strong she’s kind of the glue??? Like to everyone? I mean… she holds all the sestras together. Sarah Manning is a beautiful strong ass babe and one of the best clones.

anonymous asked:

Have you watched Iron Fist?

I managed half of the first episode before I gave up and read an article that gave me the pertinent information to keep me current on what’s happening in that ‘verse.

I don’t pretend to be an expert, but the “action” in Iron Fist is… laughable. It’s slowed down and simplified so anyone can follow it, but it has the unfortunate effect of making Danny appear like a first level student and everyone else bumbling idiots. So he walks around barefoot and can throw someone against a wall—it’s not hard to do when his opponent can’t even get his gun out of his holster during the thirty seconds of Danny telegraphing his punches before they land. (From what I understand, Colleen Wing is definitely better, but I gave up before I got to her, I couldn’t take any more of Danny.)

That’s not even getting into the “white savior” bullshit and the utter fucking racism of the show, or Finn Jones’ douchey behavior. (I don’t think he’s a terrible person, but he is tone-deaf and insensitive, and that’s a problem.)

So I won’t be watching the rest of the season, although I’m sorry to miss my girl Claire being her usual badass self. (She needs to open a home for superheroes, istg)

Nothing like being so invisible, your reblog of a chain post is ignored because someone else with more followers reblogs someone elses and continues it and when you see it and look for your contribution there’s not a damn thing there.

Being alone for a year at home has started to take it’s toll on my house cookies.

You know what I don’t get? When someone says Sherlolly cant work cause its abusive, but ships Sherlock with someone else.

 So I have noticed a lot of detractors of Sherlolly seem to think that it would be an abusive relationship, but still claim to love Sherlock as a character/ship him with someone else.

Here’s the thing. Abusive/manipulative  pricks are Abusive/manipulative pricks. If Sherlock was abusive to Molly, he would be abusive to John/Lestrade/Irene/Kermit/whoever.

In real life when we think a girl has an abusive boyfriend, we don’t try to set HIM up with someone else because the assumption is that when you abuse one partner, you will probably abuse another.

Never mind the fact that Sherlock and Molly aren’t shown to have the abusive relation that detractors claim to see in the first place or the fact that people who don’t like Sherlolly are more likely to dislike Molly as a character than to dislike Sherlock as a character despite his alleged abusive tendencies.

>starts accidentally getting headcanons for Overwatch character classpects
>googles to see if anyone else has
>oh, they have!
>……
>a complete list where only like three actually sound right and some are so wildly off base they’re nonsensical
>an incomplete list that’s clearly just someone’s yaoi fodder headcanon
>a very in depth post about Winston that I’m actually pretty on board with
>everything else just coincidental mentions of the two terms on one blog

WHY DO I EVEN BOTHER

random Cypora facts:
  • Cypora’s mom Guta has, in D&D/Pathfinder terms, an 18 Strength. She has no background as a warrior or anything like that and has been tending the tavern since she was a child.
  • i’m genuinely surprised that i didn’t get more comments about the bits of Yiddish and Hebrew in the story, so i’m adding more, and some Ladino.
  • i am working on the second draft and also starting a first draft of the sequel and i still haven’t decided what choice Cypora made at the end of the first story
  • there are at present five explicitly trans characters in the story and i may eventually decide someone else is, but so far nobody is canonically cisgender except i guess Cypora’s parents

Does anyone else get a bit of a thrill when you discover someone else - whether they’re famous/on a video/nowhere in your sphere of influence with any chance of ever meeting - out there in the world with your last name?  Like, that whole feeling of “I don’t know you, but we may possibly be family somewhere along the line, and therefore you are my people”?

(This could also be the tequila talking, btw.)

But still, it’s a definite thought that’s run through my head.  My last name isn’t exactly a common one, even within Italy, and a name that’s also frequently mispronounced - it’s relatively short, and more vowels than consonants, to give you an idea of what it looks like - and so when I see someone else who has that last name?  The urge to ask “So, what part of Italy are you from?” is all too strong.

(Again, blame the tequila for this post - it may get deleted once I sober up.)

anonymous asked:

Well, i believe the CCG has both fueguchi quinque now.... and btw, why did akira never go to her mother's grave? I mean, sure, eto scattered her body into tiny unrecognizeable pieces, but kasuka surely had a grave right? An empty grave like shirazu's?

It’s true that Akira doesn’t have the quinques with her, but Goat broke into the CCG once already. Besides, its plenty possible someone else is using those quinques out on the field right now so there maybe a chance to grab them.

I don’t know how she’ll get them - my point was that symbolically and thematically, the gesture of getting those quinques to Hinami would be crucial for multiple threads of Akira’s growth. 

As for Kasuka - I suspect her grave is the one shown next to Kureo’s if they don’t have a family grave situation going on. 

But Akira never knew her mother and would have nothing to talk to her about. Her mother didn’t shape her life directly, only through her effect on Kureo. Kureo raised Akira all by himself, and she had an incredibly strong bond with him. She never had anything of the sort with Kasuka.

I’m sure she keeps up Kasuka’s grave and visits on holidays where such things are done, if only for her father’s sake. But her visits to Kureo’s grave are personal and informative of her character, which is why they are shown.