I USED TO NOT but ever since late 2016 i have!! i don’t always post them in the order i draw them in either, that’s why sometimes the style can look v subtly inconsistent. most of the time if you catch me just as im posting, you can tell when i Goof Up bc sora’s braces will be the wrong colour (sometimes i rush to edit it, sometimes i..dont bother), or (lately) some posts will be written in lowercase rather than in allcaps!!
“So I’m old enough to risk my life taking down titans but I’m not old enough to love you?” Eren quips, and while this time he purposefully goes for sassy, his voice hitches up near the end – it’s the first time he’s used the word ‘love’ to describe the emotions he has towards his Captain, but that’s what it is in its purest form, he now realizes: selfless, unwavering love that knows no bounds.
With a short nod, Levi replies, “That’s right.” His expression doesn’t change, but Eren’s sure he must know how ridiculous his demand is. However, he’s well aware that Levi’s not easily swayed, so with a dejected sigh, he drops his shoulders down.
Eight months. Well, it’s still better than a ‘no’.
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did someone say self-indulgent praise kink ereri pwp?? bc i think i heard someone say self-indulgent praise kink ereri pwp.
this is just literally 30k of porn. it was supposed to be a bd present for a certain cutie;);););) but i totally missed the mark by a month or so looool. this can be like a present for everyone celebrating their bd this year, and also a lil something to make up for the fact that i probably won’t be doing ereri week bc of both skool and work ramming my ass at the same time, ooohh double penetration~~
speaking of things ramming my ass, i gotta thank the cute and adorable and 100 % quality ieatkitcat for editing this monstrosity for me < 333 333 if it weren’t for her this thing would be even more horrible than it is now lol.
there is mature content under the readmore, so proceed with caution
content warnings: - anxiety/depression (+ some light ref to past suicidal ideation on jace’s part) - self-starvation (vampire!simon) - talk about blood & drinking blood - has a happy ending tho
The alley is a whirling pool of blacks and reds as Simon collapses against the nearest wall. He slides down it, the rough texture of the bricks behind him scratching his skin and leaving red marks along his exposed arms.
He lets out a shaky breath that never seems to stop, until he realizes his throat is burning and he gasps for air.
Squeezing his eyes closed, he rubs at his temples and tries to gain back control. The sharpness of his fangs against the inside of his bottom lip is excruciating.
I’m a monster.
The words echo inside his skull, etching themselves into his bones as a never-ending reminder that he can never go back to how things were. He will always be this shadow of what he used to be and nothing more.
Even though his eyes are closed, the world is still spinning. He can taste the coppery sweetness of blood still stuck to his fangs. It repulses him.
imagine if while all of the drama of the werewolf au is going on some of the other neighbors start noticing (like, Hugo sees his son is going out more and coming home embarrassed, but less irritated, Mary's twins are also interested in getting information on Damien, Amanda is half-interested in scheming since Lucien may have livestreamed a double not-date)
Hugo walks into his son’s room to tell him dinner is ready and Ernest is just screaming into a pillow and Hugo can see his ears are bright red. Hugo tries to ask him what he did that day and Ernest turns red before mumbling out “nothing” which is much more tame than his usual, irritated “nothing YOU’D understand, old man”.
Hugo casually mentions if Ernest had seen Lucien that day and Ernest SCREECHES and chokes on his food and looks like he’s about to have a panic attack like “WHY WHAT DO YOU MEAN WHAT DO YOU KNOW”
Hugo is so worried hes just,,,, “He missed class yesterday and doesnt know we have an essay assigned” “o-oh,,,,i’ll uh,,,let him know”
Mary rambles to the kids abt how her friends are big dumb idiots who can’t talk about their Feelings. The twins try to get the two into goofy romcom situations by locking them into rooms together. They also frequently ask Damien if he’s ever killed anyone while in wolf form and it Distresses him
Amanda, like mary, thinks theyre all idiots and shes LIVING bc its like reality television. Badboy loner dating the maybe werewolf goth guy? Goth guy’s punk son and his not-boyfriend trying to keep the werewolf secret? Amazing. Its hilarious. She asks Lucien to keep livestreaming everything because this is how she’s gonna spend her weekend nights from now on.
On the downside it means that the whole school thinks Lucien and Ernest are actually dating bc a good portion of them follow Lucien and word starts to spread. It’s nothing malicious it’s just extremely embarrassing. That’s probably how Hugo finds out, or gets suspicious of it, and then it means that Ernest and Lucien have to keep up the game at school so word doesn’t get back to Damien about the lie.
Ernest wants to yell bc why is it so easy for Lucien to just DO THOSE THINGS all the time. Lucien, on the other hand, thinks Ernest is adorable, esp when his face gets all red and his voice gets all squeaky and high pitched from how flustered he is. Lucien may or may not forget abt the werewolf thing bc hes too busy pressing kisses to Ernest’s cute face.
The other dads notice Damien and Robert spending more time together and just kinda “ooooo” *wink wink nudge nudge* and keep congratulating them
idk if you've already done this or not but something with solangelo being pranked on April Fools
boy dang im sorry this took so long im real bad with pranks and i was told to watch the parent trap but i had no motivation to??? but luckily i got this idea a few days ago so here u go i hope this is what u were going for
So will and nico are together but dont really act like it all that often like they kinda just seem like really really close friends who hold hands on a rare occasion in public and sometimes sleep in the same bed when one has a nightmare
Anyway so theyre together and really really like each other and they know it but like a lot of other people dont really know it like?? Will’s friends are like “bro when r u gonna make a move” and wills like “we’ve been together for six months???” and theyre like “so start acting like it??” but like theyre cool how they are like they dont need to act super coupley bc that’s not the kind of people they are with each other
So lou ellen and cecil work together to make some kind of potion that theyre super secretive about like they won’t tell will anything about it and then one day while he isn’t looking they pour some of this potion in his drink and like he can taste the difference but lou and cecil refuse to tell him when the potion was they’re like “you’ll figure it out soon enough
Will’s like “if i die from this then i’ll get nico to bring me back just so i can kick ur asses so u better watch urselves” and lou and cecil are like ‘yeah uh huh sure’
we’ll just say this happened on april fools since thats what ur request was
will gets kinda anxious about it bc hes seen some of the potions lou and cecil make together and they never really end well but nothing bad happens to him like,,, maybe seeing nico brightens his day a little bit more than usual but like even that’s not all that different?? so he doesnt get it
nico goes with will to force lou and cecil to tell them what the potion was supposed to do and cecils like “r u kidding me!! why can’t we ever make one potion that works right!!” and lou’s like “drinking that potion was supposed to make you fall madly and uncontrollably in love with the first person you saw ((nico)) but obvi it didn’t work”
will’s just like ?????? bc????? but like hes so relieved that he’s not About to Die that he just shouts “Ha! Jokes on you, i’m already madly in love with nico!”
and like nico’s super flattered but also super embarrassed bc its the middle of dinner and literally everyone in the room is looking at them now so he shadowtravels them out of there but as soon as theyre back on solid ground and away from people nico kisses will and tells him he loves him too
this was also possibly the fastest list that i wrote since i started this??? like that sounds fake bc this has been in my inbox for like close to a month probably but thanks for waiting and i hope you liked it!!
A chipmunked version of the Haikyuu ending song that sorta made it sound like Hinata was singing had me craving a kagehina pop star au and it’s super embarrassing and I already talked @silencedmoment’s ear off (lots of these ideas are hers) but just in case anyone else would enjoy this idea as much as I do I’m sharing—
Ok but like… It’s been a couple days but I’m still not over just how DEVASTATED Dex is at sharing a room with Nursey…. Like…. I know Nursey is a little shit but I’m so convinced that there’s got to be SOMETHING more to that sheer panic besides Nursey just being a pretentious fuck that’s hard to live with.
Honestly, I understand Dex being mad at feeling cheated out of dibs or w/e after doing so much haus-work, that’s fair. Like, I’m not gonna deny him his emotional response, but also Lardo’s dibs was going to be Nursey’s to begin with, so the fact that he was so distraught at the outcome when it was actually very cool of Lardo to give him an equally fair shot I think is indicative of something deeper going on. & by something deeper I’m just gonna shamelessly admit rn I think Dex might have a crush on Nursey. Maybe it really is just the shipper in me projecting but seriously,
I know Nursey is ridiculous but it’s been 2 years and they’re relatively much better off than they were before, they’re p good friends, so what gives? Like. The dude literally went through the 5 stages of grief within a single update.
& idk if I’ve voiced my thoughts on this before but I’ve always had the sense that Dex really is gay, imo it’s been pretty well indicated. The baking euphemism literally started with Dex during their first introduction in the tadpole tour, and then surprise surprise later on Bitty’s Twitter it turns out 1) Dex is pretty good at baking. And 2) he’s also kinda embarrassed about that.
Also, Dex CHOSE to go to the most LGBT-friendly school in the country even though he would’ve preferred somewhere in-state that probably would’ve been cheaper. We can chalk this up to making the choice bc of the hockey scholarship (like bitty I guess?) but Samwell’s “1 in 4, maybe more” was admittedly a big part of its appeal to Bitty, so it wouldn’t be a stretch to say Samwell had the same appeal to Dex. Imo Dex has always been way too pragmatic and money-conscientious to choose Samwell over a state school, I know he has to for the sake of the narrative but that aside, he chose Samwell for a reason. You could chalk it up to him choosing Samwell just bc he really likes hockey, but I’ve never really gotten that strong of an impression from him. Oh, I’m sure he likes it, but he’s no Jack Zimmerman. I think the LGBT appeal is the exact perfect reason FOR him to make that somewhat emotionally fueled decision as opposed to the more practical choice
also lbr Dex had a super gay moment w Jack during initiation I think we call can appreciate Jack’s butt
Sidenote, as a bi PoC as much as I appreciate bi!nursey as a concept & connect w it & want it to be a thing.. Dex being gay I think is a lot more strongly foreshadowed than Nursey being bisexual. Which is unfortunate, bc I really like bi!Nursey. & I like the idea of them as a couple, too.
For whatever reason the colored version I made is more embarrassing to post, so I’ll just leave this sketch here and run :,3 I can’t handle my love for these two, like for real, I think they should hug, maybe hold hands.
idk s this a thing ? does this happen to other ? ppl ? is it jst me ? where u can b just Sitting There doin Absolutely Nothin when ur suddenly painfully aware of ur pussy n ur brains all “what if smthn was In There 👀👀👀” n ur screamin bc ur in the middle of fuckin precalc or watchin a fuckin funeral progression or just anywhere besides a place where u ought to be thinking that but u Cant Stop n now ur just angry and horny and a little embarrassed
Hi, I have a question on your artwork of the Xmas special with Saeran. Did you intend it to BDSM or is it rape? (Asking bc people arguing that it's rape) thank you! X
It’s kind of embarrassing question to me, I just drew it after I get Saeran ending, I like thinking how Saeran treat her that way because at the end she try to run away from him, so you can consider it’s rape (maybe it’s also have a LITTLE SM when he tie her arm, but it’s still rape after all)
I’m sorry when I’m not put the warning rape in the picture, but you can find ‘rape’ hashtag below. And one last thing, sorry for my bad English… ( ^^)“
(P/s: I hope you guys are not going to hate me for this misunderstood)
your writing has also inspired me to try my hand at it again; i have ocd and it feels like a constant struggle for words, phrases, things to say in general, etc. do you have this problem too and/or any tips? my brain feels like it's totally useless and maybe i'm not suited to be a writer
writing is a learned habit. no one is born stringing together eloquent phrases, it’s something you learn over time.
ok, so, personal details: i was on medication for a long time that had a side effect of taking a mallet to my memory and cognition. in a short period of time i went from being able to write as easily as talking to struggling to remember simple words, having a conversation was embarrassing bc i had to keep stopping to plan out what i had to say, etc etc etc. it sucked a lot. i lost my job in print media, i couldn’t maintain my monetized blog, and i was a real turd to really nice people and ruined a lot of good friendships. it suuuuuuuucked and i was not a very nice person to be around. very, very angry at this time, and i took it out on people who didn’t deserve it one bit bc i was scared of losing what was (and will be again, i hope) my source of income, and my marginal talent and the one thing i was good at.
but! i finally went to a new doc, i was yanked off the medication and put through neuro bootcamp with a specialist. i was diagnosed with a non-traumatic brain injury and was rehabbed in the same way as someone with an early intervention stroke. rebuilding plasticity, learning to hold chains of thought again, articulating ideas verbally and written, etc etc etc. my oc is basically a working model of being able to finally lock down a thought and remember small details.
like, tmi, who cares, but all of this horseshit has made me super conscious of writing as a learned activity, and what it’s been like to go from being able to write easily to getting frustrated and upset that i couldn’t take the words in my head and put them on paper any more, or hold on to a thought long enough to be able to articulate it.
so i think my advice is to disregard advice about ~the sanctity of the craft~ and keep your expectations bite sized and make your work accessible to yourself.
i moved my stuff to google docs and have the docs/drive app on my ipad and iphone, as well as access on my laptop and desktop. if i have a moment free while watching tv or sitting in an uber or w/e i can look at whatever story is on my mind and write a single sentence or change a word or just reread what’s there. having it in my pocket to look at while i’m on the can instead of having to go make the active choice to sit at my pc takes a lot of the pressure to perform away.
if the words don’t come then ok, maybe not now, i can just do something else and see if the pieces fall into place a bit later and not get stressed about it. there’s always time when it’s just a matter of picking up my phone.
and the bite sized bit is really important to me. do what you can, but do it on a regular basis. if i write a single word tomorrow and nothing else comes out then i don’t sweat it, because one word is a whooooole lot better than no words. if i get a paragraph down, great! if a page comes out, great! if i move a few words around and suddenly a sentence flows better, then great! it’s all better than nothing.
don’t measure yourself against other people’s productivity (and in my case i can’t measure myself against the productivity i used to have). a thousand words at lunch is their thing, not necessarily your thing. it’s never gonna be my thing again for years, if ever, and i’m getting better at being ok with that!
i think that’s it. everyone can write in one way or another, but a lot of writing advice is too high falutin’ with the ~art of the craft~, not ‘how do i get the words down when it’s like pulling a tooth just to hold onto a thought and sitting down to capital w Write is a one way ticket to frustration’. it’s just reducing it down to building your story brick by brick, word by word until you can look back at it and go, yep, that’s pretty much done.
he wouldnt be able to look you in the eyes for a whole week
says sorry about 1000 times
before asking for you forgiveness
ever so slightly praises you
like “i’m sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sorry but your so gorgeous”
of course whispering the last part
because if he didn’t you would have endless sorrys forever
and as much as i love this cute lil bean i can’t
and i have this annoying lil shit in my class that thinks he can correct everything someone says
but much love no isogai as i love him he loves you you should love hem everything works out.
would be calm on the inside
but would be so excited like
nooooo stop itona
low key pervert
its so true it hurts
his new name is “supreme leader itona the pervert”
*probably has a nose bleed*
gets called a perv by you
(idk do you like people watch you bathe?)
if you do forget about when i said about him
if you are fine you would both have a normal conversation
but his mind is in a different place
shuffles uncontrollably bc ya know
hes a perv
(im sorry if you disagree that he’s a perv but i will honestly punch you if you dont think hes a perv and is also part of the illuminati)
basically just smirks teases you for weeks casulaly talks about it as its nor embarrising Doesn’t care that your embarrassed Secretly funds you really really cute I’m not joking he probably (most likely) to a photo Ok so maybe not one but 100 He has no storage on his phone because of you. What makes it worse is that he shows everyone You nearly have a heart attack But does karma care? No Will he ever? No
*nosebleeds for eternity* praises you for eternity hugs you for eternity loves you for eternity like gawwd so many eternities with this kid watches you for eternity stalks you for eternity (im joking about this one) or am i? fuck im a bitch but aside from this he’d be generally happy just bc he saw you naked supreme leader maehara the pervert #2
awkwardly laughs. but keep staring at your perfect body. tries not to cry at you perfect body because it’s perfect like its an aesthetically pleasing piece of fucking art. im not joking i promise this lil bean will be so greatful for you just indirectly seeing you naked. the next day he would slide into them dms like a fucking elevator but be super cute and innocent about it. i love him for this omg just thinking about nagisa is too cute to handle is it weird he’s a fictional character?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Thank you all for the wait and sorry karma sand maehara said are rly short but I did try. Today I’m going to do a few really quick ones instead of someone catching you making out just because I can Finish it today so everyone’s happy.
This is so embarrassing but I kinda need to talk to someone about it. Sometimes I'll look up my therapist on social media and just kind of observe for a minute then get really mad at myself and exit out. I mean I think everyone gets curious but I do it more so as a comfort thing??? and also maybe kinda protective, like I just wanna make sure she's doing ok??? This is creepy as hell and I hate it bc I don't actually see her as a "friend" or anything but I just appreciate her sm idk idk idk
Aw hun its okay haha I wouldn’t consider that creepy. It’s alright if you like to check up on her and it brings you comfort. I think its nice that you appreciate her like that. That might just be a part of how you cope. Don’t be embarrassed about that(: 💛