or it may be the exhaustion

anonymous asked:

I kinda see why we can't be a part of lgbt+... I mean if you're an het ace you kinda are straight... I kinda understand too that why we should be a part of lgbt because of some struggles some of us have... I don't know I just want this discourse to stop ;-;

Heteroromantic aces aren’t straight, though. They may not always suffer the explicit oppression of attraction to their same gender, but that is far from the only criterion one must meet to be accepted by Straightness and have unconditional access to its privileges. Failure to demonstrate and act upon normative levels of attraction to a binary opposite gender is sufficient in itself to cause exclusion from Straightness, which defines itself and maintains its hegemony with exhaustive lists of requirements. There is ample evidence of Straight people forcibly and violently excluding aces, and to erase that is exactly the problem

Asexuality is non-straight in itself, and asexuality is a significant and meaningful part of people’s identity. We cannot find acceptance, support, or the resources we need if we continue to cling to the heteronormative erasure that relegates us to our romantic orientations or discounts the role our asexuality plays in our understanding of ourselves, our experiences, and our relation to society.

-Dew

anonymous asked:

Hello ! Any feel good/funny films directed by women you could rec me please ? I'm trying to do the #52films challenge but only watching drama or films on serious issues is a little exhausting and that's what most lists of good films made by women seem to recommend :s

First off, congrats on a) attempting the 52 films challenge and b) on not giving up when you hit a snag and making sure you complete it!

Second of all: absolutely I have suggestions!

The Bridget Jones trilogy (all three are directed by women)
Clueless and Vamps both by Amy Heckerling
The Heartbreak Kid (1972) version directed by Elaine May
A New Leaf directed by Elaine May
Zero Motivation directed by Talya Lavie
Desperately Seeking Susan dir. Susan Seidelman
2 Days in Paris and 2 Days in New York (both by Julie Delpy)
D.E.B.S. directed by Angela Robinson
Obvious Child by Gillian Robespierre
Slums of Beverly Hills by Tamara Jenkins
The Parent Trap directed by Nancy Meyers
Enough Said directed by Nicole Holofcener
The Dressmaker directed by Jocelyn Moorhouse
Saving Face directed by Alice Wu
Bachelorette directed by Leslye Headland
In a World… directed by Lake Bell
Bend it Like Beckham directed by Gurinder Chadha
You’ve Got Mail directed by Nora Ephron
The Trouble with Angels directed by Ida Lupino

Also a lot of big 90s comedies I’m not super into, but you might like such as The Brady Bunch, A Very Brady Sequel, Wayne’s World, and Billy Madison are all directed by women. 

Quick Summary from Helsinki - Day 1 Practice

I’m pretty tired so here’s a quick rundown of what I remember (I’m exhausted so maybe I’ll do a more complete post later).

Arrived during Group 3 of Ladies.
- Saw Mariah Bell got teary eyed during practice talking to Rafael, she seemed to get over it but her earlier FS run-through wasn’t great.
- No Kostner or Russian ladies at first practice.
- Mai Mihara is very impressive, she has great knee bend in her jumps and her overall skating. I would keep an eye on her. She had some trouble during her FS run-through, maybe something was up with her laces as she tugged on them midway during her runt-through and then tripped randomly as well.

Men
- Yuzu had a solid practice overall but was doing jumps that weren’t part of his planned jump content, such as a 4t1Lo3S, 3a out of a layback Ina Bauer, and some other stuff I can’t remember off the top of my head. Overall he looked amazing on ice as always, I love watching his practices, his warm-up and cool down looks so elegant.
- Nathan seemed to be doing quite a few flips and also practiced a few axels. Not a fan of his “spread eagle” exit out of the 3a, he’s basically planting his feet down and doesn’t travel anywhere in a spread eagle before continuing his program. His jumps overall looked good though and I really enjoy the second half of his SP.
- No Canadian men at practice, where did they go?
- No Javier Fernandez at practice, saw him post about some soccer game on Instagram?
- I think Denis Ten had a clean SP run-through but didn’t do all the choreography. Music cuts are weird.
- I’m not a huge fan of Jason Brown’s skating but he clearly has great quality which I can appreciate.
- Boyang Jin’s Spider-Man is so much fun. I only remember seeing one 4lz from him but I also missed part of his practice.

Only stayed for a couple pairs as I got tired and hungry, and am too tired now to go back for dance.

Other tidbits:

- Tracy Wilson was rinkside a few times during practice. Also saw her sitting in the Kiss & Cry with Tarasova.
- You can bring empty water bottles into the arena but there’s no place to fill them. Food stands do not sell Tao water and a (small) bottle of water is 3.50 euros.
- I saw a lot of fans I recognize, such as two ladies that were shown crying after Yuzu’s FS in Skate Canada, the Pooh couple, and probably more.

STUDY MONDAY #4: Low Energy Study Hacks

I’m a student and I’m a spoonie. In spoon theory of disability and chronic illness, a person who is disabled and/or chronically ill has limited energy, or spoons, to get through the day. It can be caused by symptoms, such as pain, fatigue, brain fog, anxiety, and so on, experiences like sensory overload or a panic attack, or even by the requirement to modify your behavior (for autistic people - having to pass as neurotypical).

As a result, things that may seem simple, like brushing your teeth, making your bed and cooking a breakfast, can require a lot of energy. Most spoonies can only do a limited amount of things in a day and then we get so exhausted, we have to rest or even wait for the next day to get more spoons. And as you can imagine, studying when your energy sources are limited is quite tricky. This is my list of tips and tricks that might make your spoonie student life a bit easier.

1. Get some sleep

I’m putting this first because in my opinion this is the most important advice I can give you. I feel like my energy levels are very dependent on sleep quality. If I am sleep deprived, I barely have any spoons. And I’d guess it is like that for many people. So getting enough sleep should be your number one priority.

I know it might sound like “just don’t be depressed!”. I understand. I have delayed sleep phase disorder and I’ve had it all my life. Melatonin pills are the only treatment that helps me. For you it might be something simple, like turning down blue light on your smartphone and drinking calming herbal tea, or something more complex, like meds and a strict sleep schedule. Not everyone will find their solution, but many will, so don’t give up.

You should be getting at least 7-8 hours of sleep every day. Some people need less, some need much more. If you sleep for more than nine hours and still wake up feeling groggy and tired, you might need to adjust your schedule to not wake up during the REM phase (the one where you dream the most). Experiment with alarm clock time, and find a balance that allows you to wake up without sleep inertia.

And some generic advice: don’t consume caffeine six hours or less before bedtime (yes that includes black/green tea and dark chocolate!), don’t nap for longer than half an hour, keep your bedroom cool (almost cold) and clean and don’t eat a big meal an hour before bedtime.

2. Prioritize

Prioritizing is sometimes the only thing you can do when you have ten important tasks and enough energy to do just five. It starts with being honest about your abilities, as well as responsibilities, and making a realistic plan. In your to do list, the tasks should be arranged from the most important and urgent to the least important and urgent. If something can wait, it can wait - do the assignment that is due in two days.

It might also mean “neglecting” things people feel are essential. You don’t actually need to make your bed in the morning - it only helps the dust mites to breed. You don’t actually need to take a shower every single day - once every 48 hours, or even three times a week, is enough. You won’t get malnutrition if you have frozen pizza for dinner once a week - your body can manage. You can wear the same shirt for an entire week - as long as it’s clean, it’s unlikely people will judge you for it. And so on.

I’m not saying “live like a filthy animal”, but sometimes you have to cut down the amount of tasks in your daily to do list, and it’s better to choose wisely. Sometimes you have to admit you will never be an A only student, and set a goal of learning as much as possible. If you need a certain average grade, calculate how many good grades you actually need and don’t worry about others (as long as you pass). For example last semester I had two “I don’t give a damn” subjects which I barely passed, and my average was still 4.2 out of 5. Pick easy subjects when possible! It’s allowed. Get your As and Bs where you can, but don’t forget to rest and take care of yourself.

3. Make compromises

You will have some days when you will be able to do very little. You will have many such days. On those days, the most important thing is to do /something/. Just a little bit. Just one small thing you can manage. If you can only read ten pages of a book, do it! Ten less pages to read tomorrow. If you can only write two paragraphs of an essay, do it! Two paragraphs less to write tomorrow. Every tiny thing you will manage is an achievement, and it’s progress. Don’t fool yourself into thinking “that’s not enough, so I won’t do it at all”. A tiny bit of work is still work.

You will also have days when you won’t be able to study at all. If you realize that nothing you try is working, it’s okay to stop and take a break. Use such “useless” days to take care of yourself. Watch five episodes of your favorite show. Eat junk food. Stay in the shower for an hour. Talk to your friend (or maybe even to your cat). Listen to some good music. Relax! If you know you can’t do anything today, you can either be miserable about it or enjoy a tiny holiday. I know what I would choose.

4. Waste some time

When you have a lot to do, instead of panicking about it and rushing your work, slow down! Sleep an extra half an hour. Go through your morning routine as usual. Calmly examine your to do list. Prepare your study place. Take a deep breath in. Yes you just “wasted” an hour, or even more. But, you hopefully got into a calm, determined mood, and will be able to deal with stress and do your work much more effectively. Believe me, it is worth it.

5. Find low energy study methods

The best form of studying for me is making study/revision notes using many different sources of information, then reciting them. I can’t do it every day though. On some days my executive dysfunction is bad and I don’t have energy to write study notes. That’s when I use my low energy study methods.

My favorite is YouTube. Crash Course is rather brief, but good when you are unfamiliar with the subject and need an introduction and a great explanation of the basics. Khan Academy is more detailed and has lectures for many different subjects. Just searching YouTube for good videos also works sometimes. For me this is an amazing study method because it is engaging enough but passive - all I need to do is watch and listen. It’s not perfect, but it’s better than doing nothing.

Find a low energy study method that works for you and use it. It will make a huge difference on “low on spoons” days.

6. Feed your brain

Your brains favorite fuel is a simple sugar: glucose. And it needs a lot of it. Human brain consumes around 20% of all calories the body needs, and it weighs less than 10% of the total body mass. When you eat carbohydrates, your body can extract sugar directly from it. When you eat fats or proteins, your body needs to metabolize them to produce sugar. Your diet should contain all kinds of foods, and you shouldn’t eat too much carbs, especially simple carbs. HOWEVER.

When you feel tired and can’t concentrate, sometimes it’s because your glucose levels are low. If you don’t have metabolic issues like diabetes, a sugary snack can help get you back into working mode. Chocolate, fruits and sweet drinks like tea, coffee or juice are all great for giving you a quick sugar boost. Some people say even the taste of sweet in their mouth helps them concentrate and study, and chewing gum with an artificial sweetener is enough for that. So if you do this in moderation, a sugar boost is great for low energy studying. Just don’t abuse it. It loses the effect if overused.

7. Be compassionate to yourself

No matter how hard your try, sometimes life is just difficult. It’s okay. It’s okay to fail a test or an exam, it’s always a learning opportunity. It’s okay to not get the grades you wanted, it can be a totally random thing. It’s okay to miss class sometimes, everyone does it. It’s okay to take breaks, you earned them. It’s okay to ask for help, you deserve it. Measure your success by how hard you tried, not the result you got. And be kind to yourself. If you did your best (which definitely doesn’t mean exhausting yourself to a point of mental breakdown), it’s enough.

That’s all I have to share. Hope it helps. What are your low energy tips and tricks? Share them in the replies!

I'm Sorry

A few hours had passed, since Vincent and Tessabelle had their intense encounter. Vincent had left her to herself. Poor thing was shaken up and had one hell of a bruise on her neck. She had fallen asleep on the bathroom floor. She was exhausted really. Even through all that terror, there was a part of her that understood it. A part of her that believed she deserved it. Maybe she did. Some may view Vincent as a monster. He was told he was a monster from a very young age… He was treated like a monster for the majority of his childhood. She sympathized him, even after that experience. Vincent’s greatest demon, was anger. And she understood that too. The man DID have a lot to be angry about… It’s how he expressed it was the problem. Even so…. She would forgive him. She was asleep now… So the fear had abandoned her, and the pain had subsided temporarily.

Vincent however locked himself up in one of the guest bedrooms. The second he slammed that door on her, he felt instant regret for putting his hands on her. His wife. The woman he loved. The mother of his children. Yes, he was still… Incredibly angry with her. But even he understood why she did what she did, and even though it hurt, he knew how he approached her was more then wrong. And for those few hours to himself, he too wept. He was angry with her, with himself, with the entire situation. Why couldn’t he and his family just get a break from all this heartache. He pictured her choking form in his head… And he felt tears threaten the very corners of his eyes. He hadn’t seen it before. He was blinded by rage. He really needed to get a hold of his temper. Anger made him into a mad man. A mad man with no reason. He sat there on the floor against the wall, pulling at his hair in utter despair.. Regret.. Shame… And frustration. What was he to do? Leave her be? Or apologize. He wanted to apologize so terribly, but he figured she didn’t need or want to see him right now. He leered down at the floor. Tears spilling down his face. How despicable.. How could he?… Lay a hand on his wife. Nearly strangle her to death. He’d never forgive himself had he lost her. The only woman that ever loved him for him. He sniffled, swiping his nose with the back of his wrist. He could maybe… At least check on her?…

“…………” Vincent stood slowly, opening the door quietly, and making his way toward their master bedroom. He approached the door, looking down at the knob, unsure… Nervous almost. He reached for it hesitantly, and opened the door slowly. She was no where to he seen. Probably still in the bathroom. Vincent made his way inside, and stood in the doorway of the restroom. There she was, curled up beside the tub, fast asleep. He couldn’t leave her there. He slowly walked over to her, squatting down to take in her appearance. He didn’t want to wake her. she needed her rest. He’d have an apology ready when she’d wake up. He eyes the bruise he had left on her neck. Flinch, repulsed by himself. How dare he….. Again that familiar feeling of self-loathing washed over him as he slid an arm beneath her legs and the other supported her back. He lifted her off the tiled easily, and carried her to their bed. He stared at her sleeping face. Eyes puffy… Cheeks flushed, lips still plump and inviting. He laid her down, pulling the covers over her. He loved her so much… He really did. He also believed he didnt deserve her.

He gently brushed her hair out of her face and caressed her soft, and slightly damp cheek. His own brows furrowed as he stared down at her. He felt.. Absolutely sick. Just… Sick of himself. He pulled the comforter over her and leaned down. “Im sorry….he whispered weakly. More tears rolling down his cheeks. "I’ll never touch you again.. I promise…” He murmured. He turned his back to her. Closing his eyes and breathing in deeply. He wiped his face and stepped out of the room. Closing the door behind him quietly.

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How to Level Up Your Cosplay panel, as given at Krakencon F2016

You’ve made your first cosplays and know the basics, but have you ever wondered how to take your cosplays to the next level? Come get tips on how to improve your skills to create higher quality and more impressive costumes. Topics covered will include costume and material choice, finishing techniques, and creating eye-catching detail.

Old version of the panel contained here. This is the new and improved version.

This is just the bare bones of the panel, as many of the examples were elaborated on in-person, and it is just the slides, not any of my notes. It is not meant to be exhaustive or definitive, and is just meant for general advice and suggestion purposes only. If anyone has feedback they would like to give, feel free to do so. That said, I hope that people find this information useful.

Here is a link to a pdf of the presentation. You may download for personal use, but please do not alter the presentation, repost without permission, or do any sort of other unauthorized use. (If you have a question about how you can use this presentation, please send me a message with your question and we can work it out. I promise I’m not scary. ;]) Feel free to reblog this post as much as you want, though. I do these panels and post them because I want the information to be shared.

I hope someone finds this helpful! :]

My contribution to the humans are space orcs, it’s probably been seen before but oh well.

So, You guys know about pursuit/persistence hunting right? Where we just follow the prey without stopping until it slows down or drops dead from fear and exhaustion? 

What if when aliens first discover earth, the thoughts of these bipedal predatory omnivores are bad enough but we seem pretty obsessed with farming our food so maybe we aren’t much of a threat.

Once humans are zipping about in space, that’s when they realise that these harmless bipedal omnivorous farmers are actually hunters who just never give up.

If someone hurts their crew, they just follow it for days before killing it. These soft fleshy things are terrifying. These soft fleshy things may not be the strongest or fastest but we are some of the hardest damn things to kill because we just won’t die and if we survive we won’t stop until we get you

We farm things because we can and because it’s easy. Not because we have to in order to survive.

We farm things because we’re too busy fighting each other to hunt for everything.

We stake out areas, we mimic its noises, we stalk it, we put ourselves in danger to kill a food source for fun. 

Good morning everybody ♡

The last couple of days were pretty exhausting for me, jobwise. Even more so yesterday I was looking forward to train. Compared to other training sessions it was kind of frustrating though. I was not able to lift as much as the last time and I just could not get the pump. After doing what I had to do, that is getting a sufficient stimulus for muscle growth, I stopped - reluctantly.

See, sometimes things don’t work out the way we planned. Be that as it may. Accept it and move on. I could have pushed through yesterday but that would have led to even more fatigue. It would have been a chore and I don’t want that to happen. Training to me is something epic, something that makes me very happy. If, for some reason, it does not satisfy me, I try again. Knowing that the next level is out there waiting for me.

I ate well and had a good night sleep and I woke up this morning feeling a lot better. Heading to the gym for arms day, I expect nothing less from my arms than to explode!

Have a great day!

iamhalsey: Today I braved multiple terrifying surgeries. The most important of which being the surgery that would hopefully treat my endometriosis. For those of you who have followed this battle of mine or who may suffer with it yourself, you know the extremes to which it can be mentally exhausting and physically painful. OK HONESTLY I’m in total agony right now 😜😜😜 (and I’m going to be in excruciating pain for a while cause I had quite the cocktail of procedures today). But in my recovery I am thinking of all of you and how you give me the strength and stamina to power through and prosper. If you suffer from chronic pain or a debilitating disease please know that I have found time to live a crazy, wild, rewarding life AND balance my treatment and I hope so much in my heart that you can too. I’m gonna be off the map for a few days but please know even if I’m not on social media I am thinking of you. #endowarrior #endometriosis 💛💛💛💛💛💛

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Planning Your Cosplay panel, as given at SacAnime Winter 2017

Ever wanted to cosplay someone, but had no idea how to begin? Join cosplayer fabrickind to learn about how to take that first step! Topics covered will include costume choice, breaking down the parts of a costume, buying vs. making, researching materials and methods, and budgeting time and money.

This is just the bare bones of the panel, as many of the examples were elaborated on in-person, and it is just the slides, not any of my notes. It is not meant to be exhaustive or definitive, and is just meant for general advice and suggestion purposes only. If anyone has feedback they would like to give, feel free to do so. That said, I hope that people find this information useful.

Here is a link to a pdf of the presentation. You may download for personal use, but please do not alter the presentation, repost without permission, or do any sort of other unauthorized use. (If you have a question about how you can use this presentation, please send me a message with your question and we can work it out. I promise I’m not scary. ;]) Feel free to reblog this post as much as you want, though. I do these panels and post them because I want the information to be shared.

I hope someone finds this helpful! :]

Saturn contacts Inner planets 🍒

Saturn contacting Mercury 
-Mercury conjunct Saturn, Mercury square Saturn, Mercury sextile Saturn, Mercury trine Saturn, Mercury opposite Saturn


The individual inherited a wise mind. A knowingness was generated in childhood, and easily known to other people. The mind is innately calculative, focused on mastering subjects and proving intelligence. The threat here is mental insecurity, the mind constantly doubting its talent. There is a good nature for study and potential for accomplishment in academic credential. However good intention can become lost when youth and elder cross paths. All the inspiration for responsibility doesn’t always translate. The individual may study well for one semester then fall into bad habits, see no end point, then drop out. Or maybe the individual studies compulsively in one haul, exhausting and burning out the mind. Bouts of melancholy may be ritual. But so is intellectual mastery


Saturn contacting Sun
- Sun conjunct Saturn, Sun square Saturn, Sun trine Saturn, Sun sextile Saturn, Sun opposite Saturn

When the Sun falls into Saturn’s shadow the individual may fear self expression and outpouring creative life force. There may be deep shame, embarrassment, or panic regarding rejection or criticism. Harsh encounters with authority figures may put the individual on the constant defensive. Often the influence of the father is profound with this contact. The influence may have been inspiring, insightful, and wise. Or rather severe disinterest, neglect, or critique from the father shaped self contempt and insecurities that express more potently as the personality develops. But the promise of wisdom is always rich here, and intense inner work can generate a self expression that comes as closely to the soul as humanly possible 


Saturn contacting Moon
- Moon conjunct Saturn, Moon opposite Saturn, Moon sextile Saturn, Moon square Saturn, Moon trine Saturn

The vulnerable Moon can become very overwhelmed when she contacts Saturn. Here she is at her apex and her lowest, forced to battle with intense oppositions. The difficulty here may be emotional experience, and the application of intense fear or shame expressing the inner state. But this may be expressed in ulterior ways, the individual can be exhaustingly moody, often evoked by fear, traumatic memories, and insufficient coping mechanisms. Saturn contacting the Moon indicates dissonance with the mother, whereby she may have been authoritarian, emotionally detached, or critically invalidating. The individual could have been made to feel that their emotions were invalid, and may have been forced to self soothe. A feeling of aloneness and lack of safety tends to accompany childhood. This contact is further suggestive of competent and natural parenting. The individual takes on the task of parenting with powerful reverence and responsibility. With Saturn contacting the Moon the person may seek out older partners who soothe deep and penetrating feelings of early abandonment or betrayal

Originally posted by l-a-d-y-d-a-r-k

Saturn contacting Venus
- Venus conjunct Saturn, Venus opposite Saturn, Venus square Saturn, Venus trine Saturn, Venus sextile Saturn

Aphrodite can be intimidated when forced into Saturn’s territory. Themes around romantic impotence and solitude that repeat themselves in these contacts reflects a ferocious lack of self love in the individual. It can be extremely difficult for the individual to establish self worth, especially in the social and romantic spheres. Feelings of inadequacy replay themselves in self doubts about appearance, social conduct, and worthiness in relationships. These insecurities may result in preoccupation with appearance or social image and reputation. This can create a dangerous pattern of fleeting romances because the individual feels they deserve less. However fleeting these may be, because the heart is innately wise here, and so troublesome relationships accompany profound lessons, and short term heartbreak ends quickly due to unconscious foresight. There is the potential for developing capital from art or image. The individual is likely to marry somebody regarded for their success. 


Saturn contacting Mars
- Mars conjunct Saturn, Mars opposite Saturn, Mars trine Saturn, Mars sextile Saturn, Mars square Saturn

The ambition here can be powerful, however obstructed by erratic energy reserves. The individual can experience intense periods of lethargy, struggling to find passion and motivation for dream. The future can look bleak, non existent. During other times, energy can be overabundant, thrusting the individual into streaks of panic, hyper vigilance, and hyper activity. The focus here can be good, and the potential for carving out long term aspiration is rich. Sexuality may be the shadow here, often repressed or contained, humiliation or revolt may accompany physical orgasm or sexual expression. Femininity may be obstructed. The will is intense with Saturn-Mars. The individual makes an inspiring parent 


Saturn contacting Jupiter
- Jupiter conjunct Saturn, Jupiter square Saturn, Jupiter sextile Saturn, Jupiter trine Saturn, Jupiter opposite Saturn

When Saturn contacts Jupiter the individual may feel unworthy of happiness, or suspicious when fortune arrives. Often states of elation are accompanied with fears the experience ending and anxiety about the awaiting opposing state. When opportunity reveals itself, the individual can be paranoid and doubtful, considering the stream of broken promises once heard and believed by the individual - often by one or both of the parents. The desire to prove the intellect with academic credential can be characteristic of Saturn-Jupiter. There is tremendous talent for excelling in higher education. However the road to doctorate considerably volatile.

-C.

Viktor Nikiforov in Yuri!!! on Ice Episode 9

I’ve said my fair share of thoughts and rants about Yuuri in Episode 9 in this post, but then I started thinking…

What about Viktor? He only showed up in the beginning and at the end, but while Yuuri was struggling in the Rostelecom Cup, Viktor must’ve had his struggles, as well, back in Japan.

At the end of Episode 8 and in the beginning of Episode 9, these are the faces Viktor made.

And then at the end of Episode 9, this is the face he made when he finally saw Yuuri arriving.

Maybe it’s just me, but Viktor seems exhausted in this scene. His pose when sitting may also suggest that he’d been there, waiting for quite some times.

Even though we didn’t get to see what he was doing after going back to Japan, it is a matter of fact that Viktor was dealing with the following problems:

  • He was worried sick about his dog
  • He actually didn’t want to leave Yuuri alone in Russia and was extremely worried about him

And while it wasn’t shown or mentioned in this episode, judging from his expression upon seeing Yuuri arriving, we could safely assume that Viktor must have watched how the free skate went.

He immediately offered a hug without saying a word, because Viktor must have seen the following

…and still despite all these, Yuuri showed his love.

Makkachin was saved, which means that’s one problem down. But it was after this problem had been solved that Viktor was finally faced with his concerns regarding Yuuri.

Seeing how the free skate went, it must’ve made him think how he should proceed from now on, what he could do as Yuuri’s coach, how he could support Yuuri. He was probably thinking about all of these while waiting at the airport and planned to tell Yuuri once he arrived.

But then before he could say anything, Yuuri already went ahead of him

*) Several people have pointed out that Yuuri was actually saying something like “Please take care of me until I retire”

Viktor most likely had been feeling anxious all the while, but Yuuri’s words blew it all away at once.

I don’t know what Viktor was thinking of telling Yuuri, but Yuuri’s determination here was the reason why his exhausted, worried face in the end changed into

To me, this isn’t just a face of happiness, but also relief.

Upon hearing the decision Yuuri has made, Viktor was finally able to make up his mind and came to a conclusion, as well:

…that he wants to stay by Yuuri’s side and never leave him.

  • me: *procrastinating*
  • my brain: im Alive Awake Alert Enthusiastic!!! Sleep is for the weak!!!
  • me: welp, time to get on with that Very Important work i need to do!
  • my brain: ⚠🌚⚠WOULD YOU LOOK AT THE ⏰TIME⏰ ITS ⏰TIME⏰ FOR 💤SLEEP💤 IM SO 😪EXHAUSTED😪 I MAY FAINT ⏰TIME⏰ FOR BED⚠🌚⚠
  • me: *goes to fucking bed*
  • my brain: D👏K👏! DONKEY KONG! 🐵 D👏K👏! DONKEY DONKEY what does it truly mean to be human
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DAY 2 OF THIS WONDERFUL SHIP’S WEEK: hero/villain

talking from experience, when all you wanna do is finish your damn project the person trying to pull you away from it (for whatever reason) may seem like a monster or a villain but in this case lance was only looking after shiro.

It may be because I'm so new to hockey but intermission interviews feel really pointless to me
  • Interviewer: So you guys were hockeying pretty hard out there but the other team is hockeying as well. How are you going to hockey all the hockey?
  • Breathless, exhausted player : Yeah we're hockeying hard but the other team is also hockeying hard. To hockey all the hockey we're going to have to hockey even harder until we hockey the hardest.
  • Interviewer: Thank you and good luck with the hockey.
  • Breathless, exhausted player : You're welcome (Oh thank god i can go now)
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*wheezes* (Please click for better quality…!!)

Very late, but I wanted to get this dang thing finally over and done with ;A; For Day 4 of Voltron Week: Day Off/Vacation. The Paladins have some time off so Allura starts teaching them one of her favorite Altean pastimes: dancing! 

Meanwhile Coran… the little princess he took care of is not so little any more, and all these Altean dances bring back memories and it really hits them both that they are the last to pass on their traditions to others…sorry my thoughts got a bit heavy– also! First time drawing Coran!! 

Inspired by Yuri on Ice, today I went out, got my skates sharpened and went over to a nearby ice rink. There, I had two realizations:

1. Even after a little over a year of a break I still have some minor affinity for ice skating (just casual though, I can’t jump or anything even though I try haha).

2. Figure skating is difficult as all hell. The boys in Yuri on ice certainly make it look easy - exhausting, but essentially not that hard. But, in real life, it really is that hard. I spent an hour on the ice today and I certainly felt like I improved but then I thought that these people literally spend most of their days on ice rinks, most days of the week, most weeks, most months etc. It requires immense amounts of dedication and time to actually properly figure skate, even if we’re just talking about choreography and the non-jump elements. They may look simple but everything is different when the surface under your feet is many times more slippery than normal ground and you’re trying to balance on it on two few-millimeter-wide blades. And don’t get me started on the jumps - those are killer and are a source of many injuries attained just during a failure in practice.

What I’m trying to say is I have found even more respect for figure skaters - both real and fictional - because even though we may see them perform with ease during competitions, none of that is based on talent and all stems from hours upon hours of hard work, hundreds of bruises and just incredible power of will.

Power to you, figure skaters of the world. You’re all awesome and most impressive people.

Dex has a hard time saying no to Nursey. It’s been happening since they stopped arguing as much and started… talking… more? That’s not really the right word, but it’s complicated. Maybe. Some days it feels more complicated than others. They’re friends, he thinks, and maybe it’s best to stop trying to invent new labels for it, whatever it is. Dex may not know what to call it, but he does know that now he likes making Nursey laugh more than he likes making him angry, so that’s something.

Dex 1, Poetry 0.


It starts on Monday. They’re piling onto the bus, ready to head back to Samwell after a 3-1 victory over Yale, happy and proud but exhausted all the same. Dex pulls out the reading for his English class and startles when he feels a heavy weight settle against his side. He looks over and finds Nursey leaning against him, feet propped up on the seat where his hockey butt should be, notebook and pen in his lap. Nursey tilts his head back so he can see Dex’s puzzled expression and a slow grin spreads across his face. Dex’s heart stutters, skipping a beat.

“Hey. Is this chill?”

Somehow, between the stray curl that flops down onto Nursey’s forehead and the strong, strong urge compelling Dex to take a nap right then and there, he just doesn’t have the guts to say no.


On Tuesday morning, Dex is staring at a line of infuriatingly complicated code when he hears a knock on his door. Bleary eyed and cranky, he stomps over and flings the door open to one Derek Nurse, who beams at him like Dex is the best thing he’s seen all day.

“C'mon, Dexy, let’s go get Annie’s!”

Dex yawns, then blinks. “What?”

“You, me, coffee,” Nursey says slowly, pointing first at Dex, then at himself, then down the hall.

Dex considers the offer. He’s been working for two hours now, so long enough to take a break, and he actually hasn’t had any coffee yet today. Maybe some caffeine would help him. Plus, Nursey is wearing that sweater that matches his eyes and also he’s super excited, the way he gets when he lets go of his chill to tell Dex all about his day or about a good book he just finished, and Dex would never admit it but it’s halfway to adorable. So it’s not surprising at all that Dex just can’t find it in him to decline and grabs his jacket, computer abandoned forlornly on his bed until later.


Wednesday night, the boys throw a kegster for their win at Yale. Dex volunteers himself for Nursey Patrol because by 10:00, Nursey has had approximately three beers and has already tried to make his own tub juice in the bathtub upstairs, bake cookies in Bitty’s oven, and kidnap Chowder’s beloved giant plush shark for his own room. Twice.

By midnight, Nursey has also played two rounds of beer pong and lost miserably, first to Lardo and then to Ransom and Holster, and Dex is the only thing standing between him and a third match against Bitty and Tango. “You can crush them next time,” Dex reassures him, guiding him out to the front porch for some air. “Ready to head back?” He watches as Nursey sways against the porch railing, then nudges him with an elbow. “Hmm?”

“Yeah, okay,” Nursey sighs quietly, and Dex is struck by how small it sounds. He slings an arm around Nursey’s waist and Nursey throws an arm around his shoulders before they start walking. It’s cool outside, but Dex doesn’t shiver.

“S'okay ‘f I stay with you?” Nursey mumbles. Dex tightens his arm as they stumble over a tree root and sighs, his breath trailing out in front of him.

It’s part of being on Nursey Patrol, he thinks. He has Nursey’s back, always - he can’t just leave him alone - so of course he says yes.


Thursday night finds Dex at a poetry reading, of all places, with a half unfinished coding assignment sitting on his desk back in his dorm and 50 flashcards to make before his Calculus test on Monday.

Nursey’s tried to get Dex to come to a reading before, but that was back when Dex had some semblance of willpower. Now, here he is, sitting next to Nursey at a table smack in the middle of Annie’s in a sea of beanies and overpriced clothing that sort of reminds him of Nursey’s closet but not really because, well, with him it’s different, okay?

“I thought you said this wasn’t gonna be weird,” Dex mutters. In his sweater and jeans, Dex sticks out like… He sticks out a lot. He’s not good with metaphors. But usually it’s just his hair and his ears, not his entire person, and he’s tripled his usual level of embarrassment.

“Chill,” Nursey grins, ruffling Dex’s hair as he mildly protests. “It’s only weird if you make it weird, Poindexter.” Dex shoots him a half-hearted glare, but he doesn’t say anything as the first girl gets up on the stage.


Dex would kill anyone who accused him of it, but he’s actually having fun. Even though he doesn’t really get poetry, it’s nice to sit here with Nursey, whose comments are surprisingly more entertaining than annoying. He nudges Dex when someone he knows is onstage, and finally Dex can put faces to Nursey’s stories of overly critical classmates and editors who rip his hard work to shreds using only a red pen - like Elliott. He’s going to keep a special eye on Elliott in particular, now that he knows what he looks like. Jerk.

An hour and a half flies by, and Dex has even said hello to some of Nursey’s artsy writing friends who are seated nearby. One of them (he thinks his name is Caleb but he can’t be sure) asks him if he’s been to any other readings before, and Dex shrugs. “This isn’t really my scene, but Derek-” Wait.

Where’s Derek?

He’s not in his chair next to Dex, and he’s not ordering a coffee from the barista. Dex knows he’d have said something if he was getting up to go to the bathroom - oh.

He’s onstage.

Dex’s eyebrows knit themselves together into a scowl. Maybe he’s never actually been to one of Nursey’s readings before, but Nursey always tells him when he’s performing a piece. Sometimes he even lets Dex listen to whatever it is he’s reciting that night as a final test run. It’s nice. Why would he keep this one a secret?

Nursey clears his throat. He’s standing right in front of Dex and he looks… Uncomfortable? Shy? Dex can’t quite place it, it’s so strange. He watches Nursey smooth out the paper in front of him and look up again into the bright stage lights and then it hits him. Nursey’s nervous.

On any other day, Dex would relish in the chance to see what lies under Nursey’s trademark 'chill,’ but right now it has him worried more than anything else. He catches Nursey’s eye, and Dex gives him a (slightly confused, but he’s aiming for supportive) grin and a thumbs-up for encouragement. Nursey nods ever so slightly and straightens up, then starts to read, his eyes still on Dex.

It takes Dex two lines before he starts to process Nursey’s poem, another three before he starts to blush, and then he’s bright red and silent for the rest. He’s not good with metaphors, but he thinks he might know what Nursey means - or else he’s very, very, painfully wrong. Dex would hate to be wrong right now. But then Nursey says the last line in his poem, and everything just… Clicks.

“And then my soul saw you and it kind of went "Oh there you are. I’ve been looking for you.”

It hits Dex square in the chest. That’s it. That’s the 'something’ they have.

Dex doesn’t have long to dwell on it, though, because suddenly everyone is standing up and stampeding toward the door, Nursey must have been the last speaker, Nursey, where’s Nursey?

Dex gets up, but he doesn’t go anywhere. He’s tall, he thinks, and Nursey’s tall, too. He’ll find him. And he’s right, because a couple parts ways to move around their table and there he is, still close to the stage but trying to make his way to Dex, and Nursey’s grin is so wide it looks like it hurts and Dex is pretty sure he stopped breathing a few seconds ago.

By the time Nursey finally, finally finds Dex, Annie’s is almost deserted. And even though Dex has had plenty of time to figure out what to say, he’s not the English major, so he doesn’t say anything.

“Hey,” Nursey says softly, still smiling at Dex, and Dex wants nothing more than to see that smile every day for the rest of his life because it’s Nursey, it’s always been Nursey and what’s even better is that for Nursey, it’s always been Dex and before he knows it Dex is in Nursey’s arms and Nursey is swinging him around and laughing.

But just as Dex’s feet hit the ground, suddenly they’re sliding out from under him and he gasps, tightening his arms around Nursey’s neck and squeezing his eyes shut. When he stops moving, he tentatively opens his eyes and there’s Nursey smirking above him, and Dex realizes he’s dipping him, the sap, right in the middle of Annie’s.

“Chill, Poindexter, you’ve already fallen for me once today,” Nursey says smugly, and Dex rolls his eyes. He doesn’t think it works, though, considering he’s bright red and grinning like mad.

“You’re ruining it, Derek,” he scolds, and Nursey pulls him upright.

“Kiss me?” Nursey asks softly in reply, and Dex, well…

Dex has never been one to say no to Nursey.

I’m fucking laughing I was trying to look something up on minimus ambus’ wiki page, but I didn’t get very far because the very first line is

fuck man, he sure is, he sure is a tiny dude

now I want an au where everything is the same but everywhere and everytime ultra magnus’ name is used it’s replaced with ‘tiny dude’

Tiny Dude, duly-appointed enforcer of the Tyrest Accord