or is this just tumblr fantasy

dozen lines deleted
cause every time
i let the rhyme
get honest i hear your voice repeated,
cause the reality
is i was a boy with a body,
an attention
driven fantasy,
fuck my intention
cause for you it was sex drive
for thoughts you’d been deprived
and me?
dumb enough to be
in love,
trusting tipsy
during depressed outbursts and therapy sessions
watching the bottle of cracked corks fill,
didn’t think i was just a thrill,
the problem now is that the memory
is too intertwined with poetry,
i said before someone broke my art,
you fuckin’ poisoned it,
and everytime i start
to explain why i feel like such shit
you cut me off with “i get it, i’m an asshole”,
that’s a shallow way
to portray
tainting the piece of me i consider my soul,
the battered bastion
of this “art at war” dilemma,
but now i have to question
if my passion is just a vendetta,
cause i’m self-interrogating your methodology,
if there is any truth in my memory,
or if you just used me
and feign ignorance as a form of surrender,
cause every page i write
is a white
flag begging you… please remember,
not because i need you to share
the guilt,
i just miss feeling like you fuckin’ cared,
cause this patchwork “rebuilt”
friendship on the illusion of a fresh start
doesn’t work when my heart
is still too broken to be in it -

I’m so thankful, that boys aren’t allowed to feel.

With all this free time without your touch

It’s like I never needed to heal.

The scars across the surface of my heart

Match the patterns in your iris

No one bothers to ask about my new start.

Forgetting about love was the best decision

Sending her far away from my far too clumsy hands,

Turns out fate is just a superstition

Waking up is so much easier

In a cold and empty bed

These feelings I have,

Are fantasies in my head.

”Bittersweet & Strange”

Drew this last year before they had released any character or costume designs and just got around to coloring it now, right on time for the premier weekend.


Day 7: Fantasy/Soul Mates

Where Yuri is Spring and Otabek is Winter. 

Yuri incessantly complains about the tragedy of his cursed love story. But little did he know that the flowers splashed and dotted across his new meadows fell dormant in Winter only so that they can bloom more beautifully in Spring. 

Winter gives and gives and eventually dies so that Spring can truly live.

Here’s something to add to the whole “humans are weird” thing going around fantasy tumblr: how fucking weird is it that when we run into something unfamiliar or awkward or sometimes even scary, we laugh?

Like imagine we’ve made contact with aliens, and they’ve figured out that laughter is how we react to funny stuff. Simple! And then one of them brings out this horrifying abomination they keep as a pet…

And their human contact just starts giggling nervously.

Another alien from the same ship bluntly asks a human how reproduction works, only to receive a lot of awkward laughter in response.

Another one elicits surprised laughter just by arriving. 

When they return to their ship, they hold a conference over one nagging question: what about these interactions was so damned funny!?

Ignis’ Birthday

You can find the original comic here:


I hadn’t downloaded a font to use for comics on this one, so I apologize for the odd choices. I just edit and put English onto these as I go along, so there’s no proofreading or anything. Please forgive any errors. I don’t use Tumblr often, either, so please forgive me as I learn.

I’ve been practicing Japanese on the same series for many years now and I needed something new to get into. I’m going to try and find different doujinshi to translate for fun. Please take a look at the pages of the authors, and if you have any FFXV comics you’d like to see in English feel free to make suggestions.

Thank you for your time. Enjoy :)

Ignis: Noct, answer me if you’re here…

Noctis: Whoa!

Ignis: Why are you surprised?
Hm? You’re making coffee jelly?

Noctis: Aah… Well…

Ignis: Is Prompto with you?

Noctis: Umm, no…

Ignis: …I’m glad you’ve met someone who can get you to want to do this.

Noctis: Huh?

Ignis: These are for today’s meeting. Please look them over.

Basa - Rustle

Noctis: Yeah, thanks.

Ignis: Well then.

Noctis: What kind of misunderstanding was that…?

Noctis:< Oh well, I guess I wasn’t exposed.

February 7nth

Ignis: Noct, what is this…?

Noctis: Ignis, isn’t today your birthday?

Noctis: Go ahead.

Mogu - Munch

Ignis: It’s delicious.

Ignis: Noct, it’s great.

Box: Aah, Ignis.

Box: This must be

Box: how you always feel.

Noctis: Ignis,

Noctis: Happy birthday.