@ravenmorganleigh I get it, and I don’t want to talk you out of feeling uncomfortable with this, because it is uncomfortable, deeply so. I hope you don’t think I was condoning John’s violence toward Sherlock, or saying it was a good thing. I find it tragic.
John loves Sherlock; John calls Sherlock his best friend; John beats Sherlock up. These things are all part of canon. I have always read John’s urge to hit Sherlock as sublimated desire. He doesn’t know how to get what he wants, he can’t let himself have it, so he lashes out instead. This is not okay, but up until tld, it seemed like maybe the show was saying it was okay–there were never any serious consequences for it. The morgue beating, however, was a tipping point of sorts, so awful and intense that I think we are supposed to sit up and take notice of it.
I hope we’re not supposed to gloss it over. I don’t think we are. I don’t think we should. And–here’s the thing–I don’t think John does.
I really, really don’t know if this helps at all, and I didn’t have the space or time to go into it in that teeny tiny meta, which was really only trying to make the connection between John and Eurus, but I do think that, if we follow the reading of Eurus-as-John-proxy all the way through to its logical conclusion, John feels like an unlovable monster precisely because his wires are crossed in this awful way. He casts himself in the role of virtual demon, because he has attacked Sherlock. He knows he needs help. He hopes Sherlock still loves him, despite everything he’s done. He believes Sherlock does, which is what that reconciliation scene at the end is all about.
I personally think the fact that they’re both in therapy (ish) is maybe sort of a bit hopeful. They need it. And no, this isn’t a healthy relationship as is. Thank god they’re not real people. I really hope no one uses this show as a measure of what is okay in a relationship. If there ever is more content, I hope the show addresses this directly. According to the reading of tfp as John’s tab, at least the way I’m reading it, there is already a partial acknowledgement of the fact that John has huge problems, and that his psyche is a very dark nightmare place. At the very least, this is a step in the right direction.