TO MY RP FAMILY,
I never thought I’d see the day (at least not any time so soon) where I’d be writing up this message. I have dedicated so much to this group over the last year and a half and honestly, that has a great affect on me ooc. I’ve have met so many beautiful people throughout this entire journey and some of the greatest writers I’ve ever come by. I’ve also made so many friendships, including an in real life best friend who I can’t thank enough for bein there for me. Montreal has been a part of me for so long and I want to start by saying thank you to all of you. For everything you’ve done for this group. However, there are some things that have happened that a lot of you don’t see. Some of you who have been here since the beginning or a really long time know the amount of drama this group as faced. From PSAs to people cursing at me over the inbox. From drama within the admin team to drama within the members. And even now with terrible, terrible anonymous messages being sent out. It’s been so stressful. So stressful to come on to the main and get attacked for things I honestly didn’t mean to happen. To have to dispute fights, only to end up being called a terrible person because I didn’t pick sides. To be shamed for my lack of knowledge on certain subjects… All of it has been so stressful.
Now, that’s not to say this isn’t a wonderful group of people because honestly, you’re all so lovely in your own ways. I’ve never been a part of a group like this before. But I’m honestly at a point where I can’t wake up to the drama anymore. I hate doing this to you guys because I feel like I’m taking something away from great people. But for my own mental health, I’ve come to the decision to end this chapter. Meaning it’s time to put Montreal to rest. Too much has happened in the past year that I don’t want to worry every day. And I get some of you might be saying ‘you’re closing because of anons?’ Well, it’s not just the anons. It’s all the stuff in the behind the scenes that some of you never saw. Being an admin is both incredibly rewarding and incredibly stressful. I look at this group like it’s my child, honestly. But I think it’s time to say goodbye.
This means I will be shutting down Montreal. I hate saying that and I legit started to tear up in writing it, but it’s what is best for me. I am so saddened by this and I honestly feel so terrible for doing this to you all. I genuinely hope you understand the choice I have made. None of you are to blame (though whoever is sending out malicious anons, I do hope you realize how powerful hateful words can be). You are free to continue roleplaying. The OOC blog will remain open, but I will be closing down the main. To all of those who are losing something tonight, I am terribly sorry. I understand if you wish to hate me, but there comes a point where I must say goodbye. I won’t be giving Montreal away. I thought about it, but I can’t find it in me to hand it off. So for now, I must say goodbye and say thank you for these wonderful memories we’ve all created. I can honestly say that you’ve all impacted my life greatly by giving me a wonderful platform and environment to write in. I’m amazed by the people in this group and I honestly want nothing but the best for you all.
Please remember that every single one of you is worth it. Every single one of you should be proud in yourself and in your writing. You’re all so beautiful and I hope none of you forget the talent you all have and how far you are capable of going with your writing.
I am so sorry for this. But I will forever love each and every one of you.