or am i the only one who thinks it makes sense

anonymous asked:

Wait, are you no longer an inclusionist?

1) I think that, while it may not manifest as structural oppression on the same level as homophobia or transphobia, our society does look down on and mistreat aro and ace people (particularly aro women and ace men, due to the gendered expectations around capital-r Relationships), and to deny this is at best silly and at worst an act that actively makes things harder for people for effectively no reason.

2) by God’s name I am so fucking tired of this discourse I’m not an “inclusionist” or an “exclusionist” and have not meaningfully been either for as long as I remember, because building an identity based on one’s terrible opinion of a stupid, pointless argument that literally only exists because people are obsessed with the idea of what counts as “inherently LGBT” - as if that’s a meaningful statement given that “LGBT” is literally a coalition of 3-4 distinct groups, and one which only exists as it does today because of how the historical dominoes fell - instead of the actual hows and whys of human suffering in our society. 

i will never be “an inclusionist.” i will never be “an exclusionist.” what i am is someone who thinks that the entire debate is a distraction from (or, arguably, substitute for) meaningful discussion, healing, and praxis; that half this Godforsaken website has turned into even more of a cesspit because of it; and that everyone should stop trying to score fucking points based on OH THOSE DAMN ALLOS SAID SOME UNINFORMED BULLSHIT AGAIN or HA HA HA LOOK AT THIS INCREDIBLY OBVIOUS TROLL BLOG, LET’S ACT LIKE IT’S FOR REAL BECAUSE THAT’S EASIER THAN CONSIDERING THAT OTHERS ARE HUMAN BEINGS AND NOT PERPETUAL OUTRAGE GENERATION MACHINES.

Sorry to be rude about it but I am just so, so, so, so very tired of having this foolishness anywhere near me. I don’t care and beyond the concept of “don’t be an asshole to people just because they’re going through some shit and trying to make sense of it,” which I would hope is basic human decency, neither should you.

Y'all I love the entire Star Wars cast and if you have any problems with any of them I just wanna ask why????

  1. Adam Driver is an adorable man, and I don’t understand how people find him unattractive? His sense of humor is hilarious, although very dry, and he has a really big heart and really nice hair and I mean yeah, he’s awkward, but it just makes him like 10x cuter, and he’s a wonderful actor who does a great job at portraying our local emo man child. Also, Kylo Ren is shredded.
  2. John Boyega is HILARIOUS when it comes to the fans’ reactions to him (the Thirst Tweets video) and is also a giant Star Wars nerd and is very sweet and gives Adam hugs in public to help him when he’s nervous and would probably fight you if you said anything bad about Kylo Ren
  3. Daisy Ridley is THE CUTEST and has the cutest smile and even has an adorable name, for Pete’s sake. She is a wonderful actress and is *in Domhnall’s voice* ‘a work of art all by herself’ and always speaks with such wisdom when answering questions in interviews
  4. Oscar Isaac. Need I say more? I mean, the photo of him eating Chili Lime Cheetos with chopsticks in sweatpants and a beanie should say enough about this man’s appeal. He’s just about as spicy as those Cheetos. Also, the acting he did in The Last Jedi, where he scratched BB-8’s tummy? A+++++. Wonderful. And that hair. I love Oscar Isaac.
  5. GWENDOLINE CHRISTIE IS MY QUEEN. She is a GODDESS. I love her so much. Her fashion sense is amazing, and I am so jealous of her amazing outfits. Her laugh is the freaking cutest. Someone stop me or I’ll go on about her all day. And she did all of that press for The Last Jedi, only to be in it for what, like, 2 minutes? Bless her for putting up with that. We’ve all seen Gwendoline in action, and we all believe that that movie needed wayyyy more Captain Phasma, right? Right.
  6. Domhnall Gleeson, my sweet sunshine boy. How does that man even play General Hux? This man has some amazing acting skills. There is so much of a difference between the two of them. Not only is he hilarious, he has the most beautiful, fluffy red hair that I’ve ever seen. Cate Blanchett has nothing on Domhnall Gleeson. He also gets double points for being in Harry Potter and Star Wars.
  7. Speaking of double points, Laura Dern was in Jurassic Park and Star Wars so I love her. A badass velociraptor fighting scientist, and then a badass purple haired space mom who gives orders and takes no shit??? You go, Laura. You go.
  8. Kelly Marie Tran. I love Kelly because she is me. Rose was the cutest Star Wars character I’ve ever seen, hands down. Cuter than the porgs. Kelly did such a great job as Rose, who is becoming one of my favorites, and she’s such a giant Star Wars nerd and it warms my cold, dead heart to watch her geek out about Finn and Poe, because same.
  9. Ok Mark Hamill is a gift to humanity. He is basically the wise uncle of the entire Star Wars fandom. He’s always got something to say about everything going on in the world. And he’s Luke Skywalker, for Pete’s sake. Who doesn’t love Luke Skywalker???
  10. And of course, I’ve saved the best for last. Our dearest Space Mom, Carrie Fisher. I miss her greatly, and it’s hard to believe it’s been a little bit over a year since she’s passed. Carrie was a wonderful actress and a very powerful, vocal advocate for those with mental illnesses. I looked up to Princess Leia because she was such a fireball who took no shit and I loved seeing her in Star Wars as Leia again for her last movie. I could honestly rant about how much I love Carrie Fisher.

(Edit: it’s been brought to my attention that my entry for Oscar Isaac might have been racist and I want to say that I had no intention of my comment being racist. I want to apologize to anyone thinking that I was trying to be racist and I want to say that I was not brought up in a racist household and my comment did not have any racist subtext. Thank you for bringing it up to me.)

The Proposal | Part Two

Summary: In which a fake proposal leads to the admission of real feelings.

Pairing: Bucky x Reader

Word Count: 3,619

Part One

Originally posted by veronikaphoenix

A knock pulls Bucky away from the mirror and to the door. He takes his time unlocking it and pulling it open, unsure of who’s waiting on the other side.

“Are you ready?” Steve fiddles with his tie, not bothering to look up and properly greet his best friend. “We’re leaving in ten minutes.”

Bucky’s heart stalls for a brief second, long enough to remind him that it’s still there. It still works. It still feels. After everything that has happened with Hydra, he wasn’t sure that would be the case.

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A/N: Okay, I know, I know I said there would only be Christmas Imagines before Christmas but I just couldn’t help myself. I’m still not over that movie and I’ve been getting so inspired, so… here you go!

Words: 1332
Warnings: SPOILERS FOR THE LAST JEDI

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The Magick of Fashion 👛✨

It’s no secret that fashion on its own possesses an entirely different creative world that differs from everything else. The fabrics we choose to put on our bodies are gateways to the soul, a wonderful way to showcase on the ~outside~ how we are and what we feel on the ~inside.~ For Witches, fashion can be even more magickal (if that were even possible)! We proudly done special cloaks and robes to amp up our practices, lovingly accept the pointy hat as our longtime trademark, and flourish when slipping into rings and bracelets, accepting them as our battle gear. Here are some tips to bring magick and fashion together!

Enchanting Jewelry

- Jewelry is such a wonderful way to not only accessorize our bodies, but to help give us little boosts of confidence. How wonderful is it to be able to carry around a certain crystal by attaching it to a chain and wearing it around our necks? If you wish to encourage a specific emotion in your life, than look into crystal pendants, mala bead bracelets, dangle or stud crystal earrings, and crystal rings. Craving more love? Try a rose quartz bracelet hugged around your wrist. In need of protective vibes? Put on an obsidian necklace! There really is no limit to the minerals we can choose from to enhance our lives by wearing.

- Also consider making your *own* jewlery. If crystals as jewelry just isn’t your thing, try hand-making your own hemp bracelets or necklaces, adding special beads and charms and anointing your creation with essential oils.

- Cleanse your special jewelry accordingly! If ever you feel it’s power lessening, wave some incense/sage/palo santo over it while stating a blessing; leave it on the windowsill under a full moon, or create a small altar (placing your jewelry in the center), to boost its vibes.

Your Signature Outfit(s)

- As a Witch, there are no limits to obtaining things that make you feel your most powerful. Clothing can be one of these things (although, it is just as acceptable to work certain magick in the nude, if that is your preference)! Many witches assign themselves a certain outfit or article of clothing to slip into during rituals.

- Figuring out what your own witchy uniform is can be tricky, so try to get inspired! Try on several different things before deciding on what you feel extra powerful in. For some, this may be a velvet cloak decked out in glitter. It could be a pair of lace gloves that have been enchanted with a special energy that flows through your hands while doing spellwork. It could even just be a simple t-shirt! Anything that allows you to feel your most “witchy” and that you are attached to, will be the perfect thing to flaunt while working your special magick in.

- “Wardrobe Witchcraft” doesn’t even need to be designated for spellwork. If you’re like me, you may find magick within clothing each and every day. Your style belongs to you, and wearing something unique that screams “this is who I am” to the world is just as magical as anything else. Your favourite outfit may very well be your suit of armor. Develop your own sense of style, and let yourself feel as if you are celebrating your unique soul each and every time you get dressed in the morning.

Traveling Magick… In Your Clothes?

- You read that right! If you’re feeling extra creative and have a knack for sewing, why not sew sigils on the insides of your clothing? You may also consider sewing tiny pockets on the inside of jackets, sweaters, or bags, using them as a little storage space to carry stones and tiny bags of herbs. Enchanting your articles of clothing with symbolism and on-the-go crystals is an excellent way to enchance their energies!

Colours + Fabrics for Moods

- A final idea involves the work of touch and sight. Dress according to your emotions, or even according to what you *wish* to feel. Either way works, as it should allow you to get better in touch with your own emotions! Wishing for more passion? Wear a little bit (or a lot) of red. Feeling blue? Show it through the color. Longing to feel extra-feminine? That’s where pink comes in. It’s all so simple, it hardly even seems like work at all. :-) The same method can work through the use of fabrics themselves. Each material has such a different feel, and it’s quite beautiful that we have such a variety of fabrics to allow our skin to feel soft and warm. Wearing velvet on the night of a full moon may make you feel extra sorceress-like, whereas wearing delicate silks can help you to bring out your more angelic vibes. Showcasing your emotions through feeling and color is really so simple and yet so powerful - Think of yourself as a walking mood ring!

I truly hope that these ideas provide some of you with a spark of inspiration! Witches have a way of turning anything into something powerful and enchanting, so doing that through fashion should come as no surprise. Blessed be, and stay stylish ~ 😊✨💕

I See You (Kylo Ren x Reader)

Word Count: 1101

Pairing: Kylo Ren x Reader

AN: MAJOR SPOILERS WARNINGS FOR THE LAST JEDI PEOPLE DON’T SAY I DIDN’T WARN YOU !!

Also…i’m back bitches and thinking of doing a 7 days of Christmas sort of thing so let me know if you’re interested.  

Summary: You’re force sensitive and able to connect with Kylo like Rey does in TLJ. Basically you’re Rey but a different character with a different personality as she does not exist in this story :))

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“W-what is this?” Your eyes widened in pure fear as the figure of Kylo Ren appeared before you. How you ended up on the First Orders ship, you had no clue. Even so you didn’t hesitate to grab your lightsaber and ignite it as you stared into the monsters surprised eyes. 

“You can see me?” He appeared to be shocked by this, however you knew not to trust someone so easily. Especially when that someone was the enemy. Striding towards the boy you pointed your saber at him accusingly. "How is this possible?“

Yet he ignored your threat completely as he took in his surroundings. No longer was he on his ship, now he stood on an island, a place he’d only heard about in stories when training to become a Jedi. Anger filled his body at the memory of his old master, the one who betrayed him and gave him the final push into the darkness. His fist clenched in rage as he stared at the girl in front of him, putting the pieces together. "You’re with him aren’t you. You’re with Skywalker. You found him.”

However you took little notice to his words as you began to freak out, pacing back in forth as Kylo still glared at your figure. “I-i’m going insane! This can’t be real! It can’t be, I must be dreaming! no! It’s a nightmare!”

“Why can I see you, this doesn’t make sense!” His voice was loud, echoing in your mind causing you to stop your pacing. Unfortunately, nothing could ever bring your sarcastic nature to a stop. "Way to point out the obvious. God I can’t even look at you after what you did.“

At the mention of that incident Kylo visibly tensed. “He wasn’t your father.”

“But he was the closest I ever had to one. And you just took that away. You took away my best friend, because of you he’s in a coma. You murdered so many innocent people. All you do is take and take until there is nothing left!”

It was like everything you spoke went over his head or maybe he just didn’t care. Either way you were quickly becoming fed up with his behaviour. “You are so unaware of the power you have, you’re holding back your potential. Become who you were meant to be. Join me, I can teach you.”

“Over my dead body.”

Your response evidently angered Kylo as he punched the wall next to him in rage leaving a hole in the wall and disappearing from your sight. You could only hope you’d never see him again. 


“Will you stop that! I don’t want to see your face everywhere I go.” You shouted in anger as the boy appeared in front of you again the following day. 

“I’m not the one doing this and obviously neither are you. Somehow, I think we are connected.”

“Why would I be connected to someone like you.”

“Like what? A monster? I know who I am so don’t pretend like you do.”

“I…Please just go.” And with that he faded away from view, leaving you questioning the darkness that raged inside of the boy. Maybe he wasn’t so far gone as you’d thought. Maybe he could be saved?


“Y/N”

“Again? Really this isn’t great timing i was about to train and-”

Turning around you saw him standing there wearing only his pants, leaving his muscular chest on display for you to see. You couldn’t help but stare in awe at his body, somewhere deep down you were attracted to the boy, but remembering what he was and what he’s done erased those thoughts. At the thought of Hans death you snapped back into reality, eyes meeting his as they gazed at you questioningly.

“Are you alright?” His voice sounded almost sincere which took you off guard for a moment but you quickly got rid of the thought. "Y-yes, i’m fine. Why do you care?“

"What do you mean?”

“Why do you care about me?”

“I don’t.”

“That’s a lie and we both know it. When we first met, when you captured me. You should have killed me, or hurt me at least. But instead all you did was pry around in my mind.”

“You’re strong with the force. Why would I waste an opportunity to train another force wielder to fight for the first order.”

“No. No it’s more than that. At the star killer base, I shouldn’t have won that battle. I was inexperienced and you were training to be a jedi since you were a boy.”

Some unknown emotion flashed across his face for a moment, he was clearly becoming uncomfortable with the direction this conversation was going. “What are you getting at-”

“There is good in you Ben.”

At the mention of his old name he stood up abruptly, striding towards you in anger. “Don’t! Don’t call me that. Ben is dead-“

"But he’s not!" 

Growing frustrated you took steps forward until you were face to face with the boy. You startled him by the close proximity between you, reaching your hand out to rest your palm against his chest gently. You could feel his heart beat fasten at your touch and his breathe hitched as he stared down at you in bewilderment. It had been so long since the boy had felt such a caring touch.

"Ben still lives. In here, I can sense it. I can help you Ben, please, let me help you.”

A tear unwillingly escaped as you pleaded with enemy. Finally looking up into his eyes you almost lost it at the sight. His expression showed the internal battle he was having with himself as he gazed down at you. Being this close gave you the opportunity to study all the details of his face and you could tell he was doing the same. Taking in the huge scar that ran along his face that you had given him during battle, guilt filling you as you stared at it.

“I’m so sorry for giving you this.” You choked out as you lightly ran your fingers down the scar, more tears leaving you yet still no words were heard from the broken boy in front of you. Suddenly his hand shakily reached up and wiped away your tears causing you to shiver at his touch. However the moment was over too soon when the boy finally responded to your pleas.

“Ben is gone, do yourself a favour and stop searching for him because he’s never coming back.” And with that the connection between you was gone with Kylo disappearing from view.

Seaside Sabbatical (M)

Summary: After an accountant in your firm is sent to prison, you are assigned to clean up the mess he left behind. Sorting out your clients’ disastrous business records proves beneficial when you meet the fisherman who teaches you the value of taking a break.

Pairing: Jin x Reader

Genre: Fluff, Smut

Word Count: 11,145

Warning: Fisherman!Jin, Accountant!Reader, sexual themes, oral sex, profanity, discussion of taxes, terrible fishing jokes, unnaturally high levels of wish-fulfillment

Series: Working Man Bangtan

A/N: This has enough wholesome fluff to give me a cavity, but it just felt right. Pardon the cheesiness, as there was no way to avoid it in this type of fic. Hope you enjoy!

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Baby Sister

Summary: The reader is a year younger than her brother, Steve Harrington. She has been sneaking out to see Billy and Steve finds out. A little bit of Billy fluff as well….

Author’s Note: These boys I SWEAR. I’ve seen a request to do a part two, so let me know if that’s something you’d like. xxxx

Originally posted by hcrringrcve

I stood in front of my mirror, putting my face on for the night. See, Billy Hargrove had somehow gotten me to fall in love with him. I don’t know how. The guy could be a real prick. Which was precisely why I was plotting to sneak out tonight. A knock on my door made me jump,

“Hold on a sec!” I yelled, placing my tube of lipstick down on my vanity. I prayed that my brother wouldn’t open the door. He would ask questions if he saw me all dressed up. We had helped each other sneak out before. He wanted to make sure that he knew where I was, just in case. But this time, there was no way in hell I could tell him where I was going.

         “Just me. Going to bed!” Steve hollered, “Don’t be blasting that shit you listen to all night.”

        “Night, jackass!” I retorted, letting out the breath I didn’t realize I was holding.

I wrestled on my jeans, the ones that made my ass look phenomenal. I tugged on my leather jacket over it just as there was a slam of a car door outside. I slipped my boots on before peering out my window. The dull glow of a lit cigarette under my window told me he was here. I turned out the lights, snagging my purse before flinging my window open. I wriggled out onto the roof, using extra caution not to tumble off onto my ass. Like I did the last time… Which I will never hear the end of.

I scooted on my butt, closing the window behind me. I slid off the gutters and into the arms of the boy below. He caught me around the waist, urgently pressing his lips to mine.

        “You stuck your landing.” He applauded.

I hummed against his lips, tugging back slightly, he followed me though.

        “Okay! Stop! Steve’s still awake!” I hissed between kisses, glancing up at his bedroom window to see the light on.

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Distracted

- The one where Y/n is left at the altar and has a hard time dealing with her emotions

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Y/n has alway been good at running away from her problems.

It’s something she’s become so used to—avoiding all the feelings and emotions that could tear her down and finding her way around them.

It’s a dangerous coping mechanism and she knows it. She’s been through this cycle more times than she can remember, and each time did they end with her being so full of emotion and so torn apart from the heartbreak that she’ll spend days—weeks, even—laying in the dark and locking all of her doors to avoid the outside world.

It’s gotten so bad that there have been times she hasn’t even communicated with anybody, leaving her friends and family begging on their knees by her locked doors just to get her to open up—both mentally and physically.

And they all could have been prevented if she wasn’t so afraid of letting her feelings get to her. But she hates it—god, how she hates being in a sensitive state of mind and her heart feeling so heavy that she forgets how to breathe. So, instead of letting herself feel all of that, she does anything and everything to ignore it.

She’ll teach herself new things, keep herself occupied at night so that she doesn’t have the time to fall asleep (because it was always then her thoughts caught up with her the most), and even will go so far as avoiding the people in her life that would make her talk about it.

But this heartbreak was the worst one yet.

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anonymous asked:

How do you write Connor so well? Could you share some writing tips?

That’s really sweet of you to say. Honestly, it’s just me trying to pick up on every little thing we actually know about Connor and filling in my own interpretations of what they mean. We really don’t know that much about Connor. He’s only in the beginning of the play then throughout you get little snippets of his life from other characters…but it’s not that much to go off of. Even then, it’s how they saw him which can we a warped version of what he actually was. When I’m writing him, I try not to focus on Evan’s Connor because he’s only a projection of Evan’s own self. It’s important to remember that he’s not Connor. He’s Evan. That’s Evan’s mind talking to him using Connor’s face but it’s not Connor himself. He’s not a ghost coming back to talk to this random kid he’s interacted with once or twice. He’s 100% Evan’s mind projecting.

So then you have to focus on what you actually know about him. I’m gonna dissect it because I literally love analyzing characters it’s my favorite thing in the entire world. You didn’t ask for this but I’m doing it anyway yolo (im sorry).

The first time we meet Connor is at the breakfast scene. What do we know about that scene?:

  • Connor doesn’t want to go to school.
    • It is the very first day of his senior year. Not many people skip the very first day of school. It’s supposed to be a fairly easy, chill, exciting day to most people. Getting to know your teachers, seeing friends, catching up with people, not much work etc. I’m going off of my own school experience to analyze this bit: Skipping/Not wanting to go/Having anxiety over going doesn’t mean you’re lazy and don’t like work. It generally means that you feel uncomfortable, anxious, lonely, scared about having to navigate the world of school and your peers. Connor doesn’t have friends. Going to school, sitting in class, doing group projects, eating lunch, doing anything in school alone and without friends is fucking hard. It’s awful.  It’s not a surprise he doesn’t want to go.
  • Connor is high.
    • Judging from typical school days, it’s probably somewhere between 6 - 7 in the morning. That’s early. That’s someone who wakes up and immediate gets high. AND it’s the first day of school. That’s someone who needs something to help them cope just to get through the day. He needs something to help him take the edge off of life because doing it without anything is a daunting thought.
    • Cynthia also says “I don’t want you going to school high Connor. We’ve talked about this.” Which implies that this a fairly regular thing for him.
  • Connor reacts negatively when Zoe speaks but ignores Larry.  
    • Okay so I love this bit because my psychology loving self adores this kind of shit. It’s amazing and beautifully done and asdlhfal;ksd
    • After Cynthia tries to get Larry involved with making sure Connor goes to school. Larry says, “What do you want me to do? He doesn’t listen. Look at him. He’s probably high.” Connor stays quiet. Then Zoe confirms Larry’s statement and says, “He’s definitely high.” And Connor responds with a “Fuck you!”
    • Every time Larry speaks Connor stays quiet. His body language in the scene involves Connor resting his arm on the side of his head and, by doing so, is putting some sort of physical barrier between his facial expressions and his dad sitting next to him.
    • If I recall correctly, I don’t think Connor ever once actually speaks to his dad??? Larry talks at him but Connor never responds. No words are ever spoken from him to Larry. (I think, I could be wrong)
    • SO the point here is that Connor doesn’t say shit when Larry is nagging at him but the second Zoe opens her mouth to do the same he immediately responds with a big “fuck you” and puts his head down on the table.
    • The way I analyze that scene is that the fuck you was really meant for Larry, that he was pissed off at his father, but he took it out on Zoe. He redirected his anger onto his sister because it’s a lot easier to take advantage of a younger sibling then the head of your household.
    • Judging from how Zoe speaks about him later in the play, he probably redirected a lot of his anger onto her and it really messed her up.
    • Him not speaking up to Larry could also mean that Connor is potentially afraid of him?

The second time we see Connor is at school with Jared and Evan:

  • Connor cares what people think about him and he’s bullied. 
    • Jared says, “Hey Connor. Loving the new hair length. Very school shooter chic.” Connor responds by staring at him with this perplexed look of wtf dude seriously. He was just nagged at home, forced to go to school when he’s clearly uncomfortable about doing that, and then he gets there only to be antagonized by Jared who pretty much refers to him as someone who slaughters innocent people.
    • His ‘wtf dude’ look is totally justified in my opinion.  
    • Jared then says that he was just kidding and that it was a joke. To which Connor replies with “Yeah no it was funny. I’m laughing can’t you tell.” His tone starts out light and sarcastic. When Jared doesn’t respond, he steps closer to him and voice raises. “Am I not laughing hard enough for you?” He’s clearly offended by what Jared said.
    • Jared calls him a freak and walks away.
  • He gets bullied by Jared so he turns around and becomes the bully to Evan.
    • Like he did with Zoe, Connor redirects his pain onto people he know won’t fight back or who he views as weaker than him.
    • Evan nervous laughs when he’s left alone with Connor. Connor can probably see that Evan is scared of him and uses that to his advantage. He says the whole, “What the fuck are you laughing at? Stop fucking laughing at me?”” Stop laughing at me. Not laughing at what Jared said. But specifically laughing at Connor himself. Connor doesn’t want people laughing at him because he cares what they think about him. “You think I’m the freak? I’m not the freak. You’re the fucking freak.” He yells at Evan and pushes him to the ground.
    • People have all obviously analyzed all these scenes before. I’m not close to the first one to say it, but obviously, these are words he wishes he could say to Jared and Evan is the surrogate for his rage.

And finally we have the very last scene that Connor is in which is the computer lab scene:

  • Connor is apologetic after he loses his temper.
    • He sees Evan, who has clearly been crying. I think it’s unknown how long Connor was actually in the room with him/if he overheard the phone call with Evan’s mom. I’m assuming that Evan wasn’t actually speaking out loud when he was writing his letter, that it was more for the audience to know what he was writing. So if Connor had been in the room and listening, he could have heard Evan’s side of the phone call and seen him quietly crying on his laptop while writing something then print it out. Since he was near the printer, he took the paper to give to him. He didn’t have to do that. He wanted to.
    • I think he wanted an excuse to talk to Evan again after he pushed him. He probably felt bad. I feel like he views Evan as someone who’s harmless and unintimidating, which is why it was easy for him to channel his anger onto, but then he started to regret that choice, so he tried to reach out.
    • He never actually apologizes with words and instead tries to do it through actions. I bet you that Larry does the exact same thing too but Connor probably never realized or picked up on it. (I could do a full character study on Larry too omg he’s a great specimen to take apart and a fantastically flawed character like everyone else in the show its beautiful fuck)
  • He’s got a dark sense of humor.
    • When finding out Evan broke his arm from falling out of a tree, he replies with a “That’s the saddest fucking thing I ever heard.” But he doesn’t say it in a mean way. He smiles and laughs under his breath.
    • HE WAS TELLING A JOKE. He was trying his best to be nice to Evan and lightly joke around with him but I doubt they have similar styles of humor. I think it’s the only time Connor actually genuinely smiles too??
    • And Evan doesn’t really laugh. It’s more of a nervous “plz don’t hurt me again ur a lil scary” kinda laugh. So Connor backs off and changes the subject.
  • He’s observant.
    • He notices that no one signed Evan’s cast. 
    • He noticed that Evan has no friends hence the “now we can both pretend we have friends” line. 
    • He noticed Evan’s sad and alone so he’s making an effort to be nice to him. 
    • He noticed that he printed a piece of paper and that it would be a good ice breaker. 
    • He’s quiet and he notices things. It’s subtle but it’s there. I bet you Connor secretly knows everything about everyone. 
  • The boy just wants a damn friend. 
    • He’s lonely. Evan’s clearly lonely. Why not try to befriend him?
    • He’s signs his cast super big so it takes up the whole arm. For one, it gets a laugh out of the audience. But two, he kinda knows that no one else will sign it so he makes his name extra big so everyone will see and know that both of them aren’t alone/friendless.
    • This is also interesting to me because I wonder if Connor knew he was going to kill himself then. Often times suicide is something people plan out ahead of time. I wonder if he knew what he was going to do and I wonder if writing that on Evan’s arm was a secret way for him to leave something semi permanent behind. A way to be sure that someone would remember him when he’s gone. If that’s the case then that was some powerful shit to slip in and it hurts my soul.
  • He’s angry and paranoid and suicidal.
    • So obviously Connor reads Evan note to himself, thinks it’s about him, freaks out and leaves. That’s the last time we see Connor.
    • I’ve looked at this scene in a few different ways. The first way I see it is that Connor could of had symptoms of paranoia. He sees his sister’s name and his first thought is that Evan did this in a malicious manor. He views people as out to get him. It doesn’t take much to set him off. He’s got a lot of anger inside of him that he doesn’t know how to release in a healthy way so it ends up with him blowing up over the slightest little bumps in the road.
    • The second way I view it is a little different. If I’m thinking about my point before (about him already having plans to kill himself) then I wonder if he was just using the paper as an excuse to get angry and leave. He had already made his mark using Evan’s cast. His name was there. He technically didn’t need Evan anymore. Thus he “freaks out” over this paper and it helps fuel his desires to end his own life. As someone who has been suicidal in the past, I understand wanting to find every excuse you can to help end things, to justify what you’re doing, and to push people away. It’s a super fucked up way of thinking but, when you put yourself into that mindset, I don’t think it’s that crazy of an idea.
    • “Is this about my sister? You wrote this because you knew I’d find it.” (Hinting at the paranoia point) “Yeah you, uh, saw that I was the only other person in the computer lab.” (Mentally trying to convince himself to believe that Evan did this on purpose, even though it goes against everything he already knows about Evan) “So I could read some creepy shit you wrote about my sister and freak out, right?” (here comes the anger) “Then you could tell everybody that I’m crazy! Right?! Fuck you!” (cue the storm off)
    • And then we hear from Evan that Connor hasn’t been in school for three days.
    • And eventually we find out why.

From everything that Connor, himself, has told us he’s deeply hurting. He’s quiet. Observant. He’s got many unchecked mental health issues. He doesn’t feel heard. He’s lonely. He uses coping methods to get by. He has little to no self worth. He carries around a lot of guilt. He acts out on people he know won’t fight him back. Probably because he needs to feel superior because everywhere else in his life he feels stepped on. He is both a bully and bullied. He had little regard for strong authority aka Larry. He craves personal connections but doesn’t know how to obtain them or keep them. He’s broken. So that’s how I try my best to write him.

THEN we have what everyone else tells us about Connor. This should all be taken with a grain of salt because everyone views people differently but their words shouldn’t be totally disregarded either. (Yes I’m going to go on longer even though you never asked for this I’M SORRY I CAN’T STOP NOW) So let’s see what little Connor character traits we can find out from other people that could be potentially used for writing him in the future.

The scene during For Forever tells a lot of about Connor through his family:

  • Zoe: Connor wasn’t very nice so that makes sense.
  • Cynthia: Connor was…a complicated person.
  • Zoe: No. Connor was a bad person. There’s a difference.
    • In response to finding out Connor pushed Evan. Zoe is shown to have no sympathy for her brother’s actions while Cynthia continues to make excuses for him. I see that as Connor having no mercy on his sister but probably playing his mom to his advantage with what he knew he could get away with.  
  • Cynthia: Did Connor tell you about the Harris’? We used to go skiing together, our families.
  • Zoe: Connor hated skiing.
    • Not a sports, activity kinda guy. Doesn’t like things involving social gatherings. Not friendly.
  • Larry: Somebody had to be the bad guy.
    • In response to reading Connor’s emails. This one is a little iffy in regards to Connor’s character. It’s more a Larry thing. Because I don’t know if Connor was actually aware that his emails were read or not but either way it shows that he was completely not trusted by his family. Also that pointing out again that Cynthia was probably a push over when it came to Connor and he knew that.
  • Cynthia: We used to go to the orchard all the time. We;d do picnics there. Remember that Zoe?
  • Zoe: Yeah I do.
  • Cynthia: You and Connor had that little toy plane that you would fly. [to Larry, with sad laughter] Until you flew it into the creek.
  • Larry: No that was an emergency landing.
    • This is big. Things weren’t always hell in the Murphy house. There were good memories. Sadly though good memories are often overshadowed by the bad ones. Connor seemed to cast a huge shadow over this family. But it is important to note that Connor and Zoe used to play together as children. Things. Aren’t. Always. Awful. Connor wasn’t a reckless beast. He can be written to be playful and funny and sarcastic and sweet. Just balance it out with the angst. People are complicated and have tons of depth so try to write them that way if you can.

Other things said at random points throughout the play…

Jared:

  • “Connor Murphy is batshit out of his mind. Remember when he threw a printer at Mrs. G in second grade because he didn’t get to be the line leader that day? 
    • Connor has had anger issues since he was a child too.

Alana: 

  • “Still can’t believe the terrible news about @ connormurphy. I wouldn’t say that we were friends exactly. More like acquaintances. We were in chemistry together. I’m pretty sure. Also he was in my English class in 10th grade. Almost positive. Yeah he was definitely in my English class. Three days ago Connor Murphy was here and now hes gone. If Connor meant something to you please retweet or private message me if you just wanna talk. At time like thees we could all use a friend.”
    • Honestly, this says way more about Alana’s character but it still mentions Connor so I’m adding it.
    • But what I do get from this was the Connor has/had a twitter (or some form of social media, but I’m assuming twitter since the “retweet” bit) and Alana followed him on it?
  • “He was one of my closest acquaintances. He was my lab partner in Chemistry and we presented on Huck Fin together in 10th grade. He was so funny. Instead of calling it, well, Huck Fin…[fades off]. Nobody else in our class thought of that.”
    • Again, speaks more to Alana’s character than Connors. But I also wonder if this is actually true or if she made this up in a similar fashion to Evan in order to put herself in the story…since she didn’t even recall if he was in those classes or not earlier.
    • BUT assuming that this was true, Connor doesn’t seem to care much for school. Or he could have been trying to make jokes in order to gain friends. If he worked with Alana on projects, her personality would have steam rolled over his. I think she would be the type of person he would sit back and let take control and tell him what to do then just go along with it.

Zoe: 

  • “Just because Connor isn’t here, trying to punch through my door, screaming that he’s going to kill me for no reason, that doesn’t mean that all of a sudden we’re the fucking Brady Bunch.” 
    • I mean…yikes.
  • “After all you put me through. Don’t say it wasn’t true. That you were not the monster that I knew”
    •  This shit just breaks my damn heart. You are not the monster that I knew is one of my favorite lines in the entire play. In Zoe’s story, Connor is the villain. He hurt her. He abused her. And no one did anything about it to protect her or stop him. I haven’t really had a chance to write too much of Zoe into my writings yet but I know that if/when I do, Connor is not going to be a kind character to her.

Larry: 

  • “We didn’t think Connor had any friends.” 
    • All they found with Connor was Evan’s letter. I wonder how many times he reread it, if at all, before he died. Do you think he calmed down and looked at it again through a different light? This time maybe seeing how depressed and unhappy Evan was too? I wonder if he found comfort in that at all and that’s why it was still in his pocket. Of course that’s purely speculation on my part. He could have just shoved it in there and forgot it was there. That’s the beautiful thing about this play, there’s a lot that the viewer can piece together and take away on their own. Things are never fed to you. They present them simply and let you take what you need from it.
    • Anyway, yeah, Connor had no friends. That point was already kinda clear though.
  • “I gave you the world. You threw it away.” 
    • Connor grew up in a well off family. They were rich. He literally could of had anything he wanted but he didn’t. I take that as Connor not giving a shit about material items. He probably has little regard for things. You could write that as him throwing and breaking near by items if he’s mad or simply tossing things around and not caring abobut them. Whereas someone who grew up poor, would be more likely to take care of their things because they know they can’t just get more.
  • “I didn’t realize Connor meant this much to people.” 
    • In his father’s eyes, Connor didn’t mean very much. He was probably able to pick up on that and it would affect his attitude and behavior to other people. If he felt he didn’t mean much to his own father, then why would he ever be special to anyone else?
  • “He left it in the bag with the tags still on.”
    • Larry’s weak attempt at reaching out to his son with a baseball glove. It was probably obvious to everyone that Connor was not a sports person. He probably hated baseball. But Larry likes it so he tried to force his hobbies onto Connor. It was received by Connor not even opening the gift. From Connor’s perspective, he could have taken that as a ‘wow my father knows literally nothing about me wtf’ where as Larry would have viewed that differently but this is not about Larry asd;kfja
  • “Your dad must feel pretty lucky to have a son like you.” 
    • Another great line in this play! It hurts my soul. Connor is a disappointment to his father. Larry wished Connor could have been something more than he was. Once again, this shit would weigh on Connor’s mind and fuck him up.

Cynthia: 

  • “I don’t remember the last time I heard him laugh.” 
    • That shit is dark yo. Connor doesn’t laugh around his family. He’s unhappy there.
  • “Connor didn’t get invited to any bar mitzvahs” [paraphrasing that quote]
    • Cynthia always had hope for Connor. I like to imagine Connor not being as nasty to his mother than everyone in the family. She really loved him and I hope he could feel that deep down.

And, of course, Evan: 

  • “Over the summer I found this yearbook thing that our class made in 8th grade. Most people did collages of their friends. But Connor’s was a list of his ten favorite books.”
    • One of my favorite bits I like to write into stories is that Connor liked to read. For a middle school kid to have ten favorite books, and care enough about them to put them into a yearbook, is kinda of special. Books are methods of escapism to many people and I like to think Connor is included in that group. 

OKAY IM GOING TO STOP THIS IS SO LONG I AM SO SORRY THIS WAS NOT THE RESPONSE YOU WERE LOOKING FOR I WROTE YOU A DUMB CHARACTER STUDY INSTEAD. THIS IS ALL HOW I SEE CONNOR SO IT’S HOW I TRY TO WRITE HIM YOU COULD SEE HIM SUPER DIFFERENTLY AND WRITE HIM DIFFERENTLY THATS WHAT IS SO GREAT ABOUT WRITING

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A/N: Heyho you guys! Have you opened the first little door of your advent calendars already? ;-) I’m so hyped for Christmas, gahh! Here goes my first Christmas Imagine! Tagging @that-was-not-supposed-to-happen because it’s based on her prompts! Have fun reading!

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Pink Diamond Thoughts...

So, I’ve just recently finished watching the Stranded special, and have many thoughts and initial theories that I wanna share. Its only been a few hours, but I’m seeing a lot of theory and discussion talk about Pink Diamond already and I wanna throw some thoughts and theories around myself. 

For starters, I am pleasantly surprised and very refreshed with Pink Diamond and her personality. I would have never thought that she would essentially be something akin to a brat and a child, but the more I think about it, the more it seems to make sense to me. Its probably because she IS a child - but not in the same way as a human child, but she’s obviously the last diamond to be created. 

If we take into consideration both the original order of the Diamond Authority logo, and the pattern of the passkey that Yellow Diamond uses for her console, its safe to say that White Diamond was created first, then Yellow, then Blue and finally Pink. Chronologically, she would have been the last diamond to be created of the Diamond Authority, which places her squarely at the bottom. I say this for various reasons, but one in particular is that Real World Pink Diamonds often take longer to be created naturally and are formed under incredibly high amounts of pressure over a longer period of time. 

Whats interesting about this idea is that Pink Diamonds are actually way more rare than White, Yellow and Blue Diamonds. The source of their pink color too, is not definitively known or agreed on, However, pink diamonds are more likely to have irregular shapes, variations of clarity and color and are speculated to receive those colors due to deformations in the diamond as they are formed due to the intense amounts of pressure. 

If that was the case, then she is essentially the Amethyst of the Diamond Authority. It would explain her supposed small size, as speculated from the flashback dream that Stevonnie has. Pink Diamond could very-well be a defective gem. An Off-Color. She’s not a perfect Pink Diamond, which wouldn’t be far from the realistic truth, since flawless pink diamonds are incredibly rare. 

This is a great justification for why Pink Diamond is so childish, and why Yellow Diamond is so irritated with her. Pink Diamond wants everything Yellow Diamond has, because she is a Diamond too, isn’t she? Doesn’t Pink deserve her own colony? Why can’t she have her own army? Its not fair! But Pink Diamond doesn’t act like any of the other diamonds. She’s not cut out to be a Leader.

Earth was Pink Diamond’s first colony. 

It was a planet that the Diamond Authority probably didn’t care all that about in their star system, but Pink Diamond fell in love with and demanded she have it as a colony. It was the toy at the Toy Shop that Pink Diamond must have pleaded and begged for. It would explain why she wanted to build the human zoo, and even why the Quartz gems she created are all different from one another and all kind of goofy. Jasper really was the only ‘Quality’ gem to come out of Earth it seemed. The Earth was Pink Diamond’s Dollhouse and Humans her toys.

There’s no telling how long ago this flashback was timeline wise - but we do obviously know that it was before Pink Diamond colonized Earth. Earth was the only colony that Pink Diamond ever had. 

I still feel like White Diamond and Yellow Diamond may have had something to do with Pink Diamond and her systematic shattering, but I definitely think that White Diamond was the Big Boss pulling all the major strings, and Yellow Diamond was a pawn in her scheme. By the exchange we saw in Jungle Moon, Yellow Diamond doesn’t seem to outright hate Pink Diamond, but more so treats her like a child, like the annoying younger siblings who tries to get into your belongings because she wants what you have. 

Maybe Yellow Diamond was tricked into helping White Diamond in the scheme. She obviously still cares for Pink Diamond, as seen in previous episodes where she discusses her feelings, but maybe instead of it being entirely sorrow and grief, maybe what Yellow Diamond feels more is guilt - if Diamonds can feel guilt, of course. 

Bechloe one-shot

I was going to write a really short Bechloe one-shot but it turned into this whole 3000 words of fluff thing and I don’t even know. Enjoy! 

Chloe loves to cuddle. Because, of course, she does. It isn’t really surprising; the redhead was known for startling her friends – mostly Beca – by wrapping her arms around them at the most unexpected times. It wasn’t quick either, Chloe would hug you and pull you as close as possible until it was almost hard to breathe. It scared Beca in the beginning. She’d had friends before, although not many, and knew that girls could sometimes get a little touchy-feely. So yes, she had had friends who would hug her, and she got used to the occasional ‘haven’t-seen-each-other-in-a-while’ hug, which was mostly just one arm wrapped around her waist and sometimes a quick press of lips against her cheek.

This was different though, Chloe was different. The first time it happened was the day Beca got bailed out of jail and she’d just had a rough fight with her father in the car. She was ready to go to bed and just forget everything. Forget the Bellas, forget about her dad, forget stupid fucking Jesse, just… forget it all. She should never have tried caring in the first place. But then, she’d walked through her door and there they were, waiting for her. It had surprised her. 

“You guys waited up for me?” She had asked, not being able to stop the smile from forming on her face. It’s hard to maintain a badass attitude when you’re exhausted.

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Okay I just came back from watching TLJ a 4th time and I feel like I need to brain dump:

1. Are we not going to talk about the fact that Lysa Arryn is in this movie

2. Poe’s character arc though. He starts out a cocky flyboy who disobeys orders and a Tico sister pulls through and sacrifices herself so that it’s not a total failure of a plan. By the end, Poe realizes that taking out that cannon isn’t worth the loss they’d suffer, and orders Finn to pull out. Finn doesn’t and pulls a Poe circa 2.5 hours ago, and again, a Tico sister sacrifices herself for the greater good. Then Poe’s thinking rationally like a LEADER, not a HERO, and Leia approves.

3. Are we also not going to talk about Leia’s “get your head out of your cockpit” line?! Totally Carrie’s idea.

4. That Canto Bight scene where the camera zooms through the casino as that bubbly music plays is honestly the most Disney scene I have ever seen in a Disney movie and it makes you feel like you are literally on a Disneyland ride if you know what I mean.

5. The music, I can’t with the music, it’s so fantastic and in tune, and when Luke walks out to face Kylo Ren that little part is just…. something else.

6. Did Mark Hamill have some kind of medical weepy eye problem this movie? Literally at all times there were either tears spilling out of his eyes or his eyes just looked OVERLY hydrated like tears were going to fall out at any point.

7. Ben Solo’s calligraphy set on his bedside table when Luke was watching him sleep.

8. I SWEAR you hear Kylo’s lightsaber ignite and Finn scream ‘NO’…. as Luke’s voiceover talks about how Ben would destroy “everything he loved”… was this him seeing Kylo kill Han?

9. If Rey’s parents were “filthy junk traders” and somehow still alive during TFA - they mayyyy have been in the village by Lor San Tekka - aka Kylo Ren may have ordered the murder of her parents unknowingly. (This one is a stretch but I thought I’d put it out there) But also 

10. What STILL doesn’t make sense to me is the “WHAT. GIRL?” and the fact that Rey knows how to fly the Millennium Falcon right off the bat. It doesn’t look like she’s doing much piloting on Jakku. When Luke is talking to her when they’re in the Jedi tree temple, he says “you’ve seen this place before,” and she replies “only in dreams”. This goes back to when Kylo Ren was interrogating her and he said “I see it. I see the island”. So she has seen this island before. But it still doesn’t explain why he was wondering about “the girl” prior, and why a young Ben might have been in her force vision. OR why Anakin’s lightsaber called to her from Maz’s basement. It sort of seems like both of them may have had troubled sleep patterns and had dreams about each other, and honestly I am so on board with the theory that 9/10 year old Ben was falling prey to the dark side, and the Force was like “yeah, having none of that, we need to get him an equal in the light to balance this out”. Which would explain their age difference and why Snoke explicitly talks about how “darkness rises and light to meet it” and how Kylo Ren’s light-side equal will grow in power as he does. 

11. I still can’t believe Kylo did THAT like what did we do to deserve that Rian

12. What did we do to deserve Rian at all 

13. That SOUND that Holdo flying into the ship at lightspeed makes after total silence

14. Billie “Nothing Admiral, just passing debris” Lourd

15. “No one is ever really gone”

16. The way that Kylo says “follow my lead” when he’s in the tie-silencer

17. His ship that he built to resemble Vader’s

18. That Force Bond was real at the end, and his shudder when she shuts it. Can’t get over it. I just can’t.

I feel like there were more things that I wanted to point out, but I totally can’t remember because it’s 2:40am. I should have taken notes. 

Edits/Add-On’s:

-Ben’s pants are high-waisted pants, not a compression bandage - trust me, I saw it in the high-res dolby theater and when he moves, the fabric moves as one piece and they are for sure pants as fun as the compression bandage idea was

-At the end he has sweat on his face, he isn’t crying as much as I wish that were true too but he’s not his weepy uncle Luke

-When he’s like “I want you to join me” I started thinking about him as Aladdin singing “I can show you the world” on SNL

-Also when Phasma called Finn “scum” all I could think of was the deleted Harrison Ford clip of him going “SCUM?” and looking so offended

-I still have yet to find Prince William and Prince Harry where are they

-Laura Dern when she says “may the force be with you ALWAYS” to Carrie Fisher, as a massive fan you can tell what that means to her to say it 

-When Ben is telling Rey to “say it” and talk about her parents, I think it’s because she initially isn’t accepting his request, and he’s like okay what’s your damage - parents. And has her walk around that box to get her to catharsis, but it doesn’t work, because she’s not truly over it, and because she misunderstands what he’s saying because she’s thinking too black and white at the moment since the rebel fleet is still being fired upon and he refuses to help - her only family as far as she knows, Finn and Leia, are on those transports. She’s not willing to let them go for his new order - because she doesn’t know what that is, and because she’s not “willing to let the past die” for what he’s talking about. They massively misunderstand each other in this entire scene.

-There’s NO PROOF that Kylo knows Rey is on the Falcon when he tells them to blow it out of the sky - unless he can sense her and we weren’t shown that. But he seemed pretty surprised to see Rey at the very end, so I feel like it’s safe to say they didn’t have any Force interactions between when the lightsaber exploded and when he sees her on the Falcon when he’s kneeling with the dice in his hand. He does know that Chewie can fly it, and last time he saw Chewie, he shot him with a bowcaster. So - just to clear his name on that front that he was trying to shoot her. He knows she took Snoke’s escape vehicle - he doesn’t know where she went after that, and they thought their force bond went dead when Snoke died.

Bucky-plums-barnes Masterlist!

I finally had the time to update my masterlist. It’s a long list, but I really hope you enjoy it. Come let me know your favourites!

*Find the other characters masterlist here

Sebmas - Christmas drabbles and edits

The Sweetest Thing - Drabble series with Baker!Bucky and reader

Every Rose has its Thorn - A Stucky x Reader series featuring Florist!Steve and Biker!Bucky

The Secret Life of Pets - A cute drabble series featuring all our favourite Sebastian Stan characters with pets

Riding in cars with boys - A smutty drabble series featuring all our favourite Sebastian Stan characters in cars, so come along for the ride.

Front Line Love - Reader a nurse during WW2 finds herself at the same camp as Bucky.  (SMUT)

100 Banging Kinks for Bucky’s 100th Birthday - 100 kinky drabbles to celebrate Bucky’s 100th birthday (SMUT)

Daddy Drabbles - A series of drabbles which detail the adventures of our favourite characters as fathers

Ficmas - A series of christmas drabbles

Training With Bucky - A series of connected one shots of what’s like to train with Bucky Barnes based off these headcanons here

One shots:

Love at First Bite - You meet Baker! Bucky at your best friend’s wedding

Starved - Bucky going down on you (SMUT)

To Build a Home - Reader and Bucky are trying for a baby

4th of July - Bucky and reader watch some 4th of July fireworks

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Lucy

OK so I know this is incredibly late and so many people have done this but I am SO FUCKING PASSIONATE ABOUT IT THAT I’M GOING TO DO ONE TOO OK BUCKLE THE FUCK UP TIME TO TALK ABOUT HOW AND WHY LUCY HEARTFILILA IS NOT WEAK AND/OR USELESS

So #1 Lucy grew up in an abusive home (verbally and emotional) and probably had a lot of issues after the loss of her mother. Did that stop her? No! She kept going and she followed her dream. She could have had money and riches and spent her life buying her happiness but instead she gave her father a big FUCK you and moved on and did amazing things. And even so, she didn’t resent her mother, which many kids who are left with an abusive parent do, but she embraced her mother and always ALWAYS went out of her way to help others (Loki is a perfect example but so is when they were fighting Gajeel’s old crew), even if it was going to cost her what she loves most in the world (just like with Aquarius). AND AFTER ALL OF THIS she still forgave her father after everything he put her through. For victims of abuse that IS SO INCREDIBLE that she was able to do that, not in a way of celebrating the abuser, not AT ALL. But in the way that that takes EXTREME amounts of strength and forgiveness and is an amazing quality, I can’t applaud her enough.

#2 People tear Lucy down and call her “self centered” or “narcissistic” which makes no sense whatsoever. As previously stated, Lucy is always putting others above herself so that’s just false. Also, last time I checked, like most of the Fairytail women and men, she knows she has an amazing body. She wears short skirts and tight tops and frequents body competitions but so does e v e r y b o d y e l s e. No one is calling Erza or Mirajane a slut or a narcissist, so why is Lucy? Having a female protagonist that isn’t constantly tearing herself down and shaming herself is amazing! That’s the role model girls need! Lucy embraces her body and even though she is curvy, she wears what she wants, she doesn’t let society dictate her wardrobe. She’s not “slutty” based of her outfits, we see she doesn’t date an insane amount of guys (and if she did it wouldn’t matter either) so stop calling her a slut unless you’re willing to say that pretty much every Fairytail character is a slut too then, by those standards.

Originally posted by mhni

Lucy is NOT weak. This pisses me off the most. Ok. I understand that she might not be as strong as Erza or Natsu or Mirajane but FEW ARE THAT’S THE FUCKING POINT that’s why THEY are the ELITE. Lucy is still EXREMELY powerful though!! Lemme break this down for you:

1. Just like Levy, Lucy is super smart and for some mages, power revolves around knowledge more than anything else, and that has saved some asses more than once. Knowledge is a very useful skill.

2. Not only is she smart- she literally is one of very few mages of her kind. Celestial mages are RARE. Think about it. There are only 13 gold keys - and Lucy is in possession of the majority of the 13 meaning she is liTERALLY THE MOST POWERFUL CELESTIAL SPIRIT MAGE ON THE PLANET! Also, as we see from Loki’s flashbacks- she has an amazing relationship with the spirits, hell she’s on like a FIRST NAME BASIS WITH THE FUCKING KING. SHE IS ON A ONE ON ONE BASIS WITH THE M O S T POWERFUL SPIRIT IN EXISTENCE LITERALLY THE RULER. She has done things few - if literally any- other mages like her have done. And! Even so! She isn’t satisfied, she keeps practicing to be better to be stronger.

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Originally posted by ft-aesthetic

3. This girl can keep up with the elite. She is part of the Golden crew. Natsu. Gray. Ezra. These are some of the best of the best (official and unofficial) so yes, in comparison to them Lucy COULD BE considered the weaker. POSSIBLY (I have my own beliefs on this but that is another post for a calmer less 2 am - angry post) but still she is a part of that group. Now I know everybody is “nakama” and blah blah blah fluffy fruity bullshit I get it - Friendship is Magic, yippie kai yay. But she goes on missions with them and keeps up. If she was truly as weak as people say she is she would a) be dead or b) slowly be distanced by the “elite” and fall into place with people on her own level. But still she is always called upon the elite group because when push comes to shove she is very handy and necessary.

Originally posted by fairyghibli

4. While she may lack in Physical strength, she has a real connection with Natsu which is soooo important. Whether you ship them or not (HI TO ALL MY NALU SHIPPERS I FEEL I SUPPORT) you have to admit that there are so so many times where Lucy either is able to calm Natsu down or bring him back to reality that very few others could in time of danger. Natsu is pretty much #1 in the show and having a character who has THAT strong a bond w him only solidifies her necessity.

Originally posted by ft-aesthetic

Honestly I could go on and on like highkey I would but it’s late and I’m tired and I think about this an UNHEALTHY AMOUNT so I will probably add onto it but to finish off- idk. I relate to Lucy so much and I just love and respect her as a character that when people call her weak, I think a part of it is sexism and just looking at her on just a surface level- if you look deeper you can see she is such a babe such a NECESSITY. Goodnight. Thank you.

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~College!au Pen Pal Namjoon~PART FOURTEEN:END

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“You’re my pen pal,” Namjoon repeated for the millionth time. “It all makes so much sense now.”

“It does?” You asked, raising an eyebrow.

“No wonder, Hoseok hyung was acting so giddy lately. I thought it was just the fact that I was going to stop by the dorm–”

“You were?”

“Heh–uh, yeah. But you technically know that since I told you…as your pen pal.”

Closing your eyes, you suddenly remembered all the texts you two’ve exchanged as pen pals. How did you not realize sooner? It was obvious!

“I wanted to apologize–”

“So that ‘girl you hate’ is actually the girl who ruined our relationship?” Your heart sank. You remembered her. She sent you sweet smiles months prior to her snake-like ways. While you were with Namjoon, she found a way to insert herself into her life, but not as a close friend. No, she was more a familiar face you grew to like to see in public.

Who knew her target was your boyfriend? She walked past you with her sweet smiles and cute greetings and at the time, you didn’t notice the winks and flirtatious smiles she sent Namjoon. 

And he fell for them. He started to engage in conversation with you and at first, you thought nothing of it. Then the arguments began…


“What’s gotten into you?”

“C’mon, live a little!”

“Live? You do know that I can’t just blow off my education right?”

“Skipping a day isn’t going to blow off your education, Y/N,” Namjoon muttered. 

“Sure, but it will when this is the fourth time you asked this week!”

“You know what? Whatever. I just wanted to do something fun with my girlfriend but, of course, you’re too consumed with your own life to acknowledge mine.” And with that, he stormed away from you leaving you in front of the building of your next class on campus. 


The next argument you had was what led to your downfall…

“Hey, babe.”

“Hey,” you replied softly, not forgetting the argument you had a few days earlier.

Namjoon leaned down to give you a peck on the cheek and sat across from you in the cafe. 

“What’s wrong?”

“Uh, our fight?”

“What fight?” He looked up from his coffee with a confused brow raised.

“The one about skipping class?”

“Oh, we’re over that right?” he waved you off with a laugh. You squinted your eyes as if analyzing him. What’s up with him? He’s acting so different lately.

“Well, I’m not,” you crossed your arms. Not only did he not apologize, he didn’t even talk to you until earlier that day when he said to meet him at the cafe. You thought he was going to apologize but you guessed not. 

“What do you mean? You’re not over it?”

“Uh, Joon, you yelled at me for caring about my education and said I’m too consumed with my own life.” You were hurt. It was like he didn’t even know he did something wrong. 

“Well because you are. You never have fun! That’s okay, though. I found a new ditch buddy,” he smiled warmly. 

“Ditch buddy?”

“Yeah, you know that girl you talk to sometimes in the hall? The one I just started to talk to?”

“Oh, Y/F/N?” Your furrowed your eyebrows in confusion.

“Yes! She’s who I was with the other day. She’s really cool, you know? I can definitely see you two being friends,” He grinned.

“Nice to know but uh, you still haven’t apologized.”

“You still want me to apologize? Fine, I’m sorry–”

“What’s is going on with you lately? You’re acting so off,” You frowned, grabbing your coffee cup and tossing it into the garbage. Namjoon followed you out of the cafe and walked along campus.

“What do you mean?”

“You’re acting so cold lately. When’s the last time you’ve told me something about your day? I miss your stories you tell me,” You smiled softly at the thought of the random events he went through that he told you about. 

“Geez, I didn’t think you liked them that much,” he rolled his eyes. “Besides, telling them twice isn’t the same.”

“Twice?”

“I told Y/F/N first.” Oh. OH. 

“You told her before your own girlfriend?” You were more confused than anything else. How did he get so close to a girl he met a few weeks ago? It took him a few months to open up to you. 

“Yeah…” he shrugged as if it wasn’t a big deal. 

“Okay,” you stopped in your tracks and turned to him, “Why do I feel like you care about her more than me? Now that I think about it, you sure seem giddy whenever we’re in the same room as her.”

“She’s cool. I like being her friend.”

You rolled your eyes, “It’s kind of like you’re wrapped around her finger. Pfft, like she’s the one who persuaded you to skip class,” You laughed humorlessly. When he didn’t reply, you looked back up at him.

“She didn’t,” You trailed off, your heart sinking even further down your chest. 

“She said it’d be fun!”

“Who even are you? You don’t do your homework anymore and it’s like you’re a completely different person!”

“Not my fault Y/F/N is showing me a fun time while you’re not.”

You blinked, speechless. Did he just say another girl was treating him better than you have?

“Well, if she’s showing you such a fun time, maybe you should date her then,” you huffed. 

“Hah, maybe I should!” He paused before holding his arm out, “Wait, Y/N, I didn’t mean that–”

But that’s all you needed to hear before tears brimmed your eyes and you walked away from Namjoon.


“I’m such an idiot. Y/N, you don’t know how lost I am without you. I thought you were holding me down but actually, you were the one pushing me in the right direction. I was just too stubborn to realize.”

“Joon–”

“No, please. Let me speak. Even before our breakup, I treated you like absolute shit. I was hanging out with another girl just because she caught my eye because of her wild nature. And that is honestly the worst thing I could’ve done. She knew I’d run straight to her after the break up. But I’m the one to blame. I wish I knew how amazing you were since the beginning. You’ve always been there for me and I wish I was there for you.”

“You have been. You just lost yourself a bit,” A smile tugged at your lips. You knew how bad he felt. Hell, you’ve been talking to him about you all these months.

“I love you, Y/N,” He declared, causing your heart to flutter. It’s been a while since you heard those words from him and it was something you were yearning for. “Would you ever forgive me?”

“You sure that I’m the one you want?”

“Oh, definitely.”

“Then that’s all I need to hear,” You pulled Namjoon into a tight embrace. Leaning away from him, arms apart, you leaned in and gave him a chaste kiss to the lips. 

“AH! Yes!! Finally! Who came up with this plan? I did! Yes, I did!” An ecstatic Hoseok jumped from behind the couch. He pulled you both held each other in a tight hug.

“Hey, wait a minute. You referred to me as Jerkface!” Namjoon smirked, looking at you. 

“You pissed me off. Aren’t I allowed to, big guy?”

“Fair enough, babe.”

“And don’t forget: You left me on read on purpose!”

“It was funny!”

As you two bickered over your past pen pal conversations, Hoseok was watching from afar next to Jungkook, smiling.

 “Who would’ve thought, though? Exes being pen pals. Must’ve been fate.”

“Must’ve been.”


AND ITS OVER!! I GAVE SOME BACKGROUND INFO ABOUT THE BREAKUP TOOOO HAHA;;;SORRY IT TOOK SO LONG! I literally started writing this at around seven and didn’t finish till now omgggg

I hoped you liked it!! I loved this twist of events soooo much and I hope you did!

Let me know here!

Also the next pen pal issssss…JIMIN!!! I’m excited for his, too, muahahah:))))

Two Pieces Of A Whole

(Not my Gif)

Summary: Poe offers his company once he learns the reader hasn’t had a peaceful nights sleep in years. What begins between two people who barely know each other turns into something neither want to give up. (Plus BB-8 is a little shit) A/N- I fucking loved writing this! 

Pairing: Poe Dameron x Reader

Masterlist


Time passed slowly in the near empty cantina, only those Resistance members on the night shift were up and about. Then there was you. Technically you should’ve been asleep hours ago, but just like every night since you arrived on D'Qar years ago, sleep evaded you. Even when you turned the heating in your quarter’s to its highest setting, it still didn’t feel right. Your home planet bathed in tropical temperatures, sometimes they could be unbearable. But not to you. You adored the heat, the warmth, and so even though D'Qar was a warm planet, its nights were relatively cool. Sometimes you wondered if it was just a very prolonged homesickness and that eventually you’d overcome it. You humoured that idea sometimes, though your sleepless nights had been going on for far too long to be just that. Still, despite finding yourself only receiving a few hours of sleep each night, you were still relatively functional. Though coffee did help a lot. You found yourself currently with your hands wrapped around a mug of steaming tea, hoping that for once it might help you slip into sleep.

The silence was broken by chirps and beeps as a droid rolled into the cantina.
“Yeah I’m coming buddy.” A voice spoke sleepily. You looked over your shoulder to watch as Poe Dameron stepped into the cantina. He immediately went to get his own mug of something warm and stood leaning against the wall, a distracted look on his face. Poe’s little droid rolled over to where you were sat, a questioning whistle emitting from it. Poe glanced up, finally recognising that someone else was there.
“Hey!” He spoke cheerfully, a smile making its way onto his face as he strolled over.
“Didn’t you retire hours ago?” You inquired after Poe sat down beside you. He simply hummed in affirmation.
“Couldn’t sleep.” He eventually admitted. You and Poe weren’t exactly what you’d call close, you weren’t exactly friends nor were you acquaintances either. Your work meant that you only came across each other whenever he came into the command centre. It wasn’t as often as you would’ve liked. You admired Poe, his tenacity and prowess in a cockpit had made him someone to be feared if you were his opposition. Though he had a kindness about him that despite all the tragedy he’d seen in the galaxy, he hadn’t become bitter. He made great company whenever you got the chance to be around him.

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Happy Holiday’s to all my wonderful followers and fellow VLD Fans. I hope it is good one for ya’lll. Enjoy this little mistletoe one shot as my gift to you:

(Also a big thank-you to @sir-klancelot and @kenshins-soul for giving this a proof read for me. You rock!)

It’d be Nice

Pairing: Klance, (Shallura and an Hunay implied) 

Rating: PG 13 (some alcohol is consumed, but language and subject matter are tame. Fluff warning)


Lance tapped his foot against the rung of the bar stool he sat upon to a rhythm twice as fast as the festive music around him. The expression on his face was as tightly knit as the Christmas sweater he wore. He fiddled with the plastic mistletoe he’d pulled down in a moment of temper a few minutes before.

Wanting the paladins to feel at home, Coran and Allura had thought it would be a good idea to throw a Holiday party, where the paladins and the Alteans could share a little bit about their respective cultures with each other and the friends they had made in space.

Lance had been overflowing with enthusiasm for the idea. He’d been instrumental in all the human details of the party: He’d decorated the banquet hall with multi-coloured lights and a tree they found on a nearby planet. He’d had Christmas sweaters made, helped Hunk make food, Coran stock the bar and Pidge create an ultimate Christmas playlist.

This was his party.

Why was he feeling so glum?

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