optical nerve

theluckyjinx2170  asked:

Jeremy! What are you up to nowadays? School? Working?

It’s not much- but it does pay for my college fees! Plus.. Christine is a hit on Broadway! I never get tired of her singing- or the whole show!

It’s totally not to vent out anxiety about my past or how the guy I love is famous who I haven’t seen in like 3 years or the voices in my head

I can also play the guitar! It’s something I enjoy doing- And if Christine says my voice isn’t as bad as I think it is, then it must be okay!

Also.. my whistling is pretty nifty - But that’s off-topic aha..

Since I’m still very upset about this, I’m gonna make a post about it. Just to spread the word.

Stop invalidating Jeremy’s trauma. Just because he made a bad decision and hurt the fan favorite (still love you Mikey), doesn’t mean what he went through shouldn’t be acknowledged??? Everyone seems to think the Michael would be much more affected by the “squipcident” than anyone else when, ironically, he was the only one without a Squip.

Michael didn’t have to go through constant degradation when he already thought he sucked. Michael canonically accepted where he was socially in high school. Jeremy, however, did not. He already thought poorly of himself, so I imagine a constant voice confirming that fucked him up a little bit.

Jeremy basically went through intense shock therapy everyday. Imagine being shocked for any little thing you did wrong. Poor Jeremy was probably constantly on edge, worried that he fucked up. That doesn’t just go away as soon as the actual stimulation disappears.

When Jeremy activated the optic nerve blocking, he was being heavily influenced by the Squip. He was probably also scared that the Squip would get angry if he didn’t agree to it.

When Jeremy blew up on Michael, he was not only drunk, but also very recently sexually assaulted. The Squip and Chloe were forcing him into something he didn’t want to do. Anyone who went through that would make some pretty irrational decisions.

Just because Jeremy didn’t get a relatable emotional song about his problems doesn’t mean he doesn’t have any.

I just think that Jeremy, the main character of Be More Chill, should get some solid solo recognition. Not just with boyf riends, or the Squip Squad, but just him. He deserves it.

Jeremy Heere is a Slytherin

fight me.

yes, I’ve seen that Joe Tracz said him and Michael and Christine are Hufflepuffs, but look at the characters.

Christine?? sure. she can be hufflepuff. we don’t see a ton of her character, but she’s very kindhearted and I can believe that’s her house. I wouldn’t put her in any other, I see the most hufflepuff traits in her.

Michael is the definition Hufflepuff. loyal, brave, kind, hardworking. he’s literally always looking out for jeremy, even when he ditches him and LITERALLY blocks him out of his life. he goes to approach jeremy’s dad who hasn’t done anything for his son in years, because michael is worried about the dick who wants nothing to do with him, saves the day, fights a literal supercomputer who he has gathered information on even though it’s not even available on the internet. he never gives up on jeremy, the loyalty is what sticks out to me most to say yes, he’s a hufflepuff.

Jeremy?? no, he is not hufflepuff. that’s incredibly wrong. from the very start, we see that underlying ambition which leads the story. ambition is one of the leading characteristics of slytherin. in two player game, michael shows his lack of ambition, shrugging off their loser status and saying he cant wait for college. (Nobody here appreciates, but soon we’ll be together where they do, cause guys like us are cool in college, cool in college, this I know). however, jeremy says “you know that you are my favorite person. that doesn’t mean that I can’t still dream”. michael doesn’t go ahead and agree with him, because he doesn’t have that ambition to move up the social ladder. but jeremy does!! when he is presented with an opportunity to be more chill (roll credits), he takes it. PAUSE. now, let me remind you: perhaps in Slytherin/You’ll make your real friends/Those cunning folks use any means/To achieve their ends.
when the squip explains optic nerve blocking to Jeremy, he is willing to ditch–no, not ditch, literally delete from his life–his best (and one of his only) friend in the name of becoming cool. THIS IS NOT HUFFLEPUFF. I 100% believe that if michael were in this situation, he would not agree to block out jeremy. his loyalty would win through–he’s a hufflepuff and fiercely loyal! but jeremy’s doesn’t. not at all. he picks his ambitions over his friend–using any means to achieve his ends. his choice to sacrifice his friend for his personal ambition is the defining moment that makes me say, yes, he’s a slytherin. PSA: SLYTHERIN DOES NOT EQUAL EVIL. JEREMY IS NOT EVIL. he’s ambitious. jeremy is a decent guy, most of the time. but he’s not a hufflepuff. fight me.

also if you ship boyf riends slytherin x hufflepuff is the cutest ship this is not up for debate sooo

  • <p> <b>Squip:</b> Now Jeremy ๐Ÿ—ฃ๐Ÿ‘จ i know ive been a real ๐Ÿ˜ˆ๐Ÿ’ฉ shitty friend๐Ÿ’ฉ๐Ÿ˜ค im here to make amends ๐Ÿ™‹๐Ÿ’ป๐Ÿ’พ and help you ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿ™Šโ˜ give Michael Mell ๐Ÿ‘ฆ๐ŸŽง๐Ÿ‘“ that ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿ”ฅ good SUCC ๐Ÿ˜‹๐Ÿ˜ต๐Ÿ’• i need you to know ๐Ÿ‘“โ˜ that I, Squip ๐Ÿ’พ๐Ÿ‘ฆ๐Ÿ˜ˆ.. am an ally ๐Ÿ‘ฆ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ‘ฆ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐ŸŽ‰๐ŸŽŠ so i hope we can put it all behind us ๐Ÿ™ˆ๐Ÿ™…๐Ÿ’ช and help u get the top to ur bottom ๐Ÿ˜™๐Ÿ‘ฌ๐Ÿ’ช๐ŸŽŠ๐Ÿ˜ˆ<p/><b>Jeremy:</b> optic nerve blocked<p/></p>


SO IN “More than Survive”, JEREMY STARTS SINGING HIS LITTLE, “I don’t wanna be a hero” line, and the music is just piano, right?
When Michael makes an entrance, he sings about Bob Marley and the background music matches his style.


In More than Survive Reprise, Jeremy is singing a similar line and guess what? 
the background music is the same as Michael’s Bob Marley!!
Then, there’s a loud trumpet burst and the Marley music stops.

You can fucking hear squip optic nerve blocking Michael.

Michael Mell is on the spectrum

In BMC- the clips we’ve seen of the show- in all the scenes where Michael is wearing his hoodie, if he is stressed, or has something to lose (when Jeremy is receiving the squip and Michael is apprehensive, when Jeremy goes to get the girl, when Jeremy stomps off after saying he hates the school, when Jeremy hasn’t acknowledged him all day because of optic nerve blocking, when Jeremy chooses to side with the squip and the upgrade instead of following Michael, etc) whenever something stressful, unnerving, or hurtful happens- MICHAEL WEARS THE HOOD UP TO COVER HIS HEAD-
This may not seem like a big deal to some people but as someone on the autism spectrum- this is a clear coping mechanism that a lot of people on the spectrum use-
It helps to kind of hide you a bit and give you some kind of little relief and sanctuary- the same thing with headphones- wearing headphones can help block out unwanted noise that you are overly sensitive to and drown it out with noise that brings you comfort (in michael’s case- sometimes Bob Marley)
Another common trait in people on the spectrum, is anxiety over change. People on the spectrum typically grow attached and accustomed to their routines and get startled and disoriented by change. This is another trait that can be seen in michael- in the opening number- he is introduced for the very first time singing:
“Jeremy, my buddy, how’s it hanging? Lunch is banging. Got my sushi, got my slushy and more!”
First of all, it is arguable that when Michael says “Got my sushi, got my slushy, and more” it is a glimpse of these said patterns that tend to fall into place and make people on the spectrum more at ease. Notice how he doesn’t say “I got sushi and a slushy” he says “got my sushi, got my slushy”- he states it simply like this because Jeremy is his best friend and knows his patterns and habits- which is why he so plainly states it like everybody knows about them. I think this is an example of Michael’s system- he gets his sushi, he gets his slushy, he listens to his music, he wears his same hoodie, and he goes to school.
Second of all (and this is more debatable than the rest) before Michael goes on to share his routinely patterns, something that stuck out to me was that Michael wasn’t as socially adept as other characters- he addresses his friend and does the socially acceptable thing by asking how he is doing, but then immediately moves on without receiving an answer. This isn’t because he is selfish or a dick- in my mind it’s another trait of people on the spectrum. For people with high functioning autism, social interactions can be extremely difficult because it is hard to comprehend what is socially acceptable and what isn’t. This can make some relationships hard because they may come off as rude or uncaring when in reality they just aren’t able to easily slide into conversation and act completely normally.
Third of all, when he says “and more” I thought it was cute because it showed his excitement for having accomplished something. For people off of the spectrum, little things like accepting a little change isn’t anything out of the norm because life is unpredictable and things change all the time. But for people on the spectrum, even little things like being able to roll with one simple change can be a huge victory. Change is a lot harder for us so being able to deal with slight change is a big deal. After this line- Michael says “the roll was Mekhi maki and I’m feeling kind of cocky, cause the girl at sev-elev gave me a generous pour”. Just the little change of the extra pour, extra slushy, Michael was able to accept and that was a win for him, enough to make him feel confident and cocky.

Throughout the musical and album there is more evidence of this but I think that it is at least debatable that Michael may be on the spectrum. Honestly it wouldn’t surprise me for George Salazar to portray a character like that as he has been good with mental health representation in the past. I honestly love the idea of an autistic character in a musical because there isn’t a whole lot of positive representation elsewhere. You don’t have to agree but I’m probably going to always see Michael now as a representation for me

Selmers! Everyone’s favourite bear poet from Night in the Woods. Well, she’s my favourite anyway. Not super detailed or anything, still getting back into it while my optic nerve is healing.

Dunno how well the NitW style translates into mine, but I hope this is accurate enough. o_o

Selmers belongs to Infinite Fall, art by me.