optical nerve

my experience seeing bmc

-JAKES SHOELACES ARE ORANGE THEYRE SO OBNOXIOUS

-the scene where chloe and brooke r talking to christine brooke says like “jake sucks!!” or something and chloe whips around and shrieks “NO HE DOESNT” and honestly? mood

-the guy playing michael is totally playing him as Jealous Gay Best Friend or at least. he was SO DONE with jeremy’s pining over christine bullshit BUT HE WAS DEF HAPPY WHEN THEY DID GET TOGETHER

-JAKE CALLED EXTRACURRICULAR ACTIVITES EXTRA CIRCULAR ACTIVITY i was weak

-when jeremy went “optic nerve blocking: on” one of the people behind me went “oh my god.”

-WHENEVER MR REYES WENT “our funds will go to the frisbee golf organization!” ONE OF THE EXTRAS WENT “YES!!” the extras are so funny i would straight up die for them

-as jeremy was purchasing the squip and the stockpeople were showing it to him michael stretched his camera over jeremy’s head to take a picture inside the box fjsksks it was so funny

-THE GIRLS ARE SO FUNNY

-CHRISTINE IS HILARIOUS

-also christine’s outfit is so cute she’s wearing those leggings that are like cat leggings

-BROOKE IS PRECIOUS AND ALSO HILARIOUS

-do you wanna ride was SO FUNNY

-THE SQUIP IS INCREDIBLY TALENTED

-he Hits Some Notes

-ALSO during be more chill pt. two jeremy was SO EXCITED TO BECOME POPULAR

-MICHAEL DABBED DURING “COOL IN COLLEGE” google search how to unstan michael mell

-OK SO DURING THE PART WHERE ALL OF THE POPULAR KIDS RUN INTO PLAY REHEARSAL RICH WALKED IN AND HUMPED THE BACK OF JEREMYS CHAIR FJSJDJSJSIDJSJS

-the squip song was SO FUNNY

-ALSO DURING UPGRADE CHRISTIME AND JAKE MADE! OUT! THEY STRAIGHT UP MADE OUT SON

-also during be more chill pt 2 jake and one of the extras picked up jeremy and put him on their shoulders and when they set him down on his bed the bed went “KRRRRK” and the squip went “BE CAREFUL WITH HIM”

intermission

-HALLOWEEN WAS AWESOME

-the chemistry between christine and jeremy is so dorky and cute fjdisidiidisksks

-JAKE AND JEREMY HAD A DANCE BATTLE I WAS LOSIN IT

-also whenever jake réaliséd jeremy and chloe were Bangin’ he straight up PUNCHED OUT THE WINDOW TO HIS PARENTS BEDROOM

-OH ALSO at the end of ‘HALLOWEEN’ it didn’t end like it does with the music trailing off but rich went off stage going in a very broken, robotic voice, “halloween. halloween. halloween.” i was fjskskskkdskkskd. u can very clearly see how heavily he’s relying on his squip by this point to the point where he can’t even function normally without it IDK it was moving to me

-ALSO!!!!!! jake dillinger can’t emotionally deal with anything he does Not Know how girls work. i really believe he and christine would’ve worked out if he was just a little more not deaf to the emotions of those around him

-PITIFUL CHILDREN IS SO LIT

-the steady increase and change of the squips appearance from normal to Evil Villain is SO COOL

-GOD i love the squip

-also i cried during michael in the bathroom but if anyone asks What No I Didn’t

-CHRISTINE COMES OUT RIGHT BEFORE THE PLAY AND THE CURTAINS ARE SHUT AND ITS JUST LIKE AN AVERAGE HIGH SCHOOL PLAY IDK ITS REALLY ENDEARING AND CUTE

-also i am 1048289392% convinced christine canigulas entire wardrobe comes from justice

-MR REYES WEARING JEREMYS PLAY COSTUME HAD ME WEAK

-y’all. JEREMYS DAD WAS SO FUNNY

-THE PANTS SONG IS SUCH A BOP!!! A STRAIGHT UP BANGER

-everyone 30+ was LOSING THEIR SHIT at the pants song they all thought it was the funniest shit

-ALSO AT MICHAEL MAKES AN ENTRANCE THE GUY PLAYING MICHAEL RAN PAST ME (i was sitting by the aisle) AND HIS FEET WENT DUNK DUNK DUNK DUNK DUNK RIGHT NEXT TO ME AND LIKE SHOOK THE GROUND AND I THOUGHT IT WAS A STAMPEDE I DIDNT KNOW WHAT WAS HAPPENING IT WAS TERRIFYING

-he sure did make an entrance. hoo boy did he EVER

-in the finale chloe and brooke had switched shirts and uh. they fuckin

-whenever the squip said “everything about you is so terrible” he did this weird. hitting the floor seductress thing?? it was so weird

-also michael thrusted on the broke squip as it stumbled past him during the finale

-DURING THE PART WHERE THEY ALL SCREAM AND COLLAPSE AS THE SQUIP LEAVES MICHAEL JUST STOOD OVER ALL THE BODIES, STAREDFOR A SECOND AND WENT “FUCK”

-also in the middle of the smartphone hour brooke dropped her phone and shrieked

theluckyjinx2170  asked:

Jeremy! What are you up to nowadays? School? Working?

It’s not much- but it does pay for my college fees! Plus.. Christine is a hit on Broadway! I never get tired of her singing- or the whole show!


It’s totally not to vent out anxiety about my past or how the guy I love is famous who I haven’t seen in like 3 years or the voices in my head

I can also play the guitar! It’s something I enjoy doing- And if Christine says my voice isn’t as bad as I think it is, then it must be okay!

Also.. my whistling is pretty nifty - But that’s off-topic aha..

Lines from musicals that always give me feels

“Forgiveness; Can you imaaaagine?”

“You gotta die sometime”

“Stay aliiiiiiiiive”

“I am damaged.”

“Laurens, do not throw away your shot.”

“What would I do?”

“You will be found”

“I may not live to see our glory”

“When the voice in your head says you’re better off dead,”

“What the heck did you do?”

“'Cause then I don’t have to look at it
And no one gets to look at it”

Words Fail as a whole really

“Alexander you’re the closest friend I’ve got.”

“Lovers live and die fortissimo”

“I float in a boat in a raging black ocean”

“Optic nerve blocking: on”

“Best of wives and best of women”

“Did you fall? Or did you let go?”

“I love my sister more than anything in this life!”

G U Y S

OKAYOKAYOKAY

SO IN “More than Survive”, JEREMY STARTS SINGING HIS LITTLE, “I don’t wanna be a hero” line, and the music is just piano, right?
When Michael makes an entrance, he sings about Bob Marley and the background music matches his style.

BUT

In More than Survive Reprise, Jeremy is singing a similar line and guess what? 
the background music is the same as Michael’s Bob Marley!!
Then, there’s a loud trumpet burst and the Marley music stops.

You can fucking hear squip optic nerve blocking Michael.

Since I’m still very upset about this, I’m gonna make a post about it. Just to spread the word.

Stop invalidating Jeremy’s trauma. Just because he made a bad decision and hurt the fan favorite (still love you Mikey), doesn’t mean what he went through shouldn’t be acknowledged??? Everyone seems to think the Michael would be much more affected by the “squipcident” than anyone else when, ironically, he was the only one without a Squip.

Michael didn’t have to go through constant degradation when he already thought he sucked. Michael canonically accepted where he was socially in high school. Jeremy, however, did not. He already thought poorly of himself, so I imagine a constant voice confirming that fucked him up a little bit.

Jeremy basically went through intense shock therapy everyday. Imagine being shocked for any little thing you did wrong. Poor Jeremy was probably constantly on edge, worried that he fucked up. That doesn’t just go away as soon as the actual stimulation disappears.

When Jeremy activated the optic nerve blocking, he was being heavily influenced by the Squip. He was probably also scared that the Squip would get angry if he didn’t agree to it.

When Jeremy blew up on Michael, he was not only drunk, but also very recently sexually assaulted. The Squip and Chloe were forcing him into something he didn’t want to do. Anyone who went through that would make some pretty irrational decisions.

Just because Jeremy didn’t get a relatable emotional song about his problems doesn’t mean he doesn’t have any.

I just think that Jeremy, the main character of Be More Chill, should get some solid solo recognition. Not just with boyf riends, or the Squip Squad, but just him. He deserves it.

10

JOURNEY TO FEARLESS.

BORN- November 7th, 2008
DIAGNOSED WITH CANCER- October 15, 2013
FIRST BIG BREAK IN FIGHT- January 2, 2014
TUMOR INACTIVE- May 1, 2014
GOT TO HUG THE HUMAN THAT HELPED HER THROUGH HER FIGHT- May 7, 2014
TUMORS RETURN- November 18, 2014
TUMORS INACTIVE- December 18, 2014
TUMORS RETURN- February 20, 2015
TUMORS GROW NEAR OPTIC NERVE WITH RISK OF SPREADING- August 20, 2015
SURGERY TO REMOVE EYE COMPROMISED FROM CANCER- September 3, 2015
CANCER FREE- SEPTEMBER 23, 2015
1 YEAR CANCER FREE- September 23, 2016
2 YEARS CANCER FREE- September 23, 2017

@taylorswift, I don’t know if you remember my niece, Khloe. You planned a visit to CHLA in 2014 specifically to meet her after seeing her story and hashtag all over Instagram. You spent about 40 minutes with her talking, laughing, and making her feel loved and important. It was one of the best days. I don’t know if you’ll ever fully comprehend the impact of that day on her and our family during that time. You brought such a breath of fresh air to all of us when we felt like we were drowning. And it’s a day we held onto throughout the rest of her fight. In 2015, she was battling cancer again and it was very serious. The tumors started to impact her eyesight and it got to the point where she could only see shadows in her right eye. They were growing near her optic nerve and there was the big risk that it could spread to the rest of her body if she didn’t have surgery to remove her eye. We actually found out the day before your 1st LA show of the 1989 tour. Since finding out the news, it was all a blur but that night at the show, we forgot everything that was happening outside of those walls. Khlo wasn’t a child with cancer, she was just a child having the time of her life watching her favorite perform all the songs that brought her happiness in her hard times. You did that. I actually blew my savings to surprise her with floor seats to the last of the LA shows. At one point in the show I lifted her up above the crowd and she wholeheartedly believes you smiled at her and she kept asking me if I thought you remembered her. I always replied the same, ‘There is no way anyone could ever forget you.’ I post this all because I remember watching an interview years back when you said one of the hardest parts of your job is meeting children battling cancer and then returning to the hospital years later and them not being there. So I just want you to know, Khlo did battle cancer twice more, and it did steal her sight from her right eye, but it didn’t steal her from us. Her FEARLESS heart still beats strong. She still absolutely LOVES you and still has her dance parties to your music. The difference is that now it’s no longer in hospital rooms but in her own. Thank you for being a constant source of happiness for her. I always loved you on my own but the fact that I get to love you through her, is what makes me thankful for you everyday.

Jeremy Heere is a Slytherin

fight me.

yes, I’ve seen that Joe Tracz said him and Michael and Christine are Hufflepuffs, but look at the characters.

Christine?? sure. she can be hufflepuff. we don’t see a ton of her character, but she’s very kindhearted and I can believe that’s her house. I wouldn’t put her in any other, I see the most hufflepuff traits in her.

Michael is the definition Hufflepuff. loyal, brave, kind, hardworking. he’s literally always looking out for jeremy, even when he ditches him and LITERALLY blocks him out of his life. he goes to approach jeremy’s dad who hasn’t done anything for his son in years, because michael is worried about the dick who wants nothing to do with him, saves the day, fights a literal supercomputer who he has gathered information on even though it’s not even available on the internet. he never gives up on jeremy, the loyalty is what sticks out to me most to say yes, he’s a hufflepuff.

Jeremy?? no, he is not hufflepuff. that’s incredibly wrong. from the very start, we see that underlying ambition which leads the story. ambition is one of the leading characteristics of slytherin. in two player game, michael shows his lack of ambition, shrugging off their loser status and saying he cant wait for college. (Nobody here appreciates, but soon we’ll be together where they do, cause guys like us are cool in college, cool in college, this I know). however, jeremy says “you know that you are my favorite person. that doesn’t mean that I can’t still dream”. michael doesn’t go ahead and agree with him, because he doesn’t have that ambition to move up the social ladder. but jeremy does!! when he is presented with an opportunity to be more chill (roll credits), he takes it. PAUSE. now, let me remind you: perhaps in Slytherin/You’ll make your real friends/Those cunning folks use any means/To achieve their ends.
when the squip explains optic nerve blocking to Jeremy, he is willing to ditch–no, not ditch, literally delete from his life–his best (and one of his only) friend in the name of becoming cool. THIS IS NOT HUFFLEPUFF. I 100% believe that if michael were in this situation, he would not agree to block out jeremy. his loyalty would win through–he’s a hufflepuff and fiercely loyal! but jeremy’s doesn’t. not at all. he picks his ambitions over his friend–using any means to achieve his ends. his choice to sacrifice his friend for his personal ambition is the defining moment that makes me say, yes, he’s a slytherin. PSA: SLYTHERIN DOES NOT EQUAL EVIL. JEREMY IS NOT EVIL. he’s ambitious. jeremy is a decent guy, most of the time. but he’s not a hufflepuff. fight me.

also if you ship boyf riends slytherin x hufflepuff is the cutest ship this is not up for debate sooo

Michael Mell is on the spectrum

In BMC- the clips we’ve seen of the show- in all the scenes where Michael is wearing his hoodie, if he is stressed, or has something to lose (when Jeremy is receiving the squip and Michael is apprehensive, when Jeremy goes to get the girl, when Jeremy stomps off after saying he hates the school, when Jeremy hasn’t acknowledged him all day because of optic nerve blocking, when Jeremy chooses to side with the squip and the upgrade instead of following Michael, etc) whenever something stressful, unnerving, or hurtful happens- MICHAEL WEARS THE HOOD UP TO COVER HIS HEAD-
This may not seem like a big deal to some people but as someone on the autism spectrum- this is a clear coping mechanism that a lot of people on the spectrum use-
It helps to kind of hide you a bit and give you some kind of little relief and sanctuary- the same thing with headphones- wearing headphones can help block out unwanted noise that you are overly sensitive to and drown it out with noise that brings you comfort (in michael’s case- sometimes Bob Marley)
Another common trait in people on the spectrum, is anxiety over change. People on the spectrum typically grow attached and accustomed to their routines and get startled and disoriented by change. This is another trait that can be seen in michael- in the opening number- he is introduced for the very first time singing:
“Jeremy, my buddy, how’s it hanging? Lunch is banging. Got my sushi, got my slushy and more!”
First of all, it is arguable that when Michael says “Got my sushi, got my slushy, and more” it is a glimpse of these said patterns that tend to fall into place and make people on the spectrum more at ease. Notice how he doesn’t say “I got sushi and a slushy” he says “got my sushi, got my slushy”- he states it simply like this because Jeremy is his best friend and knows his patterns and habits- which is why he so plainly states it like everybody knows about them. I think this is an example of Michael’s system- he gets his sushi, he gets his slushy, he listens to his music, he wears his same hoodie, and he goes to school.
Second of all (and this is more debatable than the rest) before Michael goes on to share his routinely patterns, something that stuck out to me was that Michael wasn’t as socially adept as other characters- he addresses his friend and does the socially acceptable thing by asking how he is doing, but then immediately moves on without receiving an answer. This isn’t because he is selfish or a dick- in my mind it’s another trait of people on the spectrum. For people with high functioning autism, social interactions can be extremely difficult because it is hard to comprehend what is socially acceptable and what isn’t. This can make some relationships hard because they may come off as rude or uncaring when in reality they just aren’t able to easily slide into conversation and act completely normally.
Third of all, when he says “and more” I thought it was cute because it showed his excitement for having accomplished something. For people off of the spectrum, little things like accepting a little change isn’t anything out of the norm because life is unpredictable and things change all the time. But for people on the spectrum, even little things like being able to roll with one simple change can be a huge victory. Change is a lot harder for us so being able to deal with slight change is a big deal. After this line- Michael says “the roll was Mekhi maki and I’m feeling kind of cocky, cause the girl at sev-elev gave me a generous pour”. Just the little change of the extra pour, extra slushy, Michael was able to accept and that was a win for him, enough to make him feel confident and cocky.

Throughout the musical and album there is more evidence of this but I think that it is at least debatable that Michael may be on the spectrum. Honestly it wouldn’t surprise me for George Salazar to portray a character like that as he has been good with mental health representation in the past. I honestly love the idea of an autistic character in a musical because there isn’t a whole lot of positive representation elsewhere. You don’t have to agree but I’m probably going to always see Michael now as a representation for me