onset of imagination

Prior to all form, prior to all names,
there is something which is no thing
that perceives all names and forms.
You are That.

The desire for salvation is the elixer of fools. The only ‘saving’ one needs is to be saved from one’s imagination.

Seeking ends when the fish understand the folly of searching for the ocean.

In open vibrancy, the sight of a flower is as marvelous as a vision of a god.

Whatever one perceives is not one’s own. It is merely an appearance in the
field of knowing that one is.

Before the body, before the mind, are you not there?

When one becomes water, one’s thirst is quenched.

Seeing through the haze of the personal, one’s actions are no longer reactions.

Clarity does not provide answers; it dissolves questions.

Lacking labels, lacking definitions, one is boundless.

To reduce oneself to the span of a lifetime and the volume of a body is the summit of ignorance.

Don’t take life personally. The sun has no care for what passes through the sky.

A thought arises and it is perveived.
What makes it 'my thought’? The bird sings and it is perceived. Does one make it 'my song’?

Identity is an acquired idea. One is what one was prior to the acquisition.

Beyond the mind, all distinctions cease.

Lucidity is the full knowing of what one appears to be and what one truly is.

With the onset of imagination space is filled with objects and time is filled with events. The absence of imagination
empties space and time so that true peace may be perceived.

Having rejected acceptance and having rejected rejection, a clarity manifests which allowsthe world to be as it is.
There are some who would call this peace.

What is false need not be remedied.
It merely needs to be seen as false.

What one is, is this Pristine awareness.
All that appears on it, in it,is merely passing through. Why give it importance?

Hearing with the ears is inferior to
listening with the heart.

True loving must be pure, empty of all attributes. It contains no I and no other.

The entire world is merely a play
performed on your stage while you are seated in the front row.

—  Wu Hsin

anonymous asked:

Thoughts on C-PTSD and its relation to BPD? I've recently looked up info on C-PTSD and it's scary how much I relate to it. It's scary thinking about how greatly the trauma in my early life has affected me now in adulthood. But it sounds pretty much exactly like BPD. How common is it to have both? I feel like it would be... well, extremely common.

I don’t have C-PTSD myself, but you are right, anon! C-PTSD and BPD do have some similar symptoms, especially for some people. It can be very hard to tell them apart. I don’t have the time to read the entire thing, but this study is precisely about the difference between PTSD, C-PTSD and BPD.

That study found that people with C-PTSD (and not BPD) generally lack four symptoms: frantic attempts to avoid abandonment, unstable sense of self, unstable and intense interpersonal relationships, and impulsivity.

C-PTSD is not an officially recognised diagnosis in the DSM, so statistics on C-PTSD specifically are difficult to find. PTSD is treated as an umbrella term that also includes C-PTSD. This site refers to two studies of BPD and PTSD comorbidity. According to those studies, people with BPD also have PTSD 56% of the time*. That’s even higher comorbidity than BPD has with other personality disorders!

Our entire understanding of PTSD is in the context of trauma. The relationship between trauma and BPD is less immediately clear. It’s possible that psychologists underestimate the role of trauma in BPD. After all, we are often accused of lying or being dramatic when we try to report our experiences. That’s if we can remember those experiences, and if we don’t convince ourselves that we’re lying or being dramatic!

While PTSD can form after a single traumatic event, the trauma in both C-PTSD and BPD is often long-term. Because it keeps happening, our short-term coping strategies stop working or start to hurt us when we use them. Even when the stressor is gone, the trauma and symptoms remain. We are so used to protecting ourselves that we don’t know how to stop.

The course and symptoms of C-PTSD depends on the nature of the trauma that caused it. BPD, as a personality disorder, always develops alongside the personality, becoming most pronounced in late adolescence/early adulthood. Sometimes C-PTSD doesn’t resemble BPD in its onset at all. For example, imagine a middle-aged person who was neurotypical, joined a cult, and developed C-PTSD.

Feel free to comment on this post with any advice or experiences you want to share if you have BPD and C-PTSD!

* The same link also refers to another study, in which 76% of war veterans seeking treatment for PTSD also had comorbid BPD. While this is relevant, I wanted to take a moment to put it in context. This is not just any group of people with PTSD, it is war veterans specifically. In 2012, the US Army website published an average enlistment age of just under 21. Trauma up until the mid 20s can affect personality development. A 20-year-old with the genetic predisposition could develop PTSD, BPD or both in response to trauma. Older adults exposed to the same trauma can’t develop BPD; it doesn’t affect mature personalities the same way. Comorbidity between PTSD and BPD is probably somewhat less than 76% in less vulnerable populations than war veterans (and possibly even higher in more vulnerable populations).

Some recommended reading: How do C-PTSD and BPD compare? / What’s the difference between PTSD and BPD? / Responses to triggers

- Exo