"I wanted it to be you" + Nobuyuki (angst please?)
14. If Only
He sees the way she works her way to find a place in this castle–no, in the town, too. Nobuyuki watches her ingrain herself into the lives of their people, and become this constant, bustling presence of optimism. She has been sent here–a formality, at best–to act as that of a bride, and she continues to see to it that she fulfills the duties of one.
… And yet, despite her station, she still stalls her marriage–lots of pretty words on her part, but she manages it. Nobuyuki wishes she would stop, but he also knows where her intentions lie. Her fiance–his brother–has found himself in a tangled predicament of the heart in his attempt to save someone, and she is trying to help him. So she tries to push back the wedding, tries to find loopholes so dear, good Yukimura can marry for love.
“… You realize you can only go on with this for so long.”
She doesn’t say anything, turning the page of her book–she doesn’t even spare him a glance. Nobuyuki sighs, and looks back at her.
“My father would make sure this alliance with your clan is secured. You’ll be my brother’s wife, eventually, whether you like it or not.”
She stays silent, again, but she responds this time. “… It’s not that I don’t want to–”
“Then why don’t you?”
“… You know,” she says, a secret in the air between them.
“First loves always hurt, dear,” Nobuyuki says, patient, like he’s scolding a child. “He will get over it, eventually.”
“… I just wanted to give him a chance–”
“And yet you also know that’s not a luxury people like us can afford.”
She goes silent then, looking back down. Nobuyuki feels his heart swell for a girl he’d gladly call sister.
HI!!!! Happy (late) Holidays! How are you? I just wanted to say I absolutely adore ur blog- it's so awesome!!!!! (I love the way you draw Sonny and everyone!) if you're taking requests, can you please do a smol vanessa perhaps??
thank you so much!!! im doing good, i finally bought myself a new tablet and im getting the hang of it so to practice–
HERES A SMOL VANESSA
she got a doll for christmas and together theyre getting their revenge on usnavi because one time he told her and nina that they couldnt play with his star wars toys because they were for boys only
National Poetry Month Day 15: "Exercises in Breathing" by Kimberly Southwick
knowing the rules is not enough. when it snows, it doesn’t always mean it. when it snows, sometimes it snows for the museums and sometimes it snows for the papers and sometimes it snows for only her majesty, the sea.
following the rules is not enough. when he breathes— remember this one please—when he breathes he breathes for himself. when he breathes he doesn’t breathe for her or for you or for his son or for his future sons, when he breathes, he breathes for how it feels to be standing in the public gardens knee-deep in snow, smoking a cigarette and watching the statues still and cold and unbreathing and having it mean something.
breaking the rules is not enough. the sea is his mother. the sea gives back in fish. the sea tells you: this is what your voice sounds like. the sea reminds you to breathe. the sea, the sea. she knows the rules are never enough.