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Outlander Fanfic Relay #3

This is @ladygloucester for #3 of the Outlander Fanfic Relay!

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The thing I liked the most about being a surgeon was structure. It was the foundation of every surgical procedure, of every medical decision, even when mistakes were made or unforeseen events happened, there was a structure I could set in place in order to solve whatever life threw on my way. Structure was something I could always count with.

My routine was crystal clear, a well defined path I’d walk through every day. Receiving every patient when they arrived at the dialysis room, greeting them by name, helping them get comfortable, supervising every machine ticked and beeped the way it was supposed to. Again, structure bolstered not only my days, but also my patients’. Knowing what to expect, who they’d be with and how every session would end provided some relief in situations where it was hard to find, when future seemed to fade with each day the phone didn’t ring, announcing that hopeful match.

His rich, low voice caught me by surprise. I was charting, my pen quickly scribbling one lab result after the other, completely immersed in levels of urea, potassium and bicarbonate, when his eyes met mine across the counter.

“Sorry, what?”

“I was askin’ ye about yer day, Dr. Beauchamp.” A disarming smirk and a slightly arched eyebrow accompanied his words, making me smile.

“I’m quite alright, James, thank you. Do you know what story you’re going to tell today? Your audience seem impatient,” I pointed with my pen towards the rest of the patients, staring at us. “Come, let’s get you ready.”

His eyes followed the movements of my hands while I prepared the machine, not even flinching as I inserted the needles in his AV fistula.

“I think today will be about the woman of Balnain. D'ye know that one?” I shook my head politely and smiled reassuringly.

“I’m sure they’ll love it.”

Soon enough his voice came back to life, covered in that daydreamer tone that captured both patients and staff and transported them to that place of magic and fantasy where he would take them every day. A trip that dissolved the walls of that room, of that hospital, even of time and space themselves, transforming them into a traveling mist, their pains and tribulations long forgotten. I regretted leaving, but those tubes of blood wouldn’t run to the lab by themselves.

His voice guided me back to the dialysis room. I leaned against the threshold and gave in, letting his words extricate me from reality.

“After all that, she got to return to the stones, leavin’ lovers and friends behind. For she didna belong there, in that space, in that time. She gazed back one last time, before placin’ her hands against the cold stone, the very same that had taken her in the first place, and disappeared into thin air.”

A whirlwind of tartan. Auburn curls, covered in sweat and blood. Blood everywhere, covering his back. His hands, tied to a post. The taste of my tears in my tongue. A scream in my throat, tearing it up.

Then I blacked out.


@bonnie-wee-swordsman

I don’t often share my writing on social media, as it tends to be very personal. But I want to get published one day, and part of that goal is overcoming my fear of vulnerability. Being able to articulate my feelings into words has gotten me through both dark times and heartbreak, and I don’t know where I would be without it. My only hope is that someday, somewhere, my words may reach someone and touch them in a way that changes their life. Although I do write for me and the pain that I have undergone, I want readers to be able to see pieces of themselves in my work. ♡

why you keep getting hurt, based on your moon sign

ARIES: you may find yourself doing the hurting in your relationship. love for you is supposed to be exciting, and when you’re not excited about the relationship, it’s easy for you to let go. but hurting people doesn’t feel good. not many people realize this, but aries don’t intend to hurt people. they just naturally put themselves first. it hurts them when people close to them hurt. you may have a lot of trouble finding someone who understands you and your carefree attitude about relationships. maybe love isn’t for you, you begin to think. 

TAURUS: you have an intense loyalty to the people you love. so much so, in fact, that you stay in situations that you may be better off walking away from. to you, a partnership is a long term commitment and any problems that may arise can be worked out, if people are willing to work at it. the problem is, you’re always willing to work on it and the other person may not be so willing. people take advantage of you. you don’t like to fail. when relationships end for you, it causes you a lot of pain because you feel like you failed. you start to think about all the things you could have done to make things work, but you can’t change someone else no matter how hard you try. 

GEMINI: you’re very hard on yourself. you have this weird war going inside you. a part of you thinks “im in a v srs relationship, this is srs business,” while the other side is wanting to have fun and gets bored staying in one spot. you can be hard on others too. you have these ideas about what a good partner should be like and what a serious relationship is supposed to look like, so you tend to dwell on flaws that may not even be deal breaker worthy. finding a balance and learning to let go of preconceived ideas about relationships is a challenge for you. if you don’t find a balance, you’ll feel lost and like no one is out there for you. 

CANCER: you care SO much about people. you always do incredibly thoughtful gestures for the people you love. maybe your partner made an offhand comment once about liking this super niche movie that’s hard to find, and you go out there and buy it. it’s hard for people to match your insane effort. the thing is, you want someone to treat you how you treat others. you want someone to remember that story you told about your favorite vacation as a kid and then they surprise you with plane tickets for your birthday. people show love in all sorts of ways, but it’s hard for you to accept love in a way that’s different from the way you love. if it’s not these insane, sentimental gifts, it’s not enough for you. you feel unfulfilled. 

LEO: you put people on a pedestal. you have high standards, or you at least like to think you have high standards. when you’re into someone, you’re like “oh my god! finally someone who is everything I’ve been looking for!” you begin to see them as this vision you had in your head of the person you pictured yourself with. but fantasy is not reality. when this person doesn’t live up to that fantasy, you get hurt. you’re a hopeless romantic and very grandiose in the way you express your love. everything about love to you is a fairytale. you’re setting impossibly high standards for not only potential partners, but even yourself. 

VIRGO: we live in a society where reminding someone to put their seatbelt on is nagging. to you, this is an act of love. you’re a perfectionist with yourself and your love life. you love through constructive criticism and communication. never mind the fact that people just can’t take criticism these days, people instinctually become defensive. you don’t mean it to come across as critical and naggy, you genuinely want you, the other person, and your relationship to be the best it can be. you feel misunderstood and you probably have begun to give in to thinking there’s something inherently wrong with you.  

LIBRA: love for you is more than just emotions, it’s a conscious decision you make everyday. this will cause you to stay in situations that aren’t right for you. once you’ve decided to be with someone, you’ve decided and now you have to deal with this commitment. pair that with a need to keep the peace and you can drive yourself crazy, dealing with other people’s bullshit that you shouldn’t have to deal with. you bend so much to the needs of the other person, because you’re adaptable so you can be the one to compromise to keep the relationship harmonious. but by doing this, you neglect your own needs and you become blind to how you truly feel and what you truly want. 

SCORPIO: not many people realize it, but you have very high standards. this comes from your overall pessimistic view on people, which probably stems from going through a lot of disappointment in your past. you are insanely loyal to those you’re with and you love HARD. you may often feel that no one will love you the way you love them. you don’t even always express just how deeply you love someone. you don’t like to admit it, but you get deeply attached to people. when someone inevitably doesn’t live up to your standards, this causes you a lot of pain. 

SAGITTARIUS: people fucking suck. everyone has skeletons in their closets and baggage. people take themselves and relationships too seriously. you just want to have fun with the person you’re with. you have a hard time dealing with the human side of people. why does everyone else have to be so negative, you think. love is an amazing thing! and we should have fun while we have time on this earth together. much like aries, you may have begun to think love isn’t for you because everyone else is out here taking the fun out of love. 

CAPRICORN: there’s an inherent loneliness than comes with being a cap moon. you come across as cold to others because the way you express love is so different than everyone else. emotions take a back seat, you love through providing for your partner and becoming the best at what you do to ensure a comfortable life for yourself and those you love. people see that as putting your work before your loved ones, but that’s not your intention. failures in your love life have caused you to completely stop seeking out potential partners, even if you would really love to be in a relationship right now. 

AQUARIUS: the person you’re with is not only your partner, but your best friend. but isn’t that a good thing? it can be, but you have the tendency to detach from the emotional and romantic side of the relationship. you’re afraid of your emotions sometimes, and you’ve developed this ability to completely detach. people you are with may feel like you don’t love them, they’ll begin to feel more like your friend than your lover. but that’s not how you mean for it to come across! you just have a hard time expressing love in a way that others can understand. 

PISCES: you give people too many chances. you see people how you want to see them, rather than for who they truly are and you usually default to seeing the best in everyone. you gravitate towards relationships where one of you needs saving. if you’re the one who needs saving, you put too much of that responsibility into the other person. if you’re the savior in the relationship, you have a hard time realizing that you can’t save someone who doesn’t want to be saved. 



let’s all have a group hug <3 astrology is a wonderful tool to not only understand yourself, but to understand others. treat each other kindly and embrace differences in people. 

this is based off of my very first series on twitter. you can follow me @classtrology_ for more frequent astrological posts! I am not accepting full birthchart readings at this time, but simple questions and brief sun/moon/rising combo readings can be done through my ask on here. 

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You Taught Me How To Be Brave…

We climbed up to the roof drinking whiskey in the rain
But I wouldn’t let you in, my life revolved around escape
Cause I was always such a runaway
Trying to cheat my way right through the game
But when you touched me, I couldn’t get away

I have been through pain in the dark like a knife
Yeah, I’ve been betrayed, ooh
You showed me how to love like a spark in the night
And not be afraid, ooh 

- “Brave” by Zayde Wølf

More pre-Kerberos sheith. Because… damn it. Zayde Wølf made me do it.

Their cameo in s4 made me curious as hell about Shiro’s and Keith’s relationship during their time at the Galaxy Garrison. So, here’s my take on it:

  1. Shiro taking Keith to the roof for star-gazing… but somehow they always end up watching each other instead.
  2. A drunk as shit Keith “breaking into” Shiro’s dorm room (he does have a second key okay so technically it’s not breaking in- but don’t ask him how he got his hands on it) at 3 AM on a Wednesday, because he wanted some cuddles.
  3. Their first ride on a hoverbike.

Aries: Sometimes you just have to let things go. Let places and people disappear from your memory. Let people walk away from you, as much as it feels like their ripping part of you out with them. You don’t need them to function. You don’t need them to make the sun rise and set. You don’t need them to see that the stars still shine in the night sky. You only need yourself and a pair of eyes. 

Taurus: You aren’t stuck forever. I know it feels that way. But you are not trapped in this hell. You will get out. Even if you have to claw yourself out with bloody fingernails and bruised skin. But you WILL get out. You will pull through to things much bigger then this. Every new step is terrifying, but you will get there. You will make something of yourself.

Gemini: Stop opening the door for ghosts that you aren’t even sure you want in your life. You can’t revive them just to force them back into a tomb. Make up your mind if you want to be friends with the past, or bury it forever. Either way is totally fine, but every time you half dig up skeleton, you just leave everyone with old wounds. Open up all the old scars and leave fresh blood on the floor. There’s no right or wrong choice, but there is a choice you have to make.

Cancer: It won’t be this hard forever. You won’t need that vice for all of eternity. It’s okay to need a crutch every once in awhile. It’s okay to ask for help. It’s okay to be fucking desperate sometimes. You do not have to always be the strong one. Always be the brave one. Always be the fucking okay one. You can let yourself collapse under the weight of this world every once in awhile.

Leo:  Do not let them use you to bury their pain. You are not their whipping post. You are not their cemetery.  They can not use you when it is convenient for them to hide secrets and agony. You don’t owe them shit. They can not hold you down and force feed you every painful moment they can’t handle.  You are much better then everything their putting you through. 

Virgo : The future is never quite certain. It’s always a little bit terrifying. Always a little bit anxiety causing. You’re making the right steps. Stop doubting your footing. You’ve gotten through the worst of the storm. Time to celebrate, and move forward. Always keep moving forward. Always keep going on even when it feels like terror is around every corner.

Libra:  Set backs are temporary. Pain is temporary. Even baby steps are huge accomplishments. I know it feels like shit right now. Know it feels like the world is ending. But sweetie, you’ve survived the apocalypse before. You can do it again. And again. And then again. As many times as it takes. You are going to get through this rough patch too. Just like all the other times.

Scorpio:  Self hatred and self destruction will never get you where you need to go. You can’t run on spite forever. Eventually the candle of self anguish will burn itself out. You have to start healing. Have to start saying all of the hardest things in life, even though it hurts. Even though it makes you cry. Even if sometimes it feels like you’re going to die. Recovery is hard but dying is harder.

Sagittarius: If they don’t need you, you are so much better then them. The way they see you is not how you are. It is not your fault if they can’t figure out your worth. You don’t need them to thrive. Even if no one sees your beauty, you are still gorgeous. Still shining as bright as the stars. You don’t need anyone to recognize that. You don’t need them admit you shine to be brighter then all of them. 

Capricorn: Your past doesn’t define you, but it did make you who you are. You don’t have to live in it, but at least fucking acknowledge what happened. What brought you here. What gave you those scars, and what gave you those laugh lines. You can acknowledge your past and who you use to be, without becoming that person all over again. You are better then that now.

Aquarius: Coming home is not a defeat. You did something most people only dream of. Sometimes all you can do is grab on to plan B and make it work. Doesn’t mean that you are a failure because plan A failed. You tried your absolute hardest. You still won. So come back. Enjoy the sanctuary while we have it.

Pisces: If you’re going to cut people out, you can’t just be uncommitted. You can’t decide one minute you’re done only to open up the door the next. Make up your mind and stick to it. Bar the doors. Throw out the vodka. Turn off your phone. Wait this out. Take however long you need to break their spell over you.

—  This Weeks Horoscope
Announcing Life is Strange: Before the Storm

Dear Life is Strange fans,

Thank you for your incredible support over the last few years. We know you have been eagerly anticipating what is next for Life is Strange so we really hope you enjoyed the announcement trailer for Life is Strange: Before the Storm and are looking forward to the release of the first episode on 31stAugust 2017 for Xbox One, PlayStation 4 and PC (Steam).

So yes, that means there are now TWO Life is Strange projects in development, with DONTNOD Entertainment having also recently announced that they are also working on a new game. You’ll be the first to hear when we have more news on their game but for now, let’s focus on the newly announced Life is Strange: Before the Storm.

Before the Storm is our reaction to so many of you asking for the chance to revisit Arcadia Bay. This is where Denver based Deck Nine Games  come in. Deck Nine Games are veteran game developers who, although being a new narrative games studio, have an extremely talented team from videogames, TV and film and a powerful set of proprietary tools called Storyforge. Please join us in giving them a very warm welcome to the Life is Strange family. You’ll get to meet the team and see their fantastic work during E3. Be sure to tune into the IGN livestream on Monday 12th June at 12:00 noon Pacific for the world’s first gameplay reveal.

You will also no doubt be excited to hear that Ashly Burch, Chloe’s original voice actor, makes a welcome return to the family this time on writing duties. Fans of Ashly will know she’s an Emmy nominated writer and it’s great to have her writing dialogue for a new younger, 16 year old Chloe, this time voiced by extremely talented actress Rhianna DeVries.

Ashly is writing alongside a passionate and talented team of writers at Deck Nine lead by Lead Writer Zak Garriss. The writing team have been working hard to create a compelling and rich three episode story that’s set before the events of the first game and focuses on when Chloe meets Rachel. Unlike Max, Chloe has no rewind power, so we highly recommend you think before you speak..! Chloe’s sharp tongue will require her to live with whatever she says and as before, every single action and choice will have a direct consequence in the short, mid and long term.

We know that many of you would love to see more from Max. Due to the way in which the first game ended, we didn’t want to canonize one group of players’ choices over the other – a sentiment echoed strongly by our community. That being said, we will still be giving you one final chance to play as Max through the self-contained bonus “Farewell” episode, which takes place long before the events of Before the Storm. This stand-alone bonus episode, will release after episode 3, and is only available as part of the Deluxe Edition of Life is Strange: Before the Storm. Rest assured, anyone purchasing the complete season of Before the Storm will get the full story. Max’s ‘Farewell’ episode really is just a bonus episode for those who would like to play as her one final time.

Thank you once again, for all your dedication over recent years. We can’t wait to hear what you think about Life is Strange: Before the Storm. There will, of course, be many more details revealed during E3. Make sure you check out the below video, made by the team over at Deck Nine Games, as there are many new details in to dive into. There is also an FAQ here but as usual, do let us know if you have any other burning questions in the meantime!

Many thanks,

The Life is Strange Team

The Types in College

ENTP: overall a good student but they go out every Friday night to drink away their pain and get wasted – regrets it each week but will not stop until they feel like their life is going somewhere, never takes anyone’s advice

ESTP: they don’t look as dead inside but they’re the deadest inside, probably only passing their math classes because they make their friend tutor them once in a while, they act stupid but they really arent tho

ENFP: Asks all their friends to teach them things because they feel like asking the teachers will make them look bad, most likely to openly have a mental breakdown during class every other week, will get far in life if they stopped procrastinating

ESFP: They were getting ready for this since freshman year of highschool. They were preparing themselves. They truly, honestly were. But somewhere along the way, they lost it. What did they lose? yes.

ENTJ: mastered the superiority complex face four years ago and somehow they just keep improving it, gets through their classes easily, thinks college is chill (actually not haha psyche that’s what they want you to think)

ENFJ: Started to consider dropping out of college back in high school, probably more interested in the fine arts classes, lowkey scares everyone but they dont realise it and they get genuinely surprised when people tell them that they’re kinda scary

ESFJ: They used to be one of the top students in high school but they became a little better than mediocre in college due to stress stress stress, really self conscious, poor thing pls show them warmth in this cold cruel world

ESTJ: Often seen as the leaders during those dreadful, wrenched group projects and their group almost always gets the highest score. Wants to become a dictator but those weren’t the options

INTP: They treat college like highschool, but like a really hardcore highschool. Sure, they can get the studying done easily and (somehow) get pretty good grades but everything else is like climbing Mt. Everest. “Okay but how do you expect me to go out there and–and BUY things?? Why did they think leaving me alone was a good idea. I’m so malnourished”

INTJ: mental breakdowns every other day that last like ten minutes, sits in the front of the classroom, sort of a teacher’s pet but not in the obnoxious way yknow man they just wanna get through life successfully

ISFP: Average by day, dreamer by night. They’re doing fine so far but whenever they have free time, they plan on how to escape from civilisation and build a cabin in the middle of the woods in Alaskan wilderness. Stress free and hey! no diploma necessary

ISTJ: they sit in the middle of the classroom and aren’t really seen studying (ever) but somehow pass with a grade that’s better than half of the class, they’ll go days without shopping and binge shop whenever they do

ISTP: Only raises their hand whenever they come up with a smartass comment to piss off the teachers but the teachers cant get rid of them because other than that they’re [ISTP] actually good students, goes on backpacking trips during free weekends to get away from everyone

INFP: Probably failed their first year because they really, genuinely, had no idea what the shit they were doing, needs to be reminded of what to do next all the time, intelligent but lazy

INFJ: The really approachable one who probably wants to be a biology teacher and everyone loves them as a student teacher. Reeaallly popular but not in a bad way and they probably have sparkles trailing behind them wherever they go

ISFJ: Nobody knows who they are, never raises their hand during class, always tired even though they get more sleep than the average college student, puts in the most effort and gets along fine but not socially

What kind of beauty do you have?

So you might be an Aries or a Gemini, but that doesn’t mean you have Aries Venus or Gemini Venus. Our Venus sign shows us many things and one of those things is the beauty you have.

BTW the body part ruled by the sign of your Venus is generally the most beautiful part of you! *Calculate and find your Venus sign to see :)


Aries Venus: Bold beauty. Everything about you seems to stick out. Badass attitude and facial features that stand out in a dominant fiery way. Your assertiveness is admired and deemed beautiful in other’s eyes. One of the hottest next to Leo.

Taurus Venus: A classic beauty that emanates love and stability. You look very earthy of course, it’s a very grounded and lustful beauty to be honest. I guarantee you look like a million bucks if you have this placement.

Gemini Venus: Mischievous and youthful beauty. Your laugh and silly quirks are to die for. Beautiful mind as well. People probably complement you and adore you because you seem so young and childlike. Your beauty lies in your friendliness and capability to converse with anyone.

Cancer Venus: Just damn adorable. Their nurturing and caring vibe they give off is so beautiful to others. You’re the good girl or good guy with a happy smile. Cancer’s emotions show through and give you a sense of motherly care from them to you. Comfortable beauty. Probably have bigger breasts and hips.

Leo Venus: You can see the Leo fierceness in your eyes. A flirty kind of beauty. You attract people with your outgoing attitude towards life. Can be mischievous looking just like Gemini– you both have that look in your eye. Probably really hot.

Virgo Venus: A subtle and soft, cute beauty. This sign represents women, therefore giving you a very womanly appearance. Your eyes are big and clear. It’s beauty that makes you appear shy, but you’re just always humble in your appearance. Your cuteness alone attracts many admirers. Probably ample breasts and hips.

Libra Venus: You have a girly beauty that catches everyone’s eye. A charming type of beauty. Even if you’re a boy with this placement, you might be called the pretty boy (you’re all gorgeous nonetheless). Very feminine beauty with sparkling eyes. Your beauty has a lot of character.

Scorpio Venus: You possess a deep, dark beauty. The beauty in your eyes reflects your deepest thoughts. There’s an edgy look to your beauty. A beauty with depth, that only some people have access to. But it can’t help but show through and be quite mysterious.

Sagittarius Venus: Care free beauty. Your smile and casual way of living shows a simple beauty, but you also are attractive in the way you get wild and adventurous. Independently beautiful. You’re most attractive when you look like you’re having a good time. Your messy hair is attractive. This reminds me of surfers lol

Capricorn Venus: An elegant and classy beauty. Guys who want a respectable gal will love you. You have a mature beauty that never ages. Beautiful in the way you go about life and tend to the workplace and home life. You are admirable and beautiful while you engage in your tasks.

Aquarius Venus: Wide eyed, off beat beauty. Awkward type of beauty that is so cute to onlookers. The way that you are so quirky and talkative attracts people. Your different way of being in itself is so so beautiful and can’t be ignored, in a great way.

Pisces Venus: An ethereal, completely cute and pretty kind of beauty. Eyes that gleam and dream of romance are gorgeous! Social yet a bit shy. Innocent nature is evident and is beautiful. Like Virgo, your cute nature attracts people.

                        My realistic back to school tips

I got this idea from hellostudykatie.tumblr.com so thanks to her for this idea.

I thought since it is back to school time I would share my back to school tips that aren’t that far fetched because a lot of the studyblr community assume most people are organised. I on the other hand am not. I need a planner but sometimes I forget to use it. Sometimes we need straight to the point tips so here I am for you!

  • Get a planner/bullet journal: Over the past few years in school I was very unorganised so I started a bullet journal last year. I use a cheap notebook as my bullet journal and I use a very simple layout so it doesn’t take up too much time because typically I don’t have time to do much other than my school work. I have found it to be super useful to help me and keep myself motivated through out the year.
  • Write out your timetable: I takes me forever to learn my timetable. In April of this I stood outside a class that I didn’t even have for about 10 minutes So I like to write out my timetable at least three times and stick one in my school planner, one beside my door in my room and then save one onto my laptop. It comes in handy during the year if I get lost.
  • Go through all your stationery: I normally have a lot of stationery from the year before so before I go back to school shopping I like to go through every bit of stationery I own and make a list of what I need. This way I only buy the essentials and it saves money as well! I often buy stuff I don’t use or need.
  • Cut out people that have a negative effect in my life: I think this is a super important thing to do. If you have a “friend” that everyone in your life thinks has a negative effect on you believe them and cut them out of your life. I have had to do this with a few friends over the past few years and I have finally found a group of friends that I am super happy with.
  • Look through your textbooks: I usually wouldn’t do this but I have been revising over the summer so I plan on just reading over my notes before class starts in September!
  • Treat yourself the night before: I find the day before I go back to school is stressful and I tend to get very anxious so I like to treat myself the night before school starts. So I might have a bath or shower, moisturise, watch a few episodes of my favourite show or listen to music.
  • Start a routine about a week before: I start to go to bed earlier and wake up earlier to get my sleep schedule back on track. It won’t be too drastic but I will aim for an hour earlier than what I have been which is about 3am so I will try go to bed at 2 or half one and wake up about 9 or 10am.

So these are my realistic tips because sometimes we need those simple tips to get through the start of school year. Hope they help at least one person. I would be happy for people to add their own tip if they wanted!

How to Make the Most of Today

1. Choose not to feel too anxious or to fear what’s in the future. Often, things turn out much better than we thought that they would do.

2. Allow yourself to dream about - and then plan for - the future … But still work hard today as that determines your tomorrow.

3. Don’t simply grit your teeth and try to make it through the day. Decide to find the “positives”, and good things on the way.

4. Don’t rest on your successes as that was yesterday. The past has gone forever – but the future lies ahead.

5. Let go of hurts and grievances: they’ll only pull you down, consume your energy and leave you feeling sad and tired.

6. Be optimistic, smile and have a positive outlook. It brightens how you feel, helps us get the most from life.

Have you ever read something and thought “I wonder why this company has such a good reputation for taking care of its employees?” because i damn sure am wondering right now how publix has maintained a reputation as an employee friendly workplace for so long when they are passing these out during what is set to be one of the most destructive hurricanes to hit florida in history.

my friend sent this to me earlier today so i could put this online for them, and I want everyone of you to look at that piece of paper; look capitalism in the face and tell me it doesnt kill people

publix should be ashamed to be so undeniably morally bankrupt that they would put employees in a position where if they dont, defy police orders for their own safety and risk their lives for the capital gains of the company they could lose their livelihood AND THEN BULLSHIT THEIR WAY THROUGH WITH SOME COCKED UP EXCUSED ABOUT STAYING OPEN TO SERVE THE COMMUNITY.

you know who’s closed through the duration of the hurricane? 

walmart

fucking walmart

known for being one of the scroungiest businesses around.

I want this to blow up in publix’ face, I want there to be public outcry I want them to be completely shamed into rescinding these not only for the sheer principal but for the safety of those who are going to be coerced out into life threatening situations by this, just so they could try and get to work during a deadly storm for no extra pay.

so please share this, put it on your twitter, tag it, send it to your friends and share the outrage. 

shame this company into letting their employees stay safe

So, serious talk.

How is anyone supposed to both have a full time job and be a solo 1d fan?

Like… how?

How?

#buymelodramaonitunes

  • the reason melodrama is so complex is that it simultaneously celebrates and criticises parties as a place where the rules no longer apply 
  • parties give us an illusion of control? confined in the world of the party it’s all ‘our rules, our dreams’ and we are ‘kings and queens’
  • homemade dynamite is such a call to arms for our generation okay it feels like a metaphor for the potential we all have to create change 
  • but equally could be a metaphor for our self-destructive tendencies??? 
  • the louvre is beautiful because it glorifies the tiny beautiful moments, relationships that don’t last forever but are still beautiful and priceless and are still works of art - masterpieces and still good enough for the louvre
  • also this is a song about writing a love song? ‘broadcast the boom boom boom and make ‘em all dance to it’ that is literally the conventional role of pop music? 
  • okay but hear me out i think liability/hard feelings are two versions of the same story, liability immediately after the split and hard feelings in retrospect!!!!! there are so many parallels!!!
  • let go of this endless summer afternoon vs. every endless summer’s eating me alive 
  • well i guess i should go vs. well i guess i’ll go home 
  • big mistake of dancing in my storm vs.  how you’d dance for me 
  • i am obsessed with how sober ii explores the performance of being a young adult like ‘oh how fast the evening passes’ and the references to ‘champagne’ suggests some form of performed sophistication 
  • ‘we told you this was melodrama’ could play on this idea of performing a role, or alternatively could play on the way society views the lives of millennials - melodramatic and ridiculous!!!
  • ‘they’ll talk about us, all the lovers, how we kissed and killed each other’  reminds us that this is our legacy, this is how we live forever - it’s super self-reflective and seems to call on us to consider the mark we are leaving on the world BUT also ‘romanticises us making us the stuff of myth and legend, we are immortalised forever in our scandal 
  • writer in the dark!!!!! so like to begin with that double meaning - kissing her literally in the dark / kissing her while he kept her in the dark about how he really felt 
  • this is lorde’s ‘blank space’ revenge song okay fight me on this 
  • her secret power is being able to keep him forever bc she ‘locks him in her heart’ he’ll rue the day he kissed her because in doing so he sealed his fate!!!
  • this is actually REALLY CREEPY I WANT A CREEPY MUSIC VIDEO!!!!
  • okay so love of my life supercut: every chorus is like the actual supercut playing back all the good parts back - that sunny pre-chorus with the repetition, mirroring the idea of a highlights reel playing over and over again
  • but it’s also a metaphor for seeing a past relationship through rose-tinted glasses/the way nostalgia makes things beautiful - she is only remembering the beautiful parts
  • okay but the ultimate storyline of the album seems to be from green light, sober, homemade dynamite we get the impression that ‘all there is, is the party’, whereas liability reprise suggests that ‘maybe all this is the party’ which is such a beautiful and hopeful discovery for the album to make - leading straight into perfect places, which celebrates life with all it’s imperfections and flaws!!!
Why People Fall In Love

Muses: Jeon Jungkook.
Words: 4.7k words of cringe worthy fluff.
Type: fwb!au + fake dating!au
Note: This is another my ‘to be posted’ scenarios, posted.  Yay. :D

+ An agreement to become Jungkook’s fake girlfriend and a trip back to his hometown lets you see more of the Jeon Jungkook who you think is only made of Friday hookups and boyish charms.

Originally posted by sweaterpawsjimin


“So let me get this straight, your brother’s bringing his girlfriend home for dinner this weekend and you ‘sorta’ blurted out that you have a girlfriend too just because you want to prove that he’s wrong about you not being able to keep a girl?”

Sheepishly, Jungkook smiles and rubs the back of his neck. “Yeah, sorta.”

At his nonchalance, you lightly smack his chest; it’s not like he’s going to feel anything if you straight out punch him anyway. “He’s totally right!”

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Chiron in Astrology

Chiron is another ‘infamous’ asteroid, located in between Saturn and Uranus, bridging lessons and structure with change and revolution, and also physical planets (Saturn to sun) to the spiritual and ethereal (Uranus to Pluto)

Like all planetary configurations, Chiron represents another childhood experience that structured a part of our personality.

Chiron from my own personal studies indicated the aspects of us that were rejected by the caregivers and/or other people and conditions surrounding the environment growing up.

These rejected parts of ourselves are then suppressed into the subconscious.

Chiron then shows us the darker voice within ourselves that tell us “You aren’t worthy” and “You’re not good enough at this (sign/house)” - as it became integrated into our personality during childhood.

Suppressed subconscious thinking and programming then becomes a point by where we unwillingly ‘trip ourselves up’ in these aspects of our lives.

This subconscious wound formed due to childhood conditioning (intentional or unintentional) that created patterns in the behaviour that can lead to reoccurring experiences of pain and trauma, that remains 'unhealed’ due to the emotional imprint left behind and the inability to integrate these traumatised aspects of ourselves.

Through our own unhealed wound, the understanding of our own pain can allow us provide healing to others in the area in which we believe we lack.

However, this greatly varies on the level of maturity and consciousness of the individual. Much shadow work on the self and integrating the traumatised aspects of ones own personality is needed before one can even attempt to heal another.

Chiron is almost like our own talent or gift where we have an incredible ability to empower others to heal themselves.

The house area indicates what area of life the wound formed, and the sign dictates how we received this wound, and how we can heal others in this area of life and also the ways in which we can learn to accept and integrate as part of our damaged ‘self’.

We may also often put ourselves down in this area of life, feeling a consistent internal dislike of oneself. However, we may be incredibly talented here also. Others may recognise these talents even though we may continue to reject them.

The 'key’ to Chiron is to recognise these rejected, hurt and wounded parts of ourselves, and use these talents to help heal others, in turn improving our confidence in these life areas ourselves.

This post was specifically written for the house placement of Chiron since itits orbit often fluxes between generations. The signs in essence act differently from the way planets act within areas, so take this into account when reading descriptions to combine your Chiron placement.

Chiron in 1st House (Aries)

Chiron in the 1st house can indicate an individual who’s wound stems from a lack of understanding who they are as an individual. They may feel like they don’t fit in within society. They may feel like their sense of style or their appearance isn’t appealing to others, and they may have a wound surrounding self-confidence issue in regards to their facial or body appearance. This can be a quite self-hating placement in regards to the physical self in particular.

They may also feel like they have no life direction, while everyone around them seems to know where they are going in life and what they are doing, while the Chiron 1st person seems to drift from one place in life to another but not really getting anywhere. This can make them feel quite frustrated and their worth and knowing who they are and where they want to go in life seems to be an endless void, either feeling like their options are limited or theres so much choice its hard to choose any direction.

There may also be some issues around the expression of anger and being assertive. They may desperately want something but can never muster up the passion and drive in order to go get it, then end up loathing themselves for giving up (often because they don’t feel like they are worthy of even trying because there’s a preconceived idea that they won’t get what they desire anyway).

On the flip side, you may feel like you want to achieve your goals as soon as you can, attempting to spin your way through life though only end up becoming frustrated due to your attempt to push against divine timing - if something is meant to happen, it will, there’s no need to feel like you’re running out of time to get things done.

This may have stemmed from not being able to get what they want, when they wanted it in childhood.

They may have also grown up in an environment where any attempts to express anger or aggression was scolded, therefore was repressed into themselves, becoming a subconscious shadow aspect. Now when pushed too far into a situation, they may snap and become quite aggressive and angry, then feel guilty after coming to their senses (particularly in the sign of Aries). They may have witnessed an aggressive or highly defensive parent, and when they confronted this particular parent, they may have had their act of assertion dominated by them, therefore making them feel incapable of standing their ground.

You heal others is by elevating them and encouraging them to head in their life direction. You remind them of who they are and help strengthen their sense of self and identity. You encourage others around you to be assertive and not to let anyone get in their way.

Because Chiron is in your 1st, its there fore everyone to see. People see your battle wounds, and if Chiron is close or conjunct the AC, you then embody and personify the characteristics of the wounded healer. If well aspected, people may recognise you as the ‘wounded healer’, admiring your strength and ability to guide others to better themselves.

There can also be situations where no matter how much others praise and acknowledge your appearance, you may constantly be unhappy with yourself due to the significantly ingrained pattern of only seeing your flaws above your beauty.

You need to learn where you want to go in life by experimenting with different path ways (your astrological chart is obviously a wonderful tool to help!). You incarnated for a reason, and though it may take time and much trial and error, you will find the right direction for you. Don’t be scared to put yourself out there and know that you have an incredible capacity of power and strength within you.


Chiron in 2nd House (Taurus)

Chiron in the 2nd house can indicate an individual who’s wound stems from a lack of self-worth and self value. They may feel like who they are as a person and even their physicality isn’t ‘good enough’. They can’t seem to find worth in themselves and this may make it even difficult to have a strong and healthy value system, where they tend to disregard things that other may deem as being important (check sign as an indicator of what this could be). This may have been due to a parental figure placing more value and worth on something other than the native, often money or other material possessions.

There can also be issues around money and possessions with this placement in general, growing up in a home where they were just scraping by. They may on the other hand, had a parental figure have a hoarding issue, or being rather selfish in what they owned. The native may have be rejected in regards to sharing and there may have been a sense they had to ‘earn’ something before they could receive it, thus their love and care was conditional. Regardless if this person had little to all the money and possessions in the world, they may continue to feel an insisting void of lack within themselves that can’t seemed to be filled by outer  possessions - real value and worth comes from self acceptance and appreciation, not possessions and material resources.

The lack of self worth and self value can be another indicator for perpetual eating disorders, especially if affected from planets such as Saturn/Mars/Pluto - especially if coming from the 6th House. This can cause one to overeat in attempts to feel the void of being unvalued, or under-eat in order to reflect their internal sense of self worth which may be very little. This, as well as a need to have ones own possessions ONLY to themselves, may be derived from a sense of a lack of security in childhood, thus may find security by what they eat and what they have to themselves.  

With this placement, you understand the pain of having low self-worth and self-value. You learn to understand that material possession can never fill the void of emptiness you feel within yourself. Through the mastery of understanding the need for self love and value, you demonstrate to others to heal themselves by showing them their self worth, though you may attempt doing this by deeming yourself less worthy of them. You can teach people that to be loved by another, they must first love themselves. You can show people how to stand on their own two feet when it comes to accumulating what they want and need to appease themselves, and demonstrate that money can’t buy you happiness.

You need to learn that you are worthy of love from others, and you can begin by learning to love yourself and who you are. You are a soul experiencing a physical form, and you must remember you inherit value extends beyond what you can see in the here an now.


Chiron 3rd House (Gemini)

Chiron in the 3rd house can indicate an individual who’s wound stems from issues around learning, schooling, communication and possibly siblings. During the childhood development, you may have experienced an environment where your thoughts and ideas were rejected or suppressed. If you attempted to proclaim your opinion on something, a parental figure may have rejected it or at the worst, made a mockery of your perception on things. This may have mad you fearful about expressing your ideas and opinions in fear of being judged and/or ridiculed by a parental figure. You may have also then avoided even speaking to that particular parental figure who you often felt intellectually inferior to. Perhaps the parent or caregiver may not have even met to be so critical of your thoughts and ideas, nevertheless the sensitivity of a child’s persona took their correction quite personally, leaving a scar on their ability to form their own analysis on things.

Individuals with this placement may have also had learning difficulties in their school life, having great difficulty in certain subjects such as maths and English for example, or any class that required an intellectual understanding and processing. Therefore, you may have had difficulty concentrating in your schooling environment or preferring to work in creative, more practical classes such as art, music, dance, theatre, and so on. This placement may also manifest things such as speech impediments, difficulty in pronouncing certain words, learning difficulties, and sometimes lisps.

If your placement is particularly subsiding in the 3rd house, you may have ex-refined childhood wounding around rejection or feeling dissociated in your immediate environment/neighbourhood. You may have felt like you as an individual (or possibly your whole family), felt rejected in your society amongst your peers. They may have pointed out something about you that was particularly unusual and/or different, and you may have felt unsafe or uncomfortable in your neighbourhood because of that.

The 3rd house in particular often relating to siblings may indicate strong sibling rivalry and/or feeling ‘below’ another sibling. Your parents may have in fact (or seemed to) give far more attention, love and praise to another one of your siblings, making you feel somewhat inferior to them. There’s also the possibility however, if your Chiron is well aspected in your 3rd house, you may have found comfort and healing from your sibling.

With this placement, you understand what it’s like to not feel heard, to not have your ideas and opinions acknowledged and what its like to have difficulty comprehending something. Chiron brings healing ability through speech and communication. You may in time, once you’ve come to acknowledge your Chiron wound, find yourself with a strong capability to bring healing to others through your words. This may be informal communication methods such a using social media as a platforms to express your ideas and opinions, and while you may put yourself down in your intellectual capabilities, Chiron gives you the capacity to become quite intelligent once you apply yourself to what you are passionate about learning and/or expressing. You can deliver a powerful and healing message to others that can bring them great healing on their own ability to verbally state their thoughts, ideas and options without fear.

You need to learn that you are intelligent and an effective communicator. It’s ok to not have opinions accepted by others, after all, we a all individual manifestations of source, and to learn who we are, we need someone to reject and reflect our ideas, thoughts and options back at us so we can know who WE are. Your thoughts and ideas are valid, and there will always be like minded people to converse with. Let go of the fear of judgement of what others may think of what you say, for what you say may be just the right thing another needs to hear.


Chiron 4th House (Cancer)

Chiron in the 4th house can indicate an individual who’s wound is derived from a feeling of a rejection or emotional discord in the home environment, an unstable home and/or family environment, feeling like an outsider from the family and/or not having secure foundations growing up.

As a child, you may have had parental figures that felt (or was) absent. This can be emotional and physical absence. You may not have received the love, care and nurture needed from the parental figure(s) growing up which left a persistent internal wound of not being able to feel like one can belong anywhere or with anyone. This may lead to behavioural patterns such as being overly attached and clinging onto those who seem to have the capacity to provide you the security and comfort you crave, or being completely ‘under’ attached, not allowing people to get too closely emotionally involved with you.

Essentially this stems from the same or similar root cause of witnessing your parents instability with one another. This instability then formed a subconscious self protection mechanism whereby you either seek comfort and security from others, making it very difficult for you to let go - even when its not a healthy situation. You may tell yourself “This person is providing me a house/place to stay/love and emotional connection/a sense of security - though all the while may be treating you very poorly in all other areas. Your desire for security is so high that you can lower your standards greatly simply to feel some sort of security.

On the flip side, if you witnessed your parents being quite unstable in their own interactions with one another or towards yourself, you may refrain from allowing anyone too close to you due to the lack of trust you’ve accumulated for others. You would rather recluse inside your own safe shell where no one can see or feel your emotional scarring.

With this placement, there may be a particular issue revolving around the mother figure.

In relation to the home environment, you may not have had a secure home growing up, moving from one place to the next, or couch surfing at friends or other family members homes. In other extremes, you may not have even felt comfortable or ‘at home’ in your birth country, feeling out of place or that your weren’t comfortable about your own culture.

Your Chiron wound gives you the ability to provide a safe and secure environment for other people. You instinctively know how to care and nurture others, and may also have a high intuitive ability that allows you you to quickly pick up on the emotional wounds of others. You can provide care and protection for others, though may find it quite difficult to allow yourself to receive these things from others. You may set the bar quite high when it comes to trusting others and allowing them into your personal space, though often at times your empathy and resonance with the emotional wounds of others may prompt you to take the unitive to ‘bandage’ and care for their wound while putting your own aside.

You need to learn that you are are worthy of being cared for and nurtured by others. You do not need to assume the responsibility as the caretaker of others if its not also in your highest good. You need to learn when it is and when it is not ok to allow people into your personal space. You have an underlying acute emotional sensitivity and thus you need to be aware of who you allow in your life and personal space. You may assume the most toxic people require the most care, but you may at times disregard how this will affect you. Learn where your boundaries are most comfortable for you and don’t be afraid to allow people to care for you. You are worthy to feel apart of a family environment and a safe and secure home.


Chiron 5th House (Leo)

Chiron in the 5th house can indicate an individual who’s wound stems from issues around a sense of rejection of self expression and creativity, or possibly a sense of a lack of fun and play growing up.

As a child, one (or perhaps even both) of your parental figures and caregivers rejected or suppressed your urge for self creative expression. You may have felt like anything you took particular enjoyment in as a hobby, games, and ways of expressing who you are wasn’t acknowledged or praised by your caregiver(s). An example could possibly be someone who enjoyed expressing themselves through the art of tattoos, piercing and dying their hair unusual colours. The parental figure(s) may have scolded this and made you feel as though you weren’t allowed to express yourself in a creative way of your choice. Another possible example could be through sports, where your caregivers didn’t allow you to play due to their desires and wished being imposed on you. Any activity in which you had the option to choose to express yourself was rejected or suppressed is ultimately a part of this Chiron wound.

This may now manifest as a fear to attempt to express yourself in any creative way you desire. You may fear the same rejection of your own unique creative expression, and will only attempt to if you know that an audience will receive it well. You may think to yourself “I want to create this and share it with the world…but what if no one likes it?…what if people get angry at me for what I’ve created?…What if people laugh or make fun of something I create or do?” - Shame and fear of rejection then takes over, therefore limiting yourself from creating what your truly desire, while also taking away the possible opportunity for your own unique and creative expression to be praised and applauded by those who in fact enjoy what you can create, do and express.

Chiron in the 5th has also been linked to difficulties baring children. This is not due to the placement of Chiron in this house itself, but instead due to deeper psychological wounds experienced in childhood. There is a direct relation to how the subconscious mind affects the body, and if a female in particular experienced a childhood where she did not feel safe, cared for or nurtured, her subconscious mind may affirm to her body that “It is not safe to bare children for I had experienced rejection growing up, therefore I refuse to subject another to this environment”. If the woman is able to affirm to herself that her child wound in fact experience a safe and loving environment, her subconscious may then allow her to open  to conceiving a child. Transits from benific planets such as Jupiter however, will greatly enhance the individuals luck for conceiving a child, regardless of the Chiron wound (as seen through my own studies).

You may have had your parent(s) impose their idea of fun and enjoyment onto you, in which you had to abide to. For example, an individual with a parent who was highly enthusiastic about sports may have signed them up to participate in many after school sports activities, when the child hated sports but loved acting. The parent(s) may have believed they were nurturing the child giving them the experience they never had (or had too much of) and attempt to live that through the child. The child then had to participate in the parents fun and games and suppress their own desire for fun and enjoyment.

With this wound, you have great ability to encourage others to open up to their true authentic self. You know how to motivate people and give them the own sense of special, individual power and sense of desire to be who they are, regardless of what anyone else things. You’re quite happy to put others up onto a pedestal and encourage them on from the sidelines in whatever they want to do. You have great ability to be the role model for authentic expression if you can overcome the fear of those who may reject you for who and how you want to express yourself.

You need to learn that no ones opinion of you matters, and that you are free to express yourself however you so desire. Get that tattoo, play your favourite sport, make a confronting artwork - authenticity is absolutely liberating, and you must remember that EVERYONE is unique and there will always be someone who’s not going to like you for who you are or what you do. Remember that we are a soul having a human experience, and we are all part of an energetic whole - we NEED contrast to know who we are. And remember that those who attempt to put you down for how you express yourself are simply scared of being confronted by a sense of confidence and power they don’t posses. Insecurity leads to others dragging you down to their level because they are too afraid to rise up to be as empowered as you. Learn not to fear who you are and express yourself to the upmost 100% - you have the power to do so.


Chiron in the 6th House (Virgo)

Chiron in the 6th house can indicate an individual who’s wound may have been accumulated from an illness experienced in childhood (by you or perhaps another family member whereby you had to care for them), having too many responsibilities placed onto you too early in life, absent parental figures due to work, and difficulty in the working environment in general.

Growing up you may not have got to experience much of a childhood filled with fun and play due to responsibilities being assumed onto you at a very early age. This may be due to having to care for a sickly parent (as mentioned above), working with the parent or in a another job to support the home life and family, and/or taking care of the home and family life instead due to the parent(s) often being at work. This may manifest in your current life is a fear of letting things get out of your own established routine and order. You may greatly dislike assuming responsibility onto others because you’ve grown up to feel like “I can take care of myself/I’m the only one who knows how to do this/no one else does it correctly as I do/I need to take the responsibility for caring for others because I know how to do it the best ect”. This can stem from a fear of what almost resonates as a lack of control of your day-to-day life. If you experienced a home/living environment where everything was out of place OR that everything had a perfect place, you now have a need to make a set routine that feels safe to you. You may not like to breech you day-to-day life for any means necessary because of a deep rooted need for wanting everything to have a certain place and time so you find safety in the predictability of things.

In relation to the aspect of health, you may have often become sick as a child or may have manifested a  lifestyle disease. To compensate, you may attempt to follow set diet plan such as paleo or veganisim and/or consume copious amounts of vitamin pills - all the while perhaps avoiding exercise. You may overcompensate in one area to make an excuse for another area of health you tend to neglect. On the flip side, you can be so obsessive about taking care of other people that your own health often ‘falls on the way side’ due to self neglect. This placement can show a person who provides tremendous care and service to others, but may often be to their own detriment.

With this placement, you can be a fantastic healer to others, especially in regards to applying physical healing (massage) or simply through your service to others. You can be a fantastic help to people in all practical manners, however don’t go overboard to the point where in helping others you’re neglecting yourself.

You need to learn that you are worthy of good health and you don’t have to be over critical of yourself. Remember the universe made you perfect exactly as you are and there’s no need to aim to achieve the ‘perfect’ standards of other people - they are not you and you are not them - the universe made you unique as you are and you are perfect and complete just as yourself. Use your ability for proficiency to help others achieve their goals and bring healing through your amazing selfless service.


Chiron in the 7th House (libra)

Chiron in the 7th house can indicate an individual who’s wound may stem from observing a disharmonious relationship between your parental figures growing ip, thus hindering your perspective of how relationships function, what you search for in a relationship and questioning your worthiness of being in a relationship with someone.

With this placement, if you experienced witnessing your parents having difficulty in a relationship - such as conflict, arguments and unfairness - your perception of relationships and marriage in general may be wounded. Because of this, you may not believe that marriages or long term relationships are made to last, simply because of a subconscious fear of repeating the same or similar disharmonious unbalance between your caregivers growing up. You may have convinced yourself that you have an inability to somewhat distrust the relationship partner in a projected fear that a conflict or turn of events will occur that will disrupt your relationship. Due to this subconscious belief, you may act out as the the projected fear has already manifested - meaning that your believe that the relationship will end so you act as though it already has, becoming cold and distant from the partner as if mourning the ended relationship, even though everything was panning out just fine! By doing this, your partner then may sense you becoming cold and distant, thus ending the relationship due to feeling neglected - this then ‘confirms’ your feelings, even though it was your subconscious actions that manifested this to occur in the first place! If you have a tendency to do this, aim to become conscious of this and take an objective look at the relationship. Question everything you can physically SEE in the now. Don’t project your thoughts and fears into the future by pulling up wounds of the past. You are not your parents, and you have the capacity to change the nature of how your relationships pan out for you are always in control of your reality.

Another manifestation of this placement is that you may attract relationship partners with a strong Chiron placement, carrying a wound that is in need of healing. If your Chiron is well aspected, you may have great potential to heal the wound of your relationship partner by being their supportive shoulder whenever they need you. Be aware of any tendencies to be attracted to heavily emotionally wounded people - especially if your Chiron placement is afflicted. While you may have the capacity to heal people in relationships, it may not be in your highest good to tend to heavily distraught people. Always act in your highest good, and sometimes this may involve leaving a toxic relationship that doesn’t serve you. You do not owe anything to anyone, and you have the freewill to leave a painful relationship and free yourself from disharmony and unfairness.

With Chiron in the 7th, their may also be a subconscious fear of being loved and accepted by others. You may do, say and act in certain ways to ensure that people will love and accept you, for your fear of being alone may often at times overpower your rational thinking and actions. Sometimes you may do and say things you don’t really mean in fear of being rejected by another person. This doesn’t even have to be over something critical, it may be as simple as saying”no” to a friends request of you. For example, a friend may approach you and ask “Hey, could you do x, y and z for me?” - you may be busy with your own chores and projects, though you accept your friends requests for the fear of saying “no” to them may lead to them rejecting you - though this is hardly ever the case at all! If you expend your energy on excess things for others that you simply can’t handle at the time, this may lead you to feeling overwhelmed, used and somewhat resentful of the other - even though you offered to do it in the first place! Take consideration of whether or not YOU want to do something for someone, never act on the basis of thinking your “should” do something for someone else. The universe has given us all the power of freewill, and you should never feel subservient to another in a need for approval for connection. If you a are strong and confident in yourself, then people will automatically drawn to you as a whole person - not a half person, after all, we teach people how to treat us.

You have great capacity to heal other through one-on-one interactions with them, offering support and advise, and simply by being a supportive shoulder for another. You know how to make others feel loved and accepted, and you must know you are worthy of these things also. You must learn you do not have to give into others, and you are as worthy of being supported and cared for as you are. Find balance in your relationships with others - don’t give too little or too much, find a happy medium whereby you and your partner are giving the relationship the same level love, care, attention and affection it needs. If you feel unbalanced in your relationship, you have every right to move on. You are worthy of a healthy, loving relationship.


Chiron 8th House (Scorpio)

Chiron in the 8th house can indicate an individual who’s wound may stem from deep interrelations with others, deep psychological trauma that the individual hides away from others, issues around death and wounding around sex and perhaps sexuality in general.

Chiron in the 8th house, especially of difficulty aspected by other planets can be one of the harshest placement for chiron, but can also manifest and incredibly powerful and transformative healer.

During childhood, you may have experienced a traumatic event around death in general. This may have been loosing a family member or friend early in life, and you were taught very early on what death was and the nature of it. It may have even been experienced by losing a family pet. Regardless of how you experienced the nature of death, you may have quickly understood it and thus either quickly overcoming your fear of death or depending on how your Chiron is aspected, this placement may have manifested deeper psychological fears around it. Chrion in the 8th/scorpio can produce a powerful shamanic healer when positively utilised in associating with others. You can greatly help people dive to the darkest hidden places of their subconscious minds, grasping their deep rooted fears before resurfacing and displaying the wound to the individual to be understood, accepted and healed. If you harness the power of your own psychological fears and shadow self, and incorporate it into yourself, completing fragmented aspected of your personality, you will radiate a strong sense of sharmanic transformative power and have great capacity to heal others and complete themselves.

At times, you may often struggle with your own fears and past psychological traumas/wounds, thus manifesting a strong sense of clairsentience and empathy towards others. You know pain - but that pain can be your greatest power and tremendously beneficial to others if you so choose to utilise it.

You may also have fears of being abandoned by others, which may manifest subconscious behaviours in which you can act quite obsessive and possessive over the people you love and care about. If you find yourself acting in this way, I personally encourage you to engage in shadow work and uprooting the core event that you may have experienced as a child. (You may wish to listen to Theta or third eye frequency meditation music to help). Once you are deep in meditation, ask yourself “When was the first time I ever felt abandoned?”. Let any images, sounds, thoughts or feelings come to you. They may arise as memory or an abstraction. Don’t dismiss whatever comes to you, allow it to flow and observe. Allow yourself to acknowledge any past hurst of feeling abandoned and recognise that you do not have to repeat these patterns in your present moment. Do not project your past traumas into your present or future. Take a good look around you and acknowledge what you can SEE/FEEL/TOUCH in the present moment. If you cling too hard to another, they will eventually want to break free - thus manifesting your own sense of abandonment into your reality.

Chiron in the 8th/Scorpio can also react to deep wounds surrounded sex and sexuality *For the sake of this public post, if you have this placement and wish to discus Chiron and sexual woundings, feel free to DM me to discuss in privacy*

Chiron in the 8th has tremendous healing power and you need to learn that although past trauma may have been overwhelming to you in someway on your psychological health, you can heal yourself though channelling your power into the healing of others. You can dive greatly into the depths of the subconscious mind and even beyond the view of the 4th dimension, though take care as to not dive so deep when you don’t have to. Sometimes its much healthier to lay down your ability for diving deep to experience the reality of the now - especially at times when fears of the past or future come crawling into the forefront of your mind. Know that you have the power to create your reality and that past hurts can not hurt you anymore and that the future doesn’t have to manifest that same trauma as experienced in the past. You have tremendous power to heal, use it to the best of your ability.


Chiron in the 9th House (Sagittarius)

Chiron in the 9th house can indicate an individual who’s wound may be derived from growing up in an environment where religious ideals and/or certain beliefs about life, spirituality and the world in general may have been imposed on you during childhood, skewing your world perception, ability to have faith and optimism and feeling closed in on what’s truly possible in the world.

You may have had certain ideals and spiritual beliefs imposed on you as a child, and depending whether you resonated with these beliefs or not determined how you perceived the possibilities in life. If beliefs such as “The world is a scary place” or “If you do x, y, z, a higher power will punish you”, you may have felt fearful as a child about the world outside of your own beliefs. You may have felt like you should act accordingly to what you’ve been taught, or on the flip side in rejection of those imposed beliefs, you may have felt incredibly alone on your own spiritual journey.

You may have felt a sense of abandonment or disconnect with the universe, often feeling like it’s energies never seemed to work in your favour. You may feel like your current life needs to have a higher meaning external and more grand than what it already is.

You may also have a great desire to manifest, learn or experience something, though you may have difficulty manifesting that thing into your reality due to the extremity of the nature of what you desire to achieve (example, attempting levitation but not being able to achieve it). These extreme ideas, concepts and beliefs that seem out of your reach can make you second guess yourself, especially when you can’t achieve them in your reality. You can question your own beliefs and may at times feel like what you truly believe in is nonsense and you’re fooling yourself - this may not be the case, though you’re ability to have faith, optimism and recognise true spiritual experiences may be blocked by your projection of a certain, even grand expectation of what you believed in. To truly witness profound spiritual experiences, you need to let go of any expectations of what you’ve asked for.

For example, you may use the Law of Attraction to manifest something into your life (e.g, a certain mobile phone you desire) and may not experience it in your current reality then feel disappointed - the reality may simply be the fact that you don’t BELIVE you’ll manifest the phone you want (which is a crucial step in the Law of Attraction), and feeling crushed by your belief, abandon it and perhaps even ridiculing yourself for it.

You need to recognise when you’re beliefs about yourself and the world around you are either helping you or hindering you. If you believe that the world is a difficult place to live in, then it will be so, for you’ll only perceive the negative experiences in life over the positive. If you believe the world can be improved, you may have the ability to change the way the world works from your perspective. Chiron in the 9th’s gift is that of being the ‘wounded’ teacher. Its the placement of the wise Sage who understands how to mend the self using ones own belief system to do so, while also incorporating spiritual teachings and practices to benefit others. You can be a guiding figure on the path of enlightenment to others due to your knowledge of what it means to have faith in something higher that connects us all.

Always remember that you can look at the glass half empty, half full - and also 100% full - half of the glass may be water, though the other half is filled with air. Have faith that there is something beyond what the eyes can see that connects us to everything in the universe.


Chiron 10th House (Capricorn)

Chiron in the 10th house can indicate an individual who’s wound may stem from issues, events and relations towards the father figure, goals and aspirations your wish to achieve in life and your public image.

Chiron in the 10th house (as well as other aspects included) may indicate that you may have experienced difficult relations around your father figure in general. You may have perceived your father not to be the ideal role model you wished to follow in life (reasons may stem around the sign/house Chiron in placed in and also aspects to Chiron). Your relationship with your father may have even been quite healthy (depending on aspects), however there may have been an underlying sense that “I like you, but I don’t want to be like you”. Depending on how harshly Chiron is aspected in the 10th house, the father figure may have even been absent in the nursing environment growing up - however - if Chiron is positively aspected, you may have even seen your father figure as THE wounded healer in one way or another.

Another possible manifestation was that you felt dominated or subjected to working under another - either the father figure or other authorities in general. Other people may have seemed to pave your path for you, giving you very little freedom to follow your own life vocation. Perhaps even if you did feel like you had the choice to find a fulfilling career, you may not even know exactly what you want to do. This can make you feel quite aimless in life, and then refer to simply handing your personal power back over to others to make the career/work choice for you. You may have difficulty establishing what you want to do and where you want to go in life, and may continuously stop and start your goals but never seem to experience any true progression. You may begin many pathways until finding something you truly wish to follow.

You may have also ended up becoming the springboard for other peoples success, and they may not even given you any recognition for doing so.

If you felt like your parental figures were limited or expansive in their own ambitions and goals, you may place an emphasis on them yourself, to the point where you can possibly overwork yourself and become too tired to complete your goals. You may desire to gain some form of authority and/or control in your life, and in attempts to feel fulfilled and recognised for your success, you may burden yourself with problems and issues outside of your abilities or expertise. You may attempt to ‘help’ a friend by taking control over their own projects, though in doing this you limit the other and burden yourself with he responsibilities of another that wasn’t ever yours in the first place.

You have tremendous capacity to help others achieve their goals and aspirations in life, and due to the shamanic nature of Chiron, you may even find a career and/or life vocation surrounding themes of helping other people find their own life purpose and career. If you possess the 10th house placement, look to the sign your Chiron is in to establish how you may be a guide for others (this could be from a career councillor, public speaker to a tarot reader - they are all forms of inspiration, leadership and guidance!).

You have tremendous capacity for building structures and foundations to help life others up towards thiner desired goals, and you also know how to hold things together for other people in a crisis situation.

You need to learnt that in helping others, you don’t need to take the control for them, you simply need to guide. Do not burden yourself with a responsibilities of others as they can become far too overbearing in the long haul for you. You may even need to ask yourself WHY you want to take responsibility and feel such drive to achieve great things - because you don’t need to prove anything to anyone other than to yourself. You are your own leader and your own sense of value and sense of self respect will allow you to bring healing to yourself and to others.


Chiron in the 11th House (Aquarius)

Chiron in the 11th house can indicate an individual who’s wound may be derived from feeling rejected in  society and friendship groups, feeling as if you don’t fit in anywhere because of your own unique eccentricities or even feeling your interests, ways of self expression and things you enjoy seem to always lead to being labeled by others.

Chiron in the 11th can show that things you may be talented at or what truly makes you unique and special is often flipped onto its head when expressed as part of a group. For example, if your an actor, you may simply seen as ‘the actor in the show’ rather than ‘the actor that played ___’. You feel as though your talents and what makes you unique and inventive is often glazed over, and others may even criticise you for supposedly being unoriginal or copying the ideas and expressions of someone else - and you may not have even heard of those people! You may then feel reluctant to attempt to express your unique, individual and creative ideas and fear that you’ll be rejected for them for either being ‘too out there’ or ‘the same as everyone else’. You can feel quite alienated by society for your unique understand and interpretation of things. While there may be others out there that believe that what you express is an act of pure genius, you may not even attempt to, simply due to the fear of ridicule.

Because of the unique way you do things, you may be seen as a rebel by others for not following the system as everyone else does - even though the way you do things may be 10x better than how others do it - they may attempt to convert you into doing things the ‘right way’, simply because the feel threatened by the thought of someone rebelling/challenging the norm or bringing something new to the table that conflicts with tradition.

If this is the case for you, DO NOT let others opinions and attempts to convert you to sway you and your ideas. If it works for you, then continue to follow and express your own unique way of doing things. When people feel threatened by the genius of others, mockery may seem to follow due to the others persons inability to rise to your level .The only option is to drag you down to theirs. Don’t lose sleep over the opinion of sheep! There will always be someone out in the wide world who will recognise your genius if you let go of the fear of ridicule and express yourself EXACTLY how you so choose. If they label you as unoriginal, you know in yourself that you hold an inventive spark others could only dream of possessing - own it, flaunt it, live it!

You have great ability to encourage and inspire others to express their own eccentricities, unique ideas and make them feel part of a larger community. You have great capacity to bring people together as a collaborative and welcoming community by showing them that its ok for them to be themselves. You can become and anchor point where others flock to you for inspiration and to see the unique way you do things and express yourself. You’re allowed to be 100% yourself no matter what others think, and there will always be someone out there who will appreciate you just for that.


Chiron in the 12th House (Pisces)

Chiron in the 12th house can indicate an individual who’s wound may stem from a sense of being alone and secluded from the world, feeling victimised or martyred, or perhaps not even being conscious of even having an emotional wound.

Particularly if Chiron is placed in the 12th house, you may not even be aware of any childhood wounds that were implemented in the nurturing environment. This is due to the 12th house nature of blurring the boundaries and borders of reality, thus can even involve a suppressed emotional wound that was mistaken for something such as a dream or a reoccurring nightmare (depending on the aspects of Chiron, this will dictate the extent of the emotional wound).

The wound here is often related to things such as emotional abandonment, thus feeling a need to completely ‘merge’ with another through being quite close to and dreamy about another, such as a ‘potential’ lover.  You may do, say and act in ways that are unauthentic to yourself in attempts to connect with those around you - simply because your subconscious mind is directing you in fear of that sense of being alone.

If you experienced something particularly traumatic in childhood (the entire natal chart will need to be taken in to account), you may feel victimised by life and that the world around you isn’t a safe place to be. This could result in thing such a often secluding yourself away from the world by any means necessary (e.g., hiding in bathroom stalls during lunch breaks), not going out with friends much, and rarely, if ever, letting people into your personal space (such as your bedroom in particular). Even though the desire to be alone may be quite strong, the sense of loneliness you experiences can make you feel addicted to another person at time when you do feel safe and secure, thus creating the urge to completely merge with them. You’re boundaries for the unwell may be quite weak due to your hyper sensitivity and sense of tremendous empathy, whereby you feel as though its justifiable to allow these toxic people to enter you life - only for them to cause havoc and leave again. You may then fall into he pattern of self-victimisation of having let that person into your life. You may blame yourself, or at the worst, blame the other person.

You may also felt wounded by your connection with the Divine, especially during times when you were in any kind of emotional, physical or mental pain. You may have deeply desired to connect with source, though you may have felt the lack of responsiveness when you desired divine guidance more than anything was ignored, you may have questioned yourself - “If there is a God, then why did x, y, z happen to me!?”.

Its part of the souls journey and progress to face hardships and pain in order to progress and evolve, some more than others. The incredible power that these people can manifest if they choose (yes, choose) to overcome their hardships is the most earthly representation of true divine power.

If you have experienced much pain in your life, this placement is a prime indicator that you are capable of being a tremendous psychic healer if you so choose to channel your abilities into a healthy outlet. You may discern who you allow into your life for your own highest good. Your intuition for healing is incredibly high, and you may even by the type of person who’s hands (palm chakras) become hot/itchy when around people who are in need of healing. If you so choose, you could also learn and perform spiritual healing methods, such as energy healing (Theta and Reiki) as a way to channel your desire to heal others in a healthy way. This is one of the most influential and powerful places for a reiki master due to their ability to connect with universal energies and channel it into Chiron’s ability to heal any wound.

You need to learn that you have the power to heal yourself through healing others if you so choose, and it’s also ok to say “no”to people and allow others to help them, especially when your own health and wellbeing is threatened. You need to know that you don’t need to soul search for another to make to feel whole, complete and connected to divine energy, you are worthy as who you are and you don’t need to change to appease others. You don’t need to escape from the world around you out of fear of the unknown, there will always be people around you who can help you when you feel scared or alone, you simply have to take the small step to reach out for assistance. There will be someone for you who will be sensitive to your needs and wounds, and you’ll know when its safe to completely open as yourself. Always remember that we are all connected and so you’re never alone in how you think or feel, so don’t be afraid to show it.

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The Time I Pushed a Jerkface off a 35ft Cliff(With Good Reason)

Before we start off let me be clear. I did not murder a man by randomly shoving him off a cliff. Technically, I actually had permission, but still not murder. Chill.

Here we go.

So this is back in Mexico, at the same park as the Sting Ray Incident, just an hour later. Id already recovered from my near death experience and moved on from my friend nearly drowning me. I faced it, i survived, im good and not concerned.

One of the many attractions at this park was the Cliff of Courage. It’s a 35ft cliff that plunges into the water. Now, by my standards, 35ft is low for a cliff jump. Ive done way higher (adrenaline junkie) but obviously i was gonna jump just to say that I did. My parents, grandparents, and Jamie didnt want to jump. No surprise, so they went ahead to meet me on the other side of the river.

So sixteen year old me wanders over and there’s this big group of burly looking men.

Like huge

They’re all standing at the edge jostling each other around. And just by looking at them you can see they’re american. I dont even need to hear their texan accents to know.

So they’re pulling the whole macho act of “you jump i jump” “ohhh but then you wont jump” bs and just generally being chickens and not willing to show it.

And because of this they wont let anyone else jump. Like ten people came and left because these jerks wouldnt let anyone else go.

Eventually i get annoyed and snap “either jump or get out of my way!”

And the dude who is obviously the leader just turns and grins at me.

He assumed what i call the “douchebag alpha male pose” hands on hips, crotch foreward, you know the one, and you know the body language that goes with it.

He thinks he’s superior. Now this guy is the biggest of them all.

Massive biceps, raging six pack, the works. The Hulk would probaby do a double take at this dudes size.

And little me is not intimidated in the least.

I learned to fight at a very young age, especially men larger than me. I know if things turns south i can take him no problem. A few hits here and there and he’s out for the count.

He starts walking towards me, and i step forward too. He may be alpha male, but he just crossed an Alpha Female who doesnt back down from a challenge.

Strike one.

He looks over at his pals and says,

“Ohhhh, the little lady’s going to jump, is she?” And he just sneers down at me, all arrogance and misplaced confidence.

Strike two.

“Tell you what, sweetheart.” Ohhh he did not just say that. “You jump, we’ll let you push us.”

Three strikes he’s out he just made the biggest mistake of his life.

I just grin and go “ok” and turn and immediately dive over the edge. Im soaring through the air, enjoying the fall. I turn just in time to see his face go from 😏 to 😧

I smack down into the water grinning. Originally the plan was the swim across the river and meet up with my family, but i am cashing in this bet. Except there’s only one way to get back up to that cliff from here

I scale the side of the cliff with the rope and I can hear them chatting nervously up top

I pop up over the edge and prop myself up on the ledge with the sweetest, most steel-lined smile I can manage and say, “who’s next?”

So Alpha laughs and stands at the edge as I haul myself up. He’s laughing and assuring his buddies he’ll be back in a second cause I wont really do it and–

I straight arm him and he goes flying

He flails and plunges over the edge, shrieking in the most high pitched, terrified shriek Ive ever heard a dude bro make. He sputters to the surface and gapes up at me as I grin like a hellion down at him. I turn to the rest of his jerk buddies and smile.

Oddly enough they all jumped of their own accord

College Life 101

Alrighty folks, here are some nifty tips on how I survived (and could have better survived) college: 

  • As soon as you have your schedule, email your professors. Everyone. Especially if you have questions about the course, if you’re going to miss, etc. also make sure you do it from your school email, many professors will not check an email if it isn’t from a school address. 
  • On move in day, bring a door stop.  moving in is so much easier when you don’t need someone to hold the door for everything. 
  • Shoe racks and command strips/hooks will be your best friend. Use the racks for misc. things like utensils, seasonings, Keurig mixes, hot chocolate, etc. 
  • Bring a whiteboard/corkboard. Write down your classes and anything you need to get done for those classes and make sure that you keep it updated. On the cork side post up papers with important numbers, a map of campus, and other things you get. 
  • SIGN UP FOR ACTIVITIES (ESPECIALLY IF YOU’RE ON A SMALL CAMPUS) otherwise you’re not going to have a fun experience. Even if it’s just something you THINK you may have a slight interest in, try it! 
  • Go to one or two sporting events, just for the hell of it
  • Put important dates in your phone calendar or even a planner. Somewhere you will be reminded of them. Times and dates are critical. 
  • Eat. and eat well. 
  • Use chegg, upper classmen, or other resources for textbooks before you buy them. Campus bookstores are astronomically expensive and it can be a lot cheaper going somewhere else. I use Chegg and they also send you free tide pods, coffee samples, etc. 
  • Bring medicine that you’ve used in the last two years, even if you haven’t used it in a while just to be safe. 
  • If you’re gonna do laundry on the weekends Friday and Saturday nights OR Sunday mornings are prime time. Be prepared for staying up late or getting up early to do laundry 
  • PUT. A TIMER. ON. YOUR. LAUNDRY. Seriously, when you have to share a laundry room there is nothing more annoying than someone who won’t move their laundry out for other people. 
  • On a related note DO NOT THROW OTHER PEOPLE’S LAUNDRY ON THE FLOOR. Fold it up, leave it on the dryers or w/e with a little note. Don’t be an asshole. 
  • Keep extra pads and tampons around everywhere you go. Help yourself and/or ya menstruating friends out. 
  • Bring a phone/laptop charger with you throughout the day. I know I personally have some long breaks between my classes where I do homework and w/e
  • Use Google docs for your assignments, or other programs that back up your work to the cloud. My laptop broke halfway through the semester and the only thing that saved me was Google Docs because my school uses gmail
  • Download Groupme. Right now. Do it. It’s a great way to create group chats, keep them in one place, and keep them backed up somewhere, you’re gonna have some for group projects, your dorm, any programs, etc. 
  • Bring a three hole punch, scissors, glue, tape, notecards, and binders. Also get pocketed folders for any important research papers you may need to turn in. 
  • ALSO DRY ERASE MARKERS ARE A LIFE SAVER. bring them around for studying in empty classrooms it’s v helpful
  • COLOR CODE YOUR BINDERS/NOTE BOOKS/STICKY NOTES. Your binder for one class and all its accessories should be one colors. Color organize your notes. (If you’re colorblind, use patterns or something simple for you.) 
  • Try typing up your notes after classes, save them to your laptop and whatever online thing you use. Sometimes you’ll need your notes and you either won’t have your notebook, laptop, or both and it can be very important to keep your notes accessible. 
  • Make use of tutoring services or other students/friends that are good in your classes. C’s get degrees and if people can help you understand it better then WOO
  • Try not to miss too many classes, but if you do make sure you contact your professors about it (or someone in that class.) 
  • Sleep is v important, but can also be too good so set alarms at least a half hour before your classes to get ready and go. 

Take deep breaths. Make friends. Take no shit, do no harm

((These are based off of my personal experiences, feel free to add on if you think of something))

[THE COMPLETE X-CLAN] All about X-Clan Story

In the world of confusion and oppression, people are divided into those who complied and those who wanted to change.
Those who want to change gather under THE CLAN group and recruit members in each area. Jooheon, X area’s messenger, forms X-CLAN. However before the group was formed, they fell into extreme confusion and chaos.

Members can’t stand anger and frustration, carried out violence (arson attack, give up life, fight) and in rush fell into temptation they shouldn’t touch.
Members believe that blue flower, which give immediate effect, is the only solution. That results in Shownu, Minhyuk and Hyungwon facing a very big failure.

Jooheon wants to give them another chance, so he saves them from death and puts them into rehabilitation.
The rest of the members strengthen their intention from their first meeting, study the right way to treat the blue flower. Together with Jooheon, they save members who underwent trial and error, and successfully meet again.

Members who are getting stronger objectively judge their lack and go through training in order to be the real themselves.

Shownu gets the heart to cherish other’s life, Wonho gets the knowledge to pick out only meaningful things in train of events, Minhyuk gets the patience to not wilt in front of repeating time, Kihyun gets the way to control anger inside him, Hyungwon gets the wisdom to pick his true self between many identities, I.M gets to sort out peacefulness and not sway in front of money and jewels.

They are still themselves, but they were reborn into more beautiful persons. They join Jooheon again, and form the real X-CLAN.

I am, we are completely new persons.
‘Better’ persons who have went through and won against anger and frustration, failure and hardship.
Maybe in the future the world will continue to play tricks on us.
They will put us in the edge of the brink and make us explode.
However, we are different.

And even only with that, we are beautiful.

ALL ABOUT X-CLAN
Translation by @chocohyoo
Raw scan by @chuuchw115

Horror story concept about a someone feeling ‘butterflies in their stomach’ when a certain person is nearby. 

They thought it was 'love’ but it turns out that they’re a host to a kaleidoscope of bloodthirsty parasitic butterfly creatures which are breeding, growing and dying inside them. Because of this, it eventually turns the stomach too narrow for the species to survive, which also gives the host a very sick feeling withing that they cannot reach. The parasites get agitated whenever they smell the blood of their potential new ‘home’ once it’s nearby. Hence, the 'fluttery’ feeling is actually them trying to bust through their host human’s gut to transfer to a new host.

Their species have a tragic life though. Because, once they get strong/numerous enough to get out of the stomach, they end up killing their host and they die from the exposure of open air. The only way for the host (and the parasites) to survive is to transfer their invisible larvae kept in the throat through a kiss with the prey( turning them into a host to a new generation of parasitic butterflies).

You know how in Grey’s Anatomy Meredith’s house is the safe space for everyone where strays are always welcome and all of them have lived there at one point or another? 

I think Weasley’s Wizarding Wheezes was like this for the HP crew after the war.

Lee had been so involved with Potterwatch. It kept him distracted and busy, but after it became unnecessary, he just kinda crashed. And Fred may not have been family but Lee still lost a best friend and was worried for his other best friend. So Lee was the first one to move in above WWW and help George run it. Angelina, Alicia, and Katie move in shortly after. They really don’t even think about it. They’ve been so hard and so tough for so long now that they need a place to learn how to laugh again. And doing it together seems only natural after all their years of Quidditch together.

Ron didn’t even know how to function after the war. When he finally started dealing with things, he moved in with Lee and Angelina and Alicia and Katie and George and also helped out with WWW. Ron always thought WWW was genius, especially in the midst of the brewing war, and both Hermione and Harry recognized this and pushed him to go be involved with it.

Katie manages a job at St. Mungo’s after a few months and finds a nice little flat closer to the hospital that’s easier to be on call from. She doesn’t want to go alone, so Alicia goes with her. Angelina and Lee and Ron stay with George and WWW.

Ginny had to go back to school. She really only made it through the year because she knew Molly would never let her quit and it wasn’t a fight she had the energy for. But as soon as she graduated, off to WWW she went to live and work with George, Lee, Angelina, and Ron.

Ginny and Neville talk a lot, so Ginny sees how lost Neville is and how much he needs a break after leading DA and the war and being unhappy with the job he took so he would have some money to save up for his own place. So Ginny pesters Neville into moving in with them and working at WWW for a while.

At this point, the quarters are getting pretty tight - nothing new for George, Ron, or Ginny, but Lee’s an only child and he’s a bit of an introvert. And being away from a radio mic for so long has made Lee realize how much he truly just enjoyed the radio thing, so he moves out to pursue this, with an open invitation to return at any time. Angelina silently follows shortly after that, saying she needed space to heal but now she needs space to think. Wherever she goes, none of them are sure, but George suspects it’s either her family or Alicia and Katie.

Ginny also talks to Luna quite a bit and damn is Luna really messed up right now and feeling quite left out but doesn’t have the confidence to be able to ask to move in to WWW with everyone and feels a bit bad about leaving her father but he’s still kinda suffocating her because he’s messed up, too. Ginny floos to Luna and basically just drags her to WWW to live with everyone and tells Xenophilius that Andromeda might have room at him for her house and she could possibly use some more help with little Teddy.

So now George, Ron, Ginny, Neville, and Luna are all living cozy in WWW and helping out at the store. And this is how they stay for a while.

Until Neville accidentally ends up buying a house he can’t afford by himself (he’d thought he was over this “why me” thing) but it turns out to be a good thing because Ginny just got an official offer for Quidditch and she and Luna are happy to help out with rent for a while, so the three of them move out. George is sad to see them go, but tbh, Luna’s not really great in the shop, so it’s kind of a relief that she’ll be coping in other ways.

But just like that it’s George and Ron alone and it seems too lonely compared to how it’s always been. Not to worry, though, because Harry and Hermione have been living together, but they’re both really lonely without Ron and - hey - there’s finally room for them at WWW. After an argument over whether or not they need to ask, they end up apparating outside the shop one night and throwing rocks at the upstairs windows, giggling together and wondering if wixen ever do this or if it’s just a muggle thing. They’re invited right in and WWW is all nice and cozy again with George, Ron, Hermione, and Harry living there.

Then they go to the Burrow one night for the family dinner that Molly insists on having once a month, and Percy is there and clearly wasn’t telling his siblings the full truth of how he feels because he looks downright terrible. So George, Ron, Hermione, and Harry go back to WWW that night with a new roommate. 

Hermione’s never been too into WWW, although she certainly respects all the innovation and hard work George manages for it, so she’s ready to leave before both her boys are. But neither Ron nor Harry are ready to leave yet, so Hermione gets that job at the Ministry that she prefers over WWW but doesn’t move out just yet.

Until one night Dean and a crying (”I’m not crying!”) Seamus show up to the shop. Being separated throughout the war and spending every night thinking that Dean was dead made Seamus tired of being in the closet. He and Dean just wanted to be together. But Seamus’ folks don’t really take it that well and neither him or Dean are doing that well and they don’t know where else to go. So they spend the night at WWW, which is really cramped, but none of them even think to complain.

In the next few days, a lot happens. Luna’s decided to travel the world a bit. Look for all those creatures she wants to see. Neville’s thinking of going with her. Harry and Ginny have been having Serious Talks trying to work out how they feel and what they want. Hermione’s been ready to move out, and Ron finally feels like he can breathe without breaking in half. And there isn’t room for all of them at WWW. So Neville and Luna set off, and Harry, Hermione, and Ron move in with Ginny. And George, Percy, Dean, and Seamus have a little more room to move around WWW.

But there’s only so much of Percy running the shop too much his way that George can take, and soon George has got Percy convinced that yes he can too do a fine job working at the Ministry. And that’s the push that Percy needed to get back on track with his life plans, which include not living at WWW forever.

And George doesn’t really know how it happened - he wasn’t really even friends with some of the people who’ve passed through - but his place becomes the Go To Place. The Place of Comfort. The Place That Welcomes. And it just… doesn’t really stop because George never minds and he never says no. Through the years, pretty much everyone lives there at one point. 

Charlie lives there at one point when he happens to be in the middle of jobs. Bill and Fleur move in for a bit while she’s pregnant because things are really busy and they need another person to be there to help out. Bill and Lavender had been hanging out because they’re the closest support each has for lycanthropy. Once Bill and Fleur move out after the baby is born, Lavender ends up with George because she definitely doesn’t want to put the baby at risk. Which leads to Parvati coming to WWW and they live with George until Parvati convinces Lavender they can handle this and they move out together. Parvati must have mentioned something to Padma about George seeming like he didn’t want to live alone, so suddenly he’s got Padma and Cho and Marietta living with him for a while. Oliver lives there sometimes during the offseason of Quidditch when he decides he doesn’t like his house and doesn’t plan far enough ahead to rent a new place before leaving the old. Lee and Katie move back in for a while in between other roommates, partially for their sake and partially for George’s. Angelina pops by sometimes but usually only stays a night or two. Most of his niblings even live there - for a lot of them, WWW is their first job. When Molly dies, Arthur moves in and stays with George until he, too dies.

And George ends up just really never living alone? But he’s really okay with it because he’s not sure he was ever meant to be alone, anyway.