only to be torn apart in the worst of ways

Days after my little gentleman was born, I sat in the bathroom sobbing as I examined my battered and bruised body.

My stretched-out tummy flopped onto my legs when I sat down, and I felt as if my belly-button would brush the floor every time I bent over. My whole body ached. My mind hurt and was torn apart by self-loathing and sadness. It was truly an ugly time! Worst of all, I was more lonely than I had ever thought possible, and I saw no end in sight.

My heart aches for all new mommies, because I know we all feel this same way at one time or another.

I also know that new moms aren’t the only ones to have such dark times in their life.

I hope you know that you are not alone. There are millions of us, all struggling to love ourselves and to be the best we can be. Heck, some days we are just struggling to live through the day!

There IS hope and there are people you can turn to. I myself was too prideful to find a friend to help, BUT I did find a light in the darkness… In a place I never thought I would find comfort:

I found hope through exercise.

This particular set of photos represent what a difference exercise can make in one’s life. I didn’t alter much- I ate whatever/whenever I wanted, BUT I worked hard to exercise six times a week for at least 20 minutes. That made a significant difference in my life, obviously physically, AS WELL AS emotionally.

Many days were not perfect. Several WEEKS were far from it! But all in all, I stuck with things, and I am extremely proud of that.

In April of 2015, I decided to take the next step and tackle nutrition. It’s been almost two months, and I truly wish I would have started earlier!

These eleven months have brought on many great changes, but I truly cannot wait to see my progress a year from now.

I have found healing through health, and I am a firm believer in the magic that this lifestyle can bring.