only one thing to make my day less great

I always get made fun of for basically worshipping these men. But there’s a reason behind my obsession. I came across “Danger” on YouTube one day and I decided to watch it. This was during one of the lowest points in my life. I really felt like there was no hope for me left, I was just so done with fighting for a life I didn’t even want to live anymore. Even though I was a bit weirded out by it at first after a couple of listens and Bam I loved it, it was so catchy! Then I decided to check out the rest of their music and I enjoyed every single song, I’ve watched them progress and grow was a group/individuals. I soon enough learned who was who and what made them unique. I found myself just slowly feeling less and less miserable. I’ve started going out more, speaking more and being less anxious about every small thing. Sure there are still those days where I feel extremely upset and I just cannot function. Bts has been a great source of happiness and support for me. They have shown me that not only does “teamwork make the dream work” but that with perseverance anything is possible. This encourages me to keep pushing forward and maybe one day I’ll achieve my goal of being depression free. Battling depression is never an easy task. No I’m not saying they cured me but they definitely do make me happy. Considering how I was before, I’ve definitely seen change. And for the better! I’m sorry if all I do talk about bts 24/7. I owe my happiness to these guys. Seeing pictures or watching videos of them just brings a smile unto my face. Not a forced one, it just comes naturally. Bts has a special place in my heart. Thanks for helping me become a better and happier person. I am also extremely grateful for the opportunities that they have been given, and the love that armies all around the world have given to the boys. They deserve all of it. Army fighting! 💕
………….Idk I’m tired and having bts feels………….

9

| THE MONTH IN 9 SHOTS |

 Hello everyone! September just started it and I wanted to bring a few notes/bujo pages from August to represent it! Actually it has been kind of a crazy month compared to others begginings of semesters, Ive done or set up 4 different essays - that I recall now - and Im in the middle off test season it was supposed to be a WEEK but noo lets push all the tests to later on make this hell last forever   so things are a lil caotic. Plus I changed my gym for the first time in 5 years and I still miss my instructors and the fact that i could get there in les than five minutes, but Im enjoying the new one! 

I hope all of you had nice months - less stressfull than mine at least!  Lets hope september brings us happy things!!!

So here’s a comparison of the amount of flash cards I make for Human Structure and Function compared to other subjects. Anatomy and physiology is so intense! 

I want to share a few things I have learnt in the past few months. Since turning 18 I have learnt a few important life lessons. These might seem pretty obvious to you, but I needed these pointed out to me, and they have honestly changed my life. 


1. It literally doesn’t matter if you don’t want to. It doesn’t make a difference whether or not you feel like doing something. 

Your feeling does not stop you from completing the task. I really needed this explained to me. My mindset used to be stuck on “I need more motivation”. No. You still do the thing. Your feelings are not a factor in getting work done at all. 

 I read about this in Thomas Frank’s book: “10 Steps to Earning Awesome Grades (While Studying Less)”, which I highly recommend (and it’s free!). Since reading this book I have become a much more efficient person in all aspects of my life, not just studying. 

2. Being consistent is more important than being perfect. 

Perfectionism is death. I am a serial perfectionist: if I don’t think I can do something perfectly, I won’t do it. I had to put a lot of effort into learning to just complete things, whether they were the best thing I’d ever produced, or were absolutely awful. Once you start doing this, you can actually improve and get closer to doing a good job, but if you get stuck on that “I want it to be perfect, but I know I can’t do it, so there’s no point” mindset, you’ll always do bad work. 

Consistency. This is really hard for me. I tend to give up on things when I get the slightest indication that I am not doing the thing perfectly. The other day I got my practical class marks back in a class I had a 97% average in (keep in mind, all the assessments we’d had so far were other practicals and online tests, and I knew a lot of the material as I’d taken a similar class in high school) and I got a 76%. I was devastated because I’m trying to get into postgrad medicine and I need amazing marks. I’d made so many little mistakes and I just let it get to me and got nothing done the whole next day. 

My consistency dropped off because I’d gotten a less than perfect mark, and my work suffered even more. Honestly, if you’re only going to take one thing away from this post, let it be this: 

If you get a bad mark, find out why, improve yourself, make sure you wont ever get those things wrong again, and then forget about it. Don’t focus on things you got wrong, you’ve done everything you can. 

Remember that great mark you got last week and let that motivate you. 

3. Do not lie to yourself. Ever.

I really didn’t realise I was doing this at all. I’d set goals and lists for myself and rationalise ticking things off that I hadn’t fully completed because “Yeah I kind of did that, I’m going to to tick this off because of X excuse”. Having a completed to-do list was more important to me than actually getting those things done, and it took me a while to actually notice this. 

I have to put in constant effort to properly analyse my behaviour. I have flaws, and doing this means I can make progress and fix them, instead of pretending they don’t exist.

I’d tell myself I studied for 4 hours straight and I deserved a break, and just ignore the fact that I hadn’t been focusing that entire time. I kept getting distracted by my phone and getting up to get food, and I had hardly anything to show for that 4 hours of “work” that I did. 

Recognise when you’re not being honest with yourself. This will get you into the habit of thinking about whether what you’re telling yourself is true or not, instead of just rationalising and making excuses. 


I know these are very simple things, but honestly they made all the difference for me, and I hope you got something out of this. 

- dr-goals