I just hate the fact that he’s so underrated as guitarist, as song-writer, as the damn soul and heart of fucking Guns n’ Roses! I talk to people about him and they’re like “yeah but he doesn’t count, you know, Slash and Axl bla bla bla bla”. Well, bunch of dumb-asses, he just wrote most of the songs, and he was so fucking fundamental, in fact, as soon as he left the band everything began to fall apart! Without Izzy there wouldn’t have been Guns n’ Roses!!! Deal with it.
If we do unlock that deleted scene I hope y'all thank me. I have been tweeting on and off over and over again since i found out about it and due to the fact that schools off today i am tweeting it with every single emoji individually. not sure how lo itll take but it sure will help us unlock the thing i think.
idk hbu but sometimes I have a little break in my relationship with boys and then I find them again and I love them more than before (if it’s even possible to love them more) I love falling in love with them all over again and making the love growing all the time like they’re just the reason to walk up every morning and yap I’m done
- Out of the seven leads, four of them are non-white (Magnus, Simon, Luke and Izzy), only one of whom was canonically non-white in the books (Magnus)
- Jace is an actual human being and not some ethereal figure who everyone drools over, AND he is actually nice to people and doesn’t have that annoying superiority complex in the show. He’s allowed to be funny without being insulting like he was in the books
- Jace is just so much more likeable in the show, which is really refreshing as he is a main character as well as a romantic lead
- Clary’s drive is to find and save her mother, not the romance-based bullshit that it was in the books
- Magnus is not treated like a joke, and is allowed to be funny and sexual whilst also being respected and serious
- They got rid of the (frankly weird) coddling parent/whiny child dynamic that Magnus and Alec had in the books and changed it to an equal relationship where they are both treated like the adults that they are
- As a homosexual couple, Magnus and Alec are treated equally by the writers and get a good amount of screentime
- Alec’s struggle is about his loyalty to his family and his “duty” vs his own happiness, not the GayStruggle™
- Clary and Alec’s friendship/mutual tolerance doesn’t come out of absolutely-fucking-nowhere this time, also, Alec isn’t aggressive or violent towards Clary
- The characters are actually adults in the show
- Raphael. Everything about Raphael
- Simon is not just Clary’s NerdFriend™ and gets his own screentime
- Clary doesn’t slut-shame Izzy (in fact, NOBODY slut shames Izzy apart from Maryse, whom the audience is clearly not supposed to like or agree with) and Clary and Izzy have a beautiful relationship based on mutual support and a genuine friendship
- Izzy is very comfortable with her own body and sexuality, and this is never portrayed as a bad thing
- Lydia and Izzy are two powerful women who are highly respected by their coworkers and are portrayed as very good at what they do
- Magnus is able to respect Lydia as a person and tell Alec that he’s not being fair to her, rather than simply hating her
- Luke’s new role as an important clan leader as well as a supportive father figure makes me really happy. Like, he gets his own storyline and we get to see an important non-white character *getting shit done* and leading a pack of werewolves and being respected. Also, his life doesn’t revolve around Clary and Jocelyn like it did in the books
I’m not saying that it’s a perfect show, far from it, and there are definitely some aspects of it that could use improving, but I love all of these changes.
I cant remember if i’ve explained this or not before but basically like 50% of my alfreds are gifts for friends and p much 100% of my white alfreds are ones for ducky who rps him? I try to make him suit the person im giving it to like ducky’s alfred also has pecs and abs but idk im not good at drawing those lmfao
he changes in every fucking drawing i know but I don’t know the meaning of consistency
Heyy, so you've probably done this before but I absolutely ADORE Raphael saying cute little comments about Simon and Simon thinking they're insults, also, AHHHHHH I ABSOLUTELY LOVE YOUR FANFICs!!!!!!!!! <3<3<3
sorry this is so late hope you enjoyed it also nick cage is totally a vampire. <3
>>you’re too pretty to be this annoying<<
Simon’s undergone a few changes recently. Y’know alive to dead. Human to Vampire. Convinced he was straight to totally in love with a dude. Changes.
There were small ones as well. His dress sense had improved (mostly because he was wearing someone else’s clothes). He slept during the day which wasn’t so bad really. It’s not like he ever got up early to begin with. A new change that was a little weirder was his new found ability to drown out the sound of someone yelling at him in Spanish.
Being advisor to the interim chapter president meant he basically spent most of his time with Raphael. Being Simon meant he usually disobeyed orders, got into trouble and did basically anything but be adviser to the interim chapter president. No one could say Raphael’s not good with his words because he doesn’t seem to do anything but yell a lot of them at Simon. Most of the time in Spanish.
Simon realistically should realise that Raphael wouldn’t be yelling at him for nothing. But it’s kind of hard when someone as ridiculously attractive as Raphael is doing ridiculously attractive things like speaking Spanish. When he rolled his R’s Simon pretty much lost all the will to do anything but stare at his lips.
Endearingly Raphael will talk to himself in Spanish while doing basic tasks like cleaning his desk or taking stocks. Simon likes to listen to the half English half Spanish mix of sentences that are all idle thoughts he’s having. It’s a glimpse into a softer side of Raphael that Simon never thought he would treasure as much as he does.
But for as much as he likes Raphael he like’s annoying Raphael even more.
“What bothers me most about vampires is the morals. Y’know? Like most of us have them and those that don’t usually get killed so you would think that would be the end of it. Except theres all these morally questionable situations. Like what if you were vegetarian as a human or vegan? How do you uphold your morals? I just…”
“Eres deamsiado lindo para ser así de molesto” Raphael mutters and Simon is caught in how easily the Spanish rolls off his tongue. He wonders if Raphael’s tongue is talented in other ways..
What was he talking about again? Oh yeah
“I just think that there should be an alterna-“
The sigh Raphael lets out is not the first this morning. ________________
>>you’re a cute pain in my ass<<
“No I refuse. Raphael you’ve asked me to do a lot but this takes the cake. I’m not doing it!” Simon protests.
“Well, baby, as my advisor I don’t think you have a choice in the matter. If it makes you complain less neither do I”
It doesn’t make Simon complain less because he so doesn’t want to go to some upscale hoity toity vampire shindig. On his list of things to do tonight, going outside was not on that list. He wanted to stay in the hotel and continue Stan’s journey into video games. Raphael complained about Simon corrupting Stan. Simon considers it educating. Stan has tried to tell both of them that it was only a way to kill a few hours but neither of them were listening as they were so wrapped up in their argument.
The party is in one of the nicer parts of Brooklyn. Everyone there was beautiful or beautifully dressed. Simon would have hated every minute of it if it weren’t for Raphael.
“Constance Hendrick is right over there. Woman in the yellow dress”
“The sweet old lady?”
“Old lady, yes. Sweet, no. Don’t take anything she offers you. She offered me a glass of alcohol infused blood and before I knew it I’ve agreed to spend a weekend with her in Lebonon and take on two of her newest fledglings. They were a pain in my ass" Raphael shares before taking a swig from his wine glass. Its not the first story he’s told about the various guests and Simon knows it’s probably not his last.
“So they were like me?” Simon jokes, hoping it came out lighter than it felt.
“No … you’re different”
Raphael looks at him for a moment.
“Tu eres un lindo dolor en mi trasero” He says decidedly. Simon’s not sure he even wants to know what Raphael said. Especially since it got a laugh out a nearby vampire that had been listening in.
The topic dropped and they went back to people watching.
“If you bring your attention to the man who just walked in…”
“The guy that looks like Nicolas Cage?”
“You know his name?”
“Holy Face Off”
The night wasn’t a complete bust after all. __________________________
>>you mean more than you think you do<<
“You smell like wet dog” Raphael starts. Simon was barely in the Hotel and he was already being criticized. This night couldn’t have gotten worse could it.
“Bite me” Simon retorts. He fully intends on being every bit of the angsty teenager he is and holing himself up in his room for the night.
As he goes to pass Raphael the elder vampire put out his hand to stop him. “What happened?” His voice was surprisingly gentle. Simon hesitated for a moment before waving off the question. “It was nothing” He insists.
He tries to leave but there’s Raphael’s hand on his arm again. This time he spins the fledgling around to look at him. “Tell me” He says and it’s not a demand. Simon doesn’t know what it is but the look Raphael is giving him, the warm concern radiating from him, is making Simon’s heart flutter in the most embarrassing ways.
“Really Raphael it’s nothing I just got into a little disagreement with some of Luke’s subordinates. Nothing major” Simon says, hoping Raphael will show mercy and let the subject drop.
“Did they hurt you?” He asks, moving forward to grip Simon’s arm. Simon nearly snorts at Raphael’s mothering but he’s not in the mood to bicker with the elder. He’s had his fair share of people calling him things today thank you very much.
“No they didn’t hurt me we just had different views on what I am in Luke’s life. It’s not an issue so can we drop it please” Simon’s voice rises near the end and he just wants to hole up in his room and stay there forever now. Raphael digests the words and there’s a moment where Simon thinks he’s going to go on a rant about how the clan was his family now not some werewolves but he doesn’t.
“You mean a lot to the alpha” Raphael says finally. Simon swallows down the lump that rises in his throat. “You don’t know that” He chokes out. He didnt want to let this get to him. Luke loves him. He’s been like his dad since he met him. ’He’s just puts up with you for Jocelyn bloodsucker. It doesn’t mean you’re welcome here’ rings in his head and if he could throw up he’d want to.
“Significas más de lo que crees”
Simon doesn’t know what he said but for once it doesn’t sound like an insult. ____________________________________
>>you’re lucky I love you idiot<<
Though Raphael has made a pointed rule of no shadowhunters in the Hotel without his consent Simon’s not stupid enough to stop Isabelle from doing what she wants. Especially since she’s got a ‘stop me and I stop your existence’ determination to her.
“What can I do for you today oh majestic shadowhunter” Simon asks as he follows her to his room. She wanted to talk to him in private so he can only assume it’s something life threatening and he’s trying very hard not to freak out. Usually when an authority figure wants to talk to you in private it means they’re gonna tell you something horrible like Grandpa’s dead but considering their lives lately Simon thinks Grandpa’s more likely to rise from the dead and start killing off the locals more than anything else.
They reach his room and Isabelle’s confident posture deflates a little. She looks a little more vulnerable, almost nervous. Yup Grandpa’s back and kicking up a storm.
“Look. I don’t know how to phrase this..”
“Simon! What have I told you about Shadowhunter visitations?”
Simon would piss himself if he could pee because the little shit snuck up on him again.
“I told you to stop doing that!” Simon complains. Raphael’s nagging was not exactly a welcome presence right now. “I told you no shadowhunters unless I allow them in” He replies with a shrug. He’s got a big smirk on his face and Simon knows it’s put on for show. An intimidation tactic for Isabelle’s sake.
“I’ll send you a fax next time” Simon says as he starts ushering Raphael out the door. Raphael rolls his eyes.
“Tienes suerte que te amo idiota” And just like he came he was gone. Simon lets out a long sigh before shutting the door.
“So, what did you want to talk about?” Simon asks. Izzy is looking at him weirdly and he resists the urge to squirm under her gaze.
“I didn’t know you and Raphael were a thing” Izzy says and Simon is completely caught of guard. “Wait… what?.. We’re … I….”
“Oh c'mon ‘you’re lucky I love you’. You’re not the only ones who speak Spanish” Izzy teases.
“I don’t speak spanish!” Simon exclaims because holy shit this is new and he is very distressed. How many times has Raphael said nice things that Simon doesn’t know about? He’s been essentially dreaming about Raphael whispering sweet spanish nothings in his ear since he met the guy.
“Wow and I thought my gay problems were complicated” Izzy says as she gives Simon a friendly pat on the shoulder. Simon shoots her a glare before her words register.
“Wait you have a gay problem?”
Isabelle actually looks a little sheepish. “Yeah it’s kinda why I came here”
“Why would you co—- holy shit it’s Clary isn’t it?”
They were in for a long night. __________________________________
After an uncomfortable conversation where Simon taught Isabelle about the ins and outs of Romancing Clary Frey he finally allowed himself to freak out properly. That is until he had a great idea. _________________________________
This was a terrible idea. Simon can’t believe he’s doing this. Raphael’s going to laugh in his face when he hands him this. Simon will have to leave the clan in shame. He’ll only get to see Stan on weekends. Someone stop him before…
“Hey Raphael” too late.
“Fledgling what do you want?” Raphael asks. He’s looking over some paper work and Simon wants to crawl in a hole and die (again) but he makes himself walk forward.
“This is for you” Simon murmurs, holding out an envelope with a shaking hand. Raphael barely looks up as he takes it.
“That all?” He asks. Simon tries not to let his disappointment at being mostly ignored show.
“That’s all” and then he runs. _________________________________
He hides up in his room for the day curled up in a ball of anxiety and anticipation. He gave Raphael 16 lines of compliments translated into Spanish by Isabelle. 16 lines that told Raphael everything Simon felt for him and it still didn’t feel like enough. At any moment Raphael could be reading it. At any moment he could make or break this thing that they have.
He likes what they have. He likes it a lot. ________________________________
Simon wakes up to someone jabbing him in the side. He shoots up and nearly bashes his head against his assailant. “I’m up!” Simon yells out of habit. His mom was fond of pulling the covers away to wake him up. Jabbing made cover theft almost favorable.
“Did you mean it?”
It takes Simon a minute to realize he’s staring at a crazed looking Raphael Santiago.
“What?” Is all Simon can manage. He’s a little disorientated at the moment and Raphael’s rumpled hair wasn’t making it any better. It looks like he’s been running his hands through it. All soft and out of place. Simon wonders what it would feel like between his fingers…
“Did you mean what you said in the letter?” He asks again, a little slower so Simon can process it.
Simon takes in his words before they finally click. “Every word” He affirms without hesitation. He doesn’t get a chance to appreciate the look of pure elevation on Raphael’s face as the leader bridges the gap between them.
Raphael kisses him until he feels like he’s drowning. And really what a way to die? _______________________________
You and Isabelle had been asked to go on a mission to kill a demon that was spotted at a night club, like at Pandemonium. Of course you both said yes as women hardly ever got to go on missions alone; they were usually sent with men who are seen as the superior Shadowhunters. In order for you two to go, you had to dress the part. Now Izzy had no trouble finding an outfit, but you had to borrow a dress from her since most of yours wouldn’t work in a club.
You two walked out of the institute, unnoticed by the other Shadowhunters. The mundanes couldn’t see you, but that didn’t stop them from running into you and then looking confused since they didn’t see anyone. You and Izzy entered Chaos, the club where the demon was, and searched. You finally spotted the demon who took the form of an attractive guy. You grabbed Izzy’s hand and gestured toward the guy who was staring at you two. She smirked and started to walk off and you followed closely behind her. You both slipped behind a pair of double doors that led to an empty lounge room.
“Well, hello beautiful,” The demon grabbed your waist from behind you, not noticing Izzy who was standing behind you two.
Izzy’s bracelet turned into her whip and she grabbed the demon by the neck, pulling him backwards. He screamed out and then three other demons entered the room. Izzy quickly stabbed the original demon in the stomach before joining your side.
“They said there was only one,” Izzy breathed out as the demons closed in on the pair of you.
“I don’t think they knew,” You said before a demon jumped at you.
You stabbed it in the neck and it disintegrated. You and Izzy fought side by side until there was only one demon left. You charged at it, but it knocked your sword out of your hand. It’s claws extended from its hand and slashed your side, then it slapped you, sending you flying across the room. Izzy quickly killed it before running towards your side.
Her face was contorted in pain as she could feel your pain. “Oh my god. e need to get you back to the institute,” Your parabatai panicked.
Your face was already starting to pale and your breathing was short and labored. Izzy helped you on your feet and practically carried you out of the club and onto the streets of New York City. She kicked the doors to the Institute open, making everyone look in your direction. Alec noticed you were hurt and ran to your side.
“Take her to the hospital wing and I’ll call Magnus,” Izzy told him before letting you go and running off to contact the warlock.
You collapsed against Alec and he picked you up. He basically ran to the hospital wing and set you carefully onto the bed. “Hey, look at me,” He whispered, holding your hand.
“It hurts so bad,” You cried as you tightly squeezed Alec’s hand.
“It’ll be okay,” He said to reassure you, and himself. He was holding back tears of his own as seeing you like this made him hurt. He didn’t know what to do to help you other than wait for Magnus to come.
A few moments later, Izzy burst through the door with Magnus following closely behind her. Magnus reached your side and told Izzy to get him a few things and she ran off to find them. Magnus tried to take your pain away, but the demon venom was too strong.Your grip on Alec’s hand tightened, making him wince. Isabelle returned with all of the ingredients Magnus needed and he went right to work on the potion.
It took him twenty minutes to get it all done and into your system. “She will need to heal for a couple of days, but she’ll be fine,” Magnus told the Lightwood siblings.
Isabelle and Alec hardly left your side for the next few days, only leaving to go to the bathroom. Jace and Clary checked on you a couple of times, as did Maryse and Robert. Alec refrained from holding your hand when Izzy was around, which disappointed you. She already knew you both had a crush on each other and didn’t care if he held your damn hand or not. Her words.
“Good news, you can finally leave the hospital wing,” Izzy announced. “Oh, I brought you a change of clothes since you’re still wearing that stupid dress from the club.”
She threw a pair of black shorts and a blue shirt at you. You thanked your best friend and she left so you could change. You had already put the shorts on and you were about to put on the shirt when Alec barged in.
“Oh, god. I’m sorry,” He rushed out while covering his eyes.
You chuckled and slipped the shirt on before speaking. “You can look now, i’m fully clothed,” You informed him.
He peeked through his fingers before removing his hand from his face. He awkwardly coughed and walked over to you. “My parents wanted me to come and get you. They want to make sure you’re okay.”
You nodded and grabbed his hand, lacing your fingers with his. He tensed up at first, but quickly relaxed. You two were about to walk out of the hospital wing, but Alec stopped you. “I’m not very good with women, you know that. So, I don’t exactly know what to do when it comes to relationships. I’m willing to try with you and if I screw up, I want you to tell me how to fix it,” He admitted to you.
“Just be yourself. That’s all I want,” You told him.
He smiled at you before bending down and placing a gentle kiss on your lips. Izzy saw the whole thing through a little crack in the door and squealed with absolute excitement.
Okay, I’m done with all the imagines I started before I got requests and now i’m going to start on them. I hope you all liked this and i’m sorry if you didn’t. PLEASE request more imagines pls n thank you
I know I promised this yesterday, but I got a little carried away with the this part and it is a little less than 3,000 words. Sorry guys. I am already working on part 3 and I think this may be about 5 parts long. I am actually having fun with this one. Also, this is my first time writing any type of smut at all so bare with me because I was super shy just writing it.
I’m going to tag everyone who liked the first part, if you don’t want to be tagged anymore, just let me know! :)
(also I dont know how to place part 1 in this post. I will figure it out, sorry, I am a lame-o.
And without further ado…
It’s been two days since Finn and I have been secretly dating and to be honest, it is harder then I thought. I didn’t realize just how little we see each other through out the days. He with his football and other obligations and me with my, well with my visits to Kester. I haven’t even seen Liam in a few days, which to be honest I am a little relieved; I don’t need any more rumors about him and I. I just don’t know how I’m going to go down and face Amy today. She’s a nightmare, I don’t think I can do it; Finn was obviously no help in the self-defense part, though he did make up for it otherwise. Oh diary, if I could wish for one thing it would be an escape from my beating.
Rae was slowly walking to the edge of the train tracks. She can already see a crowd forming; waiting for her and Amy to show up. All she was thinking about if she should have taken an ice bath before coming to numb her body from the blows she was expecting, she also wish Finn was there, just being able to sense him may have given her just a little bit of courage. As she got to the patch of cement that lead two different ways, she looked around and sure enough, there was Amy. She was walking as if her only mission in life was to beat Rae senseless. Oh shit.
“Can’t believe ya actually came Earl. Guess you know what ya doing with my boyfriend is wrong!” Amy was already taking off her jacket and threw it to Vicky.
“I’m not doing anything with Liam, you need to talk to him about it. I have done nothin’ wrong.” Rae was starting to panic, in what world is she going to convenience Amy other wise.
“That’s it I’ve had en-” Amy was about to make a move when Chloe came running up. “Wait, don’t do this!” She said as she stepped in between Rae and Amy.
“I thought you said you weren’t going to pick sides,” Vicky snared from the sidelines. “Well I am, Rae is my best mate and a good person and if she said she hasn’t done anything with Liam, well then I believe her.” Chloe turned and gave Rae a small nod as Rae gave her a small smile even though she was still on her toes.
“Yeah well I don’t believe her,” Amy continued forward. “Oh come off it Amy, you have such a bad arse reputation but where is ya proof?” As soon as the words came out of Chloe’s mouth, Amy swung and connected on Chloe’s face causing her to fall to the floor.
Before Rae knew it Amy had stepped up to her, “Now tell me Rae, have you or have you not done anything with my boyfriend?” Amy was already clutching her fist together.
“No Amy, we’re just mates, I need ya to believe me.” But it was too late, Amy’s fist connected with Rae’s nose.
“Oh for fucks sake Amy!!!” Rae shouted as she held her nose. She looked up and could tell Amy was expecting a comeback but nothing happened. Rae just looked at her holding her nose, which she was 100% sure she was bleeding. “Are ya happy now Amy, nothing ya do is going to change the fact that I have done nothing with Liam! You’re just insecure.”
Amy swung again about to connect with Rae’s side when Rae got the courage to step on Amy’s foot and when Amy was about to nurse her foot, Rae took this opportunity to push her and Amy fell to the floor. When she finally looked up with a shocked look on her face, Amy pushed up from the floor and took off running followed by Vicky and Lois.
Rae was in shock, she looked down at her hands impressed that her survival skills kicked in. Then she remembered poor Chloe was hit too.
“Chloe, are you ok?” Rae went to her and Chloe nodded her head. “I’ve never been hit before Rae, and as far as I know, I think my mom can hit harder.” Chloe said laughing rubbing her cheeks. “Oi, speak for yaself, I have a bloody damn nose.” Rae said showing Chloe her hands with blood on it. “Let’s get ya back to mine and we can clean ya up as best as we can before you go home.”
Rae had cleaned up at Chloe’s but there was definitely some bruising around her nose. Rae was on her way home when she crossed paths with Liam.
“Hey there Alarm girl, oh no look at ya. Is that what Amy did to ya?” Liam was chewing on a toothpick.
“Not now Liam, I need to get home.” Rae did not want to deal with him, not right now considering he is the reason she has the bruised nose.
“Look, I just wanted to say sorry for Amy. She came around mine and proper broke up with me, let me have it too. Something or another about trust being a foundation. But as I see it, gives me and you more time to do some dumb shit together.” Liam nudged her and she smiled a little. But did she want that? Did she want to spend more time with Liam? As if he heard her inner monologue and contemplation, Finn turned the corner with Archie.
“Hey Rae!” Archie called over waving already running with arms open to give her a hug. She and him had discussed her outing him to Lois. They were mates again, but Archie was still broke up about what decisions will lay ahead of him. Rae wrapped Archie in a hug when her eyes locked on Finn who had just walked up. “Hey Rae,” Finn smiled and Rae couldn’t help the goofy big smile she had spread across her face. “Oi, look at ya face Rae, did Amy do that? Over that idiot Liam,” as soon as the words left Finn’s mouth he made eye contact with Liam. “Yeah, this was Amy, does it look bad?” Both Archie and Finn shook their heads. Liam started to shuffle out of view when Rae turned around to him, “Liam, I better get going, I’ll see ya around, but I don’t know if it’s a good idea for us to be spending so much time together.” With that, Liam nodded murmuring something as he lit a cigarette. Rae turned around shaking her head in frustration. It doesn’t matter, I’ll see him in group and knowing him, he will still give me a good laugh and a hard time. God my bloody nose hurts so badly. Finn noticed the pain in Rae’s face as she brought her hand to her nose but looked down at the floor quickly.
“Right boys, how have you been this evening?” Rae was finding it very hard not to just blatantly stare at Finn.
“Well, we won our match, Finn made the winning goal” Archie said with pride and Finn looked up from the floor through his lashes with a small smirk.
“Good job there Finnley,” Rae was more then excited for him but had to keep her cool. Finn smiled even bigger and stood up more straight as if in pride.
“Ah fuck, it’s late, I need to get going, I’ll see ya two later.” Archie said as he kissed Rae on the cheek and padded Finn on the back, “Good match Finn.” He yelled as he took off running.
Finally alone after two days and they both stood awkwardly. “So how’ve ya been?” Rae said fidgeting with her fingers. “Well, I’ve been good, been thinking about ya. Been trying to figure out just how I was gonna get ya alone for at least 5 minutes.” Finn was closing the gap between them when Rae stepped back and looked around. “Rae, its dark, no one can see.” Finn said again trying to close the gap with a look of determination. “Not in the wide open Finn,” and as she said that, Finn grabbed her hand and was basically dragging her in the direction of his house. “Where are we goin?” Rae said as if she didn’t know the general direction of his house. But he didn’t answer; he just turned back with a smile and kept moving. Soon, they were at his house and Finn unlocked the front door.
“My dad’s working late tonight. Told me not to wait up for him,” Finn said with a smoldering look. “Oh,” Rae was still trying to catch her breath from the near sprint Finn was dragging her at.
Finn locked the door behind Rae, “go ahead and go to my room, I’m gonna get us a few brews and clean up a bit.” Rae nodded and made her way up to his room. It had been awhile, but when she opened the door, it was like the first time she had stepped foot in his room. Her eyes scanned looking for changes. There was only one, the same picture Izzy had given her when they first started dating was right next to his bed on his bedside table. She sank down on the bed and grabbed the picture. It still doesn’t make sense to me, look at him, even in pictures he’s bloody beautiful and I look like a blob, doing my best to hide behind him even in photos, it’s embar- Finn had opened the door mid thought and she put the photo back down. He had two cups of tea and it looks like he had put some water on his hair and washed off the dirt from his face.
“Here ya go,” handing her the tea he turned around and started to play The Great Escape album by Blur and made his way back to the bed and sat next to Rae. Placing his tea by Rae’s he grabbed her face and brought it closer to examine her face. Rae winced a little when he placed a finger on the bridge of her nose.
“Sorry, didn’t mean to hurt ya, how’d it go? I wanted to be there, I was in class going mad looking at the time knowing where ya were. That and I didn’t think it would be good if I showed up because I mean I wouldn’t have hit her but I definitely may have blown our cover if needed to.” He said moving his one hand down to her cheek and bringing the other to rest on her other cheek.
Rae smiled and leaned into his left hand feeling the pressure of his hand on her face hurt a little, but the pain was outweighed by the happiness spreading within her. “It went alright. I stepped on her foot and pushed her to the floor. The only reason why I did anything was because she hit Chloe. I am very protective of the people I care about ya know? But as soon as I pushed her and she fell down, she ran off. I didn’t even really do anything. When I was on my way home from Chloe’s I saw Liam and he told me Amy broke up with him and that he wanted to spend more time with me.” As soon as she said that, she made eye contact with him. He just smiled letting her finish, “but ya heard me, I don’t think it is a good idea, at least right now, I’m tryin to work on this thing with this lad I know and I don’t want Liam ruining it.”
Finn pulled Rae’s a little closer, “So tell me about this lad.” He was just watching her lips as if contemplating letting her proceed or not.
“Oh he’s just the most fit lad in all in Lincolnshire, wait no Stamford, maybe in the whole world,” and with that Finn pushed his lips onto Rae’s. Finn had pulled Rae down to where they were laying half hanging from the bed just kissing each other, touching each other. Finn started to move Rae’s and his legs to be lying completely on the bed. His hands were now working their way up her body when she stopped the kiss. He went to sit up but Rae grabbed his arm. “I didn’t say to stop kissing me,” Finn leaned back over and took her lips once again. This time, their kisses more urgent and Rae was pulling Finn until he was flush against her and the only thing separating them were clothes. Finn started to run his hands down her sides again, this time, Rae was guiding his hands to her jeans, “Rae, what are ya?” “Shhh, just,” She guided his hands to unzip her jeans. Finn’s heart was beating fast but he pushed his hands further down, until he grazed the top of Rae’s knickers. “Please Finn,” she murmured against his lips as her tongue was losing the fight to dominate to Finn’s. Finn slipped his hands deeper and felt his way down until he felt her. Felt how hot and wet she was. He took his index finger and ran it up and down her slit. Finding her entrance he pushed his finger in, relishing on her tightness. What he would give to be buried into her, but somewhere he knew, not tonight. He pumped in and out until he felt brave enough to slip his middle finger in as well. Rae gasped breaking the kiss and her head flew back against the pillow. She was seeing stars, the same stars she saw so long ago. He then again, started to use his thumb to not just tap but rub her clit. She started to moan loudly, as Finn watched down at her in awe. He felt her legs starting to shake. She reached up and crashed Finn’s lips to hers and she came.
Breathing heavily, Finn removed his hands from Rae and zipped up her jeans for her. “Finn, my Finnley, you are literally, a sex wizard.” Rae said with a gazed over look. Finn laughed loudly, kissing her face everywhere his lips would meet.
“I don’t mean to sound like an ungrateful git, but I need to get home soon,” Rae started to sit up. She reached for her brew and sipped it. “When will we get time again?” Finn asked with a little sadness in his tone. “We will have to see, I know Archie wants to hang out tomorrow with me, but I can’t guarantee anything, I told ya this may be difficult Finn.” Rae started to realize right then and there just how hard this is for her as well. Sneaking around, not letting anyone know, at first it was a thrilling idea, but now thinking about it and realizing how much she wanted this, it’s going to be hard.
“Hey, how about, we come up with like a sign or something if we are around the gang and we want alone time, like it will be our secret message to each other that if one of us says it, we will take turns leaving and meet up somewhere?” Rae said lowering her head to Finn’s shoulder. It was the only thing she could possibly think of.
“That may work, but I’m afraid I will say it the minute I see ya, I kind of want ya all to myself,” He said placing a kiss on her hair. “Aye, don’t be greedy Finn, our friends also need their dose of Rae,” she joked as she wiggled her face against his shoulder.
“That may be true, but not as much as I need it.” As he said that, he was lifting her head from his shoulder and kissed her on her lips. “What should be our signal then?” He asked as he peppered kisses all over her face again. “I don’t know, something random, something no one will suspect,” Rae was now looking around the room looking for a word, or a sign. “How about, Red Cabbage?” Finn was biting his bottom lip trying to stifle a laugh as he realized what he just suggested. “Red Cabbage?” “Red Cabbage.” “Alright Finnley, I don’t know how we will work that in, but Red Cabbage.”
“All right girl, let’s get ya home,” Finn stood up and reached his hand out to Rae. Before they left the comfort and privacy of his house, he gave her one last deep kiss, promising her it won’t be long until they reunite. Finn had made her get on his bike to get her home faster with less people noticing. He dropped her off and when she handed him the helmet, their fingers lingered. “Until next time, Mae.” “Next time Finnley.”
Rae walked up to her home then turned to watch Finn drive off, once inside, her mom gave her the third degree about her face, but she told her she was reaching for something at school when a few books fell on her. Not too sure if her mother bought the lie or not, she still wondered upstairs and reached for her diary.
I usually never really write twice in a day, but considering in one day, I’ve gotten into my first fight and actually defended myself and then end the day with the most perfect human being on planet earth. Life could be shaping up well, or did I just jinx myself?
i’m both. i’m a surgeon and i am a person who becomes emotionally involved. i will never again cross the line like i did with denny. i have learned my lesson. but i’m still both, and i’m not going to give up either part of me. and i am not going to apologize for it.